Author's Note: Have you ever been rejected? Have you ever been accepted? Have you ever been considered? Oh well... Shizuo is somehow undergoing the situation where is neither accepted nor rejected... What will he do?!

Apology... Considered?

I finally found Izaya, he's with Erika and Walker's house but he refused to see me. I waited in the living room slouching myself on the couch. Walker was sitting across me, eyeing me with a frown. Erika was in the kitchen making some tea, eventually she will go upstairs to check up on Izaya. They have dialled Shinra and he will be here soon, they said Izaya is somewhat depressed... I really need to talk to him, before Shinra comes...

I tried to convince them they just wouldn't let me. Shinra came with some medical aids and some anti-stress pills... I don't really trust those pills. Erika and Shinra had a long conversation before going upstairs leaving me and Walker downstairs. Walker heaved a sigh then I watched him walk towards me. "What..." Walker trailed off when he looked at my eyes. His eyes were blank and they looked at me like they wanted to burn holes at me. "What have you done...?" He whispered.

I didn't say anything although I wanted to explain myself... But no words escaped my mouth, not even a single one. Walker waited for nothing and he knew that. He sighed in defeat then he stomped his way up to the room where Izaya was staying. I was left alone in the quiet living room, all the lights were one but it felt so dark for me. I feel so alone without Izaya by my side. I feel so blinded, without him I can see nothing. He is my light but I let him fade... Anger devoured me and kept me away from my love...

Izaya...

Love me again...

Then I heard footsteps from the stairs, it was Izaya and he was looking at nothing. He wasn't even looking at the path he was taking... Idiot.

Izaya stopped as he reached the bottom of the stairs. He looked around then he saw me, his lips curled into a frown. I wish he could just turn it upside down. He walked towards me then I expect him to sit across me because he is so disgusted by—

He... He walked passed the first couch then he sat next to me. He snuggled at my arm still not looking at me but showing affections towards me. I wrapped one arm around him then I nuzzled my nose at his raven locks. I can hear him crying that made me shed a tear or two. "Izaya..." I whispered ever so slowly to his ear. He looked up at me just keeping his crimson orbs diverted away from my eyes, he was looking either at my nose or my forehead.

I lightly chuckled then I lifted up his chin, I know I can't kiss him right now so I have to keep myself composed... He still haven't forgave me yet and I still I haven't asked for it too. I held his chin and I looked deep into his eyes. "I'm so sorry..." I said wiping the tears streaming down his face with my thumbs.

Izaya held both of my hands with his smaller ones then he looked down. "I-I don't know..." Izaya whispered.

My eyes widen then he almost jumped. "W-what do you mean!?" Izaya finally looked at me straight to the eye but his crimson orbs are full of doubt and sadness. "I-I'm sorry... I didn't mean to yell at you..." I whispered. He nodded slightly then he stood up.

"Please try to understand me, I will come back to the house and there... I will think of it..." Izaya said with a small smile. "And I will sleep next to Tsuki..." I looked down and huffed. "And one last thing... If you let Jake live in our house... I might change my mind." I looked at him with shock but when I saw the smile in his face, the complete sincere aura that is flowing out of him I remained silent.

I guess that this wouldn't be easy at all...

Author's Note: FAILED! I don't know but I think my drama is soo NOT COOL! Because I don't really like drama at all... It makes me cry and I don't want to cry just because of watching something like blah blah... Oh well~