So, I'm finally updating. At the moment, it's 1:24 in the morning, and I ain't even tired. So, I'm not very talkative right now (I know, right, shocker!), so that's it I guess. Read On!
Damien
I was alone once again. I had let them both go. I knew somewhere that I shouldn't feel any guilt over Jack's death, but I did. I had left him there, alone. Maybe if I had been there, if I had left later, or taken him with me, he would still be here. But, then there was Phelos, and him I did save. I helped him. And then, I fell in love with him, against all instinct, and against all odds. And I had let him go too. I laid on the bed and cried.
There was a knock at the door.
"Go away," I called, not wanting to see anyone. Instead, the door opened, and Rephaim walked in.
"Hello, Damien," he said.
"Hey."
"Why are you crying?" he prodded. I just shrugged. I didn't have the energy to lie or the will to tell the truth. He sat on my bed- rather awkwardly- and said four words that shattered my mind. "Damien, I know." My mouth went dry.
"You know what?" I asked, trying to play it off.
"I know about you and Phelos. I know that you saved him, probably from Father. And, from what I see now, I'm guessing you've fallen in love with my little brother."
"And? So what?" I asked, unwilling to even try to cover it up anymore. He shrugged.
"Where is he?" he asked quietly. I shrugged and my eyes welled from the memory.
"Gone," I answered. "He left. He healed, and I didn't say anything to make him stay. My mistake, I guess. Can you leave me alone now?" He shrugged. After he stood, he leaned towards my ear and whispered.
"Go after him." Then he left.
Phelos
I flew for a long time, trying to escape. Trying to escape the unfamiliar sorrow that lingered in my heart. I remembered him asking where I was to go, remembered what I had wanted him to say. "Come with me." Or "Stay here." But, no. He had just nodded and bit his tongue. I had gone along, willing myself to stay silent, not to say anything. I landed on a tree branch and wrapped my arms around my knees. I laid my head down and closed my eyes, still trying to escape feelings I didn't understand.
My dreams were black, until Damien's face began to appear everywhere. In some pictures he was happy, in others sad or angry. Then they all shattered. I cried, the tears falling down and down into endless blackness.
"Is everything alright?" the voice that had haunted me for so long asked.
"No," I answered. The voice was thoughtful now.
"You left." It wasn't a question, more of a blunt statement, but I nodded.
"I had no reason to stay." The voice laughed.
"You had the most important reason in the world to stay." I shook my head, knowing what she meant but not willing to admit it.
"And what would that be?" I asked, not really wanting an answer.
"It's as obvious to you as it is to me. You love him, and the sooner you come to terms with it the sooner you can go back to him." All her puzzles now made sense. The first one. To remember Damien, to remember why he was so sad, to remember why I knew his name. And the second. "Get Damien to trust you, to open up to you," she had said. Her final words fell into place as well. "The final piece is you. You and your heart complete the puzzle." Her endgame was now clear. She had wanted me to love him. That was the point to her riddles, and to her tasks.
"What good is it to you whether I feel this way or not?" I hadn't expected a straight answer- and I didn't get one.
"You'll find out soon enough." A hand suddenly reached out of the darkness, and it touched my shoulder. The gesture was so simple, yet the most comforting, loving feeling in the world. "Take care, son of Kalona." Then she was gone and I fell into the black, and fell until I woke up hours later.
Damien
Rephaim's last words played over and over in my mind, like a song you just can't get out of your head. Go after him. It was so simple, yet so impossible. How could I go after him? It was insane. Yet, I wanted to, so so badly.
"Nyx, what should I do?" I begged. My door creaked open, showing the hallway. "I should go?" The door at the end of the hallway- leading outside- open as well. I got dressed and walked out, sure that this is what I was supposed to do. I was supposed to chase him, to make him see how much I needed him and- hopefully- how much he needed me.
Did I not tell you it was not over, that it was not hopeless? I like this chapter, despite it being pathetically short-again. I hope you enjoyed . Other than that, I just wanted to say that I'm going to try and be better at updating, but I have plans this summer- family to visit, my dad's wedding. Anyways, next is Foreseen, which a lot of you have been asking for. Night, guys. Watching Pretty Little Liars, (OMG it's so good!), StevieRae2011, signing off!
