Told you I had a plan. Anyways, here is the next chapter. Hope I'm not too OOC. I tried not to be. Here yah go though...
"Cammie, noooooooo! Stop!" I heard the door to the roof bust open and Zach scream my name at the top of his lungs. "Cammie, please stop!" He sprinted after me as I spun around to face him. He stopped a few feet in front of me. "Cammie, don't do this. Please, do not do this." He was talking to me like an idiotic child, and looking at me like I was a crazy psycho. Zach was slowly stepping towards me. He reached out to take my hand, but I pulled away.
"Zach, don't try to stop me. I need to do this." I was angry at him, for many reasons. Zach cut the crap and talked to me normally. I could see he wasn't in the best mood right then.
"I will try to stop you, Cam. Because you are about to jump off a freaking building and you left me to find a note to read." His voice rose with every word, and he was the one who looked mad then. And I would be mad at him if he was about to commit suicide, so I couldn't accuse him of being completely out of line. But that does't mean I had to be sugar sweet about it.
"Zach, this is my life, and I can do what I want with it. You don't run me. Nobody does but me." My voice was rising as well.
"Yeah, I know, but this isn't all about you. There are other people this would effect. You aren't the only person in this world, Cam." I gasped at that.
"You think I'm being selfish? Are you accusing me of self-centered? Because I'm not doing this all for me. And you, of all freaking people can't accuse me of that."
"If you think I'm just going to stand here and watch you do this, you are out of your mind."
"But that's the thing, Zach. I didn't ask you to come and 'save' me. So that's not your choice to make."
"Do you realize what this will do to other people? To your mom? And to me? Knowing that I left and then you went and killed yourself? Do you have any idea how much that would kill me?" We were both yelling at each other by now.
"Zach, I already said, I am not only doing this all for myself. It's better that I'm gone. People have died because of me just being alive. Do you have any idea of what that's like?"
"No, I don't really. And I'm sorry for that happening to you, if I could take it away I would. And I can't, but I am trying as hard as I can. And it would kill me knowing that I didn't help as much as I could have."
"Look, I love you for trying, but there's nothing anybody can do. And I have finally accepted that. And you need to also! And this is the only-"
"No! No, it's not the only way!" That caught me off guard. Oh, my god. I saw he was actually about to start crying. "I can't let you do this, Cam. I love you too much to. And I know it's your life, and if you really think this is right, then I can't stop you. But what I'm really, really upset about, is that you were going to leave me forever and I wouldn't be able to say goodbye or tell you I love you one last time." I was still crying from when I first got to the roof, I had never really stopped. and Zach was even holding back tears…what was happening to him?
"I thought I wouldn't need to, after you left. I thought that was your goodbye. And stop yelling at me, I did nothing wrong! Why are you even here anyway?!"
"Okay," Zach said, calming his voice down a tad. "I'm sorry for yelling. I'm just upset, okay?" I nodded. "And I'm here because I came back. I thought about what you said, and I came back. I saw your note, and ran up here." Zach walked over and sat on the edge of the roof, not looking at me. "I was scared as hell, Cammie."
"I know." Was all I said. I was still standing on the edge, but I was debating if I should jump. So I just sat down next to Zach on the edge. I didn't touch him. I was scared to. We just both looked out at the landscape. "I'm sorry."
"Me too…for getting mad and yelling at you." I didn't respond, I just looked at my hands. I noticed how very subtly, as if not to let me see, Zach moved about and eighth of an inch towards me. And then he did it again. I would have laughed, but then was not the time. "I'm not being funny, but you look really pretty." He said. I forced a chuckle, but it hurt and didn't feel right.
After bit-by-bit Zach moved towards me, he was in distance of reaching my hand. I was looking at the sky when I felt his fingers gently lace there way through mine. I still didn't look at him. I was still crying, even though I was pretty sure the rain, which was beating down harder then ever, was the only thing keeping me from dehydration.
"You don't have any idea how sorry I am for leaving you." Zach mumbled. He was looking at his feet, dangling over the far distance down.
"I have an idea." That was all I said.
"Okay, so, think of killing ten people, and destroying every bodies christmas presents on accident. And times it by seventeen-thousand. Thats how sorry I am." I could kinda' get a grip on it, and I knew he was trying to make me laugh, but I wasn't really in the mood. I nodded.
"Cam, please don't do this. Or if you have to and you are going to no matter what I or anybody else does, at least let me jump with you." He said with complete seriousness. This shocked me and I accidentally looked him right in the eyes.
"What?! No. No I…" I stuttered, thinking how to respond.
"At least I would be with you. I know it's sounds corny, but as long as I'm with you, I'm good."
"That makes two of us, and yes, it does sound corny." I looked away again, thinking. I finally gave into Zach's unusually sweet kindness, maybe it was hysteria. But I scooted carefully closer to him, and wrapped my arms around his waist. He seemed alarmed, but didn't resist. He cautiously encased me waist with his burly arms. Lately, we have been having a lot of perfect camera shots. I laid my head into Zach's chest and listened to his heart beat. Was I just about to give that up? I thought. I felt his lips on the top of my head. I can't believe I thought of giving him up. I thought right after.
We sat in silence for a while, just taking each other in. The rain had slowly turned to very light snow. And it felt soft against my skin. "I'm so sorry for doing this to you, Zach." I said, the tears still ever so often dripping down my cheeks. "I'm so, so sorry."
"I know. I know, it's okay." He replied. "Just…try not to do it again. Okay? And I will never leave you again, I promise." I nodded against him. When I looked up at him, he was already staring at me, which I normally would find kind of creepy. But not now. One side of Zach's mouth went slightly up, and he tilted my chin up so I would fully face him. "I love you, Gallagher girl. And I will never leave you again."
"I love you too, and I'm so sorry for almost leaving you forever." He cringed a little at me mentioning the 'forever' part but he kissed me anyway. I moved my hands to his neck, and his hands were still on my waist. We fell backwards so we were laying on the roof top. The snow was falling a little heavier, but it wasn't too cold or thick. We kissed for quite some time. To make up for all the time he was gone, and every time he pulled me closer he pulled me back to life. It felt amazing feeling his lips on my cold neck. Every time he angled his head to intensify the kiss even more and speed it up, it reminded me that life doesn't all suck, just some parts of it. And every time another snow flake landed on our faces, it reminded me how I can't give up on life, and I shall trudge on.