Linda's P.O.V
I had gone to the bins to put something in them and I hadn't imagined I'd also be beaten up and then end up with two broken ribs. The guys are Simon Ropper's four brothers Frank Ropper, William Ropper, Richard Ropper and Gary Ropper. I ditched Simon fourty eight hours before our wedding for a reason he had killed our daughter Lauren Ropper when she was just six months due to ignoring her cries I ran away from him and his brothers caught up with me because I called the police. I was hurt enough the pain and the words I remember cradling Lauren at Jessica's door crying and then her dying in hospital. Jessica and Sean tried there best I know they did but Simon didn't love his little girl. My mum has tattoo's on her left arm her children and on her right arm grandchildren she's saving her back for great grandchildren her left arm says Denise 23/4/1975, Linda 25/12/1977, Kingsley 13/1/1991, Arabella 12/6/1993, Oliver 27/9/1995, Michael 27/9/1995, Chloe 1/9/1996 and Freya 24/10/2000 and on her right arm Britney 31/5/1998, Keeley-Rose 22/7/1998-1/1/2002, Joe 2/3/2003, Lauren 22/5/2005-25/10/2005, Sophia 7/1/2007,Abigail 12/5/2011, Darcy 12/5/2011 and Danae 5/1/2012. Lauren's also got angel wings coming from the L and the N and Keeley-Rose has roses. He didn't hurt me it was the words.
I sometimes feel like I replaced Jessica with Zoe but I know I didn't I get a postcard from Jessica every year and sometimes I get a letter. She had a daughter with an American man called Jack and they named her Linda, she's beautiful and she has blonde hair like her dad.
Simon and me would have never worked he said when he pushed me off the sofa it was a joke yeah right I cracked my head open and broke my arm. He couldnt even be bothered by Lauren's cries.
When his brothers hurt me I felt so small and worthless I didn't know what to do or nothing I'm glad Nick found me when he did otherwise I'd have more than broken ribs. I'm very bruised with a few cuts.
Keeley-Rose and Lauren I miss so much and Keeley-Rose was Britney's bestfriend she told the other kids at school her best friend was Keeley-Rose it was so sweet. But a drunk driver killed her after speeding into the back of the car, what hurts the most is it was Keeley-Rose who died in the back when the drunk driver crashed into the back of the car and then Lauren she was born and she died while she was meant to be looked after at an all day nursery I payed £30 for. They ignored her crying as a baby girl from a richer family was crying, that was no need to ignore my Lauren for that. When she was rushed into 's Jessica just grabbed me into a hug while Sean ran to try and save her. Jessica took me to the staffroom. I was in tears, I'd already lost Keeley-Rose in a car crash and then Lauren. I miss Lauren's smiles, her laughing and excitement as soon as I walked in and Keeley-Rose's hugs, her smile, her voice, her laugh, she was a four year old kid. When we were rushed in after the crash I wanted to be with Keeley-Rose but I wasn't aloud, Jessica had to calm me down.
A few days a go I was passing the cemetrey when I kindly asked Nick to drive me in there. We entered and I showed direcrections to where I wanted to go. I got out of the car and just broke down into tears as soon as I got to Keeley-Rose and Lauren's grave. I remember singing presious child which goes like this.
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
That song the song I sung at Keeley-Rose and Lauren's funeral it has so much meaning to it as Keeley-Rose and Lauren are precious children to me. I sung the song so close to tears but its all I could do I was singing about my children. The drunk driver we found out was an eighteen year old who just got a job and went celebrating with his mates. I still remember what me and Keeley-Rose were talking about her tea party she was going to have next week. She wanted to invite Britney, Rebecca and Imogen as I said only three friends. It was so sad texting Rebecca's and Imogen's mum's about what had happened as they could no longer come to her little tea party. Rebecca and Imogen drew a picture of Keeley-Rose, Britney anod themselves, I put the picture in the ground with her.
Lauren's was a little diffrent as I only had my closest friend Jessica and her husband Sean who weren't family the others were my mum, dad, Simon, Denise and Kingsley from my family then nannie, grandad and nana Diane and grandpa John.
I miss them so much my world had suddenly disappeared, while visiting them I just sat and I cried Zoe and Nick didn't even know about Keeley-Rose and Lauren. Nick took his jacket off and put it over my shoulders, no mother should have to go through what I did its horrible. I can't believe it happened to me the conversation between me and Keeley-Rose still runs through my head with her saying mummy can I have biscuits and strawberries at my tea party and then orange juice and the last words she said before we were hit were I love you mummy I didn't have time to say it back. I woke up in hospital with Jessica holding my hame and then she said those words
"Linda, I'm so so so sorry but I'm afraid Keeley-Rose died at the scene"
Jessica was nearly crying telling me herself, but she wanted to stay strong for me. I turned to cry. Drunk drivers should be off the road that's why Holby has Keeley-Rose's law about drink driving. An advert soon came out with young drivers with a slogan of drinking and driving kill your limit not the children. I couldn't believe he killed a child my child she would have loved Lauren as she always said she wanted a bubba sister. In my dreams they are together playing and with a loving family in heaven. They meant so much to me. I miss them like words can't discribe. But I can only imagine what they would be like now. I love them both so much and I'll never ever forget them. I love you Keeley-Rose and Lauren. I can still remember the days they were born and then holding them, Lauren used to like kick abouts so I used to dress her in a Liverpool football club outfit so she looked like a little fan. I miss her so much and Keeley-Rose. I just wish I could have them back but I can't.