I wish I was her

Always knew when we said goodbye
It wouldn't last forever
Always thought that I'd run into you
And we'd get back together
Now you're here
Just like I imagined
Never once did it cross my mind
that you could move on...
You've found someone
It breaks my heart
Cause you're so in love

Summer

Tyler can admit he had made mistakes; he had gotten cocky and let the fact that he was Jeremy's first get to his head. But he never imagined that it would hurt him the way it did when he saw Jeremy and Vickie kissing at that party in the summer. He felt something become…sore all of a sudden as if someone was squeezing something inside of him. And that was when he realized what it was;

It was his heart.

I wish that my touch
Makes you smile just like that
And I wish that I had you
the way that she has
Cause I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

When he had gotten home that day he began to smash the vases and mirrors in his home. He hated himself he really did. He had never felt like this before, he had coursed this feeling but he had never experienced it. He looked at the broken glass on the floor and saw how much he needed Jeremy.

He wished that he had him back and hadn't of left him so the team wouldn't find out because he had gone soft. He wanted to make Jeremy smile again like when he would wink at him before a game when they first started. He envied someone all because of Jeremy Gilbert.

I think somebody's try'na to talk to me
But I can't hear what they're sayin
All I can do is stare at you
I don't even know why I'm stayin
Never thought, I'd cry to see you Happy Its Just I
Thought that your happiness
Was right here with me
I know were through
It's no use
Still I can't help but feel.

Matt was trying to speak to him again. Tyler wasn't listening but Matt would stop trying apparently. He looked over at Jeremy and Vickie, the sight made his blood boil. She was constantly touching his arm making cough nervously due to the looks she was giving Jeremy. His Jeremy. Jeremy belonged to him and no one else!

And yet there she was making him look around the room nervously, Jeremy looked at Tyler and blushed before turning back to Vickie. Tyler knew it! Jeremy still had feelings for him! He could deny it all he wanted but Tyler saw the look on his face. Jeremy still wanted him just like Tyler still wanted him.

I wish that my touch
Makes you smile just like that (make you smile like
that)
And I wish that I had you
The way that she has you (the way that she has)
Cause I still remember the love
That I left behind (I left behind)
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

Tyler took another swig of his beer as he rolled his eyes at them; Vickie and Jeremy. Jeremy and fucking Vickie! He missed him. All he wanted was Jeremy to leave her standing there and to go and wait for Tyler by his car or something. Tyler chucked his bottle on the ground and decided there wasn't enough alcohol in the world to cheer him up right now.

Tyler continued to walk until he heard the reason for all his problems, "Tyler!" Jeremy called as he chased after him, "Hey, you're leaving?" Tyler just nodded his head not looking at him, "Could you give me a ride home? Vickie was supposed to but she kinda ran off with some guy." He laughed.

"No," Tyler said in a monotone voice.

"Why?" Jeremy asked as he continued to walk beside Tyler, "You used to always drive me home or…your house." Jeremy said with a small blush on his face.

The way that she has you (oh)
I wish that was me (I wish that was me)
There's no place on earth
That I'd rather be (rather be)
Cause I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

Tyler rolled his eyes and continued to walk down the path, his fists hidden in his pockets. Jeremy thought for a second before looking around and giving Tyler a small peck on the cheek as they continued to walk down the path. Tyler moved away from Jeremy, "Stop it, Jeremy." He said simply. Jeremy looked hurt but he was most probably high so he was emotional.

"What did I do wrong?" Jeremy asked simply, "I'm just trying to show you that I forgive you, I still like you." Jeremy admitted.

I used to be right beside you (oh no)
Now I'm not even kept inside your heart (oh no)
I put our love upon a shelf
But now it's gone
Cause you belong to someone else...

"What did you do wrong?" Tyler had lost it and was trying his hardest not to punch Jeremy in the face, "You decide that the best way to see if you still like me is to fuck around with Vickie Donavon! That's what you did wrong!" Jeremy was taken aback by his reaction, Tyler had never been this angry at him before.

"We're friends! We're gonna hang out together." Jeremy defended.

"There's hanging out and then there's fucking each other behind the bleachers!" Tyler yelled.

"I thought that was our thing?" Jeremy joked cockily. Tyler scoffed before walking away from him, "Fine! Maybe I will sleep with Vickie! I'll be in a better relationship with her then I ever was with you!"

"Good luck!" Tyler shouted back before getting into his car.

I wish that my touch
Makes you smile just like that (I wish I was her)
And I wish that I had you
The way that she has you (the way that she has you
babe)
Cause I still remember the love
That I left (I Left Oh I Left Behind)
Oh I wish I was her (I wish I was her)
And you were mine (oh I wish you were mine)
Oh I wish that were me (Oh I Wish That Was Me)
There's no place On earth
That I'd rather be (That I'd Rather Be)
Cause I still remember the love
That I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

Winter

Jeremy looked over at Caroline and Tyler. What was he doing? He had gotten over this, right? The tears in his eyes told him no. He sniffed before walking to the bus stop. His heart was heavy and his head was surrounded by questions; does Tyler want to hurt him? Does he know what he's doing to? Does he not care that I still love him? Jeremy looked back once more and wiped the tear that ran down his cheek.

Better relationship then with him? Yeah right.

XOXO

ManaMcC