this chapter deals with some very serious issuesand is chockfull of emotion. im serous this time guys, i want some reviews on what you thought of Ross looking at her butt and also on the scene between Jake and Sam in the last chapter. cause if they are bad i might have to go in and change them... anyways this chapter is full of emotion! and let me know what you think! i jsut found this abberviation today :D R&R (read and review)

Chapter 9

Another restless night for me. I was so happy for Sam and Jake.

I was going to be sad when I left River Bend. When I left Sam, Jake, Jen, DJ, and even Ross. Would I ever see them again? I would miss the open sky and the stars. I would miss Misty. She was an amazing horse and I knew she was like me the minute I helped her.

It was time for a walk. I needed fresh air. I quietly snuck out of the bunkhouse and went back over to where I had sat before with Ross. I hoped he would come out here tonight.

Then as if reading my thoughts he came outside. Maybe he had heard me come out here.

"Fancy meeting you here," I said with a smile.

He smile and came to sit by me.

"Did you end up fixing the car?" I asked him.

He nodded. "Works good now."

"Oh, well that good."

The time passed and we sat there in silence for most of the time. I pulled my knees up to my chest hugging them to myself. I was thinking about me and Ross…together, but then I realized that he would never fall for me. I was a delinquent or rather 'at risk' as Brynna liked to call it. That's when I found myself gently crying over it.

He looked concerned but didn't attempt to touch me.

"You know I'm not a bad kid right?" I said.

He didn't say anything. He looked uncomfortable in this situation, but still concerned to see me cry.

"I mean like all I did was make some bad choices and hang out with the wrong people."

I tried to compose myself to tell my story, much like DJ did, but without the anger.

I started telling my story.

"I was the perfect daughter. Straight A's, private school kid, great friend, and no home problems at all. But all girls have their downfall and his name was Danny. He was fantastic and I was so blinded by my love for him."

I looked over at Ross trying to gage his reaction. He looked like he needed to leave.

"Please don't leave," I begged. "I need to talk to someone."

He nodded. "I-I won't."

"So anyway, he was kind of a bad kid, like my own personal bad boy. He used to get me to sneak out and go drinking with him and his friends. I would of course go, I loved him. He and his friends would smoke and drink. I went drinking, because my friends were leaving me. I was hanging out with Danny too much.

"But one night it got way out of hand. We were wasted and we hotwired and stole a car because we thought it would be fun. I was in the back cheering and giggling next to Danny, wasted out of my mind. I don't know why I even remember it. The kid driving drove it right into a pole but no one was hurt. We were trying to run away, but we didn't get far. We passed out about 20 feet from the car. The police found us there the next morning,"

The tears started coming back. I could feel them pricking in the corners of my eyes.

"I was practically but under house arrest by my parents. No cell phone, no computer, no TV, no hanging out with my friends. I could only go to school then come back home and do homework.

"I had been under house arrest for so long that any chance to escape was great. Danny got a note to me through school one day and told me to sneak out to see him."

I was crying knowing what was coming up in the story.

"Of course I did, but I was lucky that my parents didn't put bars over my windows. When I got there everyone was drinking and doing drugs. Danny ran up to me and ferociously kissed me and handed me a beer. I took it glad to have some sort of freedom. He and I had been dating for 4 months at this point. He was getting aggressive like grabbing my ass and breast. I felt so uncomfortable. A-and th-then he-he…"

I was sobbing at this point. I was crying so hard my entire body was shaking. I looked over at Ross. He blue-green eyes burned with sadness and anger. He was clutching the arm of the bench so hard his knuckles were turning white.

This part I hated and wasn't sure if I should share it.

"C-can I t-trust you?" I asked him in a quivering whisper.

He nodded yes. I tried to prepare myself for this part.

"He was getting really aggressive and then he-he tried to, uh, have sex with me. I wasn't ready. I tried to say no, but he kept pushing himself on me. I was so frightened. I looked to someone for help but no one did. Then he-he grabbed me and r-raped me."

I was sobbing and shaking uncontrollably. I was reliving it over again.

"He forced himself on top of me and began taking off my clothes..." I shook my head I couldn't finish.

"When he was done he left me there, like I was just a toy, with all the empty bottles. I was so cold. I blocked the world and everyone for months. And th-then I-I thought I was p-pregnant. And I began running away and my parents couldn't stand it. They didn't know what to do, so they sent me here. No one knows, not even the police. I never told anyone before now."

The tears wouldn't stop and my breath was coming out in short hiccups. And unexpectedly, Ross pulled me into a hug. I could see the anger and sadness in his eyes. Why was there anger? I didn't know but it felt so good to have him hold me. He made me feel safe and secure with his strong arms wrapped around me. We sat there for a long time like this and I cried the entire time, soaking his shirt in tears. I felt so safe and calm in his arms, then I found myself drift off to sleep in this arms.

It felt like I was dreaming. I felt myself being carried to bed by Ross. My arms were around his neck as he carried me bridal style. He took me to my bed. He laid me down and tried to get me arms from around his neck, but I pulled him closer instead. He had to lean closer and then I looked into his eyes. Then I kissed him! It felt so good to kiss him, like sparks were flying.

I let go of him and whispered 'thank you,' and drifted off into a deeper sleep.

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