It was the next day and Edward did not come to school nor did any of the other Cullen's. It only made me anxious about us. My stomach was tied in knots all day. I did not like being apart from Edward; this made me more afraid that he may leave me. I did not see how I could survive without him.

The last bell rang and I go to my locker to get my Biology and History book out and put my other books up. As I was trying to shove them in my bag, Angela walks up to me, she looks at me concern, "Are you okay, Bella?"

I manage to smile at her, "Yeah I am fine, why?"

Angela shrugs, "You just have not been yourself today."

I try to play it off like I was fine, "Just had some stuff on my mind. That's all."

She walks out to the parking lot with me.

Angela nods, "Oh well I guess I can understand that…"

Angela gives me a hug before walking over to Ben's car.

"Hey if you need to talk or anything, just call me."

I smile and wave bye to her.

I appreciated Angela so much for being a friend if she only knew how complicated my life was…

I get into my old red rusty truck and I had to turn the key about three times before it roar to life. Besides the roar of the engine it was quiet while driving back to my house, it gave me a chance to be alone with my thoughts.

When I finally arrived at my house I saw Edward standing outside, his Volvo was not in sight. I get out of my truck and smile but he does not return the smile. I knew something was wrong. I hesitantly walk to him; he was standing still as a statue. If I did not know any better I would have thought he was a statue.

All I could manage to say was, "Hey."

He says, "Sit down Bella." He motions towards the steps.

I knew he could hear my heart beating rapidly. I take a deep breath and sit on the steps. He sits next to me. He only looked straight ahead out in the distance, not at me.

"Bella, we have to leave Forks."

I say, "We as in us?"

Edward shakes his head, "No my family and I are leaving. It is time for us to leave; people are starting to question us…"

I take another breath, "Where are you guys going?"

Edward shrugs, "We are not sure yet…"

I ask, "But you are going to visit me right. I mean where ever you go I am sure I could find a college nearby and then I could move…."

Edward interrupts, "Bella. I don't know if I will visit…"

I could feel my heart breaking. He did not want me anymore. I knew the time was coming, how he could love someone so plain as me. I knew one day he would get bored.

I say trying to fight the tears, "Why?"

Edward says, "After what happen with Jasper. I cannot bare to put you in any more danger. It is not fair for you…"

The tears are falling down cheek, "I don't care! I just want to be with you Edward." I grab his arm and shake him begging him to look at me.

Edward turns his head and looks at me, I could see the torture on his face.

Edward stands up, "Bella I just need time to think."

I ask looking up at him desperately, "How long do you need to think?"

Edward sighs, "I do not know."

I shake my head and I choke out, "No."

Edward kneels next to me and takes my hand, "Bella just don't wait for me. I am being selfish taking you away from what you deserve. You deserve to have children and a future…you deserve to be with your kind, someone who will not put you in constant danger."

Tears were streaming down my face and I choke out, "No…No. I want you."

He lifts my hands to his lips and presses softly before releasing.

"Good Bye, Bella."

Then I saw a blur go into the woods.

I sat their stunned until something came over and took off towards the woods. I ran aimlessly into the woods yes I knew it was foolish to try to run after a vampire that I had no chance to catch up with but I was not exactly thinking rationally. I yelled "EDWARD PLEASE EDWARD COME BACK!"

I then trip on a tree root, I fell into a shallow hole. I knew I should get up; it was not safe to be alone in the woods. My father and Edward both had told me to stay out of these woods. I just did not care; I lay there in the fetal position and sobbed until I fell asleep.

I vaguely remember someone finding me and carrying me out of the woods. I heard him hand me off to my father and my father laying me on the couch, saying my name multiple times. I felt someone touch me as if they were checking my vital signs. I obviously was fine since soon it got quiet.

I woke up the next morning on the couch wrapped up in covers. My dad was asleep in the recliner next to me. I only wished that last night was just a bad nightmare. Though reality hit me and I knew it was real. Edward had left me.

I just lay on the couch. I did not want to get up and face reality. I see no reason now why I should live my life. Edward was my life. Now he is gone.

I lay there for a few hours before Charlie finally woke. I heard him pull his recliner back into the seating position. I hear him yawn and I could feel his eyes on me, "So Bella you want to talk about it?"

I did not respond.

He says, "Bella you are going to need to talk to me…"

I still did not say anything. I just stared blankly at the blank TV screen. I was not in the mood of carrying a conversation right now.

He takes an exaggerated breath. I knew he was getting frustrated by me but I did not care.

"I heard the Cullen's were moving away…Is that what upset you?"

I did not want to talk about so I rose up into the sitting position and I did not even realize I was crying again. I look over at my dad, he looked stressed. I knew I had done this to him and then I felt guilty.

I swallow and nod.

My dad asks, "So he broke up with you?"

I did not respond but he took it as a yes.

He says, "Bella you are a beautiful and smart girl. You deserve better than that boy."

I did not want any other boy, I just wanted Edward. Why could no one understand that? I could not see myself ever getting over him. I felt like a huge piece of my heart was ripped out.

I sigh and throw the cover off me. I head upstairs without saying anything to my dad. I did pity my dad for having to deal with me now but I could not find it in myself to pretend like I was okay or let him try to help. No one can help me. I just need to be by myself.

I spent the next three weeks doing just that, secluding myself from the world. I talked to no one or hung out with anyone at school. I walked around as if I was a zombie. I just stared ahead blankly. I did not want to feel and I did not want to think about him…I just waiting for the faithful day that would come and take my life. I had so many near death experiences while with Edward and if it was not for him, I would have been dead. So maybe that was my destiny to die at a young age, he was just preventing it. I told him I would die without him, he never believed me.

I had heard that Carlisle was still in town, I think maybe my dad mention it to me. Something about Carlisle did not want to leave his patients without their being a doctor to replace him…so he was going to stay until they find a replacement. I did think about it a couple of times to go visit him, because I missed all the Cullen's, dearly. Though I immediately debunked that idea because I knew Carlisle probably had no desire to see me since I am not with Edward anymore, why would he want to see me? I was just a pathetic, weak human that was too much of a danger for their world.

My father though eventually threatened to call my mom and have me moved back to Florida if I continued to walk around in this depressed mood. I knew it was killing him to see me this way and probably stressing about my well-being. So I decided to try to move on and it was not easy.

I found these old motorcycles that my neighbor decided to throw out and they look like a pile of junk but I thought maybe they could be saved. I decide to visit my old friend Jacob, to see if he could fix them and that is when we started to bond and he made me feel better. Though the hole in my heart was still there and not sure that anyone would ever be able to make my heart completely whole again.

Now it has been 2 months since the day he left and the pain still lingers but I am learning to find ways to keep me distracted.

"Now here is the brake and here is the gas…" Jacob tells me as I get ready to ride my motorcycle for the first time.

I nod, "Okay Okay I think I got it."

Jacob raises his eyebrow, "Really Bella? Are you sure about this? Should I dial 911 now or later?"

I laugh at him sarcastically, "Very funny Jake. Come on I am ready, let go."

He takes an exaggerated breath and let's go of the motorcycle. I press on the gas, maybe a little too hard as I sped off.

I hear Jacob yell in the distance, "Hit the break a little, to slow down!"

I pressed the break but a little too hard and the motorcycle screeches to a stop and flipping me off and I hit the ground hard.

Jacob ran over to me and says in a panic, "Bella? Are you okay!?!"

I rise up and wince when I bend my knee.

Jacob say's "Your head is bleeding…I think you may need to go to the doctor..."

I shake my head, "No it is okay…I will be fine…"

Jacob pulls off his tee shirt and presses it against my wounded head. I could not help but stare at his much toned body. When did he get so buff?

Jacob smirks, "You could just take a picture…"

I look at him, "Huh?"

Jacob laughs, "I saw you staring…"

I could feel my face getting red and Jacob found my embarrassment funny and laughed as he grab my arm helping me up but when I stood up, I felt dizzy and he caught me from falling back on the ground.

He demands, "We are going to the hospital right now."

I groan and try to protest but what was the use.

I now sat in the waiting room with Jacob's shirt pressed against my head. Waiting for the nurse to come in and tell me the doctor is ready for me. I hated waiting rooms. It was filled with sick people coughing and spreading germs.

Jacob was reading some mechanic magazine and I was flipping through People magazine, which normally I usually did not read but they did have a good article about a girl who was kidnapped and was able to escape which kept me distracted.

Jacob says not looking up from magazine, "You do know I am going to call your dad."

I shake my head, "No you are not."

Jacob puts the magazine down in his lap to look at me, "If I don't then I am sure he will be at the rez with a shotgun to shoot my ass for letting you ride those motorcycles…"

I nod, "Which is a better reason why you should not call him."

Jacob says, "No if I call him and let him know. He may not kill me for being honest."

I sigh, "Fine call him but make up something for why I am injured. If he finds out I was riding the motorcycle after he specifically told me not to… he will send me off to Florida, tomorrow."

Billy had mention a few weeks ago to my dad about me helping Jacob rebuild those motorcycles and my dad made me promise him that I would not try to ride them.

Jacob raises his eyebrow, "Like what?"

The nurse comes in and say's, "Bella Swan?"

I look at her and stand up, "Yeah that is me."

She smiles, "The doctor is waiting for you."

I then look at Jacob, "I am clumsy…he would believe almost anything..."

He got his cell phone out and sighs, "Okay fine."

I follow her to the doctor's office. I pull myself onto the table as I wait impatiently. I hated hospitals which was no luck for me since I was constantly in them.

Within minutes I hear the door open and I look up. My heart had to of stopped for a split second and I had to remind myself to breathe.

His gives me a dazzling smile says, "Nice to see you again Bella."

I gulp and say, "You too Carlisle…"

I really was not expecting him to come in. I mean I did know he was still here but I figured if he knew I was here he would have some other doctor to check on me. We have not talked since Edward had left and I am sure he agreed with Edward by needing to be apart from me since it was "dangerous."

Carlisle checks the wound on my head and says, "It is not that deep. You will not need stitches. Just some anesthetic and some aspirin should do it."

He then looks into my eyes and I assume was to check to see if I have a concussion.

He asks, "Do you feel tired or dizzy."

I shake my head, "No not anymore. I was dizzy at first but only because I could smell my blood…it makes me queasy."

Carlisle smiles and shakes his head as he writes something down on his chart and knew what he was thinking a girl getting sick from smelling blood was kind of ironic for someone who dated a vampire for a year.

I shrug, "Ironic. I know."

Carlisle just laughs.

Carlisle says, "Well other than a scrape on your head. You are fine."

I sigh, "I told Jacob that I did not need to go to the ER. He freaked out when I got dizzy after helping me up"

Carlisle chuckles, "Well I am glad you came. I have missed you."

My eyes widen, "Really?"

Carlisle looks at me curiously, "Why is that such a surprise?"

I shrug and look at the floor, "I figure since Edward had left then you really had no reason to worry about me anymore."

I feel his cold hand lightly touch my chin and brought my face up so I could look at him. I almost lost myself when I gaze into his eyes, he says softly, "Bella just because Edward decided to leave did not mean we all would suddenly forget you…"

Tears start to fall from my eyes and I say, "I just don't know why any of you want to be around a pathetic human. I put your life in danger too. Edward told me about the Volterra…if they found out that I knew…."

Carlisle cuts me off, "If they do…Alice will see. She has been keeping tabs on them for quite some time now. And you are not a pathetic human, if anything you have made our lives worth living."

"Really?" I sob

He smiles and gives me a gentle hug, "Yes."

.He hands me a tissue and says, "Now let me fix that cut on your head."

While he doctors my wound I ask, "Why has nobody contacted me or visited me…" I was afraid to ask but my curiosity got the best of me.

Carlisle sighs and I was very aware of how close his face was to mine as he was concentrating on my wound. He says, "Well Edward made us promise not to interfere in your life unless it was necessary. He is family and I felt I had to respect his wishes."

My heart was beating fast because our close proximity and I knew he could hear it but I hoped he would not figure out why. I take a breath.

He says as he puts the bandage on my wound, "Now if you take some aspirin when you get home. You should be good."

I nod, "It was awesome to see you Carlisle…"

He says, "It was very nice to see you, too."

His eyes then locked on to mine and I could not find it in me to pull away. I could see his eyes slightly getting darker and he leans forward as the space between us start to close but then he backed away suddenly. The door opens.

"Dr. Cullen. Ms. Gilbert is in room 105 when you are done here." The nurse says at the door

He nods, "Very well."

She smiles and leaves.

I was not sure what almost happen there. Did he almost kiss me? Did I want him to kiss me? Then Esme popped in my head and my heart tightens. I could never hurt her.

Carlisle was still calm as ever and he seems to change the subject "So does anything else hurt."

I stutter, "Y..yeah my knee hurts a little."

He may have gulped before he softly grabs my leg, but I could be just seeing things, though his touch sends shivers up my spine. He feels around my knee and the ask me to make my leg go straight I do so and wince in pain.

He says, "Looks as if you just bruised it."

I sigh in relief, "Good."

Carlisle says, "It may be sore of a while. I will write you a doctor's note for you to sit out for a week."

I smile, "Oh that would be wonderful."

He smiles, "I figure you would like that…"

He helps me off the table and I ask, "Is the rest of the family still here?"

Carlisle shakes his head, "No. Alice, Jasper, and Emmett come every so often to check out the area but other than that most of the family is in Alaska with the Denali's."

I nod, "So Esme is not with you?"

Carlisle mouth forms into a line and he shakes his head, "No. She is busy with remodeling a house there for the family."

I nod decide to leave it be. I had a feeling there was more to why Esme was not with him. They use to be inseparable, it seemed like.

I almost wanted to ask where Edward may be but decided against it. I think I rather not know. It still hurt thinking about him.

I reach over and embrace him. I feel his cold arms wrap around me and felt him breath into my hair.

He murmurs, "We have all missed you so much. You have no idea how much of an impact you had on this family."

My face was buried in his shoulder, he smelled so nice.

I reply, "I have a hard time believing that…"

Carlisle gently pulls away and puts both his hands on my shoulders so he could look at me directly in the eye, "It is true. We never wanted to leave and try so hard to convince him that he was being foolish. But he is stubborn…"

I could feel the tears developing again and a lot of the emotion that for the past month or so I was able to withhold since I had Jacob to distract me was coming back.

I sniff wiping the tears from my eyes with the tissue Carlisle had gave me earlier, "It hurts everyday just thinking about him, it is like he stole something from me. Maybe it is my sanity…I don't know."

Carlisle shakes his head and grimace, "I know. I heard around the hospital people talking about how you were taking it…I hated it and I wanted to go check on you but…I had to respect Edward's wishes…"

I nod, "I understand…I hope that does not mean that I won't be able to see you again."

Carlisle smiles, "No. I will appreciate if come by and visit. I am sure Alice will be thrilled."

I suddenly felt better. Alice. I almost forgot how much I miss her. It gave me something to look forward to.

I gave him another hug before saying, "I guess I better get going. Don't want to keep you away from your patients."

He smiles and holds open the door for me, "Hope to see you soon, Bella."

I smile, "Yeah soon."

A.N. Yeah so I kind of sped through "Bella's zombie days" but I am sure you all have read New Moon and know how depress Bella got after Edward left, why make you go through that again?? ;)

BTW, I already had the 1st four chapters written, which is why they will be released so quickly…Just to let ya know.

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