Chapter Thirty-Six: Playing With Renly

Loras's Point of View

I am sitting with Robb. Torrhen is crawling around on the floor by his ankles. According to Meera, Torrhen started crawling yesterday. Robb never told me.

"Maybe I should go home," Robb says.

"No. Don't do that. I want you here."

I rub my face where Robb accidentally punched me in the eye. My glasses are broken. I left the other pair at Renly's. Robb is a little blurry this morning.

"I am sorry about your glasses."

"It's alright. You really need to work on your jealousy."

"Loras, that jerk kissed my girlfriend."

"True. But notice she didn't kiss him back."

"No, Torrhen, that's not food. Put it down."

Robb chases his son to get back his belt that the little thing is trying to chew on. Tor cries until Ghost comes out of nowhere and sniffs him. Ghost's wet snout makes Tor giggle. Robb pats Ghost on the head.

"Why does he follow you around he's not your dog?"

"Because I am his brother," Robb says squatting to hug and nuzzle Ghost.

I do not get what he means. How can he be a brother to a dog? There is something very Jon-like in Ghost's eyes. Maybe I am just imaging it.

Robb catches Torrhen as he tries to crawl under the bed. He tickles him and Tor giggles. I smile watching them interact. Meera comes in. There is a red mark on her face.

"Robb, I am sorry."

"Don't worry about it. Its not you I am mad at."

"I need to tell you something."

Robb looks at me. I take that as my cue to exit. Ghost follows me. He walks down the corridor toward Jon's room. I run into Aegon. I cannot believe he actually kissed Meera. I should be mad at him. In fact, I think I am mad at him.

"Hi, I was coming to see you," he says. He is almost too beautiful to be angry at.

"Well, I am mad at you."

"I crossed a line. I'm sorry. I wanted to kiss her. I guess Stark's reaction was justified. Let me make it up to you," he says. He is so glamorous. Its as if light fragments have crystallized around him making him appear to sparkle. I blink to get over the image.

He gives me a hug. If this is his idea of making up to me he's an idiot. He may be beautiful, but he cannot win me over this way.

"Look, Robb is my best friend. I am always going to take his side."

"Fair enough."

He moves closer to me. I hold up my hand. I know what he is doing. This is a not a game.

"No. Stop."

"What is you think I am doing?" Aegon asks kindly.

"I thought you were going to kiss me."

"No. I don't kiss men."

"Then, I don't understand."

"I was going to pull an eye lash off your cheek. Its been driving me crazy. And offer to let you sleep over."

Now I am the idiot. Aegon at least has the decency not to laugh at me. I feel embarrassed. He is smiling. He takes it as a joke.

"It's okay, Loras."

"Really?"

"Of course. I get why you're mad. You're jealous."

"What?"

"Its okay. I am flattered. I think its sweet. Of course, now when you sleep over you have to sleep on the couch. I can't exactly let you in my bed now."

"What are talking about?"

"Don't be shy. I am sorry I kissed Meera in front of you. I didn't know how you felt. I just hope you're okay."

"What?"

"Are we still friends?"

"I guess so."

"Good. I will see you later. We need to talk about you sleeping over."

He walks away. What was that? I am so confused. I am so lost in processing that conversation that I walk in on Jon with his hands wrapped around a boy. They are kissing so fiercely I fear they're going to catch fire.

"I missed you," breathes the boy. Jon squeezes his ass. The boy moans into Jon's mouth as a wild animal comes out Jon. Its almost wolfish. Their kissing gets fifteen times hotter. I feel my palms heating up.

Now I get what Renly meant. Jon pushes the boy, who I see is Satin, into a dark space away from guard eyes. I follow them eager to see what's happening. In the shadows, Jon takes Satin.

It looks rough, from what little I can see. I wish my glasses were not broken. Satin's clawing Jon's back as their lips meet in a sexy tango to the dangerously wolf-like movements of their bodies. Jon bites Satin and he kisses him to stop him from screaming.

I feel my trousers getting tighter and my body heat increasing. I rub my legs together, but that does nothing. I stick my hand into my pants. Satin grunts, and Jon howls. His back is bleeding where Satin scratched him.

I finish when they do. Jon rolls off Satin, kisses his neck and lies down. Both men are panting. Satin is still half tumescent. Jon gives it a squeeze with his fingers and it erupts like a volcano.

"I forgot how good you are," says Satin.

Jon's growing firm again. I do not think I could stand to watch another round. I finally understand what Renly meant. I have to find Renly. I changed my mind. I do not want him cuddling with Jon.

I push what Aegon said to the back of my mind and head for Renly's suite. He is not there. A guard says he is attending prince lessons with Willas.

Now who am I going to talk too? Aegon is confusing, Robb is with Meera, and Renly is occupied. I think of Margaery. My feet drag me to her room. I hear sobbing.

Margaery's door is locked. I know how to get in. I use a secret passage way. I step into her closet. I push the secret door shut and walk to the closet door. My sister is crying. When I get in I realize why. She tried to dye her hair herself and it came out blonde.

"Margaery, what did you do?"

"I'm ugly," she cries.

"Impossible."

"It wasn't supposed to be blonde. Now I am ugly."

"Margaery, you could never be ugly."

"You have to say that, you're my brother."

She climbs in bed and sobs into her sheets. I sit on the side of her bed and stroke her now blonde head. I wish I knew how to make this better. I need someone not related to her to tell her she is beautiful. That leaves Aegon, Robb, and Renly.

"Why did you dye your hair?" I ask.

"I thougt it would make boys like me. If I don't want Mother to marry me off to Robb, I need to attract a boy on my own."

"Why would Mum marry you to Robb? He has no status. She meant to marry you to Aegon. She wants to marry Robb to one of our cousins the one who is seventeen and pregnant. You misunderstood."

"I don't want to marry Aegon. I would rather marry Robb."

"Why would you think she meant Robb?"

"I don't know."

I pet my sweet sister's hair. I cannot believe she dyed her hair blonde. It sort of gives her an identity of her own. She looks less like me.

I try to make my sister feel better. I turn on the radio and dance with her to the first song that plays. Hearing her giggle warms my heart. After our dance I convince my sister to come to lunch. We walk here hand in hand.

I sit by Renly who tells me that Brienne is coming and he loves me. He hands me a rose he made out of paper. I kiss him. Robb and Meera are missing from the meal. I look at Aegon. He shrugs. Jon has no idea either.

I sit down, Renly pulls me onto his lap. I am not in the mood to be playful. I am worried about Robb. I eat my meal, but I cannot get Robb ot of my mind. Worrying about along with the fact that I have not been able to see all day, I am starting to get a headache.

Renly walks me back to my suite after lunch so I could put in my contacts only to find that my dad had new glasses made for me. I put them on.

"Cute," says Renly kissing my nose. I push away his advance.

"What's bothering you, my flower?" Renly asks, trying to get friendly. He touches my face. I push his hand away.

"Robb wasn't at lunch."

"Your dad banned him."

"I know but Meera should have been there."

"Loras, stop worrying. I am sure they're fine." He nibbles on my ears.

"No. I don't want to right now."

"Come on, I want to play," he pulls me in close.

"No."

"If you're that worried, we will have to pay Robb a visit," Renly says, "but you to kiss me first."

I kiss him. He tries to grab my crotch. I slap his hand.

"The things I do for you," He says. He carries me to Robb's room on his back. I giggle the whole time. I knock on the door. It takes a moment for Robb to answer. When he does his face is puffy and red and he sniffles.

"What's going on are you okay?" I ask.

"This isn't a good time, look, um...we need to be alone. I'm sorry."

"But, I just..."

"We'll talk later. I promise."

He shuts the door in my face. That was random. I wonder what's going on. Renly takes me back to my suite. He tosses me down on the hed and crawls in beside me.

"I'm not in the mood," I say.

"I know. Let's talk."

I roll over and face him. Renly kisses my nose. He talks about my feelings. Sometimes I think he knows me better than I know myself. He talks about what he wants to name our first child.

"You've actually thought about that?" I ask.

"Of course. We'll call her 'Arbella'."

"So we're adopting a girl?"

"Yes. We'll have five daughters."

I laugh.

"When are we adopting the first one?" I ask.

"After our fifth anniversary. I figured we would settled in the marriage by then."

I straddle him. He looks at me. I kiss him slowly. He kisses back. We kiss long and slow. When our lips part Renly touhes his mouth.

"What was thst for?"

"I love our future," I tell him. Only, could we have a couple boys?"

"Wecan have whatever you want," Renly pulls my shirt off over my bed and kisses me deeply. I ride him like a horse. He grunts a few time, but says he likes it. As he pushes deeper inside me, I grind against him as hard as I can.

We end quickly both spent. Renly slaps my bare butt. I laugh. He tugs at my curls and bites my neck so hard he draws blood.

"I love you," I tell him, running my fingers through his hair.

"I love you too, now get over here." He takes me roughly. Our sex has been more aggressive of late. I am not sure how I like it. Its all because I wanted to compete with Renly's feelings for Jon.

I cry after the sex. Renly holds me, but that only makes us want each other more. Renly pulls me in close. His hands are touching me everywhere. I wrapped my legs around him and beg him to take me again.

"Does my flower need water?"

"Yes," I breathe seductively. And he gives it.

Renly and I take a shower together afterwards, but its chaste. We splash around and kiss, but we are both so physically exhausted we do not make love in the shower. Renly kisses my shoulder.

"I want to give you the world," he says kissing my cheek and neck as hot water washes over us. "I want you to have everything." His around me from the back.

"I only want you."

"Hmmm. You can have me."

And he finds it in him to take me again, gently and sensually. I moan as I give in. I come early all over the shower floor renly releases inside me.

"Let's go downstairs and hang out with everyone else."

"Okay."

Renly carries me. We dress separately. Renly gives me a ride on his back down stairs. He says I am not very heavy. Being with Renly has pushed Robb from my mind.

I hug Renly's neck as I ride on his back. He laughs. I push my new glasses upcmy face and tell Renly to go faster.