My life is a tangle of emotions and promises, all gone wrong. This is the confessions of my guilt, and the sorrows of my heart. This is my life. In the pages of the book before me, I find happiness and joy. Sadness lingers, but is never permanent. Until now. Everyday now I wake and sit by the windowsill for hours, watching, waiting. I wait in fear, no longer hope, that the King will return. It has been days science my last entry, and for this, I am sorry. But the troubled affairs of my life have grown too complex for me to handle.

Three days have passed, since I gave my hand. Guy is crowing with pride and I feel the need to hide away from him and the world. Who knew a necklace could cause so much trouble. I felt compelled to attend the hanging, after I had chatted to Robin. I knew he would save them, despite the risk. It was the thought of family that swayed him. That's what I admire most about him; he knows that there are no limitations when it comes to love.

But he was outsmarted, and the men had been hung hours before our arrival. I shielded my sad face from the crowd as I began to leave. When a guard grabbed me and pulled me aside. I nervously glanced ahead and relaxed at the sight of Robin. I tensed in fear, at the sight of seriousness in his eyes. Gisborne knew of my betrayals and was on his way to Kinghton. Robin wanted me safe and by his side, but my only concern was of my fathers well being. Robin protested heavily against my going back, but I would not desert him. But I believed him when he spoke the words "Marian, I will get you the necklace, give me time." I nodded as I turned away, and was escorted by Much, to the end of the corridor.

I wasted no time as I sat in my carriage, wondering how I could untie myself of he knot I was in. I worried more and more, over my father and it seemed like it had been years, when I finally caught sight of my house. I burst in to the house to find my father and Guy, talking. I behaved politely and greeted him normally. He was not fooled and I began to doubt Robin would arrive in time. I hated myself for thinking he would let me down.

Guy got up from his seat and walked over to me. He stood tall and proud, towering over me, as if I were a child. "Show me the necklace." He spoke these words with such a tone, that I shivered and only just managed to say "What necklace?" in a very soft voice. I knew he could scene my fear as I replied. My father came closer to us and as cut off mid sentence, when Guy threw him to the floor with a hard slap. I made a small shout as he did, then he turned back to me and spoke sharply "Show me your necklace."

I stood firmly on the grounds that if he trusted me, he did not need proof of my innocence. I announced the end of our friendship and he accused me of the crime to witch I am guilty, conversing with Robin. He then stated that I would 'pay the price'. He does not understand anything of who I am. He can hurt me all he want, he can torture me until there is nothing left of me but a broken sprit, but it's the people that surround me that are my weakness. I convinced him to let me fetch it from my chambers and hurried upstairs, hoping to find Robin in my room, like he had been so many times before.

My father gave me a worried look as I disappeared up the staircase and into my room. He was nowhere to be found. Robin had done the one thing that he was not capable of doing. He had let me down. I grabbed my things and threw them around the room in anger, and then I had the idea. I turned over furniture and spilled my possessions over the floor, to make it look like a robbery. Guy came up the stairs before I could finish my perfect robbery.

He saw right through me and I began to lie. Finally I spoke the truth and was at the beginnings of telling him about my love and my thoughts for Robin, when a hand snaked out from the side of the windowsill, a necklace in its grasp. I gave it to Guy and I was told that I would be hanged, unless I became Lady Gisborne. I became hesitant and he convicted me of feelings for Robin, I knew he would still be listing. I spoke as softly as I could, but I knew he would hear, I could feel the pain in his eyes as I said, "I would never marry Robin Hood." He has brought this up in almost every conversation we have had since. How can he still doubt my feelings for him? I did not think I had to tell him, I thought he knew. He always knew before. Life before the Sheriff and Guy was so much easier. Robin and I would play and laugh and joke about what kind of future we would have together.

All the images of Robin and me flooded my mind and I grew dizzy with thoughts of Robin, only Robin. Guy suddenly brought me back to life with, once again, asking for my hand. I had to accept, there was no other way. This is the life I need, for my safety, and the safety of my father. What kind of life would I have with Robin? Living in the forest and robbing for a life? Is this what I want for my future, and the future of those who will surround me? I asked him to go downstairs and tells my father, no doubt he would offer sympathy later. I turned back to my window, hoping to see anything but those sad eyes. But wishes do not come true, and I was foolish to think that perhaps they could. The only word I could muster as I looked into the longing face of the man before me was "Sorry."

As soon as the King returns, I am to marry the man whom I have avoided all my life. I am refusing visitors and food. Father is worried and offers me outings with him each day. But the only place I want to be in right now is the one place I can't be. In the arms of the man I love.

Well I hope you all liked it! I gave this one a lot of attention because it was the biggest episode in the series for Marian (as far as I'm concerned!) so I hope you all aren't bored to death by the length of it! Well my novel is going well and I have decided these are to much fun to stop writing! So please expect a weekly update!(If not please review to remind me!) I am going through some MAJOR family issues right now so sorry if the updates are not very frequent! Oh and "Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me!" Yep that's right! It was my birthday as well! Anyways, this is like the longest Authors Note ever so this is me, signing off.

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