CPOV

I watch Bella walk down the hall towards the exit. I let out an unnecessary breath. It does not take me long to compose myself but that did not keep the thoughts from racing through my head. I had almost kissed Bella. I was happy that Edward was not around to read my thoughts. I did have ways to block my thoughts from him but right now I am completely caught off guard to the way I may feel about Bella.

When I first met her on that faithful day when the van almost hit Bella and Edward saved her. She amazed me with how observant she was and I could tell by her scent of her blood that she was different and most defiantly special.

I was delighted when she joined our family. She made Edward so happy and I had never seen him that happy. I guess I should be thankful that he was able to be happy for that small amount time, now I am afraid to know what state he is in. I have not seen or heard from him for few weeks now. He got angry at me when I try to tell him how foolish he was being and that trying track Victoria was a waste of time. He was a horrible tracker. I just feel sometimes I should give my family the truth.

It broke my heart when I walked into that examine room today and saw Bella. She did not look normal. Under her eyes were dark, she looked thinner, and she just looked worn out. I though made sure that it was not known that I pity her, I knew Bella would hate it.

I was mere inches from her face and inhale her scent as I cleaned up her wound before doctoring it up. I wanted so badly to lean in and kiss her. I had no idea why I was having thoughts like this about Bella. She was first son's girlfriend, well former girlfriend. I very well knew that Edward could possibly come back for her. So I avoid eye contact with her and try to keep all my attention on being her doctor.

Then I slipped and let my eyes lock into hers and I could not help myself but lean in. Unfortunately Nurse Jackie walks in and maybe I should be thankful she interrupts our almost kiss….but I to be honest I was not happy at all.

Just touching her leg made me have improper thoughts about a lady. I touch dozens of legs a day at the hospital and it has no effect on me….but Bella it makes me almost lose 300 hundred years worth of control.

I have not had these feelings for another woman ever since Esme. Esme and I have been going through a rough patch but after so many years I had thought this was normal. I chided myself for having feelings for another woman. Wait not woman…girl. She was way too young for me and I do not mean by my vampire years but by my physical age as well and then my false age that I give to the humans. I was 23 physically but the humans think I am 35.

I sigh and finish Bella's chart before heading to my next patient.

BPOV

Dad was waiting for me in the waiting room. He looks at me anxious.

I smile, "I am fine dad, just a scratch on my head and a few bruises."

Dad said relieved, "Good. Jacob told me what happen."

I try to stay neutral, "Oh he did…"

Dad nods, "I think I may start making you wear padding and a helmet at all times now."

I try to laugh, "You know me. I am clumsy…"

He nods, "He said you tripped on a rock at the beach and hit you're head on another rock."

I nod, "Yep that is what happened…"

He pats me on the back, "How about we go pick up some pizza and head home."

I smile, "Sounds great."

We finally arrive at the house and dad grabs the pizza while I limp towards the house.

He asks, "What did Dr. Cullen say about your knee?"

I say waiting for him to unlock the door, "Just take some aspirin and stay off of it for a few days."

He nods, "Good. Glad it was not hurt any worst."

We walk in the house and get out the plates for our pizza. As dad puts up his belt and jacket. He then sits down and waits for me to help myself before getting some himself.

Dad says, "So you have been hanging out with Jacob a lot."

I shrug, "Yeah he is fun to hang around. Keeps my mind off of other things…"

Dad nods, "Yeah so are you and Jacob…"

I look at him and shake my head, "No. We are strictly just friends. And I will like to keep it that way."

Dad smiles, "Good, I wouldn't want to have to threaten Billy's son."

I roll my eyes at him.

I ate three pieces which is the most I have eaten in a while. Seeing Carlisle had made me feel a little better even though I was still confused by what I think was almost a kiss. I shake my head though, that is impossible. Carlisle has a gorgeous and wonderful wife.

Finally I was done and took dad's plate and washed the dishes before heading upstairs. I get ready for bed and read a few chapters of Withering Heights before falling dozing off.

I dream of Carlisle. He was in clothes from the 19th century. I ran into his arms and he kissed me with passion.

Unfortunately I woke up, with the beeping of my alarm. Wow that was annoying. I hit the snooze button and try to fall back asleep. As I try to pull the blankets back over me, it seem as something was making it unable for me to pull them up.

As if someone was sitting at the foot of my bed. I slowly rise up and had to rub my eyes to make sure I was not seeing things.

I almost scream, "Alice!"

I pull the covers off my and crawl over to her. Despite my aching knee. I hear her musical laugh as she wraps her strong tiny arms around me.

"Oh. Bella I am so happy to see you!" She says as perky as ever!

I pull away still not believing that Alice was sitting in my room. This had to be a dream.

Alice says, "If Carlisle is able to see you then I am more than entitle to see you."

I bite my lip, "Did he tell you or did you get a vision."

Alice says, "A vision, I did not bother to even look at the whole vision…because I so excited!"

I nod and manage to smile and she seems oblivious to mine and Carlisle's maybe almost kiss.

Alice leaps off my bed, "Oh by the way. I have picked out your clothes to wear to school today."

I slide out of the bed and smile, "Oh, I have missed you Alice."

Her eyes brightens and says, "You have no idea how much I have missed you Bella. I never realize how boring life is without you."

Her saying that made my morning even better, I like that I was still wanted in the Cullen family, even if I still was a weak pathetic human.

I get dress while she sits Indian style on my bed talking about the house Esme and Rosalie is remodeling. She was talking a 100 miles an hour and I was almost having a hard time to keep up, but just having her company made me happy.

I ask after I pull my shirt on, "So how is Jasper…"

Alice says, "Well he will not come up here with me. He feels so bad about what happen."

I sigh, "I do not blame him for anything. It is Edward's fault for over reacting…"

Alice nods, "Yeah we know that and I am sure he knows it is not entirely his fault. Edward does not even blame him…he is a vampire that was his natural instinct. He is just scared he may lose control again…"

I sit next to Alice on the bed, "Yeah. Well will you just tell him that I don't blame him and if he wants to visit I will be extra careful to not make myself bleed…"

Alice giggles and says, "I will let him know."

Alice says, "Now you need to finish get ready and after school we will talk more!"

I say, "Okay."

She gives me another hug. "I am going to go now. Carlisle and I are going to go hunt today and catch up. I will see you after school!"

I nod and then she leaps out of the window.

I finished getting ready and headed to school.

I was eager for school to be over and see Alice again. I impatiently watched the clock all day.

I was able to sit in study hall for gym and was able to finish my homework. . When the last bell rang, I sped to my locker and put my books up before running out well more like limping out to the parking lot.

It was not hard to miss, Alice's new Yellow Porsche. I had no idea that she was going to pick me up. She was leaning on it giving me a big grin.

I walk up to her and she says, "Get in."

I ask as she speeds out of the parking lot, "You got a new car?"

Alice nods, "Edward gave it to me to keep me from prying into your life…but I have a feeling I may have to give it back…but you are worth a lot more than Porsche."

I roll my eyes and laugh, "Oh how sweet Alice." I say with a hint of sarcasm.

We arrive at a diner and we were sitting in a booth across from one another. I was eating some French fries.

Alice says, "So, how did you get that cut on your head."

I bite my lip and say, "Motorcycle accident…"

Alice sighs and shakes her head, "Bella really???"

I shrug, "I needed a distraction from him."

Alice gives me a sympathetic look, "He is an ass Bella. I mean I know he is my brother and I will always love him, but sometimes he just way too stubborn."

I sigh, "He did say he needed time to think which kind of gives me hope he may come back…but…who knows if that happens and if he does…when? He has forever. I don't."

Alice leans forward and replies, "If he does come back for you, I don't think you should take him back so easily. Make him suffer a little more."

I frown, "I just don't think he will come back for me, Alice. "

Alice says, "He would kill me for telling you this but he is in worse shape than you are…Emmett had to beg him to hunt because he was almost starving himself. He still loves you but in his crazy mind he thinks you would be better with another human."

I sigh, "He thinks I need get marry and have babies. I have never really wanted children even before Edward…"

Alice smiles, "Just give him a little more time."

I smile and wipe away the stray tears. It was nice to have Alice to talk to about Edward. I had no one to talk to about this because no one would understand and I could not talk about half of it because it involved the vampire world which was forbidden for humans to know well for most humans.

I finished my French fries at the diner and we head back to the school so I could pick up my truck. Alice follows me out to my truck and gives me a hug, I ask, "Are you going back."

She nods, "Yea. I need to get back to Jasper. But I will be back…I plan to visit often."

I sigh, "Alright, then…so nice seeing you."

She gives another tight hug and says, "You too Bella. Please stay safe."

I roll my eyes at her.

She says heading to her car, "I mean it Bella. No more motorcycles."

I call back, "Fine I promise no more motorcycles."

She waves bye to me before speeding out of the parking lot.

I head home and walk in the house. Charlie raises an eyebrow at me.

I look at him, "What?"

He shrugs, "You just seem to be in a better mood."

I say, "I just had a good day today."

He smiled and said, "Well good. I am happy to see you smile."

I smile back at him before I ran upstairs.

I decide to call Jacob to see what he was up to. Though all I got was his voicemail. So I called his home phone, "Hello?" I heard Billy's voice on the other end.

"Hey Billy it is Bella. Is Jacob around?"

Billy says, "He is sick. He is not able to talk right now."

I ask worry, "Is he okay? Can I bring anything to him?"

Billy says, "He is contagious, so you do not need to come over. He has the flu."

I sigh, "Okay well tell him I called and hope he gets better."

"I will. Thanks Bella." Then I heard him hang up.

I sigh as I lay back on the bed. Now what was I going to do to keep myself distracted. I consider maybe going to see Carlisle but then wonder if that would be a bad idea. If I am alone with him again will something happen that we may regret. I do not want to do anything that may hurt Esme. Though maybe that almost kiss is only in my head but better to be safe than sorry. I do not think being alone with Carlisle is wise because I do know I feel something for him…something more than a friend.

A.N. Thanks for reading!! Next chapter should be up soon.