Chapter Thirty-Seven: Plastic Trains

Robb's Point of View

Its been a few days since Meera gave me the news. She went to a doctor a few weeks ago because she thought she was pregnant. It turns out she can't get pregnant. Well she could but the chances are slim. I believe the doctor said 20%.

We didn't want kids right away, but I always thought they would be in our future. Meera and I spent the night together that night, crying and holding each other.

The next morning, she broke up with me. I haven't moved from my bed in a couple days. Margaery is watching Tor for me. I roll over and squeeze my pillow. Tears have made my pillow wet. It still smells like Meera.

I miss her. She broke up with me because she said I deserve someone who can give me everything. I don't want that. I just want her. I scream into the pillow as more tears come.

My door swings open. In comes Jon and Margaery. Margaery doesn't have Tor with her. Grey Wind jumps on my bed and licks the tears off my face. He arrived with Brienne yesterday.

"Get out of this bed!" Snaps Margaery.

"Go away."

"No. You have moped around here for too long. You haven't showered or accepted meals. This room stinks, and you look awful, get up or I will force you," says Margaery.

"Mags," I begin.

"Don't Mags me, Robb Stark. Get out of this bed, clean up and get Meera back."

Jon snaps his fingers and Gendry and Loras come in. Loras hands Tor to Margaery. She leaves. The three guys get me out of bed. Jon forces me out of my clothes. Gendry and Loras frog march me to the shower.

"She doesn't want me back," I say as cold water stings my skin but when I reach for the hot Gendry smacks my hand.

"You don't know that. You're going to try. I have never known you to give up," says Jon.

I look at Loras. He meets my eyes, but only for a second. I pat his head.

"Do you want to see her with Aegon?" Loras asks.

"Why did something happen?"

"No, but it could," Loras says.

I won't have it. Aegon has another thing coming if he thinks he can have Meera. I kick the guys out. When I step out I shave. My room is being cleaned by the maids. Gendry, Loras, and Jon are waiting for me.

"Am I worthy of love?" I ask wanting to crawl back in bed and mope. Loras punches me. I deserve that.

"Stop it! Don't feel sorry for yourself. Get out of this room and get her back!"

I gape at Loras. I have never seen him this assertive. The way his face is scrunched in anger looks exactly like Margaery right now. I smile. He is not happy with me.

"Okay, keep your wig on."

Loras smiles. I hug him. He seems surprised. I put a big wet kiss on his cheek that makes him blush.

"I have to get my girl back. Any ideas?"

"That you have to figure out on your own," says Jon.

I punch Jon's shoulder. He grins. I get dressed. The maids try not to pay attention as I dress. Loras says Margaery picked out my clothes. I look in the mirror. The denim jeans and collared shirt with pin stripes definitely scream Margaery's work. If it had been Loras, my pants would be tight and my shirt would be made of silk.

I gell my hair. Loras unbuttons the top couple buttons of my shirt. I spray on some cologne. I smell better than I have in days.

I walk down to Meera's suite. I knock on the door. I anticipate what I want to say. I decide to just kiss her when she opens the door.

"Come in," says Meera.

She is sitting with Aegon when I come in. Aegon is touching her. He is laughing with her. He is looking at her the way I look at her. I feel stupid. Of course she would move on.

"Robb," Meera says. She hugs me. I could melt. I sniff her hair and feel the love I bear her coursing through my veins. So I do it. I kiss her. She kisses me back more from instinct than love. I stop.

"No."

"Why don't you love me?" I ask.

"I do. Robb, I love you so much. I always have."

I put my hands on her face.

"Then why would you tear out my heart?"

"I can't give you what you need."

"What I need is you. I need you to be the mother of my son. I need you to be mine forever and always. I need these eyes to give me hope, and these arms to hold me. I need these lips to love me and this body to keep me warm. I need you."

Meera hugs me again.

"I love you, Robb. I just don't want you to end up hating me because I can't give you a son."

"I have a son."

I can feel myself losing her. I have to try harder. I kiss her again. If I can't explain my love, I will prove it. I would mary her now if she were eighteen. I get on one knee.

"Meera Reed, I have loved you since I was old enough to like girls. I spent many years of my childhood wishing you liked me too. I used to dream of marrying you. I wrote your name all over my stuff as a kid. I couldn't imagine spending my life without you. Will you be marry me someday?"

I kiss her hands. Meera is crying. I stand up and kiss her cheek. She holds me. I need her.

"No. I can't."

"Meera."

"I love you, Robb, but you deserve better than me."

"No. That's not true. There is nothing better."

"You're trying to tell me you would be happy not having anymore children?"

I haven't thought about it. I wanted a big family. But I have loved Meera my whole life.

"Twenty percent is still a number. If you're willing to try so am I?"

She smiles.

"You think it could happen someday?"

"Twenty percent? I like a challenge."

Meera grins. Aegon scoffs. Eat your heart out. Meera accepts. I am so happy I could sing. In fact, I do. Meera kicks Aegon out. He comes back and kisses her. I shove him.

"Stop it," Meera says.

"I can't believe you would choose him."

"Believe it," I say holding my girl.

"What about last night?" Aegon says.

"What happened last night?" I ask looking at Meera.

"Its nothing, Robb. It meant nothing."

"What happened last night? I am not asking again."

"We did it," Aegon says almost proudly.

I release Meera.

"You slept with that?"

"Hey," Aegon says.

"If I were you, I wouldn't speak," I say to him.

"I was upset, Robb. He comforted me."

"Why did you need comfort? You broke up with me."

Aegon grinned. I am going to kill him.

"It was one time."

"Actually it was three times in one night," says Aegon.

"Shut up, or I will hurt you."

"Robb, please. Don't be mad."

I am not mad, I am furious. Loras said nothing happened. If he knew about this and lied he's in trouble. "Also, I had sex with your sister," Aegon says. I punch him. I punch him a second time for Sansa and a third time to make myself feel better.

"We're done" I tell Aegon, "You come near me, I will hurt you. Don't even breathe the same air as me. And you, I love you. I will always love you. But you have a choice. Me or that?" I say pointing to Aegon.

"You. I choose you. I love you."

"Don't touch me, I am still mad at you."

I leave without kissing her. I am so mad I feel like throwing up. Loras is waiting outside Meera's room with Torrhen, Margaery, and Grey Wind. I pat my dog on the head and kiss my son. I give Margaery a quick peck on the lips the way I would kiss my mother.

"Robb?"

"She fucked Aegon," I say.

I feel drunk even though I am not.

"I am so sorry."

"Did you know?" I ask.

"No."

I rub my son's head. I stumble past them wishing I had alcohol. I need to talk to someone. I choose Margaery over Loras. I grab her by the hand. She brings Tor. Grey Wind follows wagging his tail.

I kick out all of Margaery's handmaids. I shut the door. I collapse on her bed. She puts Tor in the makeshift play pin she created to let him run around Grey Wind watches him.

She puts a pillow under my head and sings to comfort me. When her song is over I watch her. She looks so much like Loras.

"Meera only did it with him last night," she confirms. She lies next to me and puts her head on the pillow next to mine. I put one arm behind my head and look at her. Her resemblance to Loras is uncanny, yet she is so feminine.

"You knew?"

"Why do you think I got you out of bed?"

"How do I forgive her, Mags?"

"Love her."

"That's easy. I already do. But she slept with him."

Margaery looks saddened by that. If he slept with her too I might have to punch him again.

"Mother wanted to marry me to Aegon not you."

"I see. Do you like him?"

She shakes her head.

"I don't easily fall for boys."

I laugh. "Sometimes, I wonder if it would be simpler to fall in love wih the same sex. You know, less dramatic."

"Its a lot of fun, for me at least."

"Loras and Renly are so cute I could cry. I wish I had that."

I pull an eye lash off Margaery's cheek.

"You do have that. You and Meera are just like that."

"We were happy. We were damn happy. She likes him, Mags."

"I know she does. She tells me everything. She likes you more. She talks about how she tries to be a girl worthy of someone as special as you."

I laugh, "There is nothing special about me."

She touches my face.

"You're wrong about that."

I smile. I kiss Margaery's cheek. She continues about how insecure Meera is in the relationship. She thinks I am going to leave her. Hearing all of this makes me want to be with Meera more.

I get up. I feel better about things because of Margaery. I give her a peck on the lips, a little less innocently than before. I take my son and go back to my room. Grey Wind stays with Margaery.

I stop. I forgot to tell Margaery something. When I come back in she is changing. I turn red when my eyes spot her bare chest. Her breast are there in front of me, ripe and full. I look away.

"I am sorry."

"Did you need something?"

"Just to say, you deserve better than Aegon. You need a man not a boy. If you want one. Or a woman. It doesn't matter. I am going to leave now."

I leave. I don't look back. Note to self: Always knock. Margaery didn't look like Loras then, not in the least possible way. I carry Torrhen back to my room. He keeps playing wih my curls.

"Daddy just saw Aunt Margaery naked."

Gods, I had no idea she looked like that. I push her image out of my mind as I focus on Meera. I want her. I put Tor down on the floor and let him crawl around. I roll a train to him. He hits me with it. I deserve that.

"Meera would be a good mommy for you."

But gods, Margaery's breasts. Torrhen hits me with the train again. I deserve that too. He is trying to knock some sense into me. I change his diaper, but he keeps trying to crawl away.

"Sit still, I don't want poop everywhere." Torrhen laughs. "Its not funny."