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!WARNING THERE IS A PART IN THIS CHAPTER THAT IS GRAPHIC AND BIT SEXUALLY VIOLENT!

Bella's POV

After a wonderful afternoon with Jasper, Thankful he understood and forgave me. I was worried he would be upset with me. He took me back up to his room. We lied in his bed together. We held one another for hours, nurses would come in every two hours on the nose to check him. I told him about work and how hopefully someday I could work in a larger restaurant and become chef. I wanted to talk more about him but he didn't want to talk about himself much. We watched a movie for a while, we were both very silent.

"Jasper."

"Yeah baby."

"Do you remember anything that happened over there?"...he shifted a little.

"Well yeah. I remember it all. You don't want to know about that."

"Yeah I do. I have my own vision of what I was told."...I reached my hand up his shirt, running my fingertips along his abs.

"I remember thinking I was going to die, that our baby wouldn't have a father and my wife would be a widow before we got a chance to experience marriage. You were the last thought running through my mind. You were with me and you saved me. I wont tell you anything else. I'm sparing you the nightmares I already have."

"I had no idea. I'm sorry."...He kissed the top of my head. Then hugged me tight to him.

"They should be back in to check on you."

"Yeah and time is up."

"Oh no I don't want to go yet."...A nurse came in and I sat up on the edge of the bed as she checked him out.

"Everything looks great, Bella visiting hours are over. I'll give you a few minutes but you'll have to go before the head nurse shows up."

"Thank you."...she walked out and left us.

"Do you want me to call my parents to come pick you up?"

"No actually I'm gonna call Edward, I don't want to bother your parents."

"Alright. Do you want me to call him?"

"No I'll call when I get downstairs."...I leaned forward and kissed Jasper,I held onto the kiss, deepening it, moaning lightly. I felt him place one hand in my hair and the other on my back. Slowly we both released the kiss and looked at each other.

"I'll be back as soon as I can in the morning. I love you so much."

"I love you too. I'll see you in the morning."...I got up and grabbed my bag. I started to walk out then turned back and kissed him again quickly.

"Bye"...he laughed,I then walked out. I decided to take the stairs down this time. I got outside and sat down on a bench. I got my phone out and found Edwards number. I dialed it and it rang,and rang then went to voice mail. I left him a message.

"Edward it's Bella,could you please come pick me up. I'm in front of the hospital."...I hung up then dialed again. Finally he picked up. It was very loud wherever he was.

"Hello"

"Yeah hello."

"Edward it's Bella,where are you?"

"Whats up Bella."

"I need you to come pick me up."

"At the hospital?"

"Yes, I'm waiting out front."

"Yeah I'll be there in 5 minutes."

"Thanks"...I tucked my phone back in my bag and waited for him. It was very comfortable out here. The sun was setting perfectly to my left. It looked so colorful so beautiful. I wished I could be sharing this moment with Jasper. I took my phone back out and took a picture. I sat and watched as the sun set. Then sat and waited longer for Edward. I watched as people were leaving the hospital. Obviously visiting hours were officially over. I sat and watched them all leave. No one else was coming out. I looked at my phone as more time had gone by. I called Edward again. This time his phone was going strait to voice mail. I don't know what happened but I needed to go. I called Esme. She picked up on the first ring.

"Hello,Esme. It's Bella. I was wondering if you could come pick me up."

"Oh absolutely. I'll be there in just a minute."

"Thank you so much."...we hung up and I waited for her. It was dark now and starting to get a little chilly out. Withing a minute I saw a car pull up. It was Esme. I got in the car.

"Where's Carlisle?"

"I left him back at the room. He was tired."

"I'm sorry I called. I had Edward coming then he left me sitting here."

"That's not like him."

"I know. I'm gonna check the hotel bar when we get back. I really hope that's not where he went."

"I hope everything is okay."

"Where ever he was it was loud."...We pulled into a parking spot at the hotel and got out.

"i'll go with you to the bar."...I nodded and we walked together inside and went to the bar. We looked around briefly. Then a tall dark skinned gentleman came over to us he had a big smile.

"Mahalo ladies. you look a little lost. Can I help you my name is John."

"Yes we're looking for my son,he's tall has copper hair. Oh what am I doing."...she pulled out her phone and showed him a picture of Edward.

"Oh yeah,he was here about an hour ago."

"But he left."

"Yeah. Let me ask the bartender if he knows where he went. Would you come over and show him the picture?"

"Yes of course."...we walked over and showed the bartender the picture.

"Yeah he was here,he was talking about a girl Bella. He was talking about forgetting her."...Esme looked at me and I could see she was getting concerned. I was begging to worry too.

"Did he say if he was going any where else.?"

"No sorry,he just paid and left."

"Thanks."...we walked out and stood there. She was really worried.

"We'll find him don't worry. Lets go look in his room."...I followed Esme as she walked down the hall to the elevator. I could barely keep up with her. We got in and she pressed the button for the floor we were on.

"We'll find him,I'll leave him another message."...I got out of the elevator with her and followed her down the hall to his room. She knocked on his door over and over as I called his phone. It again went directly to voice mail. I looked at her and shook my head.

"Okay Lets go to my room, We'll get Carlisle and see what he thinks we should do."...we walked down the hall to the end and she slid her card to open the door. I followed her in.

"Carlisle."

"In here."...he was at the desk with his laptop open.

"We can't seem to find Edward. He was supposed to pick up Bella and never showed up, We've looked at the bar and in his room. His phone is going strait to voice mail."

"I'm sure he's fine. He'll show up. I wouldn't worry to much about him."...I was worried he would go out and drink then attempt to drive himself.

"I guess I'm just overreacting. Bella let me get your room card and show you to your room."

"Okay."...She walked over to Carlisle and he handed her the card. We walked out and down the hall. She showed me the room.

"I'll see you in the morning. Carlisle is right, but I can't help but be worried about him."

"I know,I feel worried too. Hopefully he'll just find his way back from where ever he is. We'll see him in the morning."

"Yes,He'll find his way back here. But I plan on letting him really have it for not checking in."...I moved in and hugged her.

"Good night Esme, see you in the morning."

"Thank you Bella, you've been such a great help. Good night."...I slid the card and walked into the room. It was large just like Esme and Carlisle's room. One huge bed in the middle, one huge picture window over looking the pool below. It was cozy. I set my bag down on the floor and just fell onto the bed. It was very plush and comfy. I got up to look around a little more. I walked into the bathroom. It was huge there was a double sink and a giant bathtub with jets. I decided a bath was exactly what I needed. I turned on the hot water and started filling the tub. I found a large white fluffy towel and set that nearby. Then grabbed some soap and added that to the water for bubbles.

Undressing I grabbed the hair elastic from my jeans pocket and put my hair up. I then slowly got into the hot water. It was wonderful. I slid down into it and felt all my muscles start to relax. All the worries I had about Jasper were gone and thoughts of our quick love sessions played over and over in my head. I leaned back on the tub, finding the button for the jets I pressed it and felt them swirling and pushing on my skin. It was so relaxing. Something I could live with everyday. I thought about how Jasper and I should discuss when I should move to the base with him after he's discharged from the hospital. I began to think about our life together, about this baby were going to have, If we'll have a girl or a boy, what names will we choose. Then I thought about telling my Father I was pregnant. I haven't talked to my mother in so long I know she didn't even know about my marriage yet. I thought I should probably call and at least let her know whats going on. I started feeling bad for not keeping better in touch with her.

After about a half hour I decided to get out,I was really relaxed and beginning to feel really tired. I turned off the jets and began to drain the tub,getting out I grabbed the large fluffy white towel and wrapped it around myself. I walked out,grabbed my phone and dialed my mother. It rang twice and she picked up.

"Bella, Bella is that you.?"

"Yes Mom it's me."

"How are you?what have you been doing lately?"

"Well I'm doing great,really great actually. A lot has happened since I talked to you last."

"Well start from the beginning and tell me everything."

"Jasper and I are married now mom."...she squealed with happiness.

"Was there a wedding?"

"He surprised me with a wedding. We were married just days before he was deployed."

"Oh yeah that's right,he's in the army right."

"Yeah."

"So how is he? Does he write to you?"

"Actually he was injured and I'm sitting in a hotel in Hawaii. He's doing great now. He should be released in a week and then headed back to Washington."

"Wow,I'm glad he's doing well now. That must have been very scary for you."

"It was,I didn't know what was going to happen."

"I'm so happy for you baby. You found your one."

"I have more news for you too. Not even Dad knows yet."

"Oh oh oh my god Bella, are you pregnant."...how do they know,moms must have a sensor.

"Wow mom you're very good. Esme knew right away too."

"I'm gonna be a grandma. I'm so excited."

"Thank you mom. I'm so happy."

"I'm happy for you."

"I hate to have to let you go but I'm very tired. I really needed to call and let you know."

"I'm glad you did. I miss you and I love you. I'll visit you very soon ."

"I can't wait to see you again. I miss you and love you too."

"Take good care of yourself."

"I will mom,bye."

"By baby."...We hung up and I set my phone on the bedside table. I grabbed the remote and turned on the TV I turned it onto a movie channel. I walked around the bed and grabbed my bag to find some clean clothes for bed. All of a sudden a loud knock on my door scared me. I jumped and almost screamed. I was shaking and my heart was beating very fast. I walked to the door and they knocked again.

"Who is it?"

"It's me Bella, open the door."

"Edward?"

"Yeah."...I walked over and opened the door. He stumbled in through the door. I backed up away from him a few steps.

"Edward what the hell are you doing? We were looking for you and I called you a million times."...I walked over and shut the door so no one could here me shouting at him. I walked over to the mini bar and got some aspirin and a bottle of water.

"Here take these and drink all the water."

"What I'm not drunk."

"Yes you are. Just do as I say."

"Fine."...he took the water and the aspirin.

"I have to go get dressed. I'll be right back."

"You don't have to dress. You look good in just a towel."...his words were slurred and he was acting weird.

"Come here Bella."

"No"

"Why?"

"You need to go back to your room and sleep this off."

"No I'm not going anywhere."...I walked over to grab my bag, Edward walked over to me. He was beginning to scare me. I held my towel tight along my breasts, clutching my bag in my other hand I slowly backed up towards the bathroom.

"Edward it's time for you to go please."...I wasn't paying attention as I backed into the dresser. I dropped my bag. Edward looked down at it and kicked it aside. He quickly grabbed at the towel tugging at it.

"Edward stop. Please go."...I started to get more upset. I looked at the bathroom door. I was going to run there and lock he door. I wasn't sure what he might try. I know I need him to go.

"I'm not going anywhere. I want you Bella."...I decided to count to three and run for the bathroom. I took a deep breath let it out...one...two...three. I went to run and he quickly grabbed me.

"I'm tired of your games Bella. You're a fucking tease. You play with my feelings. You know you want me."... He had a tight grip on my arms as he turned me and threw me onto the bed. He was ontop of me pinning me down. He had my wrists in one hand holding me so tight.

"Edward,please let me go...don't hurt me."...I was beginning to cry. Was he really doing this ws he about to really hurt me this way. Did I lead him on.

"You don't want that."...he placed his mouth on mine and kissed me hard. It hurt and I shook my head to get him to stop. I tried to lift my legs and kick him. I tried moving my arms to get loose but his grip was strong.

"Pleeeaaase..."...I sobbed. He didn't listen. I felt his hand travel up my thigh and his fingers were quickly inside me, He moved them in and out quickly as I tried to kick and move. I tried to scream but couldn't stop crying as he continued to touch me. He pulled away at the towel and I was now lying under him completely exposed. This was once a person who I trusted my whole heart to,I gave myself to, someone I thought I loved.

"Don't do this Edward please don't."...It was as if I wasn't here, he wasn't listening to me. I could smell the alcohol on his breath as he kissed my mouth and neck.

"I want you so bad baby."...he pressed into me hard. he pressed so hard on my stomach I was beginning to worry more for my baby and not for myself.

"Edward get off me please, the baby please."...he laughed. But then he was undoing his jeans. I couldn't let him do this to me. I had to think of some thing quick. My hands were now tingly and asleep from his grip. I felt as he positioned himself over my entrance. I struggled with all I had and wriggled up towards the headboard away from him. He didn't like that very much. He let my wrists go and smashed his hand onto my face covering my nose and mouth. I couldn't breath. I grabbed his hand and tried to pull his hand away. I was shaking my head. Finally he let go and I took a deep breath. I screamed as loud as I possibly could. Surely someone would hear me.

"Shut the fuck up."...he slapped me so hard on my right cheek. I looked over and saw my phone. I just needed to get the phone and get away. I looked up at him. His eyes were so glazed over and he just wasn't himself. I truly refuse to believe this is my Edward, the one I've known and loved for so long. I tried with everything I had in me and I pushed him away. I grabbed my phone and ran as fast as I could into the bathroom, locking the door. He banged on the door.

"Open the door."

"Go away. I fucking hate you. Just leave me alone."...then his voice got soft and kind. Even drunk Edward would never do this to me. I had reason to believe he was doing some drugs. I wasn't sure what but this wasn't right. I grabbed my clothes from the floor and got dressed.

"Bella I'm sorry. Just let me in."...I decided to call Esme. I didn't know what else to do. I dialed her number. She answered on the first ring. She was whispering.

"Hello."

"Esme."

"Bella, are you crying.?"

"Yes,I need your help. Edward is here. He's acting crazy. Please come quick please. I'm locked in the bathroom."

"I'm coming Bella."...she hung up and I went to the sink to look at my cheek. It was very puffy and very red. I really wanted to get in the shower. I wanted to wash up. I was thankful he didn't get further. I pulled my shirt up and looked at my stomach, a little bump where my baby lives. Did he hurt the baby when he pressed so hard on top of me. I was wondering what he was doing out there. It was so quiet. Then I heard a knocking. It had to be Esme. I heard her voice and then Edwards. He let her in.

"What have you done?"

"I don't know mom,I don't know what I did."

"Bella."...I heard a light gentle knock on the door. I unlocked and opened it.

"Oh Bella,he hurt you."...I began to sob uncontrollably. She grabbed me and held me in her arms. I looked up to see him sitting in a chair near the big window. His head in his hands,he was clearly crying.

"Why?"...I whispered. Esme pulled me away from her slightly,she looked at me with tears in her eyes. Bella what did he do. I put my hands over my face.

"Bella go sit in the bathroom, I'll be right there."...I did as she said,I left the door open. She was on the phone with Carlisle. Then she was talking to Edward.

"Edward,what did you do to her?"...he was crying.

"I don't know."

"Look at yourself,what did you take.?"

"I can't remember."...there was someone knocking on the door. Esmes walked to the door. It was Carlisle. He stormed in very angry at Edward. I don't know what Esme said to him but whatever it was mad him very angry. He took Edward away and I was sitting on the side of the tub, my tears still streaming down my cheeks. Esme came right in.

"Bella are you okay,please tell me what happen."

"I was just about to get dressed. I had a bath. Edward was at the door. I was so worried about him I let him in."...I was sobbing and having a hard time catching my breath.

"Shhh it's okay Bella."...Esme came over and sat next to me. She wrapped her arms around me and calmed me down.

"I told him to drink some water and I was going to get dressed. He wouldn't let me go get dressed. Next thing I knew he was on top of me. He slapped me really hard and wouldn't let me go. He...he put his hands down there and was rough."...I had my hand over my face again. I was feeling exhausted and I felt like a mess.

"Did he get any further. You know?"

"No I fought with him and finally got out from under him. That's when I called you. Esme he put a lot of pressure on my stomach. You don't think he hurt the baby do you."...I looked at her concerned and scared.

"Well we can go to Emergency to see if your okay. Just have you checked out."

"Yes please."...I got my shoes on and got ready quickly. Esme went back to her room and got dressed. I met her in the hallway.

"I called for a cab. It should be waiting for us downstairs."...we walked together to the elevator.

"I'm sorry he did this, I'm glad he didn't hurt you further."...she held my hand. I winced as it was painful.

"Oh no."...she gently looked at my wrist. I looked down at it also. It was already turning black and blue,it was very swollen.

"It hurts."

"It could be sprained."...the elevator opened and we walked strait out the lobby door. The cab was there waiting. A door man opened the door for us. We got in and Esme told him to drive us to the nearest hospital. The driver was fast and we were there in ten minutes. We both got out, Esme paid the driver and we went in. I followed her to the desk.

"My daughter in law is pregnant and was having a slight pain. Could we please have her checked out.?"

"Yes here's some paper work to fill out and she can go immediately to the OB floor. Fifth floor up. Elevators are to your left down the hall."...Esme handed me the paper work and we went to the elevators. We got to the fifth floor and got out. I quickly did the paper work and they had me in a room within seconds. Esme never leaving my side. A nurse had me lie on the bed for the doctor. Then a doctor was there.

"Hello, Mrs Cullen. I'm Dr Charlotte. So you've experienced some pain."

"Yes."

"Well lets take a quick look with ultrasound and see."...she grabbed the machine and rolled it over near the bed. She looked at Esme and asked her to shut the light off. She did and then stood next to me holding my hand.

"About how far along are you.?"

"About 9 weeks."

"Okay this is a bit cold."...she put the gel on my stomach then placed the wand on my stomach. She moved it around and clicked the buttons. Just like the first time I had one.

"Oh there's your baby. Beautiful,strong heartbeat. Fluids around look great. Your fine nothing wrong. See there he or she is."...Esme squeezed my hand tighter as she looked.

"That's my grand baby."

"Well that's it, you can go."

"Could you please look at her wrist she's hurt it."

"Absolutely."...she walked over to turn on the light. I wiped the goo off my belly with a towel the doctor gave me. I then held out my wrist.

"Oh wow that very swollen."... I whimpered in pain when she touched it.

"It doesn't appear broken at all."

"Can I go?"

"Oh yeah, you're good to go. Just ice the wrist, you can also take two aspirin for any pain. And if you have anymore concerns don't hesitate to call."...she handed me her card and we left. Esme stopped me when we got out to the hall in front of the elevator.

"Bella you know you can press charges against Edward."...I looked at her funny, why would a mother want her son to go to jail.

"I don't want to do that. I know things could have gotten worse but it didnt. I don't forgive him but I also dont think he needs to go to jail for this."

"Bella you are far stronger than I give you credit for."...She grabbed me and hugged me.

"Come now lets go back you can stay in our room tonight with me. I'll have Carlisle stay with Edward."

"Thank you so much. You too are very strong."...we got in the elevator and went down. As we stepped out Esme walked off to the left.

"One second Bella,I see Carlisle." I stood there for a second and watched as she went over and talked to him. She looked so distraught, upset,angry. I walked over there knowing very well Edward was there. Carlisle seen me and walked to me stopping me.

"Bella you don't need to see him."...I started to get upset and cry.

"Do you know what he tried to do?"

"Yes, he told me everything he remembers. He also took some drugs. He thinks it was Ecstasy. He's much better now and whatever he took is almost out of his system."

"I need to see him."

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"Let me go Carlisle."...he seen how serious I was and finally let me go. I walked over there in anger, tears streaming down my face. I stood in front of him. He looked at me and started to cry.

"Bella, please. I'm so sorry."...I walked over to him and with everything I had in me with all my strength, I slapped him across the face. I heard Esme gasp. Then she grabbed me by the shoulders and we walked away.

"I'm sorry Esme."

"Don't be sorry Bella. Lets just get you back to the Hotel and in bed."...We walked out together and found a cab to take us back. I sat close to Esme as she hugged my arm. I thought about how or even if I should tell Jasper. I wasn't sure it was what he needed to hear. I don't want him to hate his brother because of my stupidity. I have to think about what's best for us.