22nd: Silence
Summary: And suddenly, there was no sound as the blood rushed through her body and her heart beat even though it was shattered.
No matter what others might say: she was not a weak woman. True, she struggled just as much as everyone else too and she knew pain and she also knew that life sometimes got hard – but she had never expected life to take her precious daughter.
The powerful Ice Mage felt like the biggest part of her had died alongside her daughter as she walked home, her head lowered and bitter tears dwelling in her eyes. There was no future left for them. The moment Ultear's body had been destroyed, their future had received the fatal wound.
The sun shone weakly between the clouds as if it wanted to show her a way out of this madness into a better time but hope had died and when there was no hope, there was nothing she could still believe in. The world she lived in now was a strangely hollow one and she wasn't sure if she could live here … where the sound of silence was impossible to bear and where nothing was fair.
She wanted answers, answers she knew that she could never find. Answers were gone from her little part of the world. They were buried in graves, far away from any light.
"Keep going, Ur," she told herself as she walked down the street. "Even when you can't see the street ahead of you … keep going … it's all you can do right now…"
She had lost her daughter … the reason of her existence and still, she couldn't understand why she felt like there was no life left in her … why she felt like an empty shell … why she felt nothing but emptiness and sadness inside her soul.
Life … it meant to carry on even when there were no words to describe how one felt. To be fate's reject was painful but maybe, she would receive something in return for this pain one day. Tears streamed down her face but she knew that there was no point in crying when everything had been wasted.
Her daughter had been the proof that she had lived … that she hadn't spent her years in vain … but now, all was lost but the war inside of her refused to die down. She felt how the magic inside of her tried to comfort her because that was what magic did: if you had lost everything human world had to offer, you would receive a boost of magical power. She didn't want this weak apologise. She wanted her daughter and nothing could numb this pain. She wanted to reach a place where she could work out something … a way to continue even with everything really important stolen from her.
She was shattered and the silence inside her soul worried her more than she would ever admit. She refused to be silenced. She refused to let herself being swallowed by the emptiness inside her heart. She had to keep going. She had to carry on. She had to be strong for her daughter even though she wanted to crumble.
She stood on top of a hill and exhaled slowly. The cold air helped her to focus a little bit. Well, there wasn't much she could focus on but she tried anyway. The silence was the worst thing about her current situation. She missed Ultear's soft voice and she missed to sing to her daughter.
In this white emptiness, all she could hear was the sound of blood rushing through her ears and the slow beat of her broken heart.