Chapter Thirty-One: A Date and a Mistake

Renly's Point of View

I am waiting after school for Loras. He has detention. I wanted to see him. I am holding a rose and a box of sweets. I glance at my watch. Any minute now.

Loras comes out. He spots me and runs over. I lift him up and hold him tight. He laughs. I kiss him and give him the flower and sweets.

"You are so thoughtful."

"You are so cute."

"What's the occasion?"

"Do I need an occasion to want to be with you?"

Loras shakes his head. I pick him up and carry him to my car. I open the door and put him inside. He laughs. I jump in. I drive us to the park. The ground has a light dusting if snow on the ground, and everything is still frozen.

I lead Loras to a gazebo near the lake. I have a picnic set up. He buttons the top button of his coat. I brought a portable heater if my little flower freezes.

"Renly, this is so romantic," Loras say.

"Good. Wine?"

"No, thank you."

"Apple juice?"

Loras laughs and nods. I pour him some in a wine glass and for myself. Our picnic consists of sandwiches and berries. I toss a berry in Loras's mouth.

"What's new?" I ask as we cuddle to eat and stay warm. Loras's hands are cold. I turn on the heater. It generates a low hum that can be tolerated.

"My new serving boy has a crush on me."

"Is that so?"

"Yes. This morning he was watching me sleep and he came to school today to serve me during lunch. I have to admit that was the best meal I ever ate at Winterfell."

"Hm, do I need to be suspicious?"

"I wouldn't worry. He seems harmless. Plus he's new. He needs the job. I can deal with a harmless crush."

"If he makes a move on you that's it," I say.

"Hey, I thought I was calling the shots this time?"

He's cute when he tries to be in charge. We finish eating and kiss in front of the heater. The next thing I know we are stripping each other. We roll around on the cold, hard ground groping and grabbing and kissing and bititng everything we could.

It is much warmer this way. Our bodies heating each other as I thrust in and out of my lover. He bucks and bends and arches with my movements. He kisses my neck and I release.

We lay side by side, naked after the lovemaking. Loras shivers. I pull a blanket over us. He kisses me. I hold my flower and give his shoulders a million kisses and nibbles. These are the sexiest shoulders in the world.

"I want you to come home with me for Christmas."

"I thought I was doing that already."

"Renly, I cannot bare the thought of us being parted again."

"We won't be, my flower. Wait, your parents aren't still holding their 'I can't touch you under their roof' rule are they?"

"Yes, but I will talk to them. You're still coming right?"

"Of course. Gendry is going to stay with Stannis."

"No. He can come. I want him to. He's my family too. He will be when we wed."

"He wants to stay close to his family for Christmas."

"Oh. Well I miss him already."

Loras moves a little to get warm. My arms encircle him. I will keep my flower nice and toasty. We have sex again. Loras let's me have the control. He likes it this way. I make his toes curl. He screams and comes all over me. I laugh.

"Excuse me," says someone. Loras and I immediately look up. Its a police officer. He doesn't look happy. He lets us get dressed before he talks to us. Loras shivers.

"You are the little prince," he says.

"That's me," Loras says.

"My prince, there is a law about public indecency."

"Don't I have diplomatic immunity?"

"You do, he doesn't."

They arrest me and take Loras to the police station too since I was his ride. We ride in the same squad car but Loras gets to sit up front and he doesn't have handcuffs.

At the police station they put me in a cell while they give Loras a blanket and a cup of hot coco. I roll my eyes. I love that boy, but this ridiculous.

Willas comes to bail us out. I find out he is really here to take Loras home. Loras shoots me an "I'm sorry look." I don't blame him for this. Willas could bail me out. Now I have to call Stannis.

The officer gives me a minute to use the phone as the female officers dolt upon what a sweet, charming boy Loras is. I swear that kid has magic.

"Stan, its Renly, I am in jail. Stop laughing. I need you to get me. No, you asshat, it wasn't for that. Loras is of consenting age. It was for having sex in public. Just come, please."

"You sicken me," says the officer.

"Why?"

"He is a sweet little prince, and you corrupted him. I bet that rendezvous in the gazebo was your idea."

"Yeah."

"I knew it."

"Prince Loras and I are in love."

"I am sure you are."

"What did you do with my car?" I ask.

"I was going to impound it, but the prince asked me not to. How could I say no. Its in the parking lot."

I love that boy.

"He's great."

"How old are you?"

"Twenty-One," I say.

"Yes, and that boy is seventeen. You sicken me."

Stannis gets here in time to shut the officer up. Stannis calls me an idiot and pays my bail. He whacks me in the head. I deserve that. I have to pay a fine that I am going to make Willas reimburse me for.

Stannis walks me outside.

"You are stupid," he says.

"I know."

"Grow up, Renly."

"Yeah yeah. I thought Loras would enjoy a picnick. I didn't think we would have sex."

"You never think, Renly."

I feel like crying. I drive away while Stannis is lecturing. I have to apologize to Loras. I drive to thr mansion. They recognize my car and I am let in the gate. The staff let me in.

I climb the stairs to Loras's floor. I don't remember which room is his. I spot a girl in the hallway and I ask her. But before I can go in Willas comes out of Loras's room. He stops me.

"You're an ass," Willas says.

"I'm sorry. I didn't think we would get caught."

"You put my little brother in a bad situation because of your stupidity. Thankfully Loras was charming enough to persuade those officers not to report that he was there. And you think you're ready to be a member of this family."

"Fuck you, okay. I love Loras. I wanted to show him a nice time. I didn't know the cops were going to come. When I fell in love with Loras I didn't know what I was getting myself into. I don't want to be part of your family, Willas."

"Well, newsflash, marrying my little brother will make you part of this family, unless you make him move here and take your name."

I stay quiet with that one.

"You're a real piece of work, Renly. A real peice of work. You want a marry my brother, you're going to have to prove your worthy, you stupid ass."

"You can't call off this wedding," I shout.

"Watch me."

I want to hit him. Loras opens his door. He's got tears in his eyes. My heart falls into my kneecaps.

"You don't want to be part of my family?" Loras asks. Now my heart is breaking. I am an idiot. Loras slaps me. I deserve that.

"I love you," I tell him.

"I don't believe you anymore," he says.

Now I feel like crying.

"Loras. My flower."

He stops. He turns to face me. There is hurt in those brown eyes. I am an ass. How could I say that? Of course I want to be his family. I love him.

"I want you to leave," Loras says.

"My flower, please. I didn't mean it. Of course I want be your family."

"Get out!"

Willas makes me leave. Margaery looks away from me in shame. I hurt her too. My little princess. I didn't mean it. I was just angry. Stannis is right. I was wrong. Loras didn't need to grow up for this relationship, I did.

Willas walks me outside.

"I will do anything, Willas. You have to help me."

"Winning Loras back over is your task only, but I can help you learn to be part of this family."

"Why would you help me?"

"Because I believe in this relationship."

My natural reaction would be to drink myself into a stuper and have sex with Oberyn. Not today. I seek out the single person who can help me win Loras back over. Robb's truck is in the drive way. That means he is home.

I knock on the door. Robb answers. He invites me in. He was doing homework and feeding Tor. Grey Wind is napping on the couch. I take off my shoes by the door.

"I am an idiot."

"What did you do?" Robb asks as he feeds Torrhen mashed spinach.

I tell him everything. I sit at the end of the table while I tell him. Robb looks mad when I finish. I don't blame him.

"You're an ass. A big ass. I can't look at you right now."

"I know! Robb, you have to help me."

"Why should I? You broke Loras and Margaery's hearts because you were angry at Willas."

"Please. I am desperate."

"He is my best friend."

"I know!"

"No! You don't know. You don't know anything. I would give my right nut to be part of that family. Loras has been like a brother to me since the day we met. I never expected to enter his world, but I fell in love with him, not in the romantic sense. Margaery is a bonus. She is a strong-willed girl and I love her too. You hurt them both. I am sorry, but I cannot help you. Get out."

"Robb, please. You're my only hope."

He considers it for a moment. I know he hurts. He hurts for Loras and Margaery. I feel like a total ass. He looks away from me. I realize he isn't going to help me.

"If you want to win Loras back you have to win Margaery," Robb says. I kook at him, but he won't meet my eyes.

"How do I do that?"

"You're kidding yourself if you think I am going to tell you. And don't bother asking Sansa or Meera for help. Now get out. I have to feed my son and then go pick up the pieces of Loras's broken heart."

"Robb, I'm sorry."

"Tell it to someone who cares. I asked you not to hurt him. One more thing. It wasn't Loras who was the problem. It was you."

I leave. I should have known Robb wouldn't help me. I am a big, big, idiot. With no hope left I sob. I get a text message from Willas.

Willas: You're a dumb ass. But I take some of the responsibility I pushed you into saying that. I'm going to help you.

Me: I am a dumb ass. Robb was no help. No. The fault was mine. Thanks, but I want to figure this out on my own.

Willas: Good luck. Robb is loyal, you're stupid for thinking he'd help you.

I go home. I sit on my couch and cry. My little cat even rejects me. I squeeze my pillow and sob into it. I lay there for several hours. Gendry is at his job. So I am all alone here.

After a couple hours someone knocks on the door. I get up and answer it expecting Stannis or Brienne. Its Loras. My heart jumps in excitement.

"What are you doing here?"

"I am still very mad at you. But I want to talk."

"Does Willas know you're here?"

"I had Robb bring me."

"Come in," I say. Loras steps inside.

"I love you, Renly. I want to be part of your family."

"I want to be part of yours."

"Shut up and let me speak. If you want out of this relationship tell me. We will take marriage off the table and go our separate ways."

"What? No. I don't want out of this relationship."

"Then why would you say something so horrible?"

"Because I'm stupid."

"That's true. You are."

"Is there anyway I can make it up to you?"

"I need some time."

"I can do that."

"Don't get a hold of me. I will contact you."

"Loras."

"No. I am calling the shots. Give me some time."

I step back. I see tears in his eyes. It breaks my heart that I hurt him. He leaves. I will fix this. I will.