This chapter starts with Hitsugaya unable to keep his mouth shut once again, and Shizu(Sakurai) snaps... Enjoy.

I let go of the doorframe as Hitsugaya stood up straight.
"What do you mean? Why would they be looking for me?" I questioned him.
"I don't know. I don't care." The Taicho growled. "All that I care about is that the two of them are dead, and it's because of you!"
"Taicho..." Rangiku started.
"Quiet!" He snapped at her, making her jump. Then he turned back to me. "You proved my point Sakurai, it's a good job that I never got around to taking it back. Everyone around you dies. You're a walking disaster!" I let him criticize me, as I did the night before. My face stayed emotionless, that's what led him to his next criticism. "Not to mention you're so unaffected by everything! Two people, two of your friends have just been killed at you're just stood there, with not a hint of sadness or anything even resembling emotion on your face! Nothing matters to you! Do you even possess emotions?"
"Hitsugaya, did you fail to comprehend when you became a shinigami, that it is pretty much necessary to discard emotion, as if you don't your missions may become jeopardised. You aren't allowed to feel Hitsugaya, or you will suffer the most pain imaginable. People die in the soul society every day. It would cause a lot of pain if everyone let their feelings out."
"You're not bottling up your feelings, you have none!" He backfired at me. "You don't know that pain, of losing someone close to you, because you have nothing to lose! I-"
Toshiro was cut off as I slammed him into the wall.
"You ignorant brat." I hissed, surprising everyone in the room. "You were there in that meeting Hitsugaya."
"I was. It just makes my point even more stable of you having nothing to lose."
"Because I have nothing left!" I screamed. Everyone in the room froze, even Toshiro. "Don't you dare tell me that I don't know what it's like to lose some one important. I have. I've lost someone who is important to me many times. I have lost my mother, my brother, my foster parents, my friends!" I paused. "You lost Momo, that's it. You have no right to judge."
"I have every right!"
"No you do not! Now be silent Hitsugaya Toshiro! I am fed up of you addressing me as if you are my superior!" I let him fall to the ground with a thump. I hadn't comprehended just how high up the wall I had been holding him. "Momo never chose to leave, Toshiro. I've had both types of loss. Before you criticize me, learn more about me. It hurts to have people forcibly taken from you. But it hurts even more to know that they chose to leave. To think for your entire life, that you weren't good enough for them to stay."
"Your father..." Rangiku whispered.
"Learn your place Histugaya Taicho." I growled as I began to walk away. "And learn when to keep your mouth shut." With that being my final sentence on the matter I shunpo'd away.

I ended up by the river, where I had spent time with Karin the previous day. I began to cough somewhat harshly, I shouldn't have shouted. I can't come that close to losing my temper.
I sat down on the grass, staring at the water. My hand touched the jewel on the chain around my neck. It was a bright blue sapphire with a metal dragon weaved around it. To represent my zanpakuto. It had been a birthday present a long time ago. From Byakuya.
I don't think I'd ever missed him as much as I do right now. I needed something that had always been there, just to stop my head spinning.
"You know, you shouldn't sit that close to the water." A sarcastic voice reached me. I smiled slightly and continued to stare at the water.
"Karin." I tore my eyes away from the water as she sat beside me. "What are you doing here?"
"Could ask you the same thing." She smirked. "I'm hiding from my brother and Toshiro. You?"
"Hiding from Toshiro and Kisuke." I laughed emptily. "Why are you hiding from them?"
"I was worried about you." She admitted with a shrug. "I have to go to the soul society now, right?" I nodded. "And I'll forget…" She sighed, looking down.
"Not necessarily." She looked at me, surprised. "I have an idea. It's time to go see Kisuke. I need to talk to him about a lot of things."
Karin looked at me.
"What if Toshiro is there?"
"He won't be. Trust me. He'll think I'm there, and I'm the last person he wants to see right now." I assured her.
"He yelled again?"
"We both did." I shrugged. "Let's just say he knows a lot less than he thinks he does." I stood up and motioned for her to follow. She did.
"What do you mean?"
"I have nothing to lose." I whispered. "I mean I have everything to lose." I spoke up slightly, confusing Karin with my words. "Come on." I smirked, running toward Kisuke's shop. She laughed and ran after me.

"Kisuke?" I knocked on the door. No answer. I repeated it several times and still got no answer.
"He's not here?" Karin asked. I sighed.
"No, he's being over-dramatic." I rolled my eyes. "Karin, don't ever mention this again."
"What?"
"What I'm about to shout." I told her before turning back around and banging on the door. "Dad! Open up!" I swear I just felt Karin's spiritual pressure freak out, but regardless, it worked. Kisuke came to the door.
"You acknowledged the fact then?" He smirked.
"I didn't have much of a choice. We needed to come in." I said coldly.
"We?" He looked behind me. "Oh! Karin-chan! I am sorry by the way." His face was suddenly serious and he looked back at me. "I shouldn't have stopped you, it wasn't my place."
"You're right, it wasn't." I looked away. "But I over-reacted. Forgive me." I bowed my head to him and as I rose I saw the surprise on Kisuke's face.
"I wasn't angry at you." It was my turn to be surprised. "I didn't blame you for being angry. In fact, I think I probably deserve it. I let you down. I should be the one apologising."
"Forget it." I shrugged. "I need your help. Is it possible for me to take Karin through the senkaimon with me."
"Tough one." He looked at Karin behind me and she saluted him sarcastically. "Well, Ichigo and his friends got through when they went to save Rukia. Then Karin has soul reaper abilities and she'll be with a taicho, so the chances are likely she should be able to get through."
"Good." I nodded. "Could you open a senkaimon for us then?"
"You're leaving now?"
"Yes. I have no need to wait around here. I was sent to see if I could figure out what these Arrancars want. I got my answer." My hands curled into fists at my side. "Kaori can stay here for a while. She deserves a break. Plus, she's enjoying seeing Kurosaki."
"My brother?"
"Yes." I nodded.
"Very well ladies. Meet me downstairs in the training room in ten." With that Kisuke waved and walked away toward the training room.
"What about Toshiro?" Karin asked suddenly.
"What about him?" I didn't look at Karin I just walked to my room and rummaged around in one of the draws.
"Don't you think you should tell him you're leaving?"
"No. We were sent here for different missions. It's none of his concern when I leave." I explained.
"I see." Karin sighed.
"Hey, did you know that Renji, Rangiku and your brother have been put forward for the three vacant taicho positions?"
"They have? Really? Who suggested them for that?"
"Byakuya put Renji's name forward. Ichigo was already pretty much decided. I suggested Rangiku. She achieved bankai last year, so she's pretty much the only other option." I smirked at her, handing her a photograph. It was of me and Rangiku, about thirty years ago in the world of the living. Rangiku's hair was much shorter than it was now. But neither of us looked that different. "Hitsugaya would never get rid of her without having to. Plus, she's my best friend, so I thought I made a pretty good judgement. She's not the best for paperwork, but then again, neither is Kyoraku-taicho. She's strong. That's good enough."
"Cool."
"Only thing is that now they need to come up with two new fukutaicho. I think they already have someone in mind for the tenth." I looked at her. "So, just how much has Urahara taught you?" Karin stiffened.
"You knew all this time? That I was a shinigami?"
"Of course." I admitted. "It's why I was all the more taken aback by your death. Everyone in the soul society knows anyway, Karin,"
"Well, I still need a lot of training. Urahara has made me a lot stronger, but apparently I'm still not getting it."
"Well, once we get to the soul society, I'll train you if you want." I offered, her face lit up.
"Seriously? You wouldn't be too busy?"
"Not at all. Trust me, my squad do nothing majority of the time. Besides," I waved my hand, motioning for her to follow me to the training room. "It gives me someone else to bug instead of Kuchiki-taicho and Rangiku."
"Oh great." Both of us laughed. "Sakurai?"
"Hm?"
"How come, if I am a shinigami, I'm not in my shinigmai form now?"
"Because you've died. Not just left your body. Don't worry." I closed my eyes, my mind drifting to my zanpakuto.
Her zanpakuto awaits in the soul society. The office for the tenth.
How convenient.
"We just need to pay a visit to Hitsugaya's office when we get there."
"Right." She just nodded as we read the place in the training room where Kisuke waited.
"Hello there." He waved at us, the senkaimon behind him. "After you Karin-chan."
she looked at me and I motioned for her to go. She nodded and stepped through the doors.
"I'm not angry at you anymore." I told my father, stopping just before the senkaimon. "But you could have let me know sooner."
"Promise me something." He said suddenly, I jumped.
"What is it?"
"Stop refusing treatment, Shi, you're scaring the hell out of me!"
"Sorry." I stepped toward him and bit my lip before giving him a brief hug. "Goodbye for now, dad." I nodded to him; he smiled in response as I stepped through the senkaimon.

"This is the soul society?" Karin asked as we stepped out into the gardens of my family's manor.
"This is my house." I shrugged, smirking at the surprise on her face.
"Nice garden." She blinked. I laughed.
"Yeah. Come on." I grabbed Karin's wrist and grinned mischeviously. "Hold on." With that I used shunpo to get to the ichibantai barracks.
"N-Never do that again…" she panted. I smiled evilly.
"Aww, couldn't handle it Karin-chan?"
"Shut it." She snapped.
"Mitsugayani, is that you?" A voice from behind us asked.
"Ah, hey Chojiro. Is sotaicho here?"
"Afraid not, Sakurai-taicho." The fukutaicho shook his head. "He is in a meeting at the moment, I'm sure you can enter."
"Ah right. Okay, see you later." I waved at him before grabbing Karin again and pulling her toward the meeting room.
"Hello, Mitsugayani-chan." The shinigami at the door greeted me.
"Mornin', Mind if I go in?"
"Not at all Mitsugayani-taicho."
"Great!" I looked at Karin. "Wait right here!" I said before opening the door and deciding to have a little fun, I used shunpo, meaning I left the group of taicho staring at the open door before I appeared behind Byakuya, putting my arm round his shoulders(admittedly tiptoeing) and shouted. "Evenin' all!"
I swear I gave them all a minor heart attack.
"Don't ever do that again." Byakuya muttered. I laughed.
"Gomenesai. Didn't really expect to make you all jump that much." I shrugged. I took my arm from round Byakuya and lowered my bare feet fully onto the ground.
"It's morning, Rai-chan." Shunsui pointed out.
"No shit. That's what I said." I smiled at him, winking. He just chuckled.
"Sakurai, is Hitsugaya with you?" Yamamoto asked as I leant against the door, one of which was still open, and I heard Karin suck in a breath.
"No. He and I had…a small disagreement." I thought of eventually.
"Small? He looked about ready to kill you." Karin said from behind me.
"Forgot you were there." I smiled, walking over and pulling her into the room. "Meh, you and the girl who is basically an older sister to him died because of me. I'd say that's fair reason to hate me, wouldn't you?"
"You say that like it is a regurlar occurrence."
"The longer you spend with me, the more you'll realise the truth behind that statement." I pointed to the many taicho behind me. "Just ask them. Speaking of which." I spun around to face them all and took a deep breath before cramming everything in with one breath. "This is Karin Kurosaki, Ichigo Kurosaki's little sister she died along with Hinamore in the the world of the living so I'm afraid Hinamori fukutaicho won't be returning and they were killed by an arrancar that was supposedly after me."
"They are after you?"
"That's what Hitsugaya said, well, yelled." I shrugged.
"That wasn't exactly it." Karin spoke up. "May I?" She looked at the sotaicho, who nodded.
"Tell us what you know, Kurosaki Karin."
"Right." She nodded, looking at me. "Toshiro was angry at you. He didn't mean what he said to you. About Kuchiki-taicho. I'm sure he didn't." I looked away from her, and Byakuya, who was watching me.
"What did he say?" Byakuya asked, looking from me to Karin. She hesitated, not sure whether to answer him or not.
"He said everyone close to me dies." I said coldly. "It's true isn't it?"
"And about Kuchiki?" Unohana asked.
I didn't answer.
"Carry on, Kurosaki." I smirked inwardly, though we did not get on, Yamamoto knew when to change a subject.
"Toshiro, he didn't get all the facts right. He was late there as well, Sakurai-san. They didn't want your death, they wanted your attention." She explained, I looked up at her. "The arrancar wanted to get your attention. They originally didn't plan to kill me or Hinamori-san. They planned to kill Toshiro." I stiffened.
"Why would they do that? Any of you would get her attention."
"But only certain people would keep it." I muttered. Karin looked at me and nodded.
"Out of the people in the world of the living, Toshiro was closest to her. The arrancar was having a rant, after killing Hinamori. It said it would have been more fun to fight a taicho. He said it would have been even more fun to watch Sakurai suffer from the loss of some one else she cared about. Then…"
"Then what?" Kenpachi snapped.
"He told me to give you a message." She looked at me and I leant against the back wall, eyes on her.
"What is it?"
"He said, you'll lose Hitsugaya. One by one, you'll lose everything. The next time, it will be the one who matters most." Karin looked at me. "I think I know who they mean."
"Yeah…" I nodded. I sighed, looking at Byakuya briefly. "So do I."
"What happened to your hand?" Unohana asked me.
"Oh, that?" I looked down art my hand, blood-stained and splintered. "I had a disagreement with a doorframe."
She just laughed lightly.
"Mitsugayani, what did you intend to gain by bringing the girl here?" Yamamoto asked.
"Oh! That's right." I smirked, grabbing Karin's hand. "She was a soul reaper, a lot like her brother. Obviously via my d-Kisuke." Shit. "She already achieved Shikai."
"Sakurai. She does not have a zanpakuto."
"I know where it is, it's fine."
"You do? Where is it?" Karin looked at me in surprise.
"Nami said it was in the tenth division office." I told her.
"Why is it there?" She asked, puzzled. "Shouldn't I have it?"
"Not nessisarily." I shrugged. "Yamamoto, is it okay for me to request her to be placed in a squad. She has had training under both Urahara and Shihoen."
"She would need to be trained. Does she already know Kido? All of the elements of the shinigami?"
"I am okay at Shunpo, and Yoruichi-san had only just started teaching me Hakudo. I can do quite a lot of kido though." Karin explained.
"I see. So you still do need training. I take it since you can use kido, your brother would not be able to do so."
"I'll do it." I suggested with a shrug. "I mean, I know her, we're friends. Not to mention the fact that all I ever seem to do is sit on my chair in my office throwing daggers at the picture of Aizen on my wall."
Karin stifled a laugh.
"I see." Yamamoto looked at me. "I shall think on that. Until then Karin, you shall follow Sakurai at all times. At least until the team return from the world of the living, I wish to see your skills then. Sakurai, the new taicho have been determined." He sent me a knowing look.
"Sure. I'll contact Yoruichi." I nodded. "Karin let's go." I spun around motioning for her to follow with a wave of my hand. She bowed to the sotaicho before running after me.
"Where are we going?"
"Juubantai office." I stated, beginning to close the door to the meeting room.
"Sakurai." Unohana's voice stopped me. "I need to speak with you, meet me later on in my office, if you don't mind."
"Of course, Unohana-taicho." I nodded before closing the doors. I think I knew what she wanted.
It was to do with what I said, or nearly said, earlier. No one else had picked up on it. She did.
The fact I nearly called Kisuke my father.

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