Just Tonight
Here we are and I can think from all the pills you made
Start the car and take me home
here we are and you're too drunk to hear a word I say
Start the car and take me home
Jeremy Gilbert sighed as he looked down at the pills in his hands. Tyler would have stopped him, if he wasn't the one who gave them to Jeremy. He and Tyler stood in the woods surrounded by people; all of them drunk or high. All of them looking for a cheap thrill, Jeremy didn't understand. Everything was perfect between them, everything, and now...they've just fallen apart. Tyler grew angry and cold but only when he was drunk. Which was in fact most of the time now, after finding out about his uncle's death and then everything else the world had thrown at him, now his mother has developed some type of cancer...Tyler's world was falling apart.
He believed that the only thing that was really good in his life was Jeremy. But Jeremy didn't want to be a part of his life anymore.
Just tonight I will stay
and we'll throw it all away
When the light hits your eyes
It's telling me I'm right
And if I, I am through
It's all because of you
Just tonight
Jeremy sighed as he saw Tyler take yet another sip of his beer; he looked down at the drugs in his hands and sighed again. Tipping his head back, he felt the pills run down his throat quickly, in a few moments he would be out of it. Maybe he did this because he preferred seeing thing in a better point of view and not in reality. He felt arms wrap around his waist and small kisses being placed onto his neck. In the morning Tyler wouldn't remember anything, he would ask if he did anything to Jeremy worried.
Jeremy will just shake his head 'no' and kiss him quickly. Making Tyler feel better about who he really is and then that night he would watch him pick up another beer and give him another set of pills to take until they relived what they do every morning.
But here I am and I can't seem to see straight
But I'm too numb to feel right now
And here I am watching the clock that's ticking away my time
I'm too numb to feel right now
He hated his life now, he hated everything about it. He hated when Tyler would touch him, kiss him, even when he just walked by him he felt like he cringe. He used to love him, he used to want to be there for him through everything but now...he couldn't care.
He tried to not shrug Jeremy off of him while he continued to kiss his neck softly, his hand running under his shirt. This is what Jeremy's life had become; a cruel, and painful, punishment. He hated the fact that he left home, he wanted to go back. He wanted to just leave Tyler there and walk all the way back home, but he couldn't.
Just tonight I will stay
And we'll throw it all away
When the light hits your eyes
It's telling me I'm right
And if I, I am through
It's all because of you
Just tonight
He knew that he couldn't.
Just Tonight
Yet.
Do you understand who I am
Do you wanna know
Can you really see through me now
I am 'bout to go
Jeremy sat on his and Tyler's bed while Tyler apologized for something that he couldn't even remember. Tyler continued to apologize and apologize. He doesn't really mean it though.
"Tyler! You didn't do anything bad," Jeremy reassured with a fake smile placed perfectly on his lips. Tyler leaned down and kissed him, mumbling about how he didn't know what he would do without Jeremy by his side. He was going to find out though. And soon.
But just tonight I won't leave
I'll lie and you'll believe
Just tonight I will see
It's all because of me
Jeremy got and dressed quickly, reaching under his bed and grabbed his already packed bags. He began to write a quick note while Tyler was away for a moment, he had to hurry. Jeremy wiped at his eyes, he may not love him as much but there was something inside of him just for Tyler. Something that he couldn't leave behind.
Just tonight I will stay
And we'll throw it all away
When the light hits your eyes
It's telling me I'm right
And if I, I am through
It's all because of you
Just tonight
Tyler stepped inside the room and looked around, Jeremy was gone. He began to try and call him but there was nothing; it said that this number didn't existed. He was about to call his family when he saw the note on the desk. He walked over to the desk and picked up the note slowly, afraid of what would be on the piece of paper. He began to read;
It's all because of you
just tonight
You ruin everything; my life, my home everything. I don't even know why I went with you. I'm leaving you,
It's all because of you
just tonight
And I'm not coming back. I'm done lying to keep you safe. To make sure you don't feel hurt. I'm done caring about you. I won't, I can't, care about you anymore. This is the last time you will hear from me, don't try to find me or to contact me.
It's all because of you
Just tonight
I will never be so stupid as to love you again, Tyler.
It's all because of you
just tonight
XOXO
ManaMcC
I also have this story in The Covenant style that was actually the original version; I have uploaded it onto my profile and hope you all like it. If you do read it please review.