A/N: This takes place when Eli and Clare are in their twenties. So, they're not at Degrassi and they didn't meet there. Thanks for the great reviews.:D
Someone Like You by Boys Like Girls
I'm wearing thin
I couldn't tell you the city I'm in
The streets and the buildings
And the places I've been
Or where the stars go when it's daylight again
Or where the time went
Oh, who can save me now?
He was lost. When Julia died, he didn't know what to do, where to go, or who he even was, anymore. He became nothing. He wandered around, trying to feel something again, because she was his love. And what made it worse, was that he walked around thinking that he killed her. He thinks that, if he had just kept his mouth shut and didn't argue, she would still be there. Sure, they'd be pissed off at each other, but she'd still be there.
My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fighting my demons
Been looking for someone like you
I've been looking for someone like you
He left town, trying to forget her. He moved out of his apartment and moved way across town, getting a new job so that he wouldn't have any reminders. He couldn't take the pain. He completely changed who he was. Before, he would wear blue jeans and a tee shirt. Now, he wears black skinny jeans, a black shirt, and a black leather jacket. He used to be a normal, happy guy; but now, he doesn't like to let people in, he's always sarcastic, and he now drives the hearse from Julia's funeral. None of his old friends could even recognize him. Eli's friends stopped talking to him after he changed, because they thought it was weird. So, he decided to start over and move.
But what he didn't expect, was to meet a woman who could possibly change his life. She lived in the apartment next to him and he would see her in the lobby and talk to her. They became good friends, and eventually started to develop feelings for each other. He felt like he could actually open up to her and trust her. He told her about what had caused all these changes in his life, and she sympathized. She didn't call him a freak like most people; she had dealt with pain before. Not quite like him, but she knew what it was like to have everyone turn against you for something trivial. They got closer and started dating; it turned serious, but neither of them minded. Turns out, Clare had been everything he was looking for, without him even realizing it.
So sing me a song I know all the words to
And I'll sing along
Could you be my savior?
I've been out here too long
And I've just been looking for somewhere to belong
Been holding on
So can you save me now?
As their relationship progressed, Eli had been diagnosed with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, and he became a hoarder. His therapist told him that this was brought on by Julia's death. He started to get clingy, and he was afraid of losing Clare, too. He had to start taking medication to help.
Clare would wait in his car for him during his therapy sessions, and she helped him with his hoarding. His life had started to fall apart, but she was helping him to pick up the pieces.
My life in the rearview
Been lookin' for Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you
When Eli would have an especially bad day, he would have more trouble with cleaning things out than usual, and he would sit in his apartment all day, thinking about Julia. Clare would have to get his key and she would sit with him for hours, either in silence or listening to him; she would just let him do what he had to.
But Eli wasn't the only one with baggage; Clare was also suffering from her sister's near-death experiences after she was raped. Darcy had tried to end her life many times, and Clare had to watch her sister's life slowly fall apart, which resulted in her parents getting a divorce. On Clare's eighteenth birthday, she packed up her things, and moved into her apartment. She had been changed by this, and instead of being the happy, devout Christian she was during her teenage years, she would only go to church a few times a year, and only her closest friends could bring out her truly happy side.
When she met Eli, however, she would find herself constantly thinking about him and smiling more often than not. She still had things to deal with, but her life had changed for the better.
When the stars explode
And I'm all alone
When they start to see the smoke
When I finally burn out
I'll need someone to carry me home, safe and sound
They helped each other through all the rough times, and if one needed a shoulder to cry on, the other would always be there, no matter the circumstances. It was a complex relationship, but they were happy. They made it through everything, side by side. It was a kind of love and friendship that most people would never experience, and they were lucky to have each other.
My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fighting my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fighting my demons
Been looking for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you
A/N: So, I don't even know where this came from. It was supposed to be a little happier, but it's got happy and sad. Let me know what you think in a review?