Too Lost in You

Jeremy stared at Tyler in disbelief, this couldn't be happening. He began to stutter incoherently and was pretty sure he couldn't breathe. Tyler put his hand on his shoulder but Jeremy shrugged it off, "You were using me?" Jeremy felt the sting of tears run into his eyes as Tyler nodded his head silently. Jeremy stood up and left slamming the door behind him as tears began to run down his pale skin. He heard people's whispers as he walked home quickly. All of them calling him 'gay' or 'faggot' all of them laughing because he gave it up to Tyler Lockwood.

He hated the bastard; he was just like his father. Jeremy ran up the stairs of his home and slammed his door shut locking it behind him. He slid down to the floor. He couldn't hate him. He loved the spoiled shit too much to hate him. He let Lockwood get under his skin, let him pull on his heart strings and get him to do whatever the fuck he wanted like he was a puppet or something. Elena and Jenna would continue to come to his door asking to be let it and how they could help. They couldn't help. They didn't understand.

The worse of all was that Jeremy believe him, he believed every lie he was told! He believed that Tyler was hurt and needed him. He believed Tyler loved him. But it was all a lie, everything was a lie. A bet set up by him and his friends. Fuck the queer before Christmas break and win $50 from each of them, which would have...did make him a lot of money. Jeremy had stopped crying and just sat there, his heart had been broken by someone he trusted; someone he thought cared about him.

He walked into the bathroom and pulled out his uncle's tablets. He looked into the mirror and saw his tear stained face. He grabbed a glass of water and took half of the pills in the bottle. He didn't care anymore. He had nothing left. He was nothing. He laid there until a sweet relief filled him to the core and he didn't have to care anymore.

Everyone was crowded outside of the Gilbert resident as an ambulance was ready to take the unconscious body to the hospital, no one knew if they dead or not or who the hell it was. And Tyler stood there praying it wasn't who he thought it was. Jenna came running out of the hospital and jump into the ambulance with the doctors. Elena came running out and into the arms of Stefan and Caroline. One to go, Tyler thought to himself praying that it was his uncle. Jonathon Gilbert came in his wheelchair.

"No," Tyler whispered, "Fuck!" Tyler shouted as he crouched down in pain after Elena kicked him in the privates.

"Oh, I'm sorry, did that hurt?" She said sarcastically, "Magnify that by ten and then you'll know what you did to Jeremy, you son of a bitch!" She shouted as Stefan dragged her away glaring daggers at him as he crouched on the floor from the impact. Magnify that by ten. What had he done?

Jeremy's eyes fluttered opened, he looked around the room and realized he was in a hospital, "Shit," He mumbled to himself. He turned his head slowly as his head was pounding, "Get the hell out of here!" He demanded as Tyler stood in the doorway.

"Hey, I just got kicked in the balls by your sister!" Tyler shouted back, "So, you're gonna shut the hell up and listen." He said as he shut the door, "I know I hurt you, OK. I know I was being a dick and I know this is all my fault."

"You don't know jack shit!"

"I know that I'm in love with you!" Tyler shouted back, Jeremy looked up at him in shock, "Why the hell do you think I took the bet! You think I hate you that much that I would something that awful? I love you, Jeremy." He admitted walking over to him, "I love you." He leaned in before Jeremy could say anything and kissed not holding one emotion he had inside of him because of Jeremy; anger, confusion, envy, love, lust, happiness. Guilt. Jeremy pulled away with tears forming in his eyes again. Tyler told him to look at him. Jeremy refused.

"Please, Tyler," Jeremy pleaded his voice nothing but a whisper, "Please get out." Tyler nods his head and leaves. Jeremy gets up, wincing as he did so, and shuts the door. He falls to the floor as his body begins to rock with sadness and his heart breaks more than it ever has before.