A couple days have gone by and I haven't heard anything from Brittany. She wasn't kidding when she said she would give me time. Truth is, I miss her already. I talked to Rachel about how our day went and she said she has never seen Brittany so happy. I almost suggested Brittany stay at my place. Rachel doesn't have as much room as I do but I know if Brittany stayed with me we wouldn't be able to keep ours hand off each other. I was walking out of class when I saw a text.
From Brittany: hey. just thought id tell you I miss you and want to see you again soon...
The text made me smile so much my cheeks hurt.
To Brittany: yeah you really know how to give a girl time don't you? hope your transition is going well.
It took her all of 10 seconds to respond.
From Brittany: you said to needed time so I'm giving you time! don't think for a second I haven't wanted to call you every minute of the day. when you're ready, I'm ready. transition is a little rough...
I smiled and then frowned at the last part of her text. My heart sank. Why was she having a right time? I should be helping her! I'm so stupid I should have offered to help her!
To Brittany: define rough.
From Brittany: I don't know...this school is really big. I couldn't find my classes so some guy offered to help me around today. when I finally got out of class I didn't know how to get back to rachels. it's just hard that's she's not at NYU.
I felt sad imagining her walking around confused and overwhelmed.
To Brittany: you should have asked me. I know I said space and time but I meant romantically. I want you to like it here; do you know where your classes are tomorrow?
From Brittany: and I told you it's hard not to be romantic around you...but I'll try my best. I really do need your help; I don't know where any of my classes are :(
I figured enough was enough and picked up my phone to call her.
"Hey San." She sounded exhausted.
"Hey, do you want me to show you where all your classes are? I can print a map and highlight them on it..." I suggested
"That would be so helpful. Thank you." She said softly.
"It's no problem, when do you want to meet?" I asked.
"Whenever is fine. I'm at Rachel's though."
"That's ok I can meet you there, unless you want to meet on campus?" I said
"Let's just meet on campus, which would be easier for you. How about outside the library?" She said
"That sounds good; I'll head out now if that's ok." I said
"Yeah that's perfect I'll see you then, bye."
"Bye." I said the hung up
It took about an hour to show her where her classes are. She still seemed a little bit off.
"Is everything ok?" I asked
"Yeah I'm just thinking." She said
"Thinking about..." I said
"Do you really want to know?" She looked at me
"Yes." I said with a straight face.
"The guy that showed me around tried to put the moves on me and when I rejected him he freaked out and yelled at me." She was clearly embarrassed and her eyes had tears starting to form. I was so mad I couple barely contain it. Her first day here and it was a horrible impression. I did what I could to comfort her by pulling her in for a hug.
"I'm sorry that I've cried twice already...you must think I'm so stupid." She said in to my shoulder.
I stepped back and put my hands on her cheeks.
"You, are not stupid. I want to kill whoever that guy is but I don't think your stupid at all Brittany. Would you be at NYU is you were?" I asked as I looked straight in her eyes.
"No, I guess your right about that." She still seemed upset
"How bout that date?" I said
She quickly looked up at me and smiled. That smile I've been missing.
"Really?" She asked
"Yes really. I want to go on a date with you." I said
"Ok, how about tomorrow? It's Friday so we could stay out late." She said.
"That sounds perfect, call me with the details. I've gotta go, do you want me to walk you to rachels?" I suggested
"No that's ok I think I'm just going to hit up the library."
"Ok, I'll see you tomorrow night britt." I said and smiled at her walking away.
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To say I was exhausted would be under estimating it. School was long and I got no sleep last night. I felt so bad because I have a date with Brittany tonight and I'm not going to be coherent during it. She texted me throughout the day saying how excited she was. I had to do it. I had to crush her and tell her I can't do tonight because I'm so tired.
*RING RING*
"Hey San!" She sounded too excited for her own good.
"Hey britt..." I said faintly
"What's wrong? Are you ok?" She sounded worried.
"I'm so sorry Brittany I can't do that date tonight. I'm so exhausted, I didn't get any sleep last night and then I had 5 classes today and I.."
I was interrupted by Brittany's voice.
"Oh thank god!" She said enthusiastically
"..wait what?" I was confused
"I'm exhausted to. I had my first dance class today and it totally wiped me out, I just didn't want to cancel because I really did want to see you." She sounded disappointed.
"Come to my place." The words came out faster than I had time to think about it. "I know it's not the date you were planning on having but we could just watch a movie and relax.."
"Will there be popcorn?" She asked
"Absolutely." I reassured her
"Then I'm in! I'll see you soon ok?"
"Ok bye britt." I hung up
I had gotten everything all ready when I heard a buzzer.
"Hey Santana it's meee." She sounded excited
I clicked the button "hey, come on up!"
I put the popcorn in the microwave and heard her knock on my door. I walked over and opened it. She looked adorable. She was wearing a loose black v-neck with pink sweats. She also had her hair up in the perfect pony.
"Well don't you look cute." I winked at her, she blushed.
"YOU are the one who looks cute, adorable even." I blushed hard; I wasn't wearing anything special just light blue sweats and a white t shirt. As I silently invited her in my apartment her eyes widened.
"THIS is your place?" She was shocked. Yes it was really nice. I had a 60" flat screen as you walked in and a really nice view of the city.
"Yeah well my parents have a lot more money for me then I thought. Turns out she thought she was having more kids and saved money for them but since they never happened it went all to me." I didn't want to sound like a spoiled brat.
"This is really nice." She walked toward the huge glass door with the view.
"It's nice at night isn't it?" I asked walking towards her
"Yeah, it really is." She turned around and looked directly in my eyes. We stayed there for what felt like hours but was only seconds until the microwave broke our trans. I walked toward the microwave and pulled the popcorn out and dumped it in a bowl.
"What movie do you want to watch?" I asked walking towards the couch and sitting down. She was still admiring the view outside.
"Ummm I don't know whatever you want." She said walking towards the couch. When she sat down I was slightly disappointed at how far away she was.
"I don't bite." I smiled at her. She seemed nervous as she looked at me.
"Not entirely true...we did have some crazy se.." She cut herself off. "Sorry. I don't want to make you uncomfortable, that's all." She smiled up at me as if she was imagining the crazy sex we used to have.
"Brittany, this is a date. You're allowed to sit next to me..." And do other things but I don't want to make the first move. "Plus how can we share popcorn with you all the way over there?"
She immediately jumped up and sat as close and she possibly could to me and grabbed a handful of popcorn.
"You're so right. Now, let's put a movie in." She suggested
"Ok, comedy, romance, horror...any preference?" I asked sort of hoping for a romance or horror film.
"Let's do movie roulette." She said
"What's that..?" I was confused
"It's when you take all the movie you want to watch and you just put them in a pile, close your eyes, and choose. You don't look at the movie you have to put it in without seeing." She was excited about this little idea.
"Ok, let's do it." I said standing up and placing some movies on the ground. I felt warm hands cover my eyes.
"You can't look." She whispered in my ear still covering my eyes.
"Ok." Is all I could get out. My heart was racing. I didn't realize how much I missed her touch.
I felt around and picked up a movie feeling around for the DVD player. I successfully put the movie in and hid the case. We both returned to the couch in the same positions we were before. I was anxious to see what the movie was. When I skipped through all the commercials the title screen came on. You've got to be kidding me. Friends With Benefits is what came on. I looked at her and she just started laughing.
"Have you seen this?" She asked still smiling
"No, I bought it but never got around to watching it. Have you?" I asked
"No but I heard it was good." She said looking at the screen.
I pressed play and the movie started. As the movie progressed Brittany would get more and more cuddly. I know it's because she's getting tired. She had her heard resting on my shoulder. Then she reached out and grabbed my hand intertwining our fingers together. God it felt good holding her hand. I happily let her do it to. I also had a feeling I would let her do anything tonight. When the movie was over we stayed like that for a while. She now had her head on my shoulder, arm around my waist, and was holding my hand. I thought she was beginning to doze off when she spoke.
"You always belonged here you know?" She spoke softly
"What do you mean?" I asked
"Seeing you here, happy, with an awesome apartment, you always belonged here and I knew only here would make you happy." She sounded tired.
"I wasn't happy when I moved here. I missed you and I thought I made a big mistake coming here. That's when Rachel started doing things to distract me like taking me to shows...things like that. I never stopped missing you it just hurt less." I looked at her and made eye contact.
"You didn't make a mistake. I did. I should have never gone to LA I should have come straight here to be with you." She spoke still looking into my eyes.
"LA was good for you." I said honestly
"Can I ask you something personal?" She said
"Sure..." I said hesitantly
"When we broke up you said you had an attraction for someone. Did you ever like...get a girlfriend or anything..?" She said, not looking at me.
"No. I was heartbroken. I made the biggest mistake leaving you and I couldn't move on. So if your question is if I've been with anyone...I haven't been with anyone sexually since I've been with you." I tried to make eye contact with her so I could get an idea on what she was thinking.
"I haven't been with anyone ether." She said and looked up at me.
I couldn't help but smile at her. I think I would have been heartbroken if she had slept with someone else. I know we broke up but still, I was never able to see someone other than her in a romantic way.
"...and I really want to kiss you." She said seductively.
"Then kiss me." I spoke fast. She didn't even hesitate. She unlinked our fingers and cupped my cheek pressing her lips firmly on top on mine. She just kept them there for a couple seconds before taking my bottom lip with hers. I embarrassingly moaned into the kiss. It felt so good having her like this again. I missed these kisses more than I thought I did. She pushed me back on the couch...now we were full on making out. I was having a hard time catching my breathe. She slipped her tongue in my mouth. She really is the best kisser. All the guys I used to make out with were so sloppy and didn't know how to use their tongue right. She pulled back to catch her breathe. She looked deep in my eyes.
"I really missed that." She said
"I did too." I could tell my lips were a bit swollen. She was still on top of me just taking everything in.
"Well, I should probably go, it's getting late and I don't want to get carried away." She started to stand up.
"I think we already did..." I said and bit my lip. She just smirked at me. I looked at the clock and it said 1:45 AM
"Wow it got late. You should just stay over...I won't want you walking around this late at night, especially on a Friday." I really didn't want her to go walking around in a huge city she didn't know. Horrible scenarios started playing in my mind. I think she saw my panic. She grabbed my hands.
"Hey, I won't go out ok? I'll stay here." She leaned in and pecked my lips.
"Ok good. You can have the guest room." I got up and grabbed her hand to follow me. She suddenly stopped. Confused I turned around. Hands were suddenly on mine and our lips crashed together. We stood there kissing until she pulled back.
"I just really wanted a goodnight kiss." She smirked and walked into the guest room.
"Who says you weren't going to get one?" I winked at her as we walked in the guest room.
"So there are some extra clothes in the closet and the bathroom is across the hall. If you need anything just let me know ok?"
"Ok, thank you Santana. This was the perfect date." She stepped closer to me.
"Yeah, tonight was really good." I stepped closer to her. She put her hands on my waist and leaned in. I met her halfway and pressed my lips against hers. It only lasted a couple seconds before I pulled away.
"Goodnight Brittany, I'll see you in the morning." With that I walked out leaving her breathless.