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Subject is an IDIOT!
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If I had to pick one thing out of Subject's many, numerous flaws that I hate the most, it would be this.
Subject is an IDIOT!
A reckless idiot who has the most incredible ability to nearly get himself killed at the drop of a hat. Subject is too impulsive. Subject just does things. You can wave all the commonsense you want at him, but he's still going to do whatever idiotic notion has popped into his head. He is just so lucky I was able to catch him.
But I'm getting ahead of myself.
So we had a visit from Subject's sister this morning. A very eventful visit. In true homicidal maniac style, she showed up wanting to kill everybody.
As she does.
She'd bought a whole bunch of airships and it was fire and explosions everywhere! Subject knocked me out of the way of some falling debris and we landed in a heap together with him on top of me. We were all kind of close and up in each other's business and I was so friggin annoyed at him, at the firenation and at this whole situation that I just grump-ied at him like a grumpy bitch. I didn't even say thank you, even though I know he stopped me from being crushed. Because Subject has just been bringing out my rude side lately.
I just hate when this sort of thing happens. I hate the firenation and their friggin fire breathing airships and bombs and general craziness. I hate that they've separated our family again. My Dad had to go into the tunnel and we had to fly out on Appa. I didn't want us to get separated again but what choice did we have with fire exploding everywhere. I have a horrible feeling that I won't bee seeing my Dad again for a long time and I just can't shake it.
I must say that not only is Subject an IDIOT! His sister is also an IDIOT! I am beginning to suspect the firenation is largely populated by IDIOTS. Subject, instead of sticking with us like he should have, took it upon himself to 'hold them off' unnecessarily. We've already split up once; we didn't need him to go off on his own like an IDIOT!
It was totally unnecessary!
We would have been fine without Subject's idiotic heroics! In fact it would have been easier because we would not have had to double back to save Subject's idiotic arse! Subject has nearly fallen to his death twice this morning, but this does not faze him. He was more perturbed by his crazy homicidal sister nearly falling to her death than he was about his own near miss! Even though his sister will most likely try to kill him again (she is a homicidal maniac after all).
Why is this? Because Subject, not only is an IDIOT, he has a very poor sense of self-preservation.
Exhibit A) going out to fight his sister, unnecessarily.
Okay Subject, I know your sister is a really crazy, homicidal maniac who is a life ruiner. She ruins lives. I get that. That does not mean that you should jump to your near death just to fight her every time she shows up crackling manically about wanting to be an only child and the many ways she wishes to kill you. She explained her intentions quite clearly to Subject. She was all about the killing. Someone with a functioning sense of self-preservation would pause and say to themselves "hhhhmmm, I prefer being alive, so maybe I won't run towards the mad, cackling, homicidal maniac who wants to kill me."
Subject, however, did not do this. Subject did the opposite of this. Subject, like an IDIOT, ran out there and was all -Come at me sis!
Subject's homicidal crazy sister was all -You come at me bro!
And there was drama!
Subject and his sister are both so alike! It is freaky! You want to know what they both have in common?
IDIOCY!
Exhibit B) Exploding eachother off the airship.
They are both bloody IDIOTS. They bloody exploded each other off the bloody ship and nearly fell to their bloody deaths! Okay Subject, in what universe, is this a good plan for anyone? I mean really now?
All this was unnecessary!
Did either of them think - wow this will be really bad for our respective causes if we both go ka –splat,
Or even-who will rule our Nation of Idiots after the war if we both go ka-splat?
Did either of them have a moment to pause and think to themselves- I really don't want to kill my homicidal sister/idiotic big brother?
No they did not!
Because they are idiots.
Idiots who very nearly went ka-splat unnecessarily.
We had to fly Appa under where Subject was falling and this was a most difficult maneuver. I was so mad at him for being such a reckless idiot! What if we hadn't been there, or hadn't been able to fly under him in time? What if I hadn't been able to catch him? He would have gone ka-splat and there would be nothing any of us could do about it. Aang would be without a firebending teacher and all hope would be lost.
And everything would be Subject's fault!
It usually is!
Luckily I caught him mid-air and was able to get him into the saddle. Because I am not an idiot. He is fine now. Just sitting in the saddle with Toph, of all people, fussing over him. I feel like going over and telling her that he's fine! He' s just an idiot and there is no cure for that!
What is worse is that just after I had gotten him in the saddle and Miss crazy-lightening bolts was still falling, he was all worried about his crazy homicidal sister. I felt the powerful urge to slap him upside the head and say 'what is wrong with you? You just exploded each other off an airship!' but I did not. I am resolutely not speaking to Subject except to tell him that he is an idiot. Because he needs to be told. Multiple times. He said thank you for catching me quite sincerely and I told him that he was a stupid idiot in response and we have not spoken since.
What the hell was he thinking?
The idiot!
Gah!
So mad right now!
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I am still resolutely not talking to Subject on account of his reckless idiocy. But everyone else in this saddle congratulating said reckless idiocy! It is most infuriating. I am trying my best to stay mad at Subject because I realized that one of the reasons I am so mad is because I am starting to like him again. When he was falling I was worried and annoyed at being worried, but mostly I was just really worried.
Subject worries me.
I worry about him.
If I was not so mad at him I would just sit on him to save him from himself and his own idiocy. I actually care what happens to his stupid self. How does Subject do this! Despite my best efforts to stay mad at him, he makes me like him and worry about him.
This is a disaster!
This is just what Subject wants. Give Subject an inch and he will find a way to cuddle it!
He's sitting across from me in Appa's saddle and he just noticed me staring at him. He gave me a little wave. Don't wave at me Subject when I'm busy moaning about you!
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I am thinking about on Ba Sing Se. I am thinking about Ba Sing Se and the crystal catacombs a lot because when I think about it, I get furious with Subject all over again and it makes it easier to stay mad at him.
Subject and I cannot be friends.
It doesn't matter that he's a good listener and helps me out and jokes with me and brings me tea and thinks I'm pretty and didn't embarrass me by telling the others my drunken antics. It doesn't matter that he's nice looking and nice smelling and has a nice smile. It doesn't matter because there are two things I will never forgive Subject for.
First thing is Ba Sing Se.
I will also never forgive Subject for being from the fire nation. If it wasn't for the fire nation, my mother would still be with us and there is nothing Subject can do to make that any easier.
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The last straw came around the campfire tonight.
We were waiting at the rendezvous point for Dad and the others. Sokka had just gotten a hired messenger hawk message just before dinner. Subject told us that most large towns have a hawkery so that citizens can send messages to each other and this one looked like it came from a public hawkery (which is open to everybody.) It was a message from Dad. They'd been pursued by the other airships and had to abandon our stolen airship. He'd managed to evade capture with the others and they had made it to a firenation colony town on the mainland. They'd gotten disguises and were blending in and would try and make it to where the nearest resistance base is.
But they wouldn't be able to make it to the rendezvous island we are on. Sokka choose it because it is almost uninhabited (there is only one village) and there is no other way here aside from flying or private boat. There is no ferry service and it's too small to draw the attention of the navy. It is safe for us to hide out here for a while.
A little too safe it turns out.
Now we can't meet up with our Dad. Without the airship, there's no way for him to get here and he doesn't want to draw attention to himself/us by hiring a boat. He said in his message that it would be too dangerous to try and meet up now anyway and we should concentrate on preparing Aang to fight the Firelord. And that he loved us and wanted me to have a good birthday. Apparently we'll be together again to celebrate my sixteenth next year.
I am so disappointed. Sometimes I just want my dad and I can't even have him on my birthday.
Then we were all sitting around after dinner and everyone was congratulating Subject's idiocy and he was all smiley and said he was really touched and he made a joke! This a rare event for Subject! He made a joke about chasing Aang around and everybody laughed except for me. Like I need another reason to be mad at Subject. He goes and reminds me of the time he spent chasing us. I just couldn't take it anymore so I said something bitchy and stormed away.
Subject followed me, because he has no sense of self-preservation. Couldn't he see I was storming off? A storm off doesn't work if people follow you!
People means you Subject!
Subject thinks I am being unfair to him and maybe I am, but he'll just have to suck it up. I was so mad at him and his stupid recklessness and at the firenation and at the fact that I wouldn't even get to see my Dad on my birthday and at the fact that my Mother's gone forever.
Subject thinks that everybody trusts him now, but I was the first one to reach out to him and he stabbed me in the back. I have been thinking about Ba Sing Se all afternoon and that memory is pretty fresh! I told Subject this and he was just looking confused and sad and anxious to make things right between us. He wanted to know what he could do to make it up to me. Rather than say nothing, I got right up in his face and said some impossible tasks, conquer Ba Sing Se single handedly, bring my mother back etc. And then I stormed away again.
He didn't follow me a second time.
I was expecting him to, but he didn't.
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I have just had the most unusual/bizarre conversation with Toph. We are sharing a tent here and she came in and she must have been able to feel me sulking in the corner. She tutted under her breathe and came and sat next to me and asked if I wanted to talk about it in her usual sardonic Toph voice.
I did not want to talk about this with Toph and I told her so. She sighed a little and asked me if yelling at Subject had made me feel any better. I asked how she knew I was yelling at Subject. I'd stormed off a long way. Our voices would not have carried back to camp.
Toph said that I always yelled at Subject when I didn't get my way. I protested at this. The way Toph said it; you think that I did nothing but yell at Subject all day. Toph said that I always yelled at Subject, even about things that weren't his fault. According to Toph, getting grumpy with Subject is my thing. We had a small argument. Toph said: When something unexpected happens that you don't want to deal with or something doesn't go your way… you get grumpy and shout at (Subject). It's your thing. I'm not saying it's a bad thing. We all need our stress release. But I think it is starting to wear thin on (Subject). I just think you're a bit too hard on him sometimes. Toph uses Subject's actually name but I have written Subject here.
I have written down what she said word for word because I can't stop thinking about it. Really, I do listen to Toph most of the time. She's quite smart about everything and she's usually right. But she is so wrong about me and about this!
I told Toph that she was crazy and the only times I yell at Subject or get grumpy with Subject is when he really deserves it. Toph snorted in response to this and said 'if you say so' in an exceptionally sarcastic voice. If there was a measurement for measuring sarcasm, the amount of sarcasm Toph was exuding would be off the charts. She was speaking in 11 out of 10 Toph-sarcasm meters. I started going on about how I am always reasonable with Subject and Toph said that I should keep telling myself that (still with 11 out of 10 toph-sarcasm meters).
Then she put a stop to our conversation by rolling over and going to sleep so I couldn't even argue with her. I contemplated going to find Subject to find out what he's been telling Toph about our arguments and having a bit of a shout at him, but then I realized that by doing that I would be proving Toph's point. I will not prove Toph's point for her.
Because Toph is wrong.
At first I thought trust Toph to take Subject's side. But the more I think about it, the more I worry that maybe, and only maybe, she might have a point. Is Toph right about me? I hope not! I refuse to let Toph be right about this.
I am not going to yell at Subject at all tomorrow, just to prove a point to her. I am going to be coldly civil to Subject and I'll stick to being coldly civil. I won't have any more lapses into friendliness or worrying about him.
We'll just be two coldly civil people who are civil to each other… but in a cold way.
Um…scratch that.
Make that one coldly civil person and one emotional, moody, reckless idiot.
I have a feeling Subject won't be good at cold civility.
On account of him being an emotional, moody, reckless idiot.
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Have I mentioned that Subject is an idiot?
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Lovely wonderful readers! You have reached the end of Subject is an IDIOT. Congratulations and I hope you enjoyed it! Giant thank you to my wonderful reviewers who are all kinds of awesome! Seriously you guys are great and I have just mad love for you all!
So we've gotten to the start of my Southern Raiders arc. I had a small word of warning for those brave enough to venture on. It's not going to be quite as silly from here on out. I just find the southern raiders to be such an intense episode and I want to do it justice. It's hard to get the balance right between levity and seriousness and there is just so much serious-business in that episode. I'll still try to keep it light, but we are dealing with lots of angst as well as Aangst.
In this Chapter, Katara gets a bit more angry at her Subject. I think Katara is all about keeping the family/group together and she'd hate to split. Despite all her grumbling she really does care about Zuko so she's a bit put out when he runs off to do something reckless and unnecessary.
And after watching the Southern Raiders again, I was struck by the fact that it is a bit unnecessary that Zuko goes out to fight Azula. But he almost can't help himself, he just has to fight her. I mean it's a great fight scene, but I think Katara's reactions (they are both idiots) would be understandable. The whole fight could have been avoided and they did nearly kill each other by blowing each other off the airships.
Also I wanted to explain why the group doesn't meet up with Hakoda and the others again. I do think that Hakoda and Sokka would have planned a rendezvous in case they got separated. And in the series they just go into that tunnel and disappear and I kept waiting for them to show up again because I thought two water tribe geniuses would have thought of this eventuality. Silly me!
So in my fic I made this rendezvous was dependant on both of them being able to fly to the island. They think they'll have the airship and Appa and a small out-of-the-way island would be ideal for their purposes. But IT would be easier for Azula's fleet to pursue the stolen airship so Hakoda and co would have had to abandon it and thus they are unable to make their rendezvous.
I think Toph does have a point about Katara. On the show and in my fic she does channel her anger towards Zuko and I think she's almost unconscious of the fact that she is doing this and I just wanted someone to point this out to her. Toph was my girl for this one!
I hope you all enjoyed this chapter!
Next up: Katara will be given lessons in stealth!