To: The_Org_BS(at)gmail com
From: The_Whit_Man(at)gmail com
Subject: Nothing but Love
Date: September 29, 2010, 23:45 PM
My Darlin' Bella,
I can't even begin to tell you how much this weekend meant to me. To find out that the love I feel is not a singular entity, but something we share – it was mind-blowing. I am so in love with you, and I can't ever let you go. You are my world, Bella.
I don't think, I've ever tried anything worse than walking away from you in the airport earlier this evening, knowing that you would be so heart-broken, and not being able to do a thing about it – and on top of that, I was just as upset, I just couldn't show it! I had to be strong for you, plus I had to endure a 1½ hour plane ride with total strangers, when all I really wanted to do was curl up and cry my fucking eyes out. Hell. I'm sure that the person sitting next to me thought I was a genuine nutcase, the way I kept shaking my head and wiping my eyes!
You took me quite with surprise too, this weekend. The bold way you kissed me in the restaurant; the exploration we did? I never suspected you to be so – ehrm – adventurous… I loved it, don't get me wrong! Actually, I'm sitting here on my bed with nothin' but boxers on and, should we say, quite the predicament? Luckily, Riley and Marcus are asleep, or they would get more than an eyeful, I tell ya! Goddammit, there's too little privacy here, or else my arm muscles would get some work out, while I was thinking about this morning's activities. I can't wait to be with you again – not just because of our physical intimacy, but our emotional as well. I've never felt more connected or at ease with anyone! You get me, Bella – you really get me.
I was thinking – could you make it down here for a trip soon? I have the weekends off, but Saturday/Sunday isn't time enough, I think, if I have to spend half of it travelling. If you could fly out on a Friday night and skip classes on a Monday, we'd have a whole weekend together. I would book us a hotel room off base that we'd share. What do you think? I need to see you again, and soon, or else I'll drive myself nuts! Ah, listen to me – the bad boyfriend, encouraging you to skip class! LOL. I know you, and I know you've got the stuff down – I'm sure you've read your entire curriculum already – probably already did in high school! My little book-worm; I love that about you. You're so fucking smart.
Anyway, could you make it? I'll hit Momma and Pa up for the plane tickets – they got out of paying tuition for me anyway, so don't feel bad about that, ya hear? Momma would love to know that she had a finger in on her favorite babies developing their relationship! Besides, the old man is loaded – he can afford it.
This way, we get to spend the weekend together; just you and I, without any relatives, friends or unwanted interruptions – if you don't count Marcus and Riley, but I won't subject you to their torture for too long. How about it, Sugar? Will you come? I hope so. I really, really hope so.
Okay, I'm getting tired, so I'll just finish by asking you to say hi to Edward for me – he's a good guy, I can tell, and I'm happy you've gotten yourself a good friend up there. Just keep your distance! No hanky panky! LOL. Naw, it's okay, I trust you with my life and my heart – I know you to well to think that about you. Say hi to Beck too – she's a hoot, ain't she? I hope to get to know the both of them better, next time I come up there.
Music for tonight; Nickelback, Far Away. ('Cause that's how it is right now, unfortunately. Damn.)
All my love,
Your Jazz.
To: The_Whit_Man(at)gmail com
From: The_Org_BS(at)gmail com
Subject: Re: Nothin' but Love
Date: September 30, 2010, 7:07 AM
My Love,
Thank you so much for the e-mail. I slept like shit, waking up every five minutes because I miss you so much and I kept dreaming that you'd never come back! It was horrible… I wish I'd thought to check my e-mail then, instead of waiting till now, but it was a nice way to wake up, at least!
Your song choice was perfect. It said it perfectly for me too – how far away, but still, I'll never, ever let you go! Never! I love you so much; I can't even find the words to tell you. I had the best weekend of my life with you. I still can't wrap my head around us being together. That you feel the same for me, as I have done for you for so long. You're right; it is, in lack of a better word, mind-blowing. And I am so eternally grateful that you had the courage to do something about it, when I didn't. I got you! And you're stuck with me now, Buddy!
As for coming to San Diego for a weekend – I would love to! I thought you'd never ask ;-) And it's not a problem for me to take a Monday off – I'm plenty ahead as you guessed, and I only have one class on Mondays, so I won't miss a lot. How does October 15-18 sound? I can't wait any longer than that, I'm sure! I'll explode and leave the dorm room a mess, if I don't see you again soon.
Adventurous, you call me? Hmm… How about, crazy in love and crazy with lust? You turn me on so badly, Jazz; I have a hard time to stop drooling when I'm near you. You still owe me a picture of you in uniform! I NEED that picture! For watching before I …. Go to sleep at night? *Arhm*You know what I mean.
A shame I wasn't there to help you with that rather large underwear problem – whatever made that predicament, I wonder? It wasn't the thought my itty-bitty pink tongue, was it? Nothing interesting about that – maybe it was my lips? Nah, they're not even the same size! The bottom one is bigger than the top one, so they can't be particularly appealing… Oh well. I'll be sure to investigate your anatomy some more in the upcoming weekend. We can't have you running around with big bulges in your underwear, now can we. Better find the cause of the problem, fast.
I so look forward to meeting your friends! If they're as much fun as you've described them, I'm sure I'll be in for a laugh or two. I just hope they don't play any pranks on us! I don't want to spend the weekend icing a sprained ankle or something. I just want to enjoy undisturbed time with you. As much as possible of it, please.
I'll make sure to say hi for you. They are both good people – Beck is the funny, girly girl that gets me out of my funk and Edward is my serious study partner that I can confide in – you won't believe the whining I've subjected him to, while pining for you! I wonder why he hasn't run for the hills yet. His girlfriend is really nice too and their situation was like ours – they had loved each other for a long time, they just didn't have the nerve to admit it. If you hadn't done anything this weekend, I would, thanks to him pushing me. And I thank you so much for your trust; I know it can be difficult to see the possibility of platonic friendships between sexes, but I assure you, your trust is not misplaced. I would never do anything to jeopardize our relationship!
I'm gonna run to get ready now and get to class. Please let me know, if the dates fit with your plans. I miss you so much it hurts, and I can't wait to see you! I love you, I love you, I love you!
Yours forever,
Bella.
To: The_Org_BS(at)gmail com
From: The_Whit_Man(at)gmail com
Subject: Re:Re: Nothing but Love
Date: September 30, 2010, 20:55 PM
Beloved Bella,
Thanks for your e-mail. I am so happy to hear that you like the idea of a weekend down here! I'm psyched to show you around and to just spend time with you. I miss you so much that it hurts in my chest. Of course the dates fit me – my weekends consist of drinking beers, playing video games and making music. I'm sure I can rearrange those important plans to another time. Or maybe combine them? Except for the video-games, I'm sure you wouldn't appreciate a weekend of 'Halo'. But you might surprise me; you have a tendency to do that!
Aw, hell, woman! What are you doing to me? I'm sitting with a figurative underwear explosion here! (Not literally, hell – haven't done that since I was 13 and saw your tits for the first time, when you showered. Ooops, shouldn't have told you that!) Anyway, the guys are here, and yes, they noticed. Now I'm getting hell for it too. Evil woman. I sincerely hope that you plan to help me with the problem when you come down here. I promise to return the favor; it's not like it's a hardship to investigate and taste-sample that sweet little pussy of yours anyway ;-) And now I'm getting an even bigger problem downstairs. Soon I'll have to take matters into my own hands. Is it showering time yet?
I'll make sure to have one of the guys take my picture, so I can send it to you! I want a full report of what your 'going to sleep' entails. I can't wait to get my fingers and tongue buried in your sweetness again. I'll just have to imagine what your fingers are doing while you look at my picture. I'd rather have you do it to me though. Ung, there's a long time to mid-October! Too long.
Anyways, I love you and I miss you. And now, I'll hit the showers. Alone. With images of you in my head. Take that! And use the visuals as you please. And let me know how, exactly, you did that. Please? ;-)
I love you, Sweets, and await your itinerary with impatience.
For tonight, I found Guns n Roses, Patience. I think it is very fitting since we both need to practice some of that for now.
All my love,
Your Jazz.