Soul Eater

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*So... Yeah, Guess I'm sticking with Soul! Wooh! Soul! Anyways, I've started a drabble of stories with Soul and Maka, check out my second story and make a request. Any one word and I'll come up with a story by PMing me! Read the 1st chapter of 'A Story for You'. For more info! Please do PM me! You'll be credited! Read and Review! :)

If I Were A Boy

Maka was recovering from all her bruises, cuts and her black eye. She looked a bit better. Her eye wasn't that swollen anymore, her cuts could become a memory of a bitter past and she could walk properly without the help of a wheel chair. But what tore her apart was that she haven't visited Soul like what she planned. She planned to visit him for the next week but she stayed in Kid's house for two weeks. And now, she's ready to tell Kid that she needs to see him.

She was staring off the window, the familiar red roses and the pond, mocked her small relief. When she heard her door click open, she slowly turned around to be greeted by her boyfriend, holding a tray of breakfast. "Here. Want me to help you?" She smiled uncomfortably before sitting on her bed with Kid in front of her.

She started eating what he gave and she felt a bit weird when Kid was just watching her. With a smile curled upon his lips. "Kid, will you stop that! I'm trying to eat" She suggested irritatedly while forcing the knife to cut the waffles. Kid stifled a laughter before tugging her hair behind her ear.

"You just look so beautiful" They both stared with each other and Maka shrugged her head. She doesn't need any distractions, she needs someone to support her. And right now, she's gonna ask for it.

"U-uh, okay. Kid-listen... I-I told you that we'll visit Soul, right?" Kid narrowed his eyes as if he was flashbacking the memory. After a while, he slowly nodded.

"Well, I've been thinking... I just-I want to visit him"

"Cool. When are we going to visit him?" This made her worry. She sighed in disappointment before playing with her fingers. Looking away from her boyfriend, she tried her very best to explain. "Kid... I-I want to visit Soul alone" And when she finally gazed in his eyes, she saw sadness. And she regretted gazing.

"Can't I come with you?"

"Kid... You know how important Soul is... To me, right?" She was hoping. Hoping that he'll understand. That their bond was very powerful compared to anyone she knew. Soul was the first guy she trusted. Not Black Star and not certainly Kid.

"I know but... I-I'm just scared" This time, she saw him pleading. His eyes were full of sadness that she might leave him.

"Scared of what?"

"That... You might leave me and... Love him again" He hugged her tight, a bead of tear escaping his eye. Trembling from fear that she would leave. But Maka needed to see Soul. One last time. Just once. "Kid, I love you" She whispered, she pressed her lips against his with passion.

"Once again Kid, I love you... Very much" Again, she pressed her lips against his, dangling her arms on his shoulders while Kid holding Maka up until she didn't touched the ground. Maka felt the cold feeling in his breathe, the nervous tremble in his arms. One last time, Maka kissed Kid's eye. "I love you"

"Maka"

"Kid... Can you hear me? I love you, okay? Now, Wes won't hold me back against Soul. He's the counterpart of myself-" And before she could speak, Kid cuts her off with a slam on the coffee table. Anger rushing in his eyes, his teeth tightly clenched and Maka felt scared about it.

"See?! Maka! Can't you see? I-I've been jealous... I've gotten jealous by Soul. This is crazy, considering he's unconscious. But every god damn time, you keep on Soul this, Soul that! That, Soul is all you had! Maka, can't I be part of what you have right now?!" Maka realized how she still needs Soul even if he had Kid. And Kid's reason won't stop her for seeing Soul.

"FINE, KID! YOU KNOW WHAT, THIS WON'T WORK! YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO SOUL, WORRIES ME AS MUCH! KID, CAN'T YOU TRUST ME? I'm doing my best... As your girlfriend and can't you give me one favor? I need to see Soul, alright?" Maka's face was flustered red from frustration.

"Maka, he's your first love... And I know, you won't hold yourself back to give yourself another try and love him. While you look at me... With your eyes pleading for apology. And to tell me that you love him... Not me" This time, Kid was crying and Maka didn't know. Could that happen? Could she love Soul back? No.

"Kid... I'm not going to do that. Not ever. You know that... I love you just as much as you love me, right? How can you assure that I'll love him? I'm not that stupid" Maka tried to peck his cheek, but he shrugged her hand away ignorantly.

"Because someone did that to me. And I don't deserve being left alone with someone else again" Maka felt she needed to stay with him. But some part of her wanted Soul badly. She just wanted to see him. To see him smiling or staring at her.

"You still don't trust me... And if you can't handle me finding Soul... This is not going to work" No matter how painful it was, she walked away from him. He was in a state of shock that he stared off the distance, until he realized he was too late.

When the huge building mocked her, her lips curled into a smile. She felt excited yet terrified. Happy yet sad. But actually, she doesn't know what to feel. What to think. What to do. She approached the building, just in time for a few other people walking pass her for visitation. She started walking towards the direction of his room.

And in every step she took was more tingly than the other. She felt the collapsing feeling in a free-fall of a roller coaster. Her hands were very sweaty and her throat was very dry. But as she placed her hand on the door knob, she took a long inhale before pushing the door open. Only to see an unconscious body lying on a hospital bed. With no one to be with.

She slowly closed the door before standing in front of him. Tears staining the covers of the hospital bed, she immediately wiped them away. "I missed you a lot" She whimpered, trying to hold her tears back. She can't afford anymore to cry. She pecked his cheek, his very full and soft cheek like a new-born. Trailing her fingers on his unlikely yet perky lips. She could feel him breathing in his mouth. Very warm.

The door suddenly clicked open, just in time to reveal the last person she wants to see. Blair. She immediately removed her hand away. Her stomach twisting in pain and scared of what to do. All she could do is stare. And Blair did the same, until she spoke.

"What the hell are you doing here? I thought I made myself clear!" She demanded. This time, Maka was trembling from fear. That any time, Blair could draw a knife in her skin.

"I-I just w-wanted to see S-Soul, one last time" Even her voice trembled.

"One last time? Oh, please... Like you can stop flirting with my BOYFRIEND" Emphasizing the word 'boyfriend' more. This time, Blair walked in front of her with crossed arms and with anger burning in her eyes.

"Blair, please..." But before Blair could respond, they both heard a sudden movement. They hurriedly gazed towards Soul. Waiting for him. Waiting for him to say their names. When suddenly, his fingers shrugged a little. Both Maka and Blair snapped away from what they were doing and went to Soul side by side.

"SOUL?" They responded at the same time. Eyeing another movement from his fingers. This time, Maka was crying. Crying from joy, because this time... This time, she could say anything she wanted to say.

"Maka, tell Soul a word and I'll kill you" Blair warned before Soul's eyes fluttered open. Maka didn't mind what she said, all she could think about was how happy she was that Soul made it. "Maka?" And her name was the first thing he said. Maka felt her heart tingle from the sound of his whispering voice.

"Blair?" He said.

"Yes, baby?" Blair said in a 'sweet' tone. As if, she's showing anything to Maka or maybe rubbing it in her face. Maka looked away with sadness in her eyes. "Blair, I-I gah-" He shrieked in pain as he tried to sit up. Both Maka and Blair insisted in helping him but he said, he was okay.

"Blair... I need to talk to Maka" Soon, Blair felt disappointed. The fact that she couldn't do anything about it, hurts her a little. Blair walked away, while closing the door. Maka felt nervous because Soul keeps staring at her. With those red wine eyes, she felt like she could melt and when she tried to gaze at him, he only managed to smile. And she loved it.

"Maka, I'm so sorry" He managed to apologize while taking hold of her hand, giving her a light squeeze. Maka felt that familiar warmth that no one else had. She immediately threw herself by a hug and Soul muttered a groan of pain. "Sorry"

"No Maka, I'm sorry"

"No... Soul, you've risked your life for me"

"And I would do it every time" When they both released their hug, they just stared with each other. Like they were communicating through their eyes. Maka's cheeks changed in color, from pink to red. What was she feeling? She coughed to stop what they were doing and Soul snapped back to reality.

"Soul, I-uh... I came here to say... Hi-" But Soul stopped her from speaking with a hand signal.

"Maka... I've realized what I was missing... That for so long... I didn't know it" Maka felt nervous. This is what Kid was talking about. She realized that he's right. "Soul, I think I need to leave-" But before she could leave, Soul already gripped on her wrist.

"Maka... Here me out, when I jumped to save you. I realized that... I felt complete that I was the one to save you. And now, I'm here to be with you" All of what he's saying was a blur for Maka. So what does he mean? What does he want to say? What was his point?

"Soul-"

"Maka... I love you" Her eyes widened. Her heart stopped beating and her cheeks were very flustered. Those words coming from his mouth. Those words that she wanted to hear for so long. They felt magical. Felt very right. But... This is not right, for everyone else.

"Soul, I'm dating Kid" His gentle and cheerful face turned into something dark. Something sorrowful. He was stunned that he missed a lot of things, considering that Kid already made a move on her. "What? Maka, I-I don't understand" There was this sharp pain in his chest. Like he was stabbed fifty times in his chest. And he was turning red and his eyes were turning watery.

"Soul, I... I love Kid" This was very wrong. The bitter taste in her mouth, the dryness of her throat and the painful twist in her stomach. They were all together that triggered that this was wrong.

"Soul, aren't you happy with Blair? You're both... Look good together. I mean, you're happy with her, right?" She tried to sort out but she was also crying. From the pain, from shattering his heart. From what she's feeling. From everything.

"No, Maka! I-I've never been happy with Blair! Maka, I want you!" Maka tried her best to stop those strings being attracted to his. But she couldn't. Instead, she jerked his grip away. She stood up from the bed when suddenly, Soul hugged her from behind.

"Maka... Please. Don't leave" Maka forced her eyes closed, hoping that she could escape her reality. But that was impossible, she needs to face Soul any time soon. She tried to remove his grip, but she also wanted it. She wanted it so bad. But she did anyway.

But when she was about to leave, Soul pulled her towards him and suddenly smashed his lips against hers. The moment was fifty times better. And this time, it's Soul. The moment she waited, she didn't removed his grip, she remained in her position. Their lips still linked with one another. But a sharp memory flashed in her head. Kid, Wes and Blair.

She pushed Soul away and he was still pleading in his eyes. She wanted to claim. To get. But it was all wrong. "Goodbye, Soul" Was the last thing he heard until the door clicked close. He wasn't ashamed that he was crying. He wanted to. Tears staining his covers. Until the door clicked open, he was hoping it was Maka. But instead, it was Blair.

"Soul? Soul, why are you crying? Did Maka hurt you?" Blair clung with Soul and suddenly, he grabbed her and kissed her hard. As if, he's shoving his passion towards her. But all he was thinking was Maka. Maka. Maka. He did everything that he could. Until they pulled away, panting.

"I love you, Soul" Soul responded with a soft kiss on the lips. He didn't want to say it. Not to her. Kid and Maka are together now and he doesn't have the right to interfere. But all of it was wrong. He felt the connection with Maka and not Blair.

While Maka was walking away, tears streaming down her face, she sat on the waiting shed, dialing Kid's number. "Maka? I thought you wouldn't call" Maka tried her best to smile.

"Kid, you're wrong. I still love you. I love you. Very much" There was this bitterness in her mouth and the dryness in her throat. She knew this wasn't what she meant.

"I'm so sorry for not trusting you, Maka. I love you too" She felt something wrong. Like something missing. But she didn't feel any of it during the previous weeks. And proven that Kid was right. She still love Soul. And she was stupid enough to believe that she could learn to love another person.