Soul Eater
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*Guys! I'm so sorry, I haven't updated like forever! I've been dying to update also, our internet connection was a dick for more than four weeks! I completely apologize if you waited long! Okay, since our connection is fixed, the story will be updated once again in a normal basis. So... I hope you still support my story! Thanks! :)
If I Were A Boy
What was she thinking? Is she mad? Why didn't she stood up from the ground and followed Soul sooner, and now she's looking for him like she's desperate. And she is quiet desperate. Because she just ruined the perfect relationship she dreamed of for a stupid reason she doesn't even know was true. She wasn't sure if she also loved Kid, but she couldn't answer the question straightforwardly.
Finally, after what seemed like forever... She found him lazily kicking the soccer ball, he wans't very happy to see her. Instead, he turned to his heel and then started running once again. "S-soul! W-wait!" She called, she tried her very best to keep up with him and it was pretty much working, since she's only behind him. She spreads her arms and hugged him from behind.
He stopped running, freezing on his position. With Maka silently sobbing behind him. He wasn't sure if she's worth it, he wasn't sure if what he could give was enough for her, he wasn't sure if he needs to hear her.
"S-soul, please... I-I don't know what I was thinking... I know that I don't... I know that I don't. He-he was just there when you weren't" Soul felt the sign of frustration increasing in his heart beats. He sighed heavily before he cupped his hands on hers...
And removed her grip around his waist.
"Maka, do you love Kid?" He looked straight into her eyes. And the stab in his chest was very heavy. She looked confuse. From the way she looked down with an unsure expression, arguing answers in her mind. He sighed in sadness. "Maka, don't you try reasoning out with me without knowing what you feel. Knock on my door if you are"
With that, Maka lets him off. She stared off the distance. That was it, he wasn't there anymore. Like they were before and it only lasted like for a good thirty minutes. Was that what she wanted? She needs to know herself. Why can't she answer that one question.
She stood back up when she remembered she still has to attend school. She slowly entered the classroom. Everyone was on their seats, a few were aware of what happened because they were giving Maka a very weird look. But she didn't care, she was thinking of something else.
Maka tried giving him notes but he followed the rules of a silent treatment. Number one, to shut up. And number to, to don't give a fuck. He was just there, like nothing happened. And Maka felt stupid. Why she could never answer the question straight. She found Kid cheating on her. He didn't bothered to follow her. But soon regretted he was wrong. But love could be confusing sometimes, but... It doesn't make any sense. If it was love, what is she feeling for Soul?
"Alright class... Let us all read pages one hundred and fifty two to one hundred and fifty three. Then, write an essay about it. You have twenty minutes to do so" The teacher said. Maka stopped giving him notes and then followed the teacher.
Maka heavily sighed before scanning her eyes in reading.
'The Dumbest Idea'
'If you love someone, set them free' is the most dumbest idea I have ever known. I mean, you claim to love them and then let them go. While you cry in a little corner that you regret what you've done. I think you should think of it at first. If you think that was it, the perfect one... I wouldn't waste my chance, I just need to take it. As my own.
When I love something, it is mine. Whether it's a cookie or someone. I would think of it. 'Was everything worth it?' And if so, I'm very sure I did the right thing of claiming. But when the first question isn't enough, you ask.
'Will I regret the decisions I made?' And if not, the perfect one is yours. Sometimes feelings are always confusing. Especially when another person comes into your life. They sweep you off your feet, yes. But they were not the ones who treated you like what you wanted. Sometimes, you feel both happy between them but sometimes you don't.
It is normal. But think. If you were a scientist with two different experiments. A rat enclosed in a glass with a mint plant and a candle. A rat enclosed in a glass without a plant and a candle. You would know what to choose, if you were wise enough.
If you chose the right one, maybe you are the perfect one.
Maka's eyes widened in realization. She just learned from a book. Like all the questions, everything at once has been answered. Like, in a single click google finds all the answers for you. That was what she's feeling right now. She hurriedly took a piece of paper and then started writing in the paper with green ink.
I think... No, I learned everything in just reading the book. Like when everything comes to you at once, like the big bang theory or evolution of man. But this time, this is not about science. This is about understanding a simple explanation. And I understand it completely.
Yes, I agree how stupid it is. Yet, at first I thought it was alright. No, I did asked myself. It was all worth it. Because I know I've done everything for him. And I didn't regret anything. I realized sometimes when you feel love, like you miss this person so much. You thought that you feel the same way towards another him.
If I am wise enough, I'm picking a rat without a plant and a candle. I am aware that the plant gives the rat oxygen. But what if the mint plant died? If it burns? What happens then? I know a rat can survive for a long while without anything against it or anything to need.
Anything special from it is everything it can do to survive. I know that's the key. And that's how I know I'm the perfect one. I don't need any need to survive, I don't need the love of others. I need the love of ONE person, like the rat without the plant. Because it could survive.
Maka passed the essay towards our teacher and she proceeded to wait and wait. She was thinking, and she was conscious. Maybe her answer was wrong. She was being doubtful. Maybe, She's not the perfect one. Then other of her classmates started passing their papers. When suddenly, she heard her name. Maka was startled when the teacher started reading the first two lines of her essay out loud.
"Maka Albarn, has a great way of understanding the story. I guess she deserves to share it with other people. Maka, please read it in front" The teacher extended her hand and waited for Maka to proceed. She felt nervous, in front of her classmates. And their eyes were all towards her, including Soul's. Maka smiled nervously and her heart was getting in her throat.
Maka took a few steps until she reaches for her paper. She sighed out loud before eyeing her paper and eyeing back with her classmates. But when her eyes met Soul, she didn't left.
"I learned everything in just reading the book. Like when everything comes to you at once, like the big bang theory or evolution of man. But this time, this is not about science. This is about understanding a simple explanation. And I understand it completely" Soul noticed how Maka was explaining everything to him. Like a secret message just for him. And the way she stares in his soul, he felt his own heart sinking towards his feet.
"Yes, I agree how stupid it is. Yet, at first I thought it was alright. No, I did asked myself. It was all worth it. Because I know I've done everything for him. And I didn't regret anything. I realized sometimes when you feel love, like you miss this person so much. You thought that you feel the same way towards him" Maka took a few glances towards her paper then back to Soul. Soul was aware that she's communicating.
"If I am wise enough, I'm picking a rat without a plant and a candle. I am aware that the plant gives the rat oxygen. But what if the mint plant died? If it burns? What happens then? I know a rat can survive for a long while without anything against it or anything to need" Soul couldn't take it anymore. A few of their classmates were giving them looks, understanding the meaning of her secret message. This time, Soul raised his hand. The teacher nodded, he stood up and excused.
"Ms, I need to go" The teacher cocked an eye brow. "I just need to use the washroom" The teacher nodded before Soul hurriedly walked away from the puzzled looks of his classmates. Maka's eyes darted from his figure until he closed the door.
"Ummm, ms... I-I also need to use the washroom" Without even the approval of the teacher, Maka proceeded outside. Soul was slowly walking, his back turned away from her. Maka hurriedly caught up with him. "WHY?" She asked with a sharp voice, with demand.
"What why?" he asked back with the same authority.
"Why did you left?"
"Nothing. I really need to use the washroom"
"You're lying"
"No, I'm not"
"You are. I know you too well"
"And so what if I am? Do you think, I would just... Forgive you because of your stupid message. The whole school will spread rumors about this" They both stopped walking. Maka glared at Soul and Soul did the same.
"I don't care! I just want you to hear me out! That was the perfect chance to do it"
"Perfect chance? Oh come on... Our classmates were giving us looks! And... I just don't care about our classmates. I don't want to hear anything else from you"
"Then don't listen to me. Just do this with me" Maka pushed Soul towards the lockers. Soul stumbled a while, she took a fist of his I.D lace and jabbed her lips towards his. Soul who was glaring before, he had his eyes closed. He did miss kissing her. Though, they did it once or twice. Soul was contemplating for his pride or his heart. But then again, no one's perfect.
He chose his pride.
He pushed her away. Maka wiped her lips with the back of her hand, still standing in front of Soul. He walked away from her, reminding himself over and over again that he'll go to the wash room.
But then, his messed up mind and heart made a sudden change. He turned on his heel and followed Maka who was already walking away from him. He grabbed her shoulder to spin her around and then it was his turn to kiss her. He was longing for this.
He placed his strong arms around her, she leaned closer. They were causing a not-so-noisy-noise-but-they-were-banging-the-lockers anyway. Because they keep on turning around, hitting the lockers. Soul lets go of her who still had her eyes closed, waiting.
But then again, his mind was playing with him. He walked away and left her.
Maka didn't know what happened. First she kissed him, then he kissed her back. And now he left her. Why is that? She deeply sighed before proceeding inside their classroom. When she walked inside, all of her classmates were standing up, that was when she realized, first period was over.
"Ms Albarn, where were you? Class is over and you really need to respect the one in front. You can't just walk away without my consent" Maka wasn't paying any attention, she eyed his seat, but he wasn't there. And then she realized, they were out for too long.
"Err, S-soul was sick w-when he passed by beside me, so... I helped him go to the clinic"
"This early in the morning? Whatever. Just next time, respect the one in authority" The teacher walked away. While Maka waited for the day to be over. She really needs to talk to him. That she gets it. And when it did, she was speeding her way out of the classroom. No distractions, no one to confront her or no one to block her way. But then, someone did.
She glared on the feet below her until she saw it, it was Black Star. "Black Star, I'm kind of in a hurry... So... Do you mind?"
"Maka, listen... I'm worried about Tsubaki. She's absent and she's not picking her phone. I've sent her a lot of texts, but she still won't give me a reply. Maka, what if she's in trouble?" Maka sighed in annoyance.
"Black Star, she's fine. Maybe, she's just sick or... Something"
"Maka, I want to be sure" It was new that Black Star cares. Because, normally he would babble that a 'god' like him doesn't need to care for someone as puny as someone. But not Tsubaki. So that's why Maka agreed in coming with Black Star to her house.
Though, calling Soul was very pointless. She knows he won't pick up, but she tried anyway. Maybe too many times. They were walking, closing in towards Tsubaki's house.
"Wow Black Star, I didn't know you would care for someone"
"Shut up"
"Well, you were supposed to respond 'My energy is not worthy to be wasted upon this puny minion' but look at you... You're a grown man!" Maka mocked him and he gave her a funny look.
"I don't sound like that. Well, you're a psyched dude" They both chuckled before they continued walking.
"So... Soul huh?" Maka smiled at the thought. "Yeah, I know"
"No! I mean is... I always thought you'd make a good something and both of you will have badass children"
"Not happening" Black Star cringed his eye brows, he wasn't aware of what happened. So Maka told him.
"What?! You mean... You're relationship lasted for a good thirty minutes" Black Star, couldn't believe it. Maka just shared everything with him. How long she liked or loved him. How she struggled. Everything. And when it happened it was for thirty minutes.
"I know, pointless" She chuckled bitterly, but Black Star patted her shoulder. "Well, anything can happen. And if I want the both of you to have badass children, you'll get it. When it happens, I'm gonna be the badass uncle" They both laughed and told stories, like now, they were close as normal best friends do. They stopped laughing when they reached Tsubaki's house.