A/N: Okay, so we've got to hear a little from Jasper again - why did he send her that song? Wonder what's going through his mind.. Hmmm..
As alway, thank you to my pre-readers!
SM owns - all hail the great SM. I own nothing, except my imagination.
Chapter 6
To: The_Org_BS(at)gmail com
From: The_Whit_Man(at)gmail com
Subject: A little sum 'thin'
Date: September 10, 2010, 09:55 PM
My sweet Jelly-Belly,
Tonight, I was tinkering around on my guitar while I sat and sulked over how much I miss you. The more I played, the more I wished you were here with me. I couldn't help but play 'Hallelujah' to myself, and next thing I knew, the guys pestered me for a decent version. I recorded and enclosed it for you, to remind you that even if we're well over a thousand miles apart, I'm always there with you - at least in spirit.
I keep thinking about you. What you're doing, who you're with, are you happy? I never suspected to be so preoccupied with you once we were apart. I always took our easy friendship for granted – there's a lot of truth in that saying "You never know what you have until it's gone". Even if it's only physical distance, it's too much for me. I want you around all the time, like you used to be. You're my best friend, Bella. The one person who knows all there is to know about me. I never fully appreciated that before, I think… It's addictive to have someone so close that you neither can nor will keep any secrets from them.
But now I'll have to make my confessions through writing. It can be very cathartic, I learned. This testimony of sorts, only I have an 'edit' option ;-) But I try not to edit too much. I want you to still know me. For you to ground me, when my flight gets too fancy, so to speak. You always did that for me, and I found out that I really need that. You're the peas to my carrots, Babes! :-D Sorry for the Forrest Gump reference, but you know how I love that movie!
I'll have a long weekend coming up soon, before we're scheduled to start flying for real and not just in simulators. I am trying to arrange for coming home – will you be able to come home for that weekend too? I really want to spend some time with you! Hanging out, playing guitar, watching lame ass movies from the 90's! Otherwise I'll have to crash your dorm room at U-Dub. Would you want to risk getting kicked out for that? *LOL*
I hope you enjoy the song – I couldn't help myself. I included the lyrics for you at the bottom.
Let me know what's going on in your life. I've heard so little from you so far. I understand that you're really busy of course, but I really need to get connected to your life again, Darlin'. You are so important to me.
Love, hugs and smooches –
Your Jazz.
"Hallelujah", as performed by Jeff Buckley
Well I heard there was a secret chord
that David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
Well it goes like this:
The fourth, the fifth,
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah...
Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah...
Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor (you know)
I used to live alone before I knew you
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
and love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah...
there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me, do you?
But remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah...
Maybe there's a God above
all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah...
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah...
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah
Love – J.D.W.
-LFAFL-
To: The_Whit_Man(at)gmail com
From: The_Org_BS(at)gmail com
Subject: Sum 'thin', sum 'thin'
Date: September 11, 2010, 8:30 PM
Hi Jizzper ;-)
You're a DICK! You know my love/hate relationship with that song. You know I bawl like a baby when I hear it! And it doesn't make the least bit better to hear in YOUR voice, when I already miss ya that much!
Naw, thank you for that – It's your designated ringtone now, so don't call me when I'm in public. People might think it odd that I cry when you call me. *LOL* I really miss your guitar playing and your singing, and just you being YOU.
My life right now is fairly chaotic. But it's getting better after school started and everything is beginning to fall into a routine. Beck and I are getting closer – she's funny to live with and we've become great friends. It's not a deep friendship, but she is nice and funny to hang out with. My classes are great and I'm quickly getting the hang of it. It's not too hard - apparently, Forks High gives you sound basis for your further studies, believe it or not!
I miss you. I know, we say it all the time, but that doesn't make it any less true. My day, my life, isn't complete when you're not near. I sound so sappy, but it's the truth. You're such an integral part of me. Of course I'll go home for that weekend- but if you somehow can arrange it, I would love to show you around on campus! I would love to have a little piece of you here with me all the time – a memory of you in 'my' world. Can you do that? I would also risk expulsion for having you sleep in my room – no questions asked!
I also think that we should do something FUN while you're here. You have this uncanny ability to make me enjoy myself so much more than usual, an ability to put me at ease where I normally would be insecure. What do you say? Will you take me for a walk on the wild side? I need you to balance me out as well! Where I ground you, you lift me up and make me a braver person. You're the cream in my coffee, Hun… You know, I even listened to 'Boss DJ' the other day, because I missed your teasing so much? Dammit…
Sounds sooo exciting that you're gonna get airborne! Wish it was me – though with my clumsiness we'd probably end up meeting the ground too soon and too hard. I'm sure you'll do great – you've always been a master of all things mechanical! Just promise me that you won't fall down and kill yourself, okay? And send me a picture! I still haven't seen you in uniform, you gorgeous beast. I bet you're breaking hearts right and left.
I'm gonna run now, I have a class soon – but I just wanna thank you again for the song and thank you for your email! I love to hear from you – please keep writing!
Love ya lots! –
Your Jelly-Belly.
-LFAFL-
To: The_Org_BS(at)gmail com
From: The_Whit_Man(at)gmail com
Subject: A little sum 'thin'
Date: September 11, 2010, 10:45 PM
Sweet Jelly-Belly,
Thank you for your email, Babes – It was a joy to hear from you, and to get a thorough response! I feel much more in tune with you now, even if I still need to hold you, touch you, FEEL you. No, you perv, not like that! ;-)
I'd really love to see campus and your dorm! I'll make sure to take as early a flight as possible on the Friday, so I can spend the night with you – then maybe we could take Fred and drive home sometime Saturday afternoon? Have dinner with my parents and spend the night, before taking lunch with your dad Sunday? I'll catch the late flight to San Diego from Seattle Sunday night, so we have time to drive back with no rush. Sound like a plan? Let me know what you think.
I'm glad you liked the song – I've included another one for you this time. Good 'ole Goo Goo Dolls; Iris. I think that song says so much about you and I – I think you'll agree. At least it's a great song! I couldn't help it, my fingers started playing, and I had to follow along.
The guys are acting up again – this time, they pulled a real high-school prank. They covered the toilet with cling film and put down the lid, so people wouldn't notice before sitting down. Yuck! It was a real disgusting mess, but they got caught, so guess who had to clean it up? Serves them right – Idiots! But at least of the entertaining kind – a lot like Eric and Tyler, I guess.
On that rather disgusting end note, I'll go to bed. Reveille is at 6 AM, so I better catch some shut-eye. I hope to hear from you again soon!
Love and Smooches,
Your Jazz.
"IRIS", by Goo Goo Dolls:
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Love - J.D.W.
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