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"Emily I want you to take a few more days off until you come back to work." Hotch told Emily after they got off the jet.

"Hotch; I've already had a lot of time since, then..." Emily argued back.

"I know, but just a few days. Get some more rest. I don't want you coming in until you are well rested."

"Okay," Emily agreed. It was reasonable, and she was exhausted.

"Now who's up for some drinks?" Rossi asked.

"Oh, I am!" Reid answered.

"Jack's over at a friend's, I think I can come." Hotch said.

"I'm game, but only if you come Mama," Morgan wrapped his arm around Garcia.

"Oh, my chocolate god, when would I ever pass up drinks with you?" Garcia answered back.

They all looked over at Emily and JJ.

"You know, I'm pretty tired. I think I'm just going to go home."Emily said.

"Same here." JJ answered.

"You don't know what you're going to be missing." Morgan tried to tempt them.

"Oh I'm pretty sure I do." Emily shot him down, "I'm going to head out now." Emily started walking toward her car. She got in and drove the short drive to her apartment. She passed through the lobby and made it to her room. She opened the door and was greeted by her apartment. But it had been ransacked. She looked inside and books were on the ground, and papers had been spread around them. Plates and glasses were broken on the ground. Emily sighed, and stepped into the room closing the door behind. Suddenly she heard something come from her bedroom. She heard footsteps. Instinctively she reached for her gun, only to realize it wasn't there. Bate's had taken it. She grabbed a steak knife from her kitchen counter and slowly approached the door. She listened silently and heard the footsteps come again. She reached for the knob and silently turned it. In a second she threw the door open and stepped in with the knife at the ready. She was met by a figure. A figure she had not expected to see. Sergio ran up to her from across the room.

"He didn't kill you!" Emily said relieved. He was missing his collar, but he was alive. Emily quickly checked the rest of the room to determine that Sergio had in fact been the sound she heard. She fell onto her bed and her cat jumped up. He nuzzled his head into her side and purred. Emily was too distracted petting him that she didn't immediately realize all of her clothes had been thrown around her room. And one of her mirrors had been broken.

Emily kicked her shoes off and got under the covers of her bed. Sergio jumped up angry that she had moved, but quickly re- settled next to her head. She looked over to the clock and saw it was only 7:30, but she was exhausted. Emily closed her eyes and drifted off into sleep.

Emily was holding a baby. Her baby. She felt it in her arms, but was too afraid to look down at it. Afraid she would see Bate's. She took a quick glance down and saw what looked like just a normal baby. She took a second look and paused. She stroked the baby's face and brought it up to her own face. The second she did that it started to transform. It turned into Bate's and pushed her down. He lifted up the bottom of her dress. He drifted his hands up her legs. She kicked at him, but he grabbed her leg. He pinned both of her legs down with his knees. His hands continued to move up her body. He fingered her underwear; playing with the elastic on it. He then pulled it down to her knees. Emily tried to sit up, she tried to fight but he pushed her back down and overpowered her. He worked the zipper on his own pants, and then leaned over her…

Emily woke up with a gasp. She was coated in a thin sweat. She startled Sergio and he jumped up and ran to the foot of her bed, where he curled up again. Emily took a few deep breaths and wiped her face off. She was tangled in her covers. Quickly she untangled herself and got out of bed. She sat on the edge of it and put her head in her hands. He's controlling my life, she thought. Emily got up and walked to her kitchen. She had to step around all of the stuff on the floor to get to the cabinet. She went through all of them until she was able to find a glass. She cautiously walked to the other side of her kitchen and pulled the scotch out. She poured herself a glass and sat down. She brought the drink to her lips and paused. It suddenly came to her. She was pregnant, she couldn't drink. She slammed her cup back onto the table. She held her head in her hands. She couldn't even have a drink to try to forget the memories. She got up from the table and started pacing up and down her hallway. She glanced at the clock on the wall and read 10:45. She pulled out her cell phone and dialed a number. She hesitated before pressing send. It was late; she didn't want to be a bother. Finally her desperate need to talk overcame her other worries. She pressed send and the phone starting to ring.

"Hello?" The voice on the other line asked.

"Hey Jayje." Emily said.

"Emily." JJ warmly greeted back.

"Did I wake you up?" Emily asked.

"No, I was just watching some made for TV movie," JJ laughed, "I'm actually kind of glad you interrupted. It was pretty bad."

"Do you think…?" Emily started, but cut off before finishing.

"I'll be over in a few minutes." JJ answered, knowing what her friend was asking.

"Thanks." Emily sighed relieved.

"Anytime," Emily could hear the smile in JJ's voice.

She hung up the phone and turned on the TV. The news was on. A story about the recent murders in the city was being featured across the screen. She immediately clicked the TV off. Why was the world so filled with pain and suffering? It was like humans were forms that were only capable of conflict. She knew there were good, like the bartender, but the Bates' of the world far outnumbered those. It seemed no one stood a chance in this world of suffering.

Then the door knocked interrupting her thoughts. She walked over to it, stepping over the things that were thrown on the ground. She looked through the hole in her door and saw JJ standing there. She opened the door for her. JJ looked in and saw her friend was still wearing her work clothes, but she also saw something was wrong. JJ stepped into her apartment and saw that it had been trashed.

"Oh Em, did Bate's do this?" JJ asked.

"I'm guessing." She answered, "But I'm not going to worry about it until tomorrow."

JJ understood. She held up the bag she was holding, "I don't know about you, but I'm starving." Both of them walked into the kitchen and JJ set down her bag on the table. Emily smelled the aroma of Italian food surround her.

"That smells amazing." Emily said trying to find some plates that they could use. She finally found two suitable ones and some forks. She set them on the table as JJ took the food out of the bag. As JJ set down the two Styrofoam containers of food she spotted the glass half filled with Scotch.

"Em…?" She motioned towards the glass.

"Don't worry JJ, I didn't drink any. The rest of it spilled when I slammed it down on the table. That bastard made it so now I can't even drink." She spit our bitterly. She then picked up the glass and dumped the rest of it in the sink. Both of the women filled their plates with food and sat down at the counter. Emily cleared all of the stuff off it by dumping it on the ground.

They ate in silence. Emily didn't realize how hungry she was until she took her first bite of the food. When they were done eating, Emily took their plates and set them in the sink. Then the two of them migrated over to the couch.

"How are you holding up?" JJ asked Emily, looking into her eyes.

"I'm fi-" Emily cut herself off. The lie had been almost automatic. "I'm scared." She admitted looking down.

JJ scooted closer to Emily, and put her arm around her friend.

"I don't know if I can do this JJ. I don't know if I can have this baby." She looked back into JJ's eyes, "I keep having dreams and I keep thinking… what if this baby is like Bates? How can I love his child?" Tears filled her eyes.

"Emily this baby is not going to be like Bates and it is not Bate's. This baby is yours. You want to know why? Because being the biological father means absolutely nothing. Bates will have no part of this baby's life." JJ assured her.

"But every time I look at the baby, it is going to remind me of his father. Of Bates. It's going to remind me of when he… Oh God JJ, I don't want to remember." Emily cried.

JJ just hugged Emily; no words could convey what she wanted say. Emily hugged her back. Eventually she looked back up.

"When I was in that room, I knew what he was going to do to me. I knew, and there was nothing I could damn well do about it. He made me wear that dress, to play out some sick fantasy of his. After that he didn't even do it right away, but I couldn't even keep him off long enough for you guys to come. And because of that he was able to…" Emily couldn't find herself to use the word.

"Emily don't do that. You know this is not your fault. And you don't know how badly I wish we could have gotten their faster."

"Don't you do that either JJ," Emily almost commanded, "You came as fast as you could."

They both sadly smiled at each other for the un-spoken agreement that this was Bate's fault. Clear and simple.

"Emily, I know you, and I know you can do this. You are so strong and you have so many people that want to help you. That includes me and everyone else from the team."

"I know," Emily answered, "I couldn't ask for anyone better." She then looked at the clock again. "It's late; you probably want to go, don't you?"

"You're not getting rid of me that easily Emily Prentiss. I'm here for the long haul, and that means I am here now."

Emily took her friends hand in hers and squeezed it, "Thank you." She said gazing in her friend's eyes, meaning every word she said.

JJ took her hand out of Emily's, but then pulled her into another hug. "And don't you forget that." JJ whispered.

And Emily never would.

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