You Were Meant to be Mine CH 7 Let Me Love You, a twilight fanfic

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Will Jasper be able to comfort Bella? Will Bella be able to come to terms with her past and let Jasper love her? Will Jacob give up on finding Bella?

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CH7~ Let Me Love You

JPOV

When she slows down her crying, and after I have had my limit, I knock on the open door. "Bella, can I talk to you for a minute?" she nods, but looks so mad. Maybe I should just go back to the living room.

"Bella, can I sit on the edge of your bed?" she shrugs and I sit. "Bella..." I don't even know how to start with asking her about what I've done wrong but she beats me and starts to speak first.

"Why did you bring me here?" she asks and I look at her, she looks so defeated and crumpled sat there on the bed. She startles me by jumping out of bed and walking to the window, "WHY? WHY?" she yells; I am confused now. "You did all that research on me, all that information you gathered and you didn't know till now? You're not that smart are you?"

"Know about what?" I ask getting a little pissed but trying to calm myself down.

"Don't treat me like a baby, you just found out about Eric. It's obvious your brothers told you. You're looking at me with all sorts of sympathy and regret. It's all over your face." She points at me with an accusing finger, no defeated exterior now, only anger.

"I feel bad Bella, I wish I had known what was going on. It was all my fault. I kept talking to you, I didn't think he..." I couldn't say it.

"You can't believe he would beat and rape me?" it made me so angry to hear her say what he did to her.

"You were the only one who talked to me in high school, the only one who didn't give up on me. I thought maybe after we graduated you would still try to pursue me. I didn't want to be alone, but I didn't just want to be with anyone. A small part of me thought he might be wrong and you were going to call now that Eric had broken up with me, but you never did. I knew he was right. I am broken and used, no one wants me. Now that you know the truth you are going to let me go. You don't want to be with me because I am used and ugly. You don't want a broken and beaten wife. Nobody wants me." She sobbed out, her face covered in tears and her eyes showed how much I had hurt her. Her emotions so quickly changing, I felt a twang at my heart as I saw the tears roll down her face and her body shake.

"Bella, that is not true." She turned to look at me, now she was pissed again, "GET OUT, GET OUT, GET OUT." She screamed, "Don't tell me it's not true, don't you dare say that. I am broken and used, I didn't even have the guts to fight. I didn't have the guts to make him pay. He is probably doing this to someone else and I let him. I am weak and damaged. SO JUST GET OUT!"

I stood up and was going to walk out, but then it would only make things worse. "No, I am not leaving this bedroom." She just looked at me, she was borderline irrational and I was a little nervous as to what she might do to herself or me. But I knew I had to stay, to keep any resemblance of a relationship with her; I have to try.

She marched over to me, closing in on my personal space and screamed "GET OUT!" She looked more hurt than pissed, I'd let her down again. I shook my head no, I know she needed me and I was not going to leave her like this. Not this time, I would never make that mistake again.

She pounded her fists into my chest, "GET OUT. GET OUT." I tried to stop her, but she did it harder. "NO. NO. NO. NO." She screamed, "NO. STOP. NO. NO." She was confusing me and Eric, but also getting out her frustration and trauma, I just let her go. "NO, please. NO. Stop. No." She started to slow down and I hugged her and she tried to push away, but I hugged her tighter.

"Bella, I love you and will never hurt you. I love you. You are safe with me. You are beautiful and strong and I love you." I whispered in her ear and rubbed her back. She sobbed and her body relaxed so much she fell into my body. I picked her up and carried her into our bed. I pulled the covers over us and held her while she cried into my chest. I was going to find Eric and kill him, I would make him suffer a slow death. I tried to keep my eyes open to be there when she finally stopped crying, but my eyelids got so heavy.

I felt the sun on my face and I slowly opened my eyes. She was still holding on to me, clinging to my chest. We fell asleep like this and stayed like this all-night. I loved the fact that I woke up with her in our bed. I carefully ran my fingers through her hair, she started to stir and opened her eyes. I rolled on my side, disentangling my body from her so I could properly see her.

She had new tears forming and I wiped them away. "I wish I could take the past away Bella, it breaks my heart what you went through. For years I could not get past you. Every relationship I had was missing something, it was you. I thought you were happy with that animal. I thought you didn't like me, but I couldn't move on. Now I know why , I needed you and you needed me."

She looked down, she didn't believe it. She didn't believe she was worthy of anything. I probably shouldn't do this, but I held her face in my hand and tilted her head up to mine. I kissed her lips softly. I wanted her to know the difference between a kiss of abuse and a kiss of love and passion. I moved my tongue along her lips and she opened them a little, I pushed my tongue in gently and it was heaven. Her mouth was so warm and soft. I moved my tongue around hers and it was so magical. I wanted to feel every part of her mouth with my tongue, I was never so turned on by just kissing before. She started to move her tongue around and I almost died right there. My whole body was on fire. I wanted to keep kissing her, but knew that she needed time. I slowed my tongue down and kissed her softly on the lips again and pressed my forehead to hers. I have never felt that before in my life.

I moved my hand down to her arm and felt her goose bumps, she must have liked the kiss too. I smiled at that. "I hope you liked that, I think I'm a good kisser." She looked down, "That was my first kiss. He said I wasn't worthy of being kissed." She whispered and I cringed at that, I almost kissed her twice before and stopped. She cried because she must have thought I didn't think she was worthy. I'm such a fucking idiot.

I sat up and looked down at her, "Bella, I have wanted to kiss you for so long, but I feared you would turn me down and I didn't want to pressure you. Now what I know you enjoyed it I would love to kiss you more often. You are so beautiful and I am honored that I got to be the first man to kiss you." She started to cry again,

"I am damaged, I am not pure. How could you want me?" I wanted to go find him right now and break every bone in his body, literally and slowly. Not only did he beat and rape her, he destroyed all her self-worth and dignity. "Did you ever make love to him? Did you ever give him your heart?" She looked down, "No, I never wanted him to... I thought it was love but it was just fear that kept me with him."

"Well, that proves it. You are pure, you didn't give him your heart or your soul. You didn't make love to him. That shows he took what wasn't his, what never belonged to him. When we make love, I will show you the difference. You will be giving me the greatest gift, your love. He never got that."

She turned her head, maybe I went too far with the when we make love, but I meant it. "Bella, I am sorry if I went too far." She turned back to me and looked at my lips, she wanted to kiss me again, I would not deny her this time.

I kissed her lips and she immediately opened them, that feeling hit me again. It was heaven, she put her hand on my arm and I was in ecstasy. I stopped the kiss, because my dick was starting to twitch and she was not ready for that. "How about pancakes this morning?" I asked. She laughed and nodded.

I sat up again, "You take a shower and I'll start on the pancakes." She got up and I watched her get her clothes and go into the bathroom. I headed into the kitchen to start on breakfast.

I heard her walk into the kitchen, she took out the plates and glasses and set them on the table. She got out the utensils and napkins. I chuckled, "I'm glad you are able to find what you want now that you reorganized the kitchen. Though it took me a bit to find the mixing bowl."

It was her turn to laugh, "Sorry about that, did I mix things up too much?" I looked at her, "No. everything is exactly how it should be." I hoped she got my double meaning. When she blushed and looked away that was my indication that she did understand what I really meant.

She started on the coffee, "Do you want me to finish up the pancakes while you take a shower?"

"Sure, if you don't mind." I handed her the spatula and kissed her cheek. I saw her smile as I walked towards the bathroom. When I came back out, the table was set and breakfast was ready, but she was nowhere to be found. My heart dropped, but then I realized our door was closed and the basement door was open. If I went running down there I would ruin what we shared this morning. So I took a deep breath and waited, maybe she had to get something down there.

I heard her coming back up the stairs, which orange juice in her hands and syrup. She looked at me and must have seen the nervousness on my face, she blushed, "We were out of orange juice and syrup, the juice is still frozen though." I smirked at her, "We?" she stopped for a second trying to figure out what I was asking. She blushed bright red, "I meant, you... the kitchen... you know?" I nodded, "Right." I wanted to kiss those lips again, but sat down to control myself.

BPOV TWO DAYS LATER

It has been two days since our first kiss, now he can't stop kissing me and I don't want him to. I know he wants more, but he is so gentle and patient with me. Part of me wants to let him touch me, but I am afraid if I do that he won't be able to stop. I don't want to lose what I have with him now. I am so confused and even more so that I am enjoying my time with him. I know I should be trying to find a way out, but I am having too much fun playing house.

I do wish we could go out somewhere, but I guess he doesn't trust me yet after I tried to run away a few days ago. Rosalie and Edward are stopping by today. They did some grocery shopping and were dropping off some of the stuff for us. They knock and Jasper lets them in. He and Edward go to the basement to talk, while I put the groceries away.

JPOV

We leave Rosalie upstairs with Bella. Edward had text me that she wanted to speak to Bella and see if she could help her come to terms with her past. I hoped Bella would open up to Rosalie. I did want her to trust me enough to tell me, but if she only wanted to talk to Rosalie about it, that is fine. I just wanted her to feel safe and loved.

Edward jumped over the couch and plopped down, "Are you being an ogre or gentleman? You didn't throw her against the wall again, did you?" I glared at him and felt my nose flare out, that fucking Emmett exaggerating all the time. "No, I didn't. But I did kiss her and she kissed me back."

"Does she want more? Do you?" he asks so seriously, that is when he looks his most constipated. I chuckle at him, his eyebrows pushed down, his eyes squinting, his lips pressed together, he looks like he is going to crap on my couch. I roll my eyes and try to get my thoughts away from my little brother squatting in my basement.

"I think she wants more but is afraid to make a move. I don't want to make a move and fuck up what we have created here. He never kissed her, I was the first man to kiss her, so if I make a move now she might lose faith in me."

He nods, "You know how it was with Rosalie and me, I was scared shitless that I would hurt her physically and emotionally. But it turned out that she had more faith and trust in me than I thought. Even if you make a move and she's not ready, showing her that you are able to stop will do more for your relationship than taking it too slow."

He then laughs at me, "What the fuck is so funny?"

"When you get something, you know when it clicks in that brain of yours, it looks like you are taking a dump." I grab him and wrestle him to the floor, "That's funny because Emmett and I think you have that look all the time."

BPOV

"Let me help you put these groceries away." She says "You know if you ever want to talk about what happened, I can listen." I nod, "Thanks." I don't even know where to begin, what to even say?

"You said that he got away with it. What happened?"

I sigh, I don't want to talk about it with anyone, but with Rosalie's traumatic past, I feel that it is safe to talk to her. I make some coffee for us, I think this conversation calls for that. "The lawyer said no one would believe me because I never told anyone what was happening. He would get witnesses to show that I was happy with him. There was no evidence of anything he did to me. Even his two friends, who often watched what he did to me, were going to say that I agreed to it all." I started to cry and finished putting away the groceries.

"So they made you just drop it?" Rosalie asked as she added the sugar and cream to the mugs and sat down with me. I nodded wiping away the tears, "They said that I should talk to someone and try to get over it. I almost felt like it was my fault. That I should have been stronger or told someone. I always wonder if he is doing the same thing to someone else. "

"You know, it's not your fault. It feels like that only because everyone you thought would notice didn't. You were all alone and no one rescued you. You did what you had to in order to survive. No one can judge you for that." She said, rubbing my hand and looking at me, her eyes were so soft and warm, unlike that first night I met her. It was obvious she could be gentle when she wanted to be.

Then she smiled at me and raised an eyebrow, her eyes almost twinkled, "So, how is it going with Jasper. You have been pretty much alone with him for a few days now." She raised her eyebrows, she wanted dirt, she wanted to gossip. I felt weird but somehow I knew I could trust her.

I blush, "We kissed a few times, but that's it. I am just really confused Rosalie. I want him to touch me, but I am afraid that he won't stop if I get uncomfortable. Even if he does stop, what if he gets to frustrated and feels that I am not worth it. Plus, there's the whole thing of being held here against my will. I don't want to lose what I have with Jasper if I don't do more, but what if we go further and he's not happy with me or my body?"

She shakes her head and rolls her eyes, "You are stressing yourself out too much. Jasper would hate himself for making you so stressed. Jasper loves you and will be nothing but gentle and slow with you. No matter what you choose he will stand by you. He would never force you and would never be upset if you took it slow. He watched Edward and me, so has that to use as a reference." Rosalie says then stops to look into space remembering some intimate moments between her and Edward. "Do you love him?" she asks me. The question stuns me for a few moments, do I love him?

"I think I am falling in love with him. He is so similar to the Jasper from high school, but so different in other ways."

She smiles at me, "I think you are already in love with him, but just afraid to admit it because of your past and the little fact that he kidnapped you." We both giggle at that. "He wasn't some random guy who grabbed you off the street, he has been in love with you for years. Perhaps, you would have already been married if you had dated in high school?"

I laugh, "According to that certificate, we already are, but he didn't get me a ring, so what does that mean? I am important enough to him for him to kidnap me and change my last name on everything, but not worthy of being bought a wedding ring?" Rosalie shakes her head and sighs, "What a dumbass! Sometimes men don't think or plan things to well. I think his heart was in the right place, but the little things are harder for men. Well if you decide to have a real wedding, let me know. Alice and I would love to help you plan it."

I was about to ask Rosalie how she was finally able to let Edward look at her body, when Edward and Jasper came up for lunch. Rosalie had brought some quesadillas with her, so we heated them up and served them for lunch. We sat around and talked about sports, gardening, cars, and tons of other topics. I am enjoying watching Edward and Rosalie, they are so sweet and loving with one another. He treats her so good, and I know that is the way Jasper will treat me. I think back to Rosalie's words, she is right. I wanted Jasper back then, and if I really didn't want to be here, I would keep trying to get out. I do want to be with him, but am scared of committing myself, my heart, my soul. I am afraid of getting hurt again.

As they leave, Rosalie hugs Jasper and it looks as if she whispered something in his ear. He looks straight ahead and then closes his eyes as if she had told him something horrible. She turns to me and winks. What did she tell him? Did she blab about me wanting to go further with him? Or maybe the ring? I am so fucking embarrassed right now.

After they leave Jasper turns to me, "I need to get gas for the car, want to take a drive with me?" I nodded, "YES!" I'm so in need to get outside. He laughs at me and is already holding up my jacket. He puts it on me and then holds my arms from behind and kisses my neck. He opens the door and lets me walk first, I walk out but wait for him.

He walks to the passenger side of the car and holds it open for me. Before I sit in his truck, I kiss his lips and then move to go to the truck, but he gently holds my head and kisses me deeper. He slowly stops and kisses my forehead and then walks to the driver's side. "So, with all this money you have. I would have thought you'd have something better than a old beat up truck."

He starts the truck and looks at me, "First of all its our truck and second of all it still runs great." He smiles and takes off. It's about five miles to the gas station. "We should camp out in the backyard one night, that might be fun." He suggests. "But first, we are going to have a picnic lunch tomorrow with my family. Sound good?"

I nod, it does, after my talk with Rosalie, I do feel more comfortable being around her. He pulls up at the gas station and gets out, "Stay in here, I'll go in to pay." I watch him walk into the station. This would be the perfect time to run, the perfect time to go into the station and beg for help. I can get away now, but what if he knows the people in the station. It's probably better to just wait for a better opportunity. Plus, how can I leave now? I want to know if this will work? Maybe we were meant to be? Who do I really have to get back to? My friends were great to hang out with, but all they ever did was pressure me into meeting guys. They just didn't get I wanted nothing to do with men after what happened with Eric.

He gets back and takes the pump out to fill the truck with gas. I get out of the car, I feel silly sitting there watching him. "Keeping me company?" I smile at him, "Yeah." He leans towards me and kisses me again, I can't help myself this time and wrap my arms around his waist. He moans and I feel my stomach turn with butterflies, he pushes me against the truck and pushes his body into mine. I run my hands up along his neck, through his hair and down his back, this is the most I have touched him and it feels so good. We suddenly stop when the gas pump loudly clicks that it's done. He chuckles and kisses my forehead, I feel self-conscious but amazed at how good it feels to be with him.

Jasper opens the door for me and we get back in, "I have another errand to run, do you mind?" I smile, and shake my head, "No, I really like being outside." Part of me really wants to go back to the house and kiss him some more, though I know the kissing must be rough on him. I wonder if he jerks off in the shower, since he has been sleeping in the bed with me. I glance down between his legs again wonder what it would look like up close. He laughs, "What are you thinking about Bella?" he asks, he obviously caught me looking at him. I am thoroughly embarrassed, he grabs my hand and rubs it as he continues to drive.

We pull up along a string of stores and he turns off the engine. He gets out and then walks around to open my door. I get out, but he is still in front of me. "Bella, I sometimes don't think, I thought I planned it all out really well, but I didn't. If you would like, I would like you buy you an engagement ring and wedding band and perhaps you can pick out mine." So, that is what Rosalie told him. I feel so stupid, I am mad and embarrassed. I can feel the tears in my eyes, "Is that what Rosalie said to you? That I only wanted jewelry."

He put his hands on my face and pulled me in for a soft kiss, "No, she said I was a colossal idiot for doing the whole marriage thing without a ring. That I should have given you a ring first and then had a wedding. She's going to tell Alice and she will chew out my ass later. That it's not about the jewelry, it's about the gesture."

"I don't need a ring, I was just curious. I..." he stopped me from speaking with a kiss, "Bella, I don't want to pick out your ring. I would like you to pick the one you want, I want you to have a choice. Though if you really don't want one, I understand that it will take you time to trust and love me."

I wanted to tell him that I was falling in love with him, and that I did want the ring. The gesture of not having it did hurt, but the I was so used to putting up walls to protect myself. But this time, I fought the walls and nodded my head. Yes, I wanted and ring and I would admit to this. I let myself trust him this one time. I hope I wouldn't be wrong.

He smiles so big and kisses me again, then grabbed my hand and we walked into the jewelry store. A tall woman with an obvious facelift and huge bun on her head came over to us. "How can I help you today?" Jasper pulled me closer to him, "I would like to buy my wife a proper engagement and wedding band and she would like to pick one out for me too. Money is not an object, so show her everything you have and let her choose whatever she wants." I just stared at him and then whispered, "Jasper I don't need anything fancy or expensive."

"Well we have some fine quality jewelry that is top of the line, but not gaudy, perhaps we should start there." The woman said after she heard what I'd whispered to Jasper. We followed her over to one counter. She pulled out all several containers of engagement and wedding bands, but they were all so big and flashy. I didn't like any of them. I could see Jasper looking at me, "Do you want something simpler?" he asks, pursing his lips together and scrunching his eyebrows. I can see that he doesn't want me to get something too simple but will do what I want.

"What would you have picked out? I feel awkward choosing my own." He nods, "I understand." He holds my hand and walks us around the whole store twice, then stops two counters over from where the woman is standing. "I would have chosen the fifth one in third down." The woman pulls it out onto the counter, "This is perfect for her. It is a platinum band with one and half carrot princess cut diamond, with ten inlaid diamonds on each side. The wedding band matches with two extra diamonds. There is a matching band for the man, it has smaller diamonds all around, but they are set deeper in the band."

"It looks so expensive. I'm not wor..." he cuts me off with a kiss again, then whispers in my ear, "You are worth more than every ring in this store, please do not talk about yourself that way. It only breaks my heart Bella." I look in his eyes just for a few moments and I can see his love for me and his anguish at my words. I nod and kiss him back.

"Well, let's get you both sized and we can have you leave with them today. How will you pay?" She asks Jasper, he responds by handing her a gold credit card. We get sized and they thankfully have our sizes so we can both leave with the rings. He places it on my finger and I just stare at the rings. I have never been given jewelry before, especially something so expensive. She walks in the back, and I can't help myself, I kiss him again, it really is the gesture behind the rings, not the rings themselves.

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As we drive home, I look at the ring on my finger again and smile. I feel proud that I am wearing Jasper's wedding ring, I like knowing that I have something that shows that we are together. That we are married. I roll my eyes, I can't believe what I am thinking? I sound so corny right now. I know I should not be happy, I should run and fight, but I just want to go home and relax in his arms. I watch him drive and wonder what he is thinking. He smiles at me and grabs my hand and kisses it, then the ring. He puts our joined hands on his lap. A surge of heat runs through my body, I am only inches away from his crotch and I can't help but think about when I saw him on the couch. Any other man would have ran into the bedroom or demanded something back, but Jasper was so patient with me, I wanted to do something for him. I wanted to show him that I do want him, but so afraid to take that next step.

We pull up in front of the house and he opens the truck door and helps me out and holds my hand into the house. He opens the door and lets me walk in, he closes it but doesn't lock it. Before he can step away from the door I kiss him. I can tell he's shocked. Then he shocks me by picking me up and laying me on the couch. He's on my right side but I can feel his erection pressing into my leg, I don't know where I find the courage, but I move my hand down to rub it through his jeans.

"Oh Bella." He moans, "I really want to touch you Jasper." I can't believe what I am doing. I never wanted to please Eric like this, I only did what he told me to. But with Jasper, I really WANT to make him feel good. I lower my other hand and unbutton his jeans and reach inside his boxers. It feels so good in my hand, it is big and thick and I can feel his hairs tickling my skin. I move my hand up and down and he moans into my mouth. He pushes into my hands, then runs his hand under my shirt and bra. He massages my breasts while I move my hand up and down him. It's now my turn to moan, I can't believe this is happening, but it feels so right. He gently rubs my breasts and nipples with his hand, while pushing into my hand and kissing me hard.

Then he lifts my shirt and kisses my breasts very gently. He licks at my nipples and in between my breasts while still rubbing them. "Bella, you make me feel so good. You feel so good." He jerks his hips hard into me and I feel him come on my hand. I really like the way it feels, I like knowing that I can make him feel good. He kisses me again and lowers my shirt, "I love you Bella." Then he jumps up and gets a rag to clean my hand. "I need to take a shower and clean myself up Bella." I feel bad for making him cum in his boxers. "I am sorry about that." He pulls me up to him and kisses me again rubbing my arms up and down, "Don't ever apologize for that. That was beyond amazing Bella. Thank you for that. I am honored that you feel comfortable being that close and intimate with me. I would love to reciprocate, but know you are not ready. I would do anything you wanted me to, all you have to do is ask." I look down and nod, I will never ask him, I can't do that. Instead, I kiss him back, "I love you Jasper." What? Did I really just say that?

Jacob POV

I can't believe how lucky I was to spot Bella at the gas station with that Cullen fucker. I wanted to run up to him and punch his skull inside out, but decided it was best to wait and follow them home. It makes me sick how she was so sweet to him, talking to him, that should me. I should have been me driving her around. I should have been the one pumping gas and having her talk to me, I should have been the one kissing her against the truck, feeling her body against mine. She was supposed to be mine, she IS mine. I will get her back again, even if I have to kill him in the process. Then he has the nerve to take her into the jewelry store, that conniving bastard.

I found the perfect spot in the woods to watch them, I will wait. I know I will eventually get an opportunity to get her alone and show her she belongs with me. I didn't spend all that time following her around, jotting down her schedule and taking all those fucking pictures just to have that fucker come in take her away.

I pull out the pictures I have of her and pull down my pants and grab my dick, for now this is as close to her as I can get.

That was one romantic lemon, huh? She admitted she loves him….how will Jasper react? What will Jacob try and do to Bella and Jasper? Will Jasper be able to keep Bella safe?

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