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I swallowed nervously as I turned to face both my brothers standing by the lamp. Darry in his chair, Soda standing next to him some what sitting/leaning on the chair's arm. Darry looked beyond pissed and angry. Soda more or less looked worried and concerned. "So pony mind telling us where you went? Cause Soda over here wakes up and your not in bed, the he wakes me to see if I know, and this is goind to shock you silly but I didn't know either. So here we are worried like crazy, wondering where you are!" He voice would get louder and more tensed up after each sentence.

I racked my mind trying to come up with an excuse. Cause I can't just say I went to Johnny's got beat up then to bucks where Dally tried to bandage me up till we got into a fight. "I-I um I don't know." Nice, how the hell an you not know where you've been for 4 hours? I guess Darry thought so too cause he jumped up yelling the exact same thing. I couldn't help but flashed to 's yelling. No, I thought Darry and I have fight b-b-but he wouldn't. He would never...

"Answer me Ponboy where in the blue blazes where you!I can't even call the cops or you'd be thrown in a boys home so fast your head would spin," Ahh the infamous line. The threat of being separated Darry doesn't care, he only likes Soda. He would only care if Soda got taken away. As for me it would just be much easier if I was out of the way.

A thought hit me, The most common reason for a teen too sneak out. "I was at a party, I knew you wouldn't let me go so I went with out permission. I know It was stupid and dangerous believe me its been eating at me all night. Darry and Soda I'm sorry." I figure if I threw in a 'I-felt- really- bed- all -night - and -had no- fun ' line it would be easier.

Like always luck is never on my side.

Darry's face turned a dangerous shade of red. I gulped, "A PARTY?! A PARTY! WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE DONE IF THE COPS SHOWED UP!?"

"They didn't though!" I didn't want to do this. I already had one fight to night and I don't want to add to it.

I guess Soda heard my thoughts or something cause he said, "Leave 'im alone Dar, he's probably tired. Come on Pony lets get to bed." Oh thank you Soda your my hero!

Unfortunately I was the only one who wanted to go with Soda's plan cause Darry snapped at him. "You shut up, I'm sick and tired of you sticking up for him!"

Ok its one thing to yell at me, but my brother ... No one and stress that no one yells at my brother and gets away with it! "Don't you dare yell at him," I hissed with so much venom even I was shocked. What happened just made my deepest fear come true.

Darry spun around hitting me. He hit me so hard it knocked me to the floor. We froze. I sat there in shock. No no no NO! I can take being hit at Johnny's but here? My home the place where everyone comes to be safe? Images flashed threw my mind, all those times I got hit or beat. I put Darry in Mr. Cades spot however. I felt myself pale. I- I- I can't do that! I'd go insane! Kill myself or something!

"Oh gosh! Ponyboy! I'm sorry! I swear I didn't mean it ," Darry pleaded. Funny he sounded like he meant it. Well one things confirmed Darry does hate me. no doubt in my mind.I slowly stood and looked at Darry as he started to come close to me. I freaked out.

"NO! G-g-get away! Please don't -don't hurt me!"I really didn't mean to say that. I know despite how much Darry hates me he would never bring any pain to me. I could tell the look of fear and disbelief in his eyes. Fear and disbelief that his kid brother could now forever fear and hate him. No not forever ,not hate. I may have a slight fear for a while.

I walked to my room, when I got there I started to pack some clothes. I was going to Athena's, only for the night though. I know this will hurt Darry even more, but its too much here. To tense I'll come back tomorrow, err later today? I don't know I really can't focus on anything right now other than going to Athena's. The door creaked open. "Pony? What are you doing?!"

I looked over my shoulder at Soda,"I'm sorry Soda I can't stay here tonight. I'm going to a friends house for tonight, I'll be back later." I went back to packing.

"Pony, you know Darry didn't mean too right? he-he was just worried about ya..." Then I realized it wasn't just Darry it was everything. Dally, The Cade house, My brothers catching me out late. It was all making my head spin.

I sigh deeply, "I know, that's not why,well all of it. Just its been too much lately I need a break Soda. Please understand, its not just Darry,"I said slinging my bag over my shoulder, and walking out of the room. Darry stood outside the door when I opened it. In all honesty he looked scared to death, like he wanted to curl up and cry. I felt guilt strike my like a lightning bolt.

"Pony, I'm sorry I swear! Please, please don't go," He tried to hide it, but I could hear the cracks in his voice. I felt more guilt Darry, my big brother super man for crying out loud! May just actually cry, for me the brother he doesn't even like! He just doesn't word to get 'round and Soda taken away, a voice inside my head sneered. I closed trying to block a new forming head ache.

I continued to walk to the door ,"Pony," Darry begged.

I looked at him, might as well try and make him feel better, after all I would never be able to live with myself if I made Darry cry! "Darry it's not your fault, I promise. I love you big brother."

I saw the smile tug at his lips. I use to tell Darry and Soda I loved them all the time, but after mom and dad died, I just couldn't say it with out thinking of them. " I love you too kid brother, please be safe." I froze, I am a complete idiot! I am totally blind, all this time Darry really did love me! Hell he even said it! all the times he would yell at, really he was just looking out for me.

It all made since Darry was just like a helicopter parent. Scared to lose me!

I dropped my bag, chasing after Darry's retreating back. I jumped on when I was close enough He stumbled a bit, from my weight. "I'm sorry!" I felt tears build up in my eyes. " I'm so so sorry. Sorry for sneaking out. sorry for not listening. Sorry for being stupid,"I mumbled threw my tears. Darry pulled me off his back, I held my breath thinking he would push me away, I was wrong. Next I knew two strong my arms wrapped around me.

"Shh Pony its fine, don't cry babe. " I sniffed wiping my eyes. His thumb caught one tear falling from my eyes "We'll talk in the morning you need sleep." With out a word he scooped my up. I gasped at my side, biting my lip. Darry looked down at me . "What's wrong?"

"That Party, I kinda fell and jot a nasty cut. A friend at the party looked at it and cleaned it up. I'm fine." Even on my half asleep state I can still lie good.

Not much happened after that. Darry layed me in bed kissing my head mumbling good night to me and soda. Soda throwing an arm over me and whispering good night as well. Then I fell asleep, after a long day. One problem solved a million more to go. Like Darry said I'll worry about it tomorrow I need rest right now.

Aweh this chapter was cute :3 I loved it! It was fun ! I plan too have the gang find out in the next 3 chapters so stay tune!

well its starting to get a little late, so good night :) review!