I sat in my office in my empty house. I could not get the thoughts of what I did with Bella, tonight. I had kissed her. I had not kissed anyone like that except my wife, since I was human and I vaguely remember the girls I had kissed during that time. She was so different too, warm and alive. I could hear every heart beat as it sped up when she was so close to me.

I cannot think this a way about Bella. She was Edward's, someone I consider as a son, soul mate. Or what he thought was his soul mate. If he finds out I had these feelings about Bella, he would hate me for years. I am sure after a few decades… possibly centuries he may find it in him to forgive me…but regardless I did not want him to hate me. He was the first one I changed and we had such a strong bond.

Though I cannot help the feelings I have for Bella. I linger to taste her again and if I had no self control I would be at her window sill right now and have a hope that she may let me in so we could finish what we had started in my living room.

I hear Emmett's loud footsteps walk into the house. I compose myself and walk out of the office. Emmett was pretty oblivious for a vampire; he did not sense anything when he had almost walked in on Bella and me.

Emmett leans on the wall and crosses his arms, "So Pops…" that was the nickname he had gave me, since to humans he is my son. Though I felt that he was a son regardless…all of them were my children which were another reason why I felt guilt for what I had just done.

"How is it going?" He ask

I sigh thoughtfully, "It is going good. Work is about all that consumes my life right now…"

Emmett nods with his arms crossed looking at the floor and replies, "Yeah I suppose so…well I guess except for Bella now."

I was worried he may have actually caught on what was going on between us and I raise my eyebrow at him.

Emmett says, "You know what I mean. Making sure Bella is safe since Victoria is still out there plotting her revenge."

I nod and sigh internally that he was still oblivious, "Yeah. I guess something to make my life a little more interesting."

I say, "I worried with Edward out there alone that Victoria will find a way to outnumber him and…"

Emmett interrupts me, "He is not out there alone. Tanya is with him now, apparently she is a way better tracker than he is...."

I look at him curiously.

Emmett laughs, "I doubt the two are getting it on or anything. I mean if you could see Edward, he looks sickly and he rarely communicates with anyone. Tanya came along as strictly as a friend. She has a mate now anyway…."

It pained me to think that Edward was that way. I almost had hoped that he had moved on. For one I want him happy again but selfishly it would make me feel less guilty for the way I feel about Bella.

I shake my head, "I am sure his heart will mend back together one day. Time heals…even for vampires."

Emmett nods, "I suppose so.

Then a toothy grin crept on to Emmett's face, "I think we are in need of some father and son time. I think a few mountain lions have our name written all over them."

A smile crept on my face, "I believe you are right."

We then both run vampire speed out the house and towards the mountains.

BPOV

I woke up the next morning and my dreams of Carlisle are becoming more intense. I needed a shower, even though I took one last night. I had sweated a lot during the night and felt very sticky. I roll out of bed and decide to take a shower and then head to LA Push.

After I got out of the shower I threw on some skinny jeans, courtesy of Alice Cullen and a dark green long sleeve sweater. I then pull on my Doc Martins, which Alice would ripped off my feet if she saw them, but it can be muddy out at La Push and did not feel like having muddy water soak through my shoes.

I put some moisturizer on my face and brush my teeth. I dry my hair and then brush out. I go down stairs and see a box of donuts on the counter, with a note, "Bella, gone fishing this morning. See you tonight."

I discard the note and grab a donut before fixing me a glass or orange juice. I had no idea how I was going to get the truth out of Jacob but I had to know and was so close to knowing the truth.

I then grab my heavy coat and put it on before bracing for the cold weather. My truck was just as cold as it was outside. I turn on the heater and knew it was going to take a while before it warms up. I back out and head towards La. Push.

I finally arrive and pull into Jacob's and Billy's drive way. I was determined to get it out of them. I pull myself out of the truck. I walk up to their door and knock. I kept knocking until finally someone open the door. I look down it was Billy. He look up at me curiously, "Bella. I thought I told you that you needed to stay away…"

I shake my head, "No. I want to see Jacob."

Billy sighs, "I told you…he has the flu."

I say frustrated, "Stop with the bull crap Billy. I know he does not have the flu. Now let me see Jacob."My dad would be very disappointed if he knew how I just talked to an elder, though if he knew half of what was going on in my life that would not seem so bad

I try to peer over Billy to see if Jacob was inside their house or in his room. Their house was very small so I could easily see his room from here. The door was wide open and it seemed to be empty.

I then hear some laughing in the shed.

Billy looks up at me sternly, "You should go home Bella. It is not safe here."

I roll my eyes at him like a little child and start walking towards the shed. Billy tried to call out my name and stop me but I just wave him off and walk to the shed.

I stop in my tracks as I see Jacob whose smile falter when he saw me. He was with Sam, Paul, and Quil, who were all working on a car. He had told me once that Sam and Paul were in some sort of gang or cult and that he detests them. I was shocked to see him joking around with them as if they were bestfriends.

Jacob says, "Bella. Why are you here?"

I say, "To see why you keep ignoring me. I thought we were friends. But it looks as if you abandon me for this cult"

I heard Paul let out a laugh and I glare at him for finding my anger amusing.

Jacob crosses his arms and looks at his feet, "I am not in a gang or a cult. I was wrong about Sam and Paul…"

I ask, "Then how come you could not talk to me? You are hiding something from me…I know you are."

Jacob seems to ignore me and goes back where the others are and starts working on the car again. I march up to Jacob, "Don't ignore me. I know that the wolves I saw in the woods have some relation to you guys…"

All the guys stop what they were doing and look up at me.

Paul hissed, "You need to shut up your girl."

Jacob glares at Paul then looks at me, "I don't know what you are talking about, Bella."

I ask, "Then how did you know about the vampire who tried to kill me?"

Jacob did not answer, he seem to not be able to think up of an excuse.

Paul glares at Jacob, "Really you need to find a way to shut her up."

Jacob swirls around to Paul and snaps, "Don't tell me to shut her up..."

Paul growls, "She will find out about it…and ruin everything…"

I step back, watching both guys panting and Sam trying to calm them down. They look as if they could rip each other's face off.

"Boys you two need to take a deep breath and calm down…."

Then I could not believe my eyes as I saw clothes rip away and before I could blink there were two huge wolves standing in front of me.

Sam says to Quil, "Take Bella to Emily's while I try to tame these two…"

Quil looks over at me and I nod as I was still in shock. I follow him out. We walk silently to Emily's while I try to grasp what I just saw. Before we enter Emily's house I say, "So it was you guys in the woods…"

Quil nods, "Yeah. That is our job to get rid of the bloodsuckers."

I was left speechless as he opens Emily's house and she greets him with a smile. I could smell several of bake goods. She turns from the oven and seem to be a little shock to see me. She raises an eyebrow at Quil.

Quil replies, "She pissed Paul off which pissed Jacob off…which made them phase."

Emily nods as if it was the norm for humans to transform into wolves. She opens the oven and pulls out what look to be huge muffins. Quil walks over to grab one and she slaps his hand. "Hey it needs to cool and give Bella a chance to get one before you all put your grubby hands all over them."

I then notice a distinct scar on Emily's face when she pulls her long straight black hair behind her ear. I try to not stare and gaze around at the rest of the house.

She then puts the plate of muffins on the table and says, "Please Bella have a few. I am sure it may help the shock you may have…after what you saw."

I nod, "Thanks but not the first supposedly fictional creature I have came in contact with…."

Emily just laughs while she goes to oven and puts in a new pan.

I really was not hungry since my stomach was in knots but I did not want to be rude and grab a muffin. Emily then gave permission for Quil to dig in.

About that time Sam, Jacob, and Paul come in as if nothing happen. The three were laughing and playfully pushing one another. They each grab a muffin. Sam walks over to Emily and kisses the scar on her face before kissing her lips.

Jacob sits by me and gives me an apologetic smile, "Sorry."

Then gives Paul a stern look and he mumbles, "I am sorry too."

I say, "No I am sorry…I did not know…" I look down as I blush.

Jacob shrugs, "I really was not going to avoid you forever. It is just I wanted to make sure I had enough control so that I won't accidently…."

I saw his gaze move towards Emily. She was oblivious to what we were talking about; she was too busy laughing at Sam.

I whisper, "Did Sam do that to Emily?"

Jacob nods, "Yeah. Sam had just been phasing for a week or so and he and Emily got into a fight…he couldn't control himself….he hates himself for it…"

I nod understanding all too well about people who had a hard time controlling their natural instinct. It was still vivid, seeing Jasper looking at me as if I was his prey.

He looks at me, "You know I could easily do the same. I could hurt you worse."

I sigh, "I am use to hanging out with people who are apparently a danger to me."

Jacob then looks at me, "Why on earth would you hang out with vampires?"

I sigh, "The Cullen's do not feed on human blood and they are very good people. They protect me."

Jacob shakes his head, "They protect you from crap that would never be a danger to you if they never got involved in your life."

I say frustrated, "I would have been dead if it was not for them. Tyler's van would have crushed me if Edward did not stop it…"

His mouth turns into a line, "I still think they are too dangerous for you to be around."

I say, "They say the same thing about you guys…"

Jacob says, "Well there is a difference between us and them. We are humans and they are not. Their food source is humans and ours is not. They are predators…"

I sigh, "I know very well what they are capable of but that does not change my mind"

Jacob takes an exaggerated breath, "Bella you are stubborn."

I smile as he lightens up the mood, "Yeah I know."

He got serious again, "Just promise me Bella. If they do ever put you in any danger…you will call me. I could be there within minutes."

I knew he needed some reassurance so I smile and nod, "Promise."

We talk a little more and I socialize with the others for a while.

I look at my watch it was almost 2 in the afternoon. I sigh, "I need to go now."

Jacob gets up and gives me a tight hug he whispers, "I am glad you know now. I really wanted to tell you but Sam and my dad refuse to let me…"

I nod, "Yeah I figure that…glad I know too."

He walks me to my truck and I wave good bye as I sped down the road towards the exit of the rez.

I drive home and make a sandwich for lunch. I do a little cleaning. I knew dad liked to fish all day. It could be late till he made it home.

I was still in shock in finding out what Jacob was now. I guess you would call it a werewolf. I don't know why I am shock…since vampires exist why not werewolves? I seem to be incapable of making close friends with normal people.

I look up at the phone and it was almost 6pm now. I had no idea that much time had fly.

I pull my phone out and realize I had two miss calls, I always forget to take it off silent. One was from my dad and the other was from Carlisle. My heart stops seeing his name on my caller ID. I bet he wants to talk about the kiss and how much he regrets it. I knew that we being together would only lead to disaster but I almost did not care, I actually feel alive again being around him and the void in my heart that Edward left almost seems to close up with Carlisle….

I take a breath and check my voicemails the first was from Dad,

"Hey Bella, just letting you know I am going to eat with Harry after we done fishing. So don't wait up for me… if you need any money to order pizza or anything then help yourself to the money in the jar on the refrigerator. Love ya and call me if you need anything."

I press 7 to delete and listen to the next message which I knew who it would be, which made me incredibly nervous.

"Bella, this is Carlisle. Alice had called and told me she had a vision of you driving and then it went blank. Please call to let us know you are okay. I had been checking in the ER all day, making sure you have not had a wreck or anything. Also, I believe we may have some other things to discuss. So please give me a call after you get this or if you like you can come by the house."

About that time the phone rings and it was Alice.

I answer, "Hello?" I then wonder if Alice had saw Carlisle and me kiss.

Alice says, "Bella! I am glad you are okay. It was so odd…I saw you in a vision and then it went blank." I sigh in relief internally. She did not seem to know.

I say, "Well I am okay. I was just out at La. Push."

Alice asks, "Why were you out there?"

I answer, "Jacob Black is my friend…"

Alice says, "Oh. I am not sure if it is safe out there."

I sigh, "Yeah and they don't think is safe with you guys. Luckily I think I am perfectly safe with both of you." I say annoyed with everyone telling me that everything is not safe for me, I mean really it is not safe for me walk on my two feet almost. Danger is just part of my life.

Alice says, "Yeah but…"

I sat down on the couch and reply, "I know what they are now. I figure it out today. They are like werewolves…."

Alice says, "Yeah I know, which is probably why I did not see you today. Just promise me you will be careful around them. I will not see it if something happens…"

I say, "I promise."

Alice says changing the subject."Those Doc Martins are ghastly. Be checking for the UPS man, I have bought you some proper boots."

Of course she would saw what I was wearing.

I roll my eyes, "Really Alice you don't need to buy me any boots…."

Alice says, "Yes I do. I cannot let you walk out of the house as a fashion disaster."

I laugh, "Whatever."

I ask, "So how is Jasper?"

Alice replies, " Oooh Bella he is improving so much. I think maybe losing control on you has helped him to be more motivated to learn to control himself better."

I say, "Oh that is awesome. Hope that maybe I can see him too when you come back to visit."

Alice says, "That is actually a real possibility. But I will call you when we are headed back to Forks."

I say, "I cannot wait."

Alice says, "Me neither."

We talk for a little longer about my life and her life. She talks about the house Esme is remodeling and I let her know how Charlie has been doing.

Finally I say, "Well I will let you go."

Alice says, "Alright. But I mean it…be careful."

I sigh, "I promise Alice I will be careful."

Alice says, "Good. Bye Bella."

I say, "Bye."

I hang up and stare at the blank TV. I knew I needed to call Carlisle and see what he wanted to discuss. I had a clue on what he may want to talk about which scare the crap out of me. I could still taste his lips on mine and I blush when I think about how his cold hands were on my bare waist. I hoped he did not regret what we had done even if part of me did regret it, only because of Esme, the sweet woman who was like a second mother to me.

I just did not think this should be discussed over the phone anyway. I take a deep breath because I knew what I needed to do…I needed to go see him so we can discuss this face to face.