I do not own Twilight ~ Stephanie Meyers is the owner. This is just fan fiction.

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ALL HUMAN: Bella is kidnapped and wakes up to find herself chained to a wall in the bedroom. Who is this man who kidnapped her? He looks familiar, has he been stalking her? Does she know him? What does he want with her? Will she ever escape?

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MANY THANKS TO MY AWESOME BETA Liv16, what would I do without her?

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CH5 ~ Gaining Your Trust

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Lemon Warning - Rape and Violence in flashbacks

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BPOV

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The sunlight hits my face and I stretch out, but then I remember last night. He knew I saw him jerking off. SHIT! What will he say? What am I going to say? While it was rather sexy, it still doesn't mean a thing, I need to get out of here.

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I grab some clothes and quickly get in the shower. I enjoy the hot water running down my body, but know I have to get out and get dressed. I am not looking forward to seeing Jasper right now. I turn off the water and dry up. "Bella, I am in the bedroom. I'm just getting my clothes and making the bed."

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FUCK! All right, I'll just avoid eye contact with him. Please God, let him think it was just an old house making noise. I walk out and look everywhere but at him. "I'm going to shower, I just hope you don't get a knife and try to kill me while I'm in the shower. My brothers won't find me till tonight." He chuckles and I walk out of the room quickly.

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I take a chance and see if the front door is unlocked, but it's not and he has that stupid key. So I decide to start making breakfast. Granted I am not a great cook, but simple scrambled eggs and toast I can do. I can handle making coffee too. I hear him walk into the dining room and take a seat. "So you're making me breakfast, this is a nice change." I nod, "Well, don't expect gourmet, I'm not that great of a cook."

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I can feel his eyes on me, "Please stop, I know you're studying my every move again." He is starting off the day annoying me. "Well well, Bella, I would think after you seeing me in the nude last night, you would at least let me watch you with your clothes on." I stop and I'm scared. "I... didn't... I heard my name... I... um." I can't speak I am so embarrassed and scared. What is he going to make me do. Is he going to expect the same from me? Is this how it starts?

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"Relax Bella, I just want to know one thing." Oh God, Oh God. "Did you like what you saw? Was it impressive?" I almost drop another plate.

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I want to say yes, I want to say that it looked bigger than Eric's and that is was sexy to see him cum and call out my name. But I refuse to say that, I can't say that. "Come one, Bella, I want to know if my wife likes my equipment."

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"I will not answer that. I really didn't see much, I just figured it out and the floor creaked."

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"Well, then why won't you look at me?" He chuckles. "I think you liked what you saw and you don't want to admit it."

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I put the plates on the table, and purposely stare at his eyes and then eat my breakfast. He laughs hard. I basically ignore him all breakfast, but he just stares at me and I can tell he's smiling and enjoying my embarrassment. "You want to clean the bathroom and I'll clean the kitchen?" he asks. I jump up, "I'll the clean the bathroom." And I almost run out. He laughs so hard and I want to die.

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I go in the bathroom and it has his smell all over, I inhale and then want to smack myself. I take out the cleanser and spray it all over and start wiping the tiles and tub down. I rinse it off with water, he is so fucking anal about cleaning.

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I come out of the bedroom and see that front door is open. This is it. "Jasper." I call out, but he is nowhere to be found, so I bolt out and I hear "Bella." I run and run as fast as I my legs will let me. I don't know where I am or where I am going. FUCK! But I keep running. He is going to get me and punish me, this was stupid. I see a house and run faster towards it.

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He said his brothers live nearby, but what if he was lying? I have to try, but I see a man come out of the house and he looks right at me, he drops his phone and runs for me. I try to stop and run the other way, but he runs in front of me and grabs me. I kick him hard in the leg and run. That only stops him for a minute, he starts to run after me and tackles me to the ground. He is trying to pull me up, but I trying to punch and kick him, "Please you will hurt yourself, please stop." I am crying and trying to get away, he is hurting my arms. I call for the only person I can rely on right now, "Jasper. Please help me."

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"Bella, it's okay, I am here." He says and places his hand on my shoulder. "Edward, I've got her now. Thanks." And he pulls me into his arms, I am so tired from running, I practically collapse in his arms. "What happened Jasper?" his brother asks .

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"I left the stupid door open." He sighs. I freak out, he is going to punish me. "She could have run off or got lost, you are lucky I was here." His brother yells at him. "I know, I know." Jasper says back. I start to cry even harder. "Please don't hurt me, please I am sorry." Jasper holds me tight and rubs my head, "I am not going to hurt you Bella." He guides me along back to the house and when I see it I start to sob. Why did I run? Why didn't I wait to pick a better time? He says he is not mad, but I know he is. Eric always said he wouldn't hurt me, but when I least expected he did. I don't want to go in afraid of what he might do. Jasper picks me up, "I said I wouldn't hurt you and I meant it."

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He brings me in the house and puts me on the couch, and then locks the door. He goes in the kitchen to get a glass of water and sits next to me. "You need to drink this Bella, please." I hesitate, but am quite thirsty and drink it almost all down. He takes the glass away and hugs me, then lays down on the couch forcing me to lay on his side. I am all tense, afraid of what he might do, but he just rubs my arm and head. I feel myself relaxing more and more into his touch and feel my eyes get heavy.

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JPOV

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While she is in the bathroom, I decide to go out and get some more firewood, I figure she'll be in there for a while, she was pretty embarrassed about last night. I smile and chuckle, I wonder how much of me she saw and if she really liked it. I hear her call my name, SHIT! Then I see her running, I drop the wood and shout her name. "BELLA!" I am pissed, pissed that she could get hurt or lost running around out here, she doesn't have shoes on.

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She was running towards Edwards place, I pulled out my phone as I ran, he picked up. "She's got out and is running towards you, please stop her but don't scare her." I see her running towards Edward's house, but when he comes out and runs towards her she flips. I can see it in her body, she tries to get away, but he grabs her. She kicks him hard, she's a fighter, I love it. He gets her again, but they fall and she is hysterical, then she calls for me, my heart breaks and melts at the same time. "Jasper. Please help me."

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"Bella, it's okay, I am here." I gently touch her shoulder and she calms down a little. "Edward, I got her now. Thanks." And I pull her to me, she is so tired and scared she almost falls. I have to hold her up. "What happened Jasper?" Edward asks, annoyed at me.

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"I left the stupid door open." I sigh, "She could have run off or got lost, you are lucky I was here." Edward snaps at me, "I know, I know." I say back, believe me, I know. She thinks I am mad at her, "Please don't hurt me, please I am sorry." I hold her and rub her head, "I am not going to hurt you Bella." I guide her back to our house, but as we get closer, she starts to sob. She still thinks I am going to hurt her. I can feel her struggling to get away, she is so scared, "I said I wouldn't hurt you and I meant it. I am mad, because you could have gotten hurt or lost."

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I bring her into the house sit her on the couch and lock the door. I get her a glass of water and sit next to her, "You need to drink this Bella, please." She hesitates, then drinks most of the water, I take the glass away. I sit back down next to her and lay down on the couch, pulling her into my side. She tenses up and I can see she is afraid that I will make her do something. But I just rub her head and arm, she slowly relaxes into me and falls asleep in my arms. I can't help but start to drift off too.

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I must have fallen into a deep sleep, because I feel groggy when she moves and stretches. I watch her stretch enjoying the closeness of her warm body next to mine. I rub her head and arm again and then kiss her forehead. She puts her hand on my chest and looks up at me. I want to pull her flat on me and kiss her, I want to feel her warm body on mine as I kiss her. But I know she will freak, so I take a breath and throw my head back to control myself. She suddenly sits up and I can see she is crying. "Bella, what happened, did I do something?" maybe she didn't like the kiss on the forehead, it wasn't aggressive. What did I do? Instead of answering me, she wipes her tears, "Was that your brother?" I sigh, what did I do? "Yeah, that's Edward, he looks like he's pissed all the time, but that's just his face. Emmett and I always tease him that he has a perpetual constipated look."

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She nods, but doesn't look at me. She gets up and takes the glass into the kitchen and washes it out. I watch her from the couch. Did she want me to kiss her? If I did, then she would have freaked out. I am so fucking confused.

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"Bella, do you want to go down to the basement to finish some laundry and work out for bit?" she nods and waits for me to open the door. I let her walk down first, while we are down there I show her some more equipment and we finish some laundry. I then explain how I have organized the stockpile of food and freezer items down here. She nods and listens, but has not really looked at me since we cuddled on the couch. I want to ask her if she wanted me to kiss her, but she tried to get away from me. I am thoroughly fucking confused. Then my stomach growls.

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I realize that it is past lunch time, "Why don't we have lunch and then make start on the chicken parm and sauce after that. The pasta can be made last minute." She nods again and walks ups the stairs.

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I take out the cold cuts, bread, mayo and mustard and put it on the table. She grabs the water, glasses and fruit. I sit down and spread mayo and mustard on the bread. Bella is just watching me and smiling, okay this is good. Now, I hate mustard, but maybe it will taste better with mayo, plus she must be happy that I am trying something she likes. I take a bite and want to throw up. It is fucking disgusting, how can she eat this. Her smile widens and she holds out her hand, "I'll eat it, you make yourself another sandwich." I laugh at myself, "Thanks Bella." and grab her hand and kiss it. She turns her face, but I can tell she is hiding a big smile.

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She scoops some fruit on my plate then hers, I just smile at her. I love these little moments with her, it makes this all worth it. After we clean up, I explain to her how we are going to make chicken Parmiganafor tonight. I model for her how to get one chicken cutlet done and set it in the pan for later. I want to get them ready and then we just stick them in the oven and bake them. Then I let her take over, while I get started on the sauce. I like for it to simmer for a few hours, it always comes out better that way. I watch her and can't help but feel a sense of pride, she is in our kitchen making dinner for my family. There is nothing better than that.

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After we are done, we watch some TV, she lets me sit next to her. I really wanted to lay down with her again, but I was afraid I would fuck up again. She starts to look around, "You know, if you rip down the walls in the kitchen it would make it bigger and then the dining room would look bigger too. You could see right into the living room, since this place is a big square. Then if you decide to open the den slash office on the right and the bedroom on the left, you could see everyone in the house." I love watching her talk, she is so motivated and beautiful. I really try to focus on what she is saying and not her lips or breasts. "Where would the bedroom go?" I ask. "Didn't you say you wanted to put bedrooms on the top floor?" I smile at her, "Does this mean you are happy to stay?" She glares at me, but I can tell she is fighting a smile, "No, I am just giving you my opinion." I chuckle at her, "Okay."

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"What about the colors?" I ask, wanting to hear more of her talking, I love listening to her. She looks around, "If it were me, I would choose earthy neutral tones, so you can change the accents as often as you would like. These white walls are really bad, but this forest green couch is perfect. Perhaps you can do taupe walls with accent walls of green and brown." I laugh, "If it were you? Hmmmm, well, I have to start looking into that." She smiles, but tries to hide it again. We sit back and watch more TV, before we knew it, it was time to get ready and start baking the chicken.

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BPOV

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I hear a knock at the door and I get nervous, I really don't want to see his brother Edward after what happened before. He unlocks it and in walks this tall woman, she has long blond hair and is beyond beautiful, she smiles at me but doesn't move. I know Edward is the younger brother, so I am assuming that she is younger too, but she looks older. She has that dramatic make-up look, she must be a pro at that type of stuff. Then in walks Edward, he is the same height as her. He is just as handsome as Jasper, but not more than Jasper. I laugh inside, he really does look constipated. I didn't realize that until now. His hair is an unusual bronze color and it's obviously styled to look that type of messy. It must have taken hours to get it that way. He slips an arm around his wife's waist and they walk in together.

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"This is my brother Edward and his wife Rosalie." Jasper says, they walk towards me. They both smile at me, Edward says, "Welcome to the family." Then he brings a tray he was carrying which I didn't notice at first into the kitchen. Jasper relocked the door, but as he walks away, there is another knock.

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He does the whole unlock thing to let in a woman who is a little shorter than me, she has short spiky hair and the biggest smile I have ever seen. She is almost jumping up and down, she has more a natural make-up look, which is better seeing as she is much tinier. Too much make-up wouldn't look good on her. Then walks in his brother Emmett, I start to feel very nervous. He is big and tall, but next to Alice, he looks monstrous. He is taller than Jasper, but almost twice as tall as his wife. They are an odd couple with huge ass smiles. "This is my brother Emmett and his wife Alice." Jasper says and relocks the door again. This is getting old and annoying. What am I going to do with all his family here?

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Alice almost runs over to me and hugs me, I am not prepared for that. "I am so happy to finally meet you, Jasper has talked about you for such a long time. I knew you were even prettier than he described." She says everything so fast, it almost merges into one long word. I just stare at her, she is too fucking happy to be normal. What does she take? Emmett comes behind her and puts his monster hand on her shoulder, "Alice is always like this, she never runs out of energy or happiness. She has a bad mean streak, but usually it's just with me." He laughs and it's so loud, it's like he has a microphone in his mouth. The sound reverberates around the room, and makes me feel as though I'm in the middle of an earthquake.

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"Well that's because of the things you do Emmett." Rosalie laughs at him and Edward runs a hand through his hair, keeping the messy look in place and laughs along too.

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Jasper comes out with glasses and wine and starts pouring, he hands me a glass and kisses me on the cheek. I want to punch him in the gut, but think with his family here that might not go down too well. He winks at me, as he knows I'm pissed.

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"The chicken parm is almost done, why don't we have some salad now?" Jasper asks and his brothers and wives sit around the table. Jasper sits on the end near the kitchen and motions for me to sit next to him on his right. Rosalie sits across from me and Edward next to her, Emmett is on the end and Alice next to me. Just great, her smile is boring into my skin.

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"So, I think now is a good time to tell embarrassing stories about Jasper as a kid, he did do it to us in front of Alice and Rosalie." Emmett says and then pulls out a list, as does Edward. Jasper just glares at them, Rosalie and Alice roll their eyes at me, I can tell this is something that happens a lot.

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"Jasper farting in the doctor's office waiting room when he was twelve and it stunk so bad, the nurses had to come out and open all the windows." Edward threw his head back and laughed so hard while Jasper's just glaring at him. Alice and Rosalie are just sitting there eating salad looking bored. What the fuck? This is all really messed up!

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"How about when, he tripped and spilled grape juice on mom's new couch, he cried like a fucking baby." Emmett laughed, then slapped his hand down on the table making the whole table shake. I know brothers like to tease one another, but this is just cruel, I am upset with Jasper, but this is wrong.

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"No, No, No, wait." Laughs Emmett. "How about when Jasper got his weenie caught in his zipper when he was ten and he thought they would have to cut it off at the hospital." Jasper rubbed his face with his hands, "That's because my older brother told me they would." He moans into his hand and Edward throws his head back again and actually snorted. "Yeah, that was funny, I don't want them to cut off my weenie." And he pretends to cry.

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"I think it's still deformed and doesn't work right. Poor Jasper, maybe one day he'll be able to satisfy his wife with a deformed penis." Jasper now looks a little hurt, and I can feel my anger bursting. Why aren't their wives telling them to stop. "This is not funny, I know brothers tease each other, but this is wrong. You are only making yourselves look horrible now. Jasper is not deformed and doesn't need to be treated this way." I don't know where that came from, but I had just had enough, so I let it burst out, while shooting death glares to them both.

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They all looked at me, Alice's smile grew even larger and Rosalie is smirking at me, when I look at her she raises one eyebrow at me. Emmett smiled at me, "Congrats Bella, you passed the test, and much faster than then our wives." Jasper squeezed my hand. "What test?" I snap back and try to pull away, but he ran his thumb along my hand a few times before he let me pull my hand away.

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"You defended your man, your husband, from his tacky brothers. It took Alice six stories to stop us and Rosalie ten. But you stopped us after just three."

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"They are just so stupid Bella, just ignore them." Rosalie said and rolls her eyes, "Besides they never pass any of our tests." Edward pulled Rosalie to him and passionately kissed her, "There's only one big test and I always pass that." She laughed at him and playfully swatted his lap.

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Alice squeaked and it was obvious Emmett squeezed her ass, she giggled and he raised his eyebrows at her. "Want to help me collect the salad plates and get out the dinner plates?" Jasper asked me and I nodded. When we were in the kitchen, I heard lots of giggling, they were all so in love.

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"So you DID see it and you DO like it." Jasper said smiling at me. I was trying to figure out what he was talking about and then it clicked, I felt myself blushing. He laughed and brought out the chicken parm, I had the dinner plates. He went back to get the three bean casserole Edward made. Jasper stood up and served it out onto plates. Everyone started to eat, but I waited for Jasper. He grabbed my hand, he noticed that I waited and winked at me. I tried to hide my smile, "Hey no secret messages over there." Emmett said. "You are one to talk grabbing Alice's ass during dinner." Jasper said back.

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Dinner continued with general conversations. Emmett's apple pie was delicious, I still can't believe three brothers can cook so amazing. After cleaning up and heading into the living room, Emmett said, "Jasper, Edward and I need to show you something." And he follows them into the den and closes the door. Even if I could talk their wives into letting me escape, I have no idea where I am or where to go.

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JPOV

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Edward and Emmett sat down on the sofa in the den, I stood. I was too nervous, I had to hear what they found out about Bella's past. Edward sighed, "Jasper, I was able to get some sealed legal documents. It's good to have friends in high places. Unfortunately, you are not going to like this." I took a breath, preparing for the worst.

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"She didn't talk to you in high school because her boyfriend beat and raped her repeatedly for having friends. I found all this out from some legal documents that never made it to trial. It was pretty bad, often he would make her walk around naked in his house in front of his two friends and they got to look at her body all they wanted. He called it 'sex education' and they got to shout out what they wanted him to do to her. It's pretty sick! Then every time he found out that you talked to her he would rape or make her perform oral sex on him. They asked her why she would let you talk to her, she said it was the only normal part of her life listening to you. It made her feel better, she needed you back then Jasper. She probably still does. She didn't tell anyone, until he dumped after graduation. She finally broke her silence and her father forced her to go to the cops and press charges. The lawyer said she wouldn't win, because there was no evidence other than he said/she said. Everyone thought she was just being a snob."

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I slumped down on the floor and cried, if only I had asked her out earlier, this would never had happened to her. Was this all my fault? Why did she keep letting me talk to her, she could have told me to fuck off.

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Emmett sat next to me on the floor, "Dude, stop crying. It's terrible what happened to her. You have two choices. You can let her go and probably end up in jail getting butt fucked every night. Or you can show her how great life can be with you. She belongs with you. She will learn to love it here, she already has a place for you in her heart. Be nice, but be strong, be a man. Treat her with respect but let her know that YOU ARE STILL THE MAN. Know what I mean?" I nodded as did Edward, as his brothers, we understood 'Emmett Speak'. Others didn't, but we did.

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Edward sighs, "There's two more things. We have tried to find Eric Yorkie, but are having a hard time, he keeps moving. But we will eventually located him and if we can't bring him to justice then we can teach him a fucking lesson he will never forget. And then there's this Jacob guy. He has called and texted Bella about fifty times in the last few days. He won't accept a simple 'I've moved' text and is demanding to know where she is. It seems that he was stalking her. Her friends mentioned that he was harassing them to find out where she was. Once he realized they didn't know he left them alone. He might be problem for us, so we have to watch out for him."

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BPOV

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Rosalie sits on the recliner, Alice hops on the couch with her knees up to her chest. She pats the cushion next to her for me to sit. What else am I going to do? I sit and wonder what shit they are going to feed me.

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"How do you like it here in the woods?" Alice asks as if it was my choice. I look at her, "Not very much, I was kidnapped and am being held here against my will. I want to go home."

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"Listen, don't be mad at us, Jasper has been going on and on about you since high school. Every day he would kick himself for not asking you out, and from what I understand you basically ignored him. He's a great guy and you treated him like scum, so he's just trying to show you how awesome he is, go easy on him and us." Rosalie snaps at me. I am stunned, who does she think she is?

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"Rosalie, be nice." Alice says almost roars and squints her eyes at Rosalie giving her a death glare. Rosalie looks away, Jasper was right, Alice can be pretty scary, shit. Then Alice turns back to me, "Rosalie says what's on her mind, she doesn't filter. You'll get used to her. It's just that we all love Jasper and he just wanted you to give him a chance."

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I shake my head, "I liked when Jasper talked to me in high school, I looked forward to it every day. I wasn't ignoring him to be mean, I just couldn't. I wasn't ... Never mind, you don't understand."

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"You're right, we don't. How could you say you looked forward to hearing him talk but then rudely ignore him? Why not say I like you or 'I'm not interested," Rosalie snapped again, but a look from Alice stopped her form saying more.

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I start to cry, "Just like everyone else in my life, you think I meant to hurt people, that I chose to push people away. I was the one who was left with nothing when he walked away. I was the one who was broken and beat... Just forget it." I stand up and walk into the kitchen, I have to get away.

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I feel two hands on my shoulders, "Did your high school boyfriend beat you?" I push the hands away, I don't want to be touched. I don't answer, I can't, I can never say what he did, the flashbacks are already too much, what if they get worse if I say it aloud?

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"That is why you ignored and dropped everyone." It is stated like a fact not a question, but there is silence after. "Did Jasper tell you I was brutally raped in high school?" I turn and look, Rosalie is standing behind me. She sits down next to Alice who puts her arm around Rosalie. I stand and look at the both of them.

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"I was coming home from working at the grocery store, when I was pulled into an alley. There were three boys from school, they just started hitting me and ripping off my clothes. They threw me onto ground and took turns raping me. It was so painful, I screamed but no one came. I heard people walking by, but they ignored my screams. After they each got a turn, they decided to try me all at once, I cried out begged them not to, but they started pulling at me to get into a position they liked, then I heard a thud. I looked up to see Edward beating the crap out of them with a bat. The look on his face was pure hate, but he yelled at me to get behind him and call the police. I still don't know how I had the strength or trust to do that, but I did. He wouldn't let them leave the alley, every time one came close to him he'd make contact with them, the sound of bones breaking was deafening. The police finally came and were going to take Edward into custody, I was able to explain what happened and they let Edward go."

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Alice was crying and Rosalie was staring into space as she continued to talk. "My parents came to the station and demanded to meet Edward, they wanted to thank him for being a hero when no one else would did. Edward came by often to check up on me and soon, he was driving me to therapy. He said it was the most traumatic thing he ever saw or did. Him helping me was helping him, it was like a therapy for him. It took me six months before I let Edward kiss me, and three more months till I let him touch me. Edward was so patient with me, even though I was awful to him and took it out on him. He was my saviour in more than one way. When we heard Jasper was moving out here, I wanted to come too. I still don't like to be in public too much. I think Edward was traumatized too, It couldn't have been easy to walk upon that. It couldn't have been easy to do what he didn't, not many people would have."

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I am crying and trying to hold back the sobs. Rosalie smiles, "I remember our first time, he was more scared than I was. Edward took it all so slow, he wanted to show me how I should be touched and kissed. He wanted me to feel loved and worshipped, he wanted me to know the difference between his touch and theirs. It was amazing, the things we felt when we made love that first time were beyond words. I completely trusted him and understood that under his hands, I was safe and loved. It gets easier now, I still have flashbacks, but Edward's always so patient and loving with me."

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She looks up to see that I am crying, crying for her and myself. She sits next to Alice and hugs her and kisses her forehead. "Rosalie was my sister from day one, she will always be. It was hard for Emmett and me too, there was nothing we could do to help. We just had to watch and wait, we showed her we loved and accepted her and Edward. When they moved out here with Jasper, we had to come too."

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I wipe my tears away, "What happened to them?" Rosalie looks at me, "It was the hardest thing I ever did, I went to court and faced them down. Edward gave his testimony too, they got sentenced to fifteen years in jail. Supposedly they planned the whole thing out with texts. With that as our proof, we had a solid case."

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I started to sob, "You are a lot stronger than me, I am in this hell because I let him get away with it."

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They look up at me, confused. "He got away with it?" Alice asked me confused, shaking her head, not understanding how I could say that. But then all three men were back in the living room. I stood up and walked into the kitchen to hide my tears. I was going to tell them, but then the men came out of the den.

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Emmett and Edward walk over to their wives, trying to figure out why they are crying, Jasper stands next to me and looks at me. I smile and wipe my eyes, but then he looks at me weird.

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"Well, we're going to head out. Dinner was wonderful and it was very nice to meet you Bella." Edward says. They all say their goodbyes. Edward and Rosalie leave hand in hand. Emmett flings Alice over his shoulder and walks out, she is giggling hard and winks at me. Jasper locks up behind them. He turns to me again, "Why don't we get settled in for the night?"

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I grab my pajamas and head into the bathroom and try to figure out what that look was about. It was strange, but I can't put my finger on it. I knock and come out, but Jasper is already in the living room. I go the door but he bumps right into me. He holds onto my arms gently, his face is almost touching mine. He slowly leans in to me, is he going to kiss me? I have mixed feeling about this, but then he looks away, "Sorry Bella, I didn't see you there. I have a movie already on want to come and watch?" Then he gives me that look again, he's scrunching up his lips and his eyes are slightly closed and watery. It's sympathy and regret! He knows what happened to me and he regrets bringing me here. Eric is right, I am damaged and used, no one wants me.

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I hold back my tears, "No, I am really tired and going to head to bed.'" I walk over and crawl in praying that he leaves soon, I can't hold these tears in much longer. "Okay, um... Goodnight Bella." He says and stands there for a minute and then walks out. I can't hold it in anymore and start sobbing. I cry into the pillow, but I know he can hear. WHY? WHY? It sucks when even your kidnapper knows you are damaged and used. I hug the pillow for dear life. I cry and cry until I have nothing left in me, then I hear a knock at the door, "Bella, can I talk to you for a minute?" I nod, but I know he is going to tell me he has changed his mind and is letting me go. I don't know whether to feel relieved, sad, or angry that he doesn't want me anymore. I don't think I can face being told by my kidnapper he doesn't want me.

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