Ok new chapter, and so soon too [:
still don't own a thing...
I took a deep breath and reached for the door knob, I could hear all the noises inside. Two-bit Watching Mickey, Johnny and Dally most likely there too. Soda and Steve rolling around on the floor fighting over a card game, which Soda cheated in.
Crash"He did it," their voices said in union. I heard Darry yelling at them to quit fooling around, and clean up the mess. I rested my hand on the door, suddenly wanting Athena to come and pick me up. No I can't chicken out! Then I thought about how the happy mood in the house would die when they saw me. Well they are going to think I fell down the stairs. For some reason I found myself grinning at the thought. What a common lie for abused kid, 'oh I fell down the stairs at home Miss.' Then again I technically am an abused child, so is it normal for me to say that? I wonder...
I remembered my current 'goal.' I sigh hung my head hiding my face might as well try to avoid the lie as long as possible.I twisted the knob and entered. The house instantly became silent as I entered "I'm home ,"I called.
"Hey Pony,"With out even looking I knew Soda was grinning at me.
"Hi Soda,"I mumbled still not looking up.
"Something wrong Pone?" I froze at the shy, quite voice. Johnny...
I shook my head, I began to walk to my room only to bump into something,sending me falling to the floor. I gasped at the sharp stab in my ribs. That really hurts!I put a hand on my side. I could scream it hurt so bad, but I can't, I won't that would risk my cover. "Gee Pony I didn't me- Glory look at that shinner!"
Curse you Two-bit and your big mouth! Darry and Soda sprang to my side instantly. I held my hands up like it was the fuzz. "What happened ? Who did this to you?"
Johnny's Dad... " I-I fell down the stairs"
The whole house was quite for a moment, well untill Darry said "what?" Then I gave the explanation that Athena and I came up with. OK Well Athena came up with.
More silents, I don't like this its like there picking at what I said trying to find the lie it hides. My stomach twist and turns I feel sick. Please someone say something I can't take this. Almost like god replied my prayers Steve, Soda , and Two-bit burst into a fit of laughter. Dally smirked, along with Darry. Johnny had a shy smile.
"Dumb ass,"Steve called. My eyes narrowed towards the floor. I never like Steve, he always call me a clingy, stupid, and braty tag along. I often wondered if he knew about the deal if he would shut up. Cause he know abuse but not like I do. He don't know anything. What its like to lay awake stressing yourself sick if anyone were to find out and all the bad things that could happen. To constantly live in fear that if you screw up you and your best friends lives could be ended in the blink of an eye.
Yeah he don't know anything.
"-boy?"
I looked up "What?"
Darry sigh "I said Do you need ice for your eye?"
I nodded "I'll get it,"I stand up but I stop and wrapped an arm around my stomach and groan. Mental not don't move so fast with hurt ribs. It's funny that's like the millionth and one time I've made that note. I feel a hand on my shoulder, I see soda looking worried. Shoot, so much for avoid rising suspicion!
"You ok Pony?"
I nod "Yeah that trip down the stairs really did a number on me. I just need to lie down for a while." I guess being an amazingly good liar really does pay off.
"Here Pony let me check on those ribs, you looked in way to much pain to let it slide,"Darry said stepping towards me. I jumped back agents the wall, holding my arms out to push him back if needed.
"No I swear,I'm fine just a bruise or too!"
"OK well let me wrap them for you."Still walking towards me.
"No stay away from me or I'll -I'll -I'll scream! At the top of my lungs, bloody murder and everything!"
Everyone paused, looking confused normally the gang would let Darry clean them up no problem, not me I refused in every single way possible. That's why I have Athena she is the only one I trust to clean me up. even after rumbles I would sneak away to go see her."What's wrong Pony, Dar's just worried about you. Let him fix up your ribs," Johnny said. No Then he would see, all my cuts, scars, burns everything.
I shook my head "no, now I'm going to lay down." With that being said I left toward soda and I's room. When I entered flopped I on the bed, burring my face in a pillow. Breathing in and breathing out. Oh man, I really did mess up today. I made them suspicious, they probably brain storming why I wouldn't let Darry look at my wounds, and realizing how my oldest brother never really fixes me up.
I closed my eyes trying to stop the bad thoughts from coming into my mind. I took deep breaths. No one's going to find out. I'm doing it again the lying to myself bit. I could always trick everyone into believing me, but never me I always know when I lie. Sometimes I wish I could be like everyone else not know when I like. But I guess beggars can't be choosers.
Sleep soon began to fill my system. My eye lids began to droop, I relaxed a bit more. I do wonder what it would be like to believe one if my lies.That's my last thought before peaceful slumber.
Next I awoke to someone shaking my shoulder "Pony wake up, come on get up"
I groaned "What?" Why is this person waking me up!
"You have a phone call, some guy he wants to talk to you"
Wait what? Some guy, calling me...oh no. I shot out of bed and ran down the hall,I yanked the Phone away from Darry's hand. "Why are you calling me? What do you want?" Mentaly I was cursing this guy up a mighty big storm.
"That is no way to speak to me boy, you got that?"
"Yes ,ok what do you want?"
"midnight, tonight Be late and be sorry"
I swallowed thickly, again? But just last night . Never before have we ever had more then one beating per week, and this would be the third time this week. My body can't take this, I already feel kinda sick and really tired. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Johnny sitting in the couch watching me like everyone else. I sigh trying to ignore my own health issues. The words from the past rang in my head, he could kill Johnnycakes. "Yes sir,"I muttered.
I hear laughter "He's there ain't he? I don;t see why you hang out with him. He's no good. He'll end up a dead beet dad with life in jail by the time he's 18. A complete waste of space."
Oh no he did not just say that about johnnycakes. Anger and rash boiled up inside me, till finally I exploded. "You shut the hell up. If you actually pay any attention to him you would know he's better then you! You Don't know jack shit about him, or who he is, or what he can do, and what he's going to do with his life!I do and let me tell you one thing he'll end up better off then you will ever come close! So go to hell you fucking dead beat bastard!" Did I mention how much I hate this man? If i didn't just so you know I've come to the point of planing his death, MANY times.
"Boy your going to regret ever saying that!,"He hissed
"See if I give a fuck! Nothing you ain't done yet!" Then I slammed the phone down. I crossed my arms angrily, oh man everyday reason not to kill him seem to become less and less existent.
In fact I wonder what it is that keeps me from killing him...
"Who was that pony, " that's right it's Johnny.
I frowned remembering that I'm going to be in a world of pain tonight for back talking. Rule two never for any reason talk back to either one of the Cade's. Well unless you want to be swore for the next two months. Which I personally am never up for. "No one Johnny just Someone I really can't stand."
"Shoot kid, if I didn't know better I'd say you and that guy both had it out for blood," Two-bit said.
You don't know the half of it two-bit. I kept that thought to myself. Instead I nodded " I'm going to have a smoke , then lay back down for a while," I mumbled grabbing a pack cigarettes and out the door.
Done! See a faster update like I said! I just worry that I made Ponyboy too out of character. You tell me in a review , if so I promise to fix him. Also ideas are always welcome :)
also chick1966 I didn't use your idea in this chapter, cause I couldn't think of a way for it too all work out but I'll be sure to use it in a later chap ok?