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Bella's POV

I walked to the bathroom feeling really out of it. My eyes were half open as I walked in, I wasn't really thinking when I walked right into a very wet Edward. I put my hands up on his chest, slowly I looked up at him. He had a towel wrapped around his waist. I know I should have just walked away but I didn't, Instead I pushed on his chest as he stepped back in to the bathroom. I slowly and quietly closed the door and locked it. Edward looked at me slightly confused. I was in need and he was in want. I quickly undressed, throwing my clothes aside, when I got down to my panties I slowly took them off leaving them to fall to the floor. Walking over to Edward I grabbed the towel from his waist and pulled it away.

"Bella"

"Shhh"...I placed my index finger over his mouth. He pushed it away. In one quick movement he grabbed my hips lifting me up onto the cold bathroom counter top, I wrapped my legs around his waist as he quickly entered me. I felt his hand go up my back as he moved more inside me. Decreasing the need as he increased the pleasure. I wanted to scream out loud. His mouth was on my neck kissing up towards my ear. His hands were in my hair.

"Bella, Bella."...he kept saying my name as his hands moved in my hair.

"Edward."

"Bella, wake up."...Then I opened my eyes, Thanking god and the universe that was just a dream. I looked up to see Edward, he was playing with my hair and trying to wake me up. My cheeks were feeling hotter than normal.

"I didnt think you still dreamed like that."...I sat up.

"What the hell are you doing, stalking me or something?"

"No my mom asked me to come wake you up. Only I had to wait a second cause you were saying my name. I was hoping you would just grab me and have your way."...I smacked his arm. He just laughed.

"Your terrible. What time is it anyway.?"

"Time to get ready to go. Here's your bag, your dad dropped it off. We didn't "

want to wake you up."

"I slept through the night.?"

"Yes."

"Well thanks for waking me up. Really thank you."

"So what were you dreaming about."...I gave him a dirty look.

"It was more of a nightmare."

"Oh come on really."

"Yep really, now go so I can change and get ready to go."

"Fine, were leaving in about an hour."

"Wait, you're going too?"

"Yeah, he is my brother."

"No, I mean I wasn't sure you wanted to go."

"I do want to go. I need to."...he got up and walked out of the room quickly. He has way to many mood swings.

After getting ready I went out to the family room with my carry on bag. I was getting very nervous. I know I was going to finally see Jasper. I'll get to touch him, be with him, smell him, kiss him, hopefully have some alone time.

"Bella, Good morning. Are you all ready to go."...Esme seemed so cheerful and ready.

"Yes I'm ready to go, excited really."

"I think we all are. I have your ticket right here."...She handed it to me, I placed it in the side pocket of my bag.

"I have us all in first class, your sitting with Edward I hope you don't mind. I can switch if you're not comfortable with that."

"No that's fine, I don't care where I sit."...No I didn't mind sitting next to him after having a sex dream about him. HA, this should be fun.

"Mom I have the car ready."...Edward came in.

"Okay, wheres my girls. Bree,Alice."...she shouted and they both came running in.

"We'll call when we get in,you have to behave for Emmett and Rose."...Alice didn't looked amused.

"Alice, you understand, No Riley over either."

"Mom, please."...Esme, just had to look at her and she quickly apologized. I could only hope to be a good mom like her. She walked over to where Emmett was and talked with him for a minute before everyone was hugging and saying goodbye. Alice, Bree,Emmett and Rose all gave me hugs. Wishing us safe travels. We made our way out to the car. Carlisle was Driving which meant I was already subject to sitting with Edward. I got in and sat getting comfortable. I pulled the arm rest down in the middle giving us a divide. He came to the car and got in, the first thing he did was push the divider back up. I again pushed it down, he again pushed it up. I looked at him and let out a growl, he just laughed. When Esme got in we were all ready to go. I still wasn't amused about sitting with Edward the whole way but I was on my way to Jasper and that made me all the happier.

"Everyone ready to go?"...Carlisle asked. Then we were on our way to the airport. I watched as Edward grabbed his phone from his pocket and was concentrated on that. I turned and stared out the window. The ride to the airport wasn't quick enough and I just couldn't wait to get on the plane and closer to my husband. I felt my phone vibrate in my bag, grabbing it out I was almost positive it was my dad. When I looked it was Edward. I rolled my eyes and read the text.

"Hey Bella."...Oh what the hell. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of a response but I guess I could play his text game.

"What Edward, you cant just talk to me? Were in the same car here."...I pressed send and within seconds I heard his phone chime, It killed the silence in the car. Esme looked back and Carlisle looked up in the mirror. I looked over at him. He was smiling like an idiot. Then he was texting again and we were back to the silence.

"No, obviously we would be very well heard."

"True I guess we would be. And your phone is well heard when I send these texts. Turn off the sound."...It chimed again when I sent that. I wanted to smack him.

"Who are you talking to Edward?"...Esme asked.

"Oh just a girl."

"Oh how nice, do we know her."...Edward looked at me.

"Uh yeah, I think you do."

"Whats her name?"

"Mom c'mon."

"Sorry Edward"

"Thanks"...He looked down and started typing again. Then my phone vibrated again. Esme heard the vibrating that time, she looked back at me with a smile. I think she realized it was me he was texting. I wasn't sure. I looked down at the text.

"Sorry about that It's off now. So are you gonna tell me about what the dream was about this morning? You looked so beautiful when you woke up."

"I wont tell you, and I think your mom knows its me your texting."

"She doesn't know it's you. I want to know if I was good in that dream."...Esme was getting more suspicious of the constant vibrating going on between our phones.

"Are you texting each other back there?"...oh my gosh, did she just say that. I quickly texted him.

"Really doesn't know huh."...we looked at each other and started laughing.

"We'll be there in a few minutes."...Carlilse announced.

"So I wanna know what we were doing in that dream."

"It wasn't you."

"Liar"

"What,no I'm not."

"Oh yes you are, you said my name."

"No your mistaken sir,I said something else."

"LOL. Bella you said Edward. Last I checked that was me."

"WHATEVER"...He looked over at me,I smiled and casually flipped him off. My phone again vibrated.

"Really,is that an offer."

"Oh I can't believe you. I'm done. Turn your phone off were at the airport."...I watched as he turned the phone off. I tossed mine in my bag. Carlisle dropped us off at the door then went to park the car.

"Bella you can follow Edward to the gate I'm going to wait for Carlisle."

"Okay,see you on the plane."...I walked ahead of Edward and got to the security desk before him. I waited on the other side for him as he went through security.

"Ready?"

"Yeah,what Gate are we?"...he looked at the ticket.

"22,It's down here."...he started walking,I followed behind him. He almost seemed mad at me. Of course another Edward mood swing. Then he stopped and walked to the airport bar. I should have known it was because he needed a drink. I wasn't gonna let him get like this,not now. I walked up in front of him,blocking him from going further.

"The gate is right there."...I pointed behind him.

"I need a drink first."...I looked at the clock on the wall near the gate. It was only 6 am

"No."...I placed my hand on his chest. He gave me a dirty look. I knew I crossed him,but I didnt care.

"Who the fuck are you to tell me no Bella."

"Edward,don't you see how angry you get. You were texting me no more than a half hour ago and you were happy. Now your mad cause I don't want you to drink. And at 6 am."...he looked away then back at me. I could see he was angry.

"You can't tell me what I can and can't do."...he was starting to walk away to the bar. I again got in his way. I really need him to stop and not do this.

"Move now."...I dropped my bag and placed both of my hands on his face,I looked at him took a deep breath and kissed him. He relaxed so quickly,I know what I was doing was stupid,could confuse him,was confusing me. He pulled me in close,I released the kiss and we hugged for a minute.

"That was better than any drink."

"Sorry Edward,I had to. I cant stand it when you drink."

"It didn't mean anything at all to you did it."

"you know it didn't."

"Well I don't care,it was still you."

"C'mon we have to go."...He picked my bag up off the floor and took my hand in his. We walked to the gate. Esme was already there waiting with Carlisle. Esme must have seen our Hands clasped tight,she gave us a look. I immediately let him go,he didn't want to let me go. My cheeks were heating up. Hopefully neither one seen the spontaneously stupid kiss. I wasn't thinking at all,I just had to do what I needed to. I couldn't stand seeing him drink as much as he was.

"Hey you two. I thought you would be here before us. Where did you go?"

"I was at the bar. Bella thought it was to early for a drink."

"Well she's right."...Carlisle said, without looking up from the book he was reading. Esme had a concerned look on her face. I sat directly across from her. Edward walked to the large window and watched the planes come in. I seen our plane was already in. Then they called first class for our flight. I stood up and headed towards the gate to board. Carlisle quickly went ahead of us, Edward stayed where he was. Esme came up behind me, gently grabbing my arm.

"Thank You."...She whispered then boarded the plane. I looked at Edward to see if he was coming. I decided to go see if he was ready.

"Edward."...He wiped his face quickly then looked at me with that crooked Edward smile. I could see he was crying. It tugged at my heart to see him this way.

"Hey is it time to go?"

"Yeah they called us to board."

"Oh okay."...I walked with him to the gate, handing our tickets to the girl then boarding.

"Do you want the window seat?"

"No...Actually I prefer the isle."...he looked at me funny then placed his bag above the seat. I tossed mine on the floor near me.

"You want me to put your bag up with mine?"...I thought about it for a second. Then took my phone out and handed my bag to him.

"Thanks"...We both sat down and buckled up. I looked up the isle and then behind me.

"Where did your parents sit?"

"They always sit in the front row."

"Oh alright."...it was about 15 minutes we were sitting and waiting. Then they announced we were going to take off. The taking off and landing always seemed to make me nervous. I heard the engine rev then the plane turned to take off down the runway. I took a deep breath let it out, leaned my head back, gripped the seat and waited for the plane to take off.

"Bella are you alright?"...I just let out a little whimper noise. I just wanted to be in the air already and not feel the plane tilting up.

"Bella look at me."...I shook my head no. I then felt Edward take my hand. It was cool and my hands were felt nice. I took in another breath and let it out slow as I felt the plane speeding up to take off.

"Bella look at me right now please."...I turned my head and looked at him,he was smiling and his eyes looked soft.

"I...hate take offs and...and landings."

"I'm here with you, just keep looking at me."...I kept staring at him, I saw a small line on the right side of his eyebrow. A scar, this was something I don't remember ever seeing before. How did he get that. I sat there thinking about all the stories he told me and all the scars we compared years ago. I don't remember this one.

"Are you okay now?"...I looked around then out the window. We were already in the air,I was okay and we already took off.

"I'm great, thank you Edward."...I looked at him again. I reached up and touched the spot where the scar was.

"How did that happen?"

"The scar?"

"Yes."...I put my hand back down.

"That night...in the car."...he looked down. His expression saddened.

"I just didn't notice it before. Edward I wish you wouldn't feel so bad about that night. I'm perfectly fine."

"I know, but it was more than just the accident. I really do blame myself for that. But there's more to why I feel like shit about it."

"Why don't you tell me. If you get it out maybe you wont feel bad about it anymore."...he looked at me.

"Okay but if I tell you this will you tell me about that dream this morning?"...I laughed.

"Maybe I will."

"Okay. Well that night, the fight was something I've been waiting for. I cant stand that your with my brother. That night was my chance to try and win you back. When I was taking you home I planned on confessing it all. To make you mine again no matter what I had to do. I thought it was going well until. Well you know."

"Wow, well I knew you wanted me back. But were just not right for each other Edward. There's no us, no way of being good for each other. You know that right."

"I know that to well. I know you love him. Your good for him and I'm destined to never find my love."

"You will. Your an amazing person,with a big heart."

"Am I? It wasn't enough. I could have made you happy."

"I know you could have. But I love Jasper,the love you and I had just faded away. I didn't feel it like I do with Jazzy. Edward tell me is all your drinking due to the fact that were not together?"

"I know you love him,our love was different and things didn't work out. And yes I drink because it helps me to get through the fact that you love him."

"You can't drink every time I'm around,you know that you have a problem."...he looked at me with anger. It wasn't often I seen him angry with me.

"Bella, Fu...fuck this."...did he just say that. What the hell I was just trying to help him.

"Edward I'm just trying to help you."

"I don't need your help,I don't need this shit from you."... I felt a wave of emotion run through me. He was hurting me. I began to cry. I don't want to be the reason he drinks or the reason why he feels upset. God why did he have to come on this trip. I turned away from him in my seat and quietly sobbed to myself. The flight attendant seen I was upset. She asked me if I needed anything and handed me a tissue.

"Thank you, I'll have a ginger ale."

"Anything for your husband?"...oh she did not just say that. I sat up strait and looked at him. He smiled at her.

"I'll have the same as my wife here thanks."...she walked away to get our drinks. I gave him an evil glare.

"What?"

"You know what, you didn't correct her."

"Oh yeah I should have ordered a whiskey."

"No stupid you know what."

"Sorry but I liked the sound of that for a second."

"Edward your impossible."

"I know, but you can't stay mad at me you never do. Just like I never stay mad at you."...Oh he is such a pain in my ass. But its true, we never stay mad at each other for more than seconds.

"I want an apologie."

"Fine, come here."...he unbuckled, and I did the same. I guess a hug wont hurt. I reached my arms over to him and he did the same. We hugged for a minute, then I felt his hand move up to my neck, pulling my hair back he kissed my neck.

"Edward"...I said in a stern voice.

"Hmm."...he continued with the tiny kisses on my neck.

"Stop now."...I whispered. Then we heard someone clear their throat. Thinking it was the flight attendant I quickly pushed Edward away and sat up. When I looked up it was Carlisle.

"Edward,your mother wanted me to come check on you two. I see your both doing well, a little to well."

"Dad it wasn't anything like that. We were just hugging."...I couldn't bring my self to look up at him again and just sat with my hands folded.

"it seemed a little more intimate than that."

"Bella,what's going on between you two?"...then I had to looked up at Carlisle.

"Nothing at all,I promise you."

"I hope that's true."...he walked back and I gave Edward a look as I shook my head. He just smiled. Then the flight attendant arrived with the drinks.

"here's your drinks."...I took it and thanked her and she left.

"Edward don't."

"Sorry Bella."...And finally there it is. Another I'm sorry Bella. After I finished my drink I snuggled up in the seat and tried to relax. Edward wasn't being a smart ass anymore and we talked a little more. He really enjoyed telling me about his job and living in Seattle. He sounded happy,he made his life sound good. I really hoped he could find his true love soon. He deserved it. I told him about my plans with Jasper. Telling him about how happy I was with his brother and our plans for our future seemed to help him realize more and more that he needed to move on. We talked for what seemed like hours. I was beginning to feel very tired.

"How long have we been talking for?"

"I dunno,but I'm really glad we did. You've made me really see what you have with Jasper and how happy you two are together."...I smiled at him,yawned and felt like I could sleep for hours.

"Tired?"

"Yeah."

"You seem tired a lot lately. With how you were dreaming this morning I would think you got good sleep."

"I feel really tired all the time these days."

"Well hope it's not a medical problem."

"I'm sure I'm fine."

"Well you can just have my dad check you out anyway."

"Yeah I guess."...I heard the pilot announce we were landing in 15 minutes. I buckled back up and sat up in my seat. I was ready for this flight to be over and ready to be in Jasper's arms again. I needed my husband right now.

"My parents mentioned to me that they were staying in a hotel near the hospital. Maybe after were done visiting with Jasper you and I could go out for dinner and I could get you back to the hotel."...Not sure if he was being sincere or trying to be the same old Edward who wont let things go.

"Actually I was planning on staying with Jasper tonight, if they don't allow me to I will just call your parents to come get me. But thanks for the offer."...he smiled lightly and looked out the window. I felt the plane beginning to descend and land. I gripped the seat and shut my eyes. Why did I have to hate this so much. I took a deep breath in and let it out. I then felt Edwards cool hand on mine.

"Bella, you're gonna be okay. Look at me just like before."...I opened my eyes and turned my head looking at Edward. He was smiling at me. I was breathing heavily. I couldn't calm down. I just felt panicky and out of breath.

"Bella you need to calm down right now, you're starting to hyperventilate"...I continued to breath heavily, I couldn't stop the panic feeling. I felt the plane touch down and I began to panic more. My fingers were feeling numb, I was feeling tingly.

"Bella stop, you need to slow your breathing. Bella can you hear me? Help me someone please, I think she's gonna pass out."...I felt funny and everything was going dark, he's right I'm gonna pass out. I can't calm down.

A/N I Know It's been forever and a day since I've updated you on this story. I plan on finally finishing things up. Bella needs her H-E-A!