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Bella's POV

He was smiling down at me, I got up and hugged him. I've missed Edward, he smelled so good, of that cologne I liked and fresh clean clothes. We both let go and stood back a little.

"My sister called me and I immediately came."...I looked at the clock on the wall. I'm pretty sure I just got here 2 hours ago. I've been sleeping that long. I rubbed my eyes.

"I'm pretty sure I got here about two hours ago, and last I checked it takes longer to get here."...He smiled that damn smile, looking down then back up at me.

"I drove a little faster than normal."

"Edward, seriously. You need to be careful."

"Well Alice didn't specify, she just said that you were here crying and needed to talk to my parents. She thought I better come. She called Emmett too."

"What, Oh my god. I figured your parents would just call you all."

"So whats going on? Is my brother okay?"

"I don't know, we're going to call in a little while to see how he is, they just told me he was severely injured, Wait so you didn't talk to your parents? You just came in and found me."

"Well yeah, your his wife I knew you would have the info."...Did he just say what I think, how would he know that, if he didn't talk to Carlisle or Esme yet.

"How did you know?"...he gave me a look like duh how do you think.

"Oh of course, Alice."

"She cant keep anything from me."

"Are you upset?"

"I would rather not talk about it, please tell me what you know about Jasper."...He sat down on the couch, and I sat on the other end, turning to face him.

"They said he's currently in a coma."...He placed his hand on his face, over his eyes. Then he looked over at me.

"Are you alright?"

"I don't know. I think I am, then I'm not."

"Well you know I'm here for you if you need me for anything."

"Of course, Thank you so much Edward. This all seems so unreal to me."

"I know how that feels."...I looked down at my hands.

"I'm sorry."

"What? Why would you be sorry, it was my fault. I should have pulled over after hitting that deer. There's not a day that goes by I don't think about what I could have done to prevent that."

"Why? We're both alive, so stop thinking about it."

"I know, I'll try."

"We should go find your mom and dad, I need to make that call now."

"Yeah, I think they're in the kitchen right now."...I got up to walk out of the room.

"Thanks."

"No problem."

"Your staying for a while right?"...He nodded yes.

"Okay good."...I walked to the kitchen. Esme was sitting there, she looked sad.

"Hello."

"Bella, come sit. Do you want anything to eat or drink."

"Um, yeah what ever you have, I'm starved."

"I can make you something."

"Don't go to any trouble, I can make myself something."

"No trouble, just sit. Do you like grilled cheese?"...I sat on a stool at the island in the kitchen.

"Love it."...I was feeling really hungry. I watched as she moved quickly around the kitchen.

"I think I'm ready to call and see how Jazzy is doing."

"Of course, The papers are over on the counter there, you can use the house phone and go in the spare room down the hall if you want. I'll have the sandwich waiting for you."

"Thank you so much Esme."...She turned and looked at me.

"You can call me mom Bella."...We both smiled. That might take some time to get used to. I walked over and grabbed the paperwork and walked down the hall. I went in the room and sat on the bed. I looked at the phone for a second then looked through the papers, I found the number and dialed. It rang about six times. I was ready to just hang up, then someone answered.

"Hello"

"Hello, my name is Bella Cullen, I'm calling to find out about my husband Jasper."

"Oh yes, We know him well. He's doing a lot better than when he came in."

"Really,I was informed he was currently in a coma and it was severe."

"He came out of the coma, and has began to speak. Mostly about you Mrs Cullen."...I had shivers run through me and my heart was beating quickly, I began to cry. I couldn't keep it together, I was feeling so happy.

"Are you okay ma'am?"

"Yes, I couldn't be happier."

"He's currently awake if you want me to get him on the line."

"Oh yes, yes please."

"Okay hold on."...I heard her giggle. I heard a few beeps then a woman picked up.

"Hello, Jasper Cullens room."

"Hello, this is Bella Cullen, Could I speak to Jasper please?"...I was feeling shaky and nervous, I couldn't wait to hear his voice again.

"Yes of course, He'll be so happy."

"Hello"...I heard his soft voice.

"Jazzy, is it really you."

"Bella, baby."

"Yes, it's me."...I couldn't stop smiling and crying.

"Bella, I miss you."...I heard him crying.

"I miss you so much Jazzy, were booking flights out. Were coming soon."

"Bella, I need you so much right now."

"I need you too."...I looked up to see Esme standing in the doorway. She must have been listening, she had tears streaming down her face.

"Jasper your mom is right here, I'm gonna put her on."

"No wait, I want to hear you more."

"I'm gonna let her talk and then go see if your dad has the flights booked, I want to get to you as fast as I can."

"Okay baby. I love you so much, I cant wait to hold you."

"I love you so so much. I'll see you real soon."...I quickly handed the phone to Esme and walked out of the room. I went back to the kitchen. I sat down and saw my sandwich and a glass of milk. Shes such a great mom. I couldn't think about eating right now. I just wanted to get to my husband. I placed the grilled cheese in the microwave and the milk in the fridge. I know I'll feel hungry in a little bit. Right now my head is spinning a little and I'm feeling a bit warm. I walked out to the living room to grab my shoes, I grabbed them then sat down and put them on. When I got up I saw Edward at the bar with a drink in hand.

"Hey what are you doing?"

"Oh Bella, Sorry I didn't see you come in."...He held up his glass.

"Yeah, I see. But do you really need to drink?"

"Why not?"

"you have no reason to."...he laughed.

"If you say so."

"Whatever Edward, If your curious I called and your brothers awake and if anyone asks I'm out side, I need some fresh air."

"Okay cool"...he downed the drink in one gulp, setting the glass down rather hard. Whatever he's angry about needs to stop, the drinking every time I see him sucks. If I'm the issue he needs to get over it real quick. I went out the front door and walked around to the side of the house to the creek, I sat on the bench that was out there. The water was rushing fast, with the rain and melted snow.

"Bella."...I heard Edward, uggh what the hell. He better not be out here to be an ass to me.

"Can I help you?"

"Can I sit with you?"...I just looked away. He sat down, I figured he would.

"Don't come sit with me if your gonna be an ass."

"Sorry, I'll behave. I've had a lot on my mind."

"Yeah, I can understand that."

"So why did you need fresh air?"

"I just did, I had a lot going on and I needed a minute to myself."...I turned to look at him. As long as he behaves I'll talk to him.

"Yeah that's cool. Bella I've missed you so much."

"I've missed you too."...he reached up and tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear. His hands were cold as usual and I shivered a little bit.

"You cold?"

"I'm okay."

"So how are you? You look great."

"Thanks, I feel great, better now That I know Jazz is awake."

"Yeah that is really great."...We sat in silence for a minute just looking at the water.

"Remember when we would come out here.?"...I blushed at the thought, this was where we would go to get away and make out.

"Yeah, just by the color in your cheeks I can see you remember well."

"You know I remember."...I smiled. Edward leaned in close to my ear.

"I miss you, I miss how you taste."...Why did he have to do that, I closed my eyes, feeling that amazing feeling deep down. I hated these crazy hormones. I hated wanted sex so bad.

"Edward please don't do that."...I breathed.

"Why?"...he grabbed my earlobe in his teeth and tugged, I let out a moan. I can't let this man get to me. Jake was one thing, I can push him away easier. Edward I can't,he's always had a way of turning me on and making me feel so good. I need to have more will power, not give in to him. Oh my, he's kissing down my neck slowly. Why why does have to do this.

"Cause you know it...turns, turns...me on."...I placed my hand on his face and gently pushed him away.

"Don't push me away, please Bella."

"We can't do this, I can't do this. Its so wrong in so many ways. Edward please. I'm not being a good wife. Your not being a good brother."...I wanted to continue so bad, just feel good and feel better. Not have all this want in me anymore. I needed to wait I needed to be good and just give all my love and want to Jasper.

"Bella I don't want to be good. I just want to taste you, feel you, love you."...did he just say love me. No I cant do this anymore.

"Okay Edward, I cant be here with you right now."...He wouldn't let me go, he grabbed the back of my head, gripping my ponytail tight he kissed me hard, I felt his tongue enter my mouth, he tasted of liquor. I pushed him off.

"Edward, Enough."...I stood up.

"You need to control your feelings for me, and I need to control myself too. This is so wrong."...I walked fast back towards the house. Before I could get to the house He was right there in front of me again. His hands were on my shoulders stopping me.

"Bella, I'm sorry."

"Edward seriously that's all I hear from you anymore. Your always apologizing for something."

"But I'm serious Bella. You're all I want, all I can think of. I honestly thought I could move on but I really cant, I didn't want to come and hurt you or tell you any of this but I just cant help it."

"Edward you know it wont work, I love Jasper. I fell in love with him and realized I loved him a long time ago."

"He's never around for you and he almost got himself killed, with me you can have me every night and be happy knowing I wont be going out getting myself killed."...I threw my arms up and around his to get away. I backed up a couple steps.

"Your an ASSHOLE, that's your brother, I'm his wife."...I was furious, I was throwing my hands up and shouting at him. He's crossed a line, I'm not sure and I'm sorry is going to fix this.

"Edward I think maybe you should just go home if you cant be supportive right now."...he walked forward towards me, I kept backing up as he kept coming forward.

"Bella Stop."

"No you stop."

"No really stop walking backwards."...Before what he said could register in my mind, I fell backwards. I tripped over a rock, I knew it was there. I've seen it a million times. I just lied there on the ground, I looked up at the grey sky. I was feeling upset and ready to give up. Then Edward was looking down at me smiling. Such an asshole, but still he has the power to make me smile. Why why does he have to be like that. Why do I have to be so forgiving.

"Want help up?"

"No don't touch me, leave me here."...he laughed. Then I laughed.

"Does this mean you forgive me, I did try to warn you."

"I don't know if I forgive you right now."...He didn't offer to help me again, he lied down beside me and we both looked up at the sky.

"Bella, I know I'm an asshole, I really do love my brother, I know your with him. But its really hard for me to accept. You were and still are the only girl I've ever loved. Giving you up has become extremely difficult. I'm gonna need time."

"I know Edward, I'm gonna try to be patient with you while you try, but I'm not going anywhere, I'm always going to be with him. My mind wont change. You cant do things like that to me anymore, I'm married and I haven't seen my husband in a long time, it also means I haven't been getting what I need in the bedroom. I'm in need of it but I need to wait. You doing the exact things you know turn me on. Well that was wrong. We were both wrong."

"Yeah, It was really wrong of me. But wanting you and seeing you its so so hard for me."

"We have to vow to behave and not ever give in to any feelings or hormones or whatever any of it is. Deal?"

"Yes, It's a deal, difficult but I agree."...He held his hand up. And I took it in mine. We just lied there for a while staring up at the clouds, not saying a word. When I felt raindrops I figured it was time to go.

"Lets go back, Its starting to rain."

"Yeah we should go."

"Hey what are you two doing out here?"...I heard Emmett's voice. I got up quick and went to him. He had his arms outstretched and waiting for me to fill them with a hug. When I got to him I wrapped my arms around him.

"Hey girl, I missed you. How are you?"...I stood back a little, not letting him go.

"I'm okay, did you talk to your parents yet? Did they fill you in on whats happened?"

"Yeah, Mom explained everything. She also said you have some good news to tell me."...I smiled and blushed.

"Well, your officially my brother in law."

"What? Really?"...I nodded and laughed. He picked me up in a hug and twirled me.

"I always thought of you as my sister, now you are. Wow."...he placed me down back on solid ground.

"I actually should get back in the house. Your mom made me something to eat and I'm hungry, then I guess were gonna book a flight out to see Jazzy."

"Yeah of course."...I looked behind me to see where Edward was, he was just standing there. Emmett looked back and seen him.

"What are you doing brother?"...Edward walked over and Emmett hugged him too.

"I'll see you guys inside, better hurry. Looks like some more rain is coming."...I walked back to the house quickly. I went strait to the kitchen, I warmed my grilled cheese up and grabbed the milk, sitting down at the breakfast bar to eat. I was feeling super hungry, I could totally go for another one after this. Esme knows how to make a good grilled cheese sandwich.

"Bella, Oh my gosh you are here. My sister said you were."...Bree came in, I stood up and gave her a huge hug.

"Yeah I'm really here."...I wondered if anyone said anything to her yet, I didn't feel comfortable telling her.

"So why are you here?"...oh crap.

"Well maybe um, you can talk to your mom."...I went over and took care of my plate and glass.

"What? Why?"...I turned around to tell her again, then Emmett and Edward came walking in. then she got really excited. She gave them both huge hugs.

"Okay, now I really want to know what's going on. Why is everyone here?"...she looked at the guys then over to me.

"Bree, can you sit down."...She did as Emmett told her.

"Were all here cause Jasper was hurt. Mom wanted all of us here to support one another."

"Jazz is hurt? How?"...Then I walked around and stood by her and told her in as little detail as possible what happened. She hugged me and hugged the guys. Then Edward finally opened his mouth, after standing there all quiet. I kinda liked the quiet Edward.

"Bella has something else she needs to tell you too."

"Oh yeah."...she looked very curious.

"Yeah, Well Jasper and I...well were married now."

"What, really?"

"Yep."

"So that means your my sister now."

"Yes."...I smiled.

"That's so freaken cool. Wait does mom and dad know?"

"Yes of course."

"Oh okay."...she giggled.

"Well if you all could excuse me I'm gonna go find your parents and see how their coming along with finding plane tickets."...I walked out of the kitchen and upstairs to see if I could find Esme and Carlisle. I checked Carlises office first and they weren't there. Then I walked down the hall to their bedroom, the door was closed and I didn't feel comfortable knocking. I decided to just wait, I know they would find me. I walked down around the corner to Alice's room, she was lying on her bed talking on the phone. She saw me and waved me in. I sat down on her bed.

"I have to go Riley,my sister in law is here."...she hung up the phone and gave me a huge smile.

"Who's Riley?"

"Just a guy I've been seeing."

"Oh,very nice. So no one said anything to Bree and I just explained everything to her."

"No I didn't want to tell anyone anything cause I wasn't sure how mom and dad wanted to handle all of it."

"That's okay. Everyone knows everything now, well almost everything. But it's good, I cant wait to see Jasper."

"Wait, what do you mean almost everything?"...I shook my head.

"Oh nothing."

"yeah, I'm not buying that. You said almost everything. What more."

"Seriously, I can't."

"Is Emmett here yet?"...she grinned. I looked at her funny.

"Yeah, uh why."

"I'm gonna have him come up here and tickle it outta ya."

"No you wont."

"Wanna challenge me?"

"I can't tell you, cause there's nothing to tell."...She took a deep breath, ready to yell.

"No, Alice."

"You ready to tell me."

"Your impossible. I don't want to tell you. Maybe you can guess."

"Now you're being impossible. Okay, did you come into some money?"

"No,and you have two more guesses and thats all."

"Okay,did you have an affair."...Almost,thank god I stopped.

"Um,No."...she was smiling,then started getting all antsy, she placed her hands on her mouth and was squealing. I smiled and shook my head. Could she really have guessed it.

"I know."

"No you don't."

"Yes I do,your Pr..."...I quickly placed my hand over her mouth.

"Shhhh, yes I am and this never happened, you say nothing you know nothing."...she pushed my hand away,smiling she hugged me tight.

"I'm so happy for you,I wont say anything,I promise."...I released the hug,and looked at her seriously.

"You really can't,It was supposed to be something me and Jazz told everyone together."

"Ahhhh,I'm so happy."

"About what?"...we both looked up and Esme was standing in the doorway smiling.

"About Bella being My sister now."...Whoa I almost though she was going to say it.

"I know, It's wonderful having her officially in our family."

"Thank you, I've always felt like I've been a part of your family."...I stood up.

"Bella, we found a flight out first thing in the morning. Your more than welcome to stay the night and leave with us."

"Thank you, I'll have my dad bring some things for me."

"Wonderful, you can stay in the guest bedroom downstairs, I'll go set everything up for you."

"Thank You."...she walked out and I was standing there. I turned and looked at Alice.

"You better keep it to yourself."...I whispered, then quickly hugged her.

"Don't worry I wont tell."...I walked out and down the stairs. I went strait to the guest bedroom. I figured Esme would be going to to much trouble trying to make the room comfortable for me. I walked in and she was changing bed sheets.

"Let me help you."...she looked up.

"Bella, no that's not necessary."

"Yeah Bella don't worry about trying to help, she's crazy about making a bed."...I turned around to see Emmett standing in the door way. I giggled.

"No it's fine I would feel silly if I didn't help."

"He's very right though, I get picky about how a bed is made."

"Okay, Um I'll go call my dad and be back in a minute. Thanks again."

"Oh Bella, you're always welcome, you need to stop thanking us."

"Yeah girl you better get used to it all now that your part of this crazy family."...I smiled and made my way by Emmett out the door. I walked to the kitchen, thankfully no one was there. I grabbed the phone and dialed my dad. He picked up on the first ring.

"Hey Dad, it's me."

"Hey Bells. How's it going."

"Great, I talked to Jasper he's awake and were leaving in the morning."

"That's fantastic."

"I need to know if you can pack me up some clothes, just throw whatever in my red bag that's in my closet."

"Yeah no problem, I'll bring it over in a little bit."

"Thanks Dad."

"Yep, no problem."

"Bye"

"Bye"...I hung up and sat there for a second. I was feeling really tired. I couldn't wait to get to Jasper and wrap my arms around him. I heard the swing door to the kitchen open. I looked up. it was Esme.

"Your bed is ready Bella. And in time too you look tired. Is your dad coming to bring your stuff?"

"Thanks,Yes he is. I am tired,I think I'll go lie down for a few minutes before he comes."

"Rest well,I'll bring you some tea in a minute."

"Sounds great."...I smiled and walked away to the bedroom. I just collapsed onto the bed,it was so soft and smelled of fresh laundered blankets and sheets. It was so comforting. I closed my eyes and quickly fell asleep.