Chapter 3
I woke up to the strong smell of coffee. A little confused I got up and headed toward the kitchen. Brittany. I still can't believe she is actually here. Not only is she in my apartment but she is in my clothes and she looks adorable.
"Hey sleepy head." She walked toward me with handing me a cup of coffee.
"Thanks. Did you sleep ok?" I asked
"Yeah, thanks for letting me stay." She smiled as she brought her own cup up to her mouth.
"So...have any plans for today?" I asked
"Not that I know of. I was sort of hoping any plans would involve you though..." She looked up at me.
"Whatever you want Britt, it's a little rainy out but we can still see the city if you want." I honestly didn't want to do anything. I wanted to grab some blankets and cuddle with her on the couch.
"Is it ok if maybe we just stay in? It doesn't look very sunny out." She said
"I was hoping you'd say that." I leaned in and gave her a peck on the lips. She hummed in response.
"I've missed your sweet lady kisses so much." She said before giving me another quick peck.
"I've missed yours to." I said as I walked toward the couch and sat down. She quickly followed siting down draping her legs over mine.
"Santana?" She asked.
"Yeah?" I looked at her.
"When can we go on another date?" She said innocently.
"Britt..." I warned "We just had a date last night; technically it hasn't ended so we are still on one right now." I winked at her.
"Ha ha. I just can't get enough of you."
"We can go on another one next week." I said as she pouted at me.
"Next week? That's so far away!" Her eyes were big now.
"Yes, next week. The slower the better. We are still catching up and I have a busy week coming up." She looked disappointed as she got off the couch and headed toward the guest room. I followed her; she was picking up her clothes.
"What are you doing?" I asked
"I can't be here Santana. I'm going back to Rachel's; I'll text you with the details for our date next week." The tone of her voice wasn't angry it was sheer disappointment.
"What do you mean you "can't" be here?" I was a little offended. She just walked passed me toward the front door.
"It means I can't be here and spend all day with you. You said slow so I'm giving you slow." She spoke soft; I figured she saw my upset facial expression. "Plus this might have been the longest date I've ever had." She winked at me and leaned in to peck my lips.
"I'll see you next week." She whispered as she walked out the door leaving me speechless. How am I going to wait a full week to see her? When I said slow I meant slow intimately. Great. Now she thinks I don't want to see her. My phone caught my attention. Jeez how long have I been standing here?
*BUZZ BUZZ BUZZ*
From Rachel: date went well? britt says your tired of her already. can't tell if she's joking...
To Rachel: I'm not tired of her! Why isn't SHE telling me this? I just suggested we take things slow, I never said I was tired of her!
Panic swept over me. Was she pissed? She kissed me goodbye and said she would text me the details! Why is she going to Rachel for advice rather than talking to me?
From Rachel: Calm down Santana. She was just joking. Seriously. She's already asking me about some romantic ideas for your date.
The relief was almost overwhelming.
From Brittany: I miss you already. Can't wait for next week xoxo
This is another reason why I love Brittany. Her texts are always so sweet. Wait. Do I still love her? I know I still have feeling for her but am I still in love with her? All these feelings are so confusing, I'm kind of glad I have a week to figure all this out.
To Brittany: Miss you too. I'm excited to see what you have planned :)
I put my phone down and headed for my bedroom to lie down for a little while.
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
What the hell? Who the hell is at my front door? God what time is it? I straggled to my front door half asleep. I blinked a couple time before opening the door.
"Brittany?" I was so confused. Why is she here? She looks so worried I just want to hug her.
"Oh thank god! Are you ok?" She grabbed my hands and led me into my apartment. I couldn't be more confused.
"I don't understand...what's going on Brittany? How did you even get up here? I didn't buzz you in..." I asked and we sat down on the couch.
"You weren't answering any of my texts or calls! I thought you were hurt or something!" She still had a worried look on her face, completely ignoring my last question. It was so adorable how worried she is about me. We sat down on the couch hand in hand.
"If you didn't want to talk to me you could have said something. You know how I feel about being ignored." She looked like she was about to cry. It's true; I did know how she felt about being ignored. When I was at Louisville I ignored so many of her calls and texts I swore if I ever got a second chance I would never do that again. Why did she think I was ignoring her?
"Brittany, what? I'm sorry I didn't respond to your texts or calls, I went to lie down and fell asleep. My phone has been on the counter I didn't hear it..."
"It's been five hours..." Her worried and upset expression quickly turned to embarrassment. She wouldn't even look at me so I leaned in and placed a warm kiss on her lips. We kept our lips like that, not moving, just a sweet kiss. We were interrupted by my phone going off. I pulled away.
"Well, I better get that before everyone thinks I'm dead." I winked at her and saw her blush.
"It's not funny." She said quietly as I walked over to grab my phone. I let out a sigh.
"No Rachel, I'm not dead." I said right away because I know she must have seen Brittany's little freak out.
"Santana what the hell! Brittany thought you were hurt!" She yelled
"Calm down Berry. Glad to see your so worried about me though..." I said sarcastically.
"I was worried! Seriously, what the hell happened?" She tried to lower her voice.
"I just fell asleep and didn't have my phone near me, no big deal." I said.
"You fell asleep for five hours? It wasn't even noon when Brittany got back..." She wasn't convinced and I was getting a little irritated.
"Yes, I fell asleep ok? I didn't get much sleep last night." I said casually.
"Gross. I don't need to know about your sex life. Spare me the details please." She sounded serious. It bothered me that she thought we slept together. I can't believe she thinks I was just jump Brittany after one date.
"Excuse me?" I raised my voice
"Sant..." She began but I quickly interrupted her.
"No. Listen to me Berry. We didn't have sex, you really think I would do that? That I would just pounce on Brittany as soon as she came back? I'm trying to take this slow so don't jump to the conclusion that I just want sex from her." By the time I finished the last sentence I was emotionally exhausted and still a little pissed off.
"You're right, I'm sorry. Brittany came back all glowing so I just assumed. I know you don't just want sex. I'll try not to jump to conclusions next time." She said softly.
"I forgive you. So are we done talking about this?" I really didn't want to continue this conversation.
"Yes, you can go back to Brittany now. I mean not in that way! Just talking to her!" She had actual fear in her voice. Crap! I totally forgot Brittany was still here! She definitely heard everything I said to Rachel.
"Relax Rachel. I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"Ok bye." With that she hung up. I stood there for a with my back towards her. I heard footsteps walking my way. I suddenly felt warm hands come around my waist.
"I know you don't want just sex." She said in my ear followed by a kiss to my cheek. I learned back into her and sighed.
"Good. I mean it's not like I don't want to, it has been three years and all...I really want it to be right though." I grabbed her hands off my waist and turned around. Still holding her hands, I reached behind my own back placing her hands back on my lower back. She smiled at me.
"I know that. I want to also. Your right though, I want the moment to be perfect." Her eyes glimmered as she spoke. I put my hands around her neck and pulled her in for a searing kiss. This one wasn't as innocent as the others. As I slid my tongue across her lip I felt her hands rise under the lower back of my shirt. I felt hot. Her fingertips touching my lower back were pushing me over the edge. If I didn't stop this kiss now I know I'll do something I regret. Self-control has always been an issue whenever I'm around Brittany. I pulled back gasping for air.
"Was that ok?" I asked quietly. Her hands were still under the lower part of my shirt. There was no sign of her moving them either.
"More than ok." She pecked my lips.
"Is this ok?" I knew she was referring to her hand placement.
"More than ok." I mimicked her.
We stood there for a couple seconds before I spoke up.
"So I know we have been talking about us a lot but we haven't really talked about the dance opportunity you told me about..." I was curious about it since the moment she brought it up.
"Your right." She laughed "I was at a dance school in LA and basically my dance instructor said I was too good for that school. Shocking right? Anyways, he said he could pull strings for me if I went to New York. He also said I could choose any school but obviously I chose NYU to be close to you..." She smiled and leaned down for a quick kiss. I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. Then I started to feel guilty. I should have made more of an effort to see her in LA.
"I should have visited you." I said quietly
"It's ok. I know you were busy here, that's why I transferred." She didn't seem upset. She was so understanding but I still felt like I should have made some effort to see her.
"No, it's not ok." I removed my hands from her neck and stepped out of her embrace. She looked hurt.
"I didn't even call you. I could have at least picked up the phone and called you. Nothing about this is ok!" I tried not to raise my voice but I was so mad at myself. She looked a little shocked at my outburst.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell. I'm just disappointed in myself." I avoided eye contact with her.
"Santana stop. I understand. You know, I didn't pick up the phone either. I may have been the one to move out here but I didn't make an effort either. Stop being angry at yourself, the past is the past. We are here now, that's all the matters right?" She stopped forward and laced our fingers together.
"You're perfect you know that?" I flashed her a smile.
"I'm not perfect but, thank you." She gave me another quick peck before unlacing our hands and walking toward the front door.
"Wait where are you going?" I was confused. I thought we were on good terms...
"I'm glad you're ok but I should get going, I have a lot of work to do, you probably do to." She said before reaching for the door.
"Ok I...guess I'll see you later?" I said hopeful.
"I'm sorry, I actually do have a lot of homework and I have to write ten page paper. I'll text you though ok?" I pouted at her.
"Don't do that please." She begged
"Do what?" I said innocently while still pouting.
"Don't pout!" She laughed
"Ok fine. Text you later." I said leaning in for a kiss. She gladly reciprocated pressing her lips on mine. I felt her hand on my cheek and she slid her tongue in my mouth. I moaned doing the same. As soon as it started getting a little too heated she pulled away.
"I'll text you later baby." She said and turned away quickly before I had the chance to respond. She called me baby. She actually called me baby. I missed our pet names. I wonder if she meant it, she probably just let it slip out. It's probably for the best that she left because she was right; I had so much work to do. I knew coming to NYU for performing arts school was going to be difficult. Even though it's a lot harder than Louisville, I love it here. I haven't made much of an effort to make friends since I had Rachel but that will probably change now. Brittany is such a people person she was always introducing me to random people in our classes at McKinley. Hours later I finished most of my work and decided to take a walk outside. It was raining but I've never minded the rain. I also knew I didn't have much food in my fridge so I couldn't come up empty handed. After twenty minutes of walking around I ended up getting Chinese takeout. The walk back was a little miserable, it started raining and I forgot my umbrella. I walked with my head down at a fast pace. I felt a warm body collide into me. I nearly dropped all my food. I'm so clumsy sometimes.
"Oh my gosh I'm so sorry!" Her voice was soft; I looked up and made eye contact with her. She was pretty. She had dark brown hair and looked like she just walked out of a Burberry magazine.
"That's ok, it's my fault anyways I wasn't looking." I reassured her. I took a step to go back to my apartment when she reached out and touched my arm.
"I wasn't looking either so technically it's both our faults." She smiled. I couldn't help but feel like she was flirting with me. She wouldn't stop smiling at me. She broke contact and reached in her jacket to pull out what looked like a business card. She slipped it in the front of my jacket pocket.
"I couldn't help but notice I might have ruined your food. Call me sometime; I can take you out for a real meal." She winked at me.
"I'm sorry I have a girlfriend." With that I turned around and headed back toward my apartment not looking back. Girlfriend? Why did I say that? Stuff like this always happens to me! I took the card out of my pocket and through it in the nearest trashcan. When I got back to my apartment I put the food in my fridge and immediately went back to my bathroom and started a warm bath. I stripped all my wet clothes off and put them in the dryer. When I got back to the bathroom I got in the bathtub instantly. I was freezing so I didn't wait for the tub to fill up all the way. I placed my phone on the corner next to a candle. I didn't want another incident like earlier to happen again. I completely forgot to look at the texts Brittany had sent me earlier. Sure enough, on my home screen there were 7 unread text messages and 5 missed calls.
From Brittany: prepare to be blown away by our date next week…
10 minutes later
From Brittany: writing ten page papers suck :(
1 hour later
From Brittany: you there?
1 hour later
From Brittany: are you ok?
20 minutes later
From Brittany: text me back. I'm getting worried.
30 minutes later
From Brittany: please tell me you're ok. if you don't want to talk thats ok, I just want to know you're ok. I have so many scary scenarios going through my head right now :(
10 minutes later
From Brittany: im coming over.
I grinned at the messages. She really wasworried. I'm so lucky to have her back in my life again. I closed my eyes and soaked up the warmth. My phone going off interrupted my thoughts. I wiped my hands on a hand towel next to my phone and picked it up. I smiled when I saw it was from Brittany.
From Brittany: just finished all my homework. so stressed out already :(
I frowned knowing Brittany probably hasn't taken a break since she got back.
To Brittany: take a bath. that's what I'm doing and it's helping with the stress a lot :)
She responded quickly.
From Brittany: you're taking a bath huh? we used to take baths together all the time ;-)
I let out a loud laugh and clutched on to my phone so it wouldn't drop in the water.
To Brittany: that we did :) seriously though, this bath is so relaxing. highly recommended.
From Brittany: I don't think Rachel has a bathtub…
Crap I totally forgot about that. Now what am I supposed to say?
To Brittany: oh...sorry I forgot about that :-/
From Brittany: That's ok I'll probably just go to bed, I'm so exhausted.
I just pictured here in sweatpants and a sweatshirt curled up in the couch, it made me smile. I decided to get a little flirty.
To Brittany: you can use my tub anytime ;)
I anxiously wait for her response which came seconds later.
From Brittany: don't tempt me. too tired for jokes.
I know she meant it in a playful way.
To Brittany: I wasn't joking.
I smirked knowing that she was probably smiling.
From Brittany: I might have to take you up on that sometime.
To Brittany: anytime baby ;)
I smiled bringing up the whole "baby" thing. It took longer for her to reply to this text then all the others.
From Brittany: you caught that..
I could tell she was slightly embarrassed.
To Brittany: yes, I did. don't be embarrassed. I liked it.
From Brittany: really?
To Brittany: yes. I also like all the worried texts you send me earlier :)
From Brittany: not funny san. I really thought you had died or something.
To Brittany: aww I'm just messing with you. I think it's cute how concerned you were.
From Brittany: I'm glad I could entertain you.
To Brittany: Me too. My bath is getting cold so I'm going to get out and go to bed. I'll text you tomorrow, goodnight britt :-)
From Brittany: goodnight san. xoxo
I got out of the tub grabbing a towel before heading to bed. I finally had the feeling like I was going to get a good night's sleep.