Seeing his two best friends with the ones they love made Seiya happy. He was truly happy for them. 'They deserve it. I just wish I could be with the one I love too.'
It had been a few days since his two friends started dating Mina and Ami. He was envious as his love life was going nowhere. Seiya managed to take Usagi out more since Mamoru was always busy at school and he had free time (they decided not to regroup the Three Lights' for now). With the help of Naomi, he was able to spend time alone with her. But she still did not respond to his advances. After more talks with Naomi, Usagi finally knew that Seiya was someone more than just a friend; he held a very special place in her heart. She wasn't' sure if what she feels is love but she knew Seiya was very important to her. And in his year of absence, she may have even missed him more than she missed Mamoru when he was gone the year before. She hated herself for feeling this way about another man. But she thought that everything would still be alright since she did love her boyfriend. She decided to stay with him for Crystal Tokyo and for her future daughter.
One day after school they were sitting on a park bench when he finally got the courage to ask her, "Odango, why are you with Mamoru-san?"
She hadn't expected him to ask such a question. She thought it was obvious. "Because I love him."
He cringed. He knew it but he didn't need to hear it from her. He kept his calm demeanor and kept talking, "Have you ever felt that way about someone else?"
She was stunned. She frowned and thought about how to answer his question. 'Someone else…? Do I?' And when she didn't respond right away, he noticed and asked her another, "So you do feel that way about someone else. Have you ever thought to tell him about it?"
He was hoping that she was thinking about him because he didn't understand why she was still with Mamoru. When he was here the first time, it was understandable as to why he didn't respond to her letters since he died. But now that Mamoru was back, he had barely even seen the guy with Usagi. He wondered why someone who supposedly loves her wouldn't want to spend as much time with her as possible. Seiya understood that her boyfriend was busy, but he use to be busier as a pop star but still found time to hang out with her.
"I can't. I have to be with Mamo-chan." Her face and tone of voice was impassive.
Raising an eyebrow he asked her why. And she spent a good chunk of the afternoon explaining about their past in the Silver Millennium, how they saw the future of Crystal Tokyo, and Chibi-Usa.
"Even if I love another person I can never give up Chibi-Usa. I love her so much." Her eyes were glassy with the unshed tears.
He was glad that he was wearing sunglasses otherwise she would have noticed the tears in his eyes. Her explanation had completely trashed his hopes of ever being with her. 'How could I ever compete with destiny and tell her to give up her child.'
"I'm sorry." Seiya spoke, his voice laced with bitterness.
"For what?"
"For…for asking." And he quickly got up and ran home, leaving the girl to sit there alone. What he really wanted to say was that he was sorry for every loving her and putting her in such a difficult position.
If he had waited after answering, he would have felt the hand reach for him and seen the tears trickle down her face. But he didn't. Instead she sat there alone on the bench, watching him run away.
Naomi had seen all this happen. She had always been following the couple, making sure they were alone. When she saw Seiya run away and Usagi cry alone, she punched the wall she was leaning on. She was so frustrated at watching two people who clearly love each other not end up together. Her cell phone rang; Seiya was calling.
"I can't do this anymore. She can't love me." She could hear that he was trying to hide the fact that he was in pain. He had actually ran into an alley far away and slumped to the floor, dazed from the pain of his unrequited love.
"Why? What happened?" Naomi had an idea as to what Usagi had said to him but needed confirmation.
"I can't tell you but she just loves her boyfriend and they have a future together. I won't be a part of it. Thank you for trying to help me but… I just can't do this anymore." And he hung up.
She bit her lip. 'Now what?'
For the next couple of days, Seiya had avoided Usagi whenever he could. He no longer walked her to and from school (Naomi had started accompanying her again) and in class, he arrived early to claim his original desk back. They barely even talked to each other when they hung out with everyone. All of their friends noticed the sudden change in behaviour. Yaten had insensitively asked and made a comment at home one day only to earn a punch in the face. And Usagi just brushed it off whenever the girls asked. Even Mamoru noticed that their phone conversations were less lively but didn't know how to approach her about it.
"Usagi-san. You should tell Chiba-san about your feelings for Seiya-san." Naomi suggested at the end of the week when walking Usagi home.
She shook her head, "I can't do that. I don't want to bother him when he's studying."
"Aren't you lying to him then? How can you love someone if you're hiding something from them?"
Usagi stopped walking. Even though she realized that what Naomi said was correct, she was starting to get annoyed at this girl for being so nosy.
"I know you're trying to help but nothing will come out of it if I tell him. He'll just be upset." She balled her fists against her skirt, holding in her emotions.
"He seems like an understanding person and he loves you." Naomi turned to face her, smiled and cupped Usagi's cheeks in her hands. "Doesn't he deserve to know?"
Usagi had broken into tears as she fell to her knees. Naomi bent down and took the sobbing girls into her embrace.
"Shh… don't cry." She soothed, "You should call him right now and ask to meet him tomorrow morning at his place to tell him ok?" Usagi nodded and Naomi whipped out her cell phone to call him.
"Mamo-chan?" she sniffled.
"Usako are you alright?"
"Yes. I need to talk to you. Can I come over tomorrow morning?"
"Um… I have some work to do. Can't you tell me now?"
"It's better if I tell you in person though." She pleaded.
"Ok then." He wasn't sure what she wanted, but hearing her sound like that broke his heart.
"Ok I'll be there by 9am then. See you tomorrow Mamo-chan."
"See you tomorrow Usako." And they both hung up.
Usagi handed Naomi back her phone and got up off the floor. She smiled weakly at the other girl and thanked her for the suggestion to talk to him. They walked quietly back to her place and when she made sure Usagi was in her house, Naomi ran back to her apartment. She had a plan and she needed to act fast.
Mamoru was working at home when he got the call. After they hung up, he sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. 'She sounded like she's going to break up with me. No! I know she won't, we have a future together.' He couldn't concentrate on his studies anymore so he went to grab a drink from the fridge. He stood outside his balcony, looking at the setting sun. 'I love you so much Usako. Do you even love me the same way or have you fallen for Seiya?' And the more he thought about it, the angrier he got. After a while, he was standing beneath the starry night with the same thoughts running through his head.
The doorbell rang. It was dark out now so he wondered who it could be. He opened the front door… and then everything went black.
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