Black Wish Chapter 19: Awake And Alive, a transformers/beast wars fanfic

"Arcee."

Arcee turned and looked at Ratchet. For the past five hours, Optimus, Wheeljack and Bulkhead have been digging their way through the mine in hopes of finding Starscream. He sat down next to her, and placed an arm around her. Arcee leaned her helm against the medic's shoulder, and closed her optics. Jack looked at her, and smiled, trying to encourage her. Miko looked up as the three returned, grim looks on their facial plating. Arcee turned her head as well, and Optimus sighed, "Arcee, we...we couldn't find him," he said softly. Arcee felt her spark snap in two.

No, this couldn't be happening again.

Arcee got up, "This is a joke, right?" she asked, her voice trembling. Optimus felt his spark break for her. Arcee looked past him, and at the mine, "He's alive I can feel it."

"Arcee, the mine collapsed. If he's alive, then he's been buried alive," Bulkhead said. Bumblebee walked over to Arcee, and wrapped his arms around her as she began to cry.

I can't run anymore
I fall before you
Here I am
I have nothing left

Jack walked over to his partner, and took hold of her hand. Miko and Raf looked over at the mine. Ratchet placed a hand on Arcee's shoulder, and squeezed it, "Arcee, we're sorry. We know how much Starscream meant to you."

Though I've tried to forget
You're all that I am
Take me home
I'm through fighting it

Arcee looked at the medic, "I want to go back to the base," her voice was barely a whisper. Ratchet nodded, and activated the ground bridge. Bumblebee lead her through. Ratchet turned to Optimus.

"Are you coming?" he asked. Optimus looked back at the mine.

"No. We're going to keep looking."

Broken
Lifeless
I give up
You're my only strength
Without you
I can't go on
Anymore
Ever again

Ratchet nodded, and he went through the ground bridge. Jack, Miko and Raf stayed, "We're going to help you look," Jack said, as they walked over to the mine, "Arcee is my guardian, and I don't like seeing her like this."

"She's gone through this twice already. A third time would push her over the edge," Bulkhead said.

My only hope (All the times I've tried)
My only peace (To walk away from you)
My only joy, my only strength
My only power (I fall into your abounding grace)
My only life, my only love (And love is where I am)

Once back at the base, Arcee walked over to a chair, and sat down, folding her hands. Ratchet walked over, "Optimus said they'll keep looking for him," he said softly, hoping to comfort her. Arcee nodded slowly, tears still falling. He walked over to the montior, and began looking at it, Bumblebee next to him.

They wanted to give Arcee her space.

I can't run anymore
I give myself to you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
In all my bitterness
I ignored all that's real and true
All I need is you

Bulkhead smashed rocks with his wrecking ball. Jack passed rocks to Miko and Raf who tossed them out of the way. Optimus was smashing them with his axe and Wheeljack was tossing them as well.

When night falls on me
I'll not close my eyes
I'm too alive
And you're too strong
I can't lie anymore
I fall down before you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

"Hey I found something!" Miko yelled, and pushed rocks aside. It was a hand. Optimus walked over, and bent down, looking at the hand.

Ratchet looked over at Arcee, and frowned, "Arcee, can you come here for a minute please?" Arcee got up, and walked over to him. He lead her to the examinination table, and sat her down. Ratchet took out his scanner, and began scanning her, "Hmm, that's interesting."

"What is?" she asked, and Bumblebee nodded in agreement with her statement. He was curious too.

"It seems that...you're pregnant."

Constantly ignoring
The pain consuming me
But this time it's cut too deep
I'll never stray again

Optimus bent down to touch the hand, but suddenly, it began thrashing and Megatron shot up through the rocks. Everyone was blown backwards as Megatron shot up towards a ship hovering in the air. He stopped, and looked down at them, "Tell Arcee the only way she'll see her beloved Starscream is if she dies as well!" he sneered, and disappeared onto the ship. The ship began flying away, leaving them at the wreckage.

"Ratchet, open the ground bridge."

My only hope (All the times I've tried)
My only peace (To walk away from you)
My only joy, my only strength
My only power (I fall into your abounding grace)
My ony life, my only love (And love is where I am)

They walked into the base, and Ratchet switched off the bridge, "Well?" he asked.

"Megatron is alive," Optimus said. Bumblebee's optics went wide, "We couldn't find Starscream," Arcee looked over at them, and was silent.

"There is some good news today," Ratchet said, and looked to Arcee, "Arcee is pregnant."

"What good is being pregnant if the father won't even be here?" she asked angrily, and stormed out of the room. Jack went to follow her, but Optimus stopped him, "Let her be," he said, and Jack sighed.

"If...Megatron's alive, then that means there's a chance Starscream is alive too, right?" Raf asked. The Autobots said nothing.

"We can only hope," Ratchet said, and went to where Arcee was.

"Go away Ratchet," Arcee said, her voice muffled. Ratchet sat down on her berth, "Please."

"How do you think Starscream would react seeing you like this?" he asked. Arcee said nothing, "He would tell you to find a way to cope, wouldn't he? Yes, he may not be here when your newspark is born, but you have to be strong Arcee."

"How can I be strong when I've lost three partners?" she asked, sitting up.

"You have to find a way. Don't forget about them. Honor their memory, but find a way to keep living life," Ratchet said softly, "Don't throw everything away. Jack still needs you," Arcee wiped her optics, "You have to promise me that you'll at least try to find a way to deal with this," Arcee nodded, and Ratchet smiled at her.

"Ratchet, do you think I'll be a good mother?" Arcee asked. Ratchet chuckled.

"I do."

Back at the mine, it had started to rain. Rocks began sliding down because they became slippery. A hand was sticking up from a pile of rocks, limp. Slowly, the hand began to move, and another one appeared. Slowly, the hands pulled a body up, and Starscream gasped, cycling air quickly. He shook his helm, then pulled the rest of his body free.

Megatron had missed him when he fired, and had hit the ceiling above them, seperating them.

He knew Megatron was still alive, and would try to get rid of the Autobots again. Starscream checked over his wings, and felt his spark ache.

Arcee.

Megatron had lied. He had kept his promise to her, and he was coming back.

I'm awake, I'm alive
Now I know what I believe inside
Now it's me time
I'll do what I want, cause this is my life
Here, right here, right now, right now
I'll stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake and I'm alive

And there you go! The end of Black Wish! But do not fear, my faithful reviewers, there is a sequel in the process. The two songs used in this chaper are October by Evanescence and Awake and Alive by Skillet. Keep your eyes open for the sequel!