The next few weeks Carlisle and I made love as much as it was possible for my weak human body. I could not sleep over often though; Dad may get suspicious, if I kept using the Alice excuse. Plus one of his family members could pop in anytime, if we weren't careful.

I sigh; I knew I needed to get ready soon so I could get home before Charlie got off of work. Carlisle pulls me tighter in his arms. He murmurs in my hair, "Guess you have to go home soon."

I say, "Yeah. I hate it…I wish I could just stay here forever…"

I had been meaning to ask if he would ever consider changing me. I still wanted to be a vampire so I could be able to defend myself, when Victoria finally came to get me plus there was the Volturi that if they find out about me while I am still human…I could put not only my life but also his family at risk.

So I figure now would be as good as any other time, "Would you ever consider changing me…."

He was silent for a while but finally speaks, "Yes but only after you really gave it some thought."

I rise up to the sitting position so I could see him, my knees were up at my chest and I rest my head on them looking down at Carlisle.

"It just seems to be the best solution. I could be able to defend myself when Victoria comes for me and we won't have to worry about the Volturi banishing your family and having me for a snack, if they find out about me."

Carlisle nods thoughtfully, "Yes. But Victoria may be good at hiding and also may be fast but she has no chance fighting us. Plus if the Volturi does ever find out about you, we will know beforehand. .."

I sigh, "I know…I know. But I am only getting older…."

Carlisle rises up and says, "I tell you what…when you turn 21. After you have graduated from college and you still want to become one of us, then I will change you…"

Carlisle was physically 23 so I would still be physically younger than Carlisle…but I really did not want to wait. Though I should not be too picky, at least he was considering it.

I nod, "Fine, it is a deal."

I smile, "I applied to a few colleges."

He raises an eyebrow, "Have you, now?"

I nod, "University of Alaska, Oxford…."

Carlisle says, "Oxford? Wow…though London may be a little too close to the Volturi."

I frown, "Yeah I suppose so…I was trying to pick colleges that had dreary cloudy days for most of the year and less sun…"

Carlisle says, "Go to the college you desire. I will adjust to wherever you will go."

He then smiles, "Maybe I can be a professor …"

I then had a naughty thought of me and him doing it in a classroom but it was interrupted by my cell phone ringing on the nightstand.

It was Alice. Every time she calls I am convinced she has finally found out about Carlisle and I…but she surprisingly always sounds oblivious to it all, not sure how she is not finding out.

I practically crawl over Carlisle, grabbing it off the night stand and answer it, "Hey Alice."

Alice says, "Hey Bella…I was just letting you know Jasper and I are going to come and visit…"

I say lying on Carlisle's chest, I tensed up a bit and Carlisle softly rubs my back, "Oh well when are you coming?"

Alice says, "We we are actually almost to Forks." Which I knew could mean she was 100 miles away but for them that would take minutes to get here.

She continues, "But I am going to stop by Carlisle's first…"

I look up at Carlisle desperately. We are so close to getting caught and I knew he could hear every last word of our phone conversation but Carlisle couldn't say anything because Alice would hear. He had already hopped out of bed, getting my things out of my bag.

I had to think quick, "Well how about I just meet you at Carlisle's then…"

Alice says in her always chirpy voice, "Sounds great Bella! Guess I will see you in a bit."

I say, "Bye Alice."

Then hang up and I look at Carlisle for a solution to not get caught.

Carlisle says, "Take a bath and I will get rid of these linens and put some new ones on….not that they would even enter this room…."

I nod and get out of bed grabbing my stuff.

I bite my lip and ask, "But what about the living room and kitchen…and bathroom…and stairs…wouldn't they smell…" We have made love in various places….

Carlisle gave me one of his naughty smiles and says, "I have already cleaned those areas, now get in the shower before we contaminate something else. I am not sure how much longer I am going to be able to resist you, with you standing there nude…."

I could not help but blush but I do as I told and run to the bathroom, I make sure I scrub myself good. I then brush my teeth extra well. I put on my jeans and tee shirt. I turn on the blow dryer and try to blow out my hair as good as possible. I then check myself and I looked normal, but would Alice still be able to tell. Oh this was some of the fall backs of having friends as vampires….they can so easily catch you in lie.

I then leave the bathroom and past the room that Carlisle and I call, "our room", now. It had a whole different comforter and sheets on the bed and I wonder what he did with the old ones. I walk down stairs and Carlisle hair is in place, he is in dark gray slacks with a black button up shirt. He looks gorgeous. I had to keep my distance from him or I would for sure attack him…and then his scent would be all over me and Jasper and Alice would for sure find out about us.

He says in a low voice, "I can hear their car coming near."

I bite my lip and nod. I was a little nervous. I still felt that we would get caught in a lie and I was afraid how they would act. Would they tell the rest of the family would Alice hate me? I would be heartbroken again if I found out Alice hated me. She was such a dear friend and I hated I had to lie to her.

He says, "Don't be nervous. They don't suspect a thing. Just act natural."

There was no possible way I was going to be able to act natural when I am instructed to…

About that time I heard a voice say, "Hello?" It was Alice.

I look and see Alice come in and she gives me a tight hug, "I missed you Bella!"

I look and see Carlisle give a brief hug to Jasper and ask him questions that I was unable to understand because they were talking too fast for my human ears to comprehend.

Alice says, "You look so much healthier now…"

I shrug, "Yeah I guess I am moving on, now."

Alice smiles, "Good. He is not worth to put you through hell. You should move on. "

I nod and smile.

She asks wiggling her eyebrows suggestively, "So have you found any potential husbands yet?"

My heart leaped through my throat. Did she know? Oh crap is this a trick question?

I just shake my head, "No." I lie but I made sure I kept eye contact.

Alice nods, "Well I haven't really been keeping tabs on you lately to give you some privacy in case you did find someone. I felt that you were safe with Carlisle around. I been more focusing on Victoria and 2011 Paris Fashion Show…I like to be ahead when it comes to fashion."

I laugh, "How random that your worries are a sadistic vampire and the future fashion trends…"

Alice giggles, "Well Victoria and Valentino are not that different. Both are sadistic in their own ways…"

I laugh and look over at the grandfather clock. I frown, "I think better go before my dad gets home. I need to cook dinner."

Alice frowns, "But you just got here!"

I had been here since school let out at 3 today but Alice was not aware of that, I had almost forgotten.

I lie again, "Well I was just leaving the gas station when you call, is why I decide to stop by…but I really need to go…"

Alice gives me a hug, "It is alright Bella. I understand. Jasper and I are going to stay here for a while so I will see you again soon!"

I try to look pleased when she releases me from the hug. Now how was Carlisle and I going to hide our relationship if they are around more often?

She continues, "Just we are afraid, Carlisle is getting lonely. He has not been alone in 100 years."

He was not alone; I could assure them of that. Actually I could not assure them of that because then they would need me to explain why…which was not happening.

I put on my best smile and say, "I am so happy you two will be around. Be great to have my best friend back." Which was kind of true, I am happy Alice would be around.

I then turn to Jasper who was still in deep conversation with Carlisle; I felt bad interrupting but I wanted to acknowledge Jasper before leaving, letting him know I don't have hard feelings.

I give a smile, "Bye Jasper! I am glad to see you again."

He looks over at me and nods, "Nice to see you again too, Bella."

I look over at Carlisle and we both share a longing look that I hoped no one caught and I could not help but glance up and down his body. I blush since not too long ago we were both unclothed. Crap I need to get rid of these emotions, Jasper is around.

I turn around quickly and say, "Bye you guys. See you all later."

I race out the door and hop in my truck. I noticed my bag that I bring with me now, with some of my personal things and clothes, was already in my truck. I smile, Carlisle always on top of things…and me. I could not wipe the grin off my face.

Alice POV

I decide to raid Carlisle's closet while he talks to Jasper. Carlisle was grilling Jasper making sure that Jasper is back on track again. I called Carlisle everyday keeping him updated about Jasper but Carlisle wanted to make sure for his self that Jasper is more in control. I knew he was probably in better control than he was before he had lost it and attacked Bella. Carlisle though being the good leader/fatherly figure he is has to make sure for his self.

I enter his room and he probably only came in here to dress, since nothing was out of place since we had left, well except for the bed. I assume he got rid of it because Esme did not bring it with her. I try to get Esme to explain to me what was happening between her and Carlisle. She who has been nonstop on that house in Alaska, was pretty clueless about the whole situation herself. She just said that lately something has not been right between the two of them but she still has hope that the distance between them will only make them closer.

I open the door to their walk in closet. It looked so bare without Esme things. I really needed to update his wardrobe; they are all from last season. All his button up shirts he wears to work are solids, hmm maybe gets some with patterns like stripes...maybe some sweater vest. Eh scratch the sweater vest, that was so two years ago. He could also use some new ties and blazers, plus some new street wear.

"Alice" I hear my beautiful southern soldier call my name from down stairs. I close Carlisle's closet and skip down the stairs.

I had not yet greeted Carlisle, since I was too distracted by Bella when I walked in and Carlisle was too curious about Jasper.

I embrace Carlisle and say, "How have you been?"

Carlisle says, "I have been doing very well, actually. How have you been?"

I say, "I have been pretty great." I lovingly grab Jaspers arm, "Especially since Jasper has been doing a lot better."

Jasper smiles at me and Carlisle nods, "Yes I have heard. I am very proud." It warms my heart to hear Carlisle say such words.

Carlisle says, "So how about Esme and the rest of the family?"

Jasper says, "Well darling how about we go down to the cottage…"

Esme had built the cottage, soon after she met Bella. She was so certain that Bella was going to be the one for Edward. She knew Edward had strong values and morals, that he would wait till marriage before him and Bella would get intimate. So Esme built the cottage in hope that they would get marry soon. She knew they would desire as much privacy as possible.

Though while we wait for this to happen, we used it for Jasper's get away when emotions or Bella's blood got too much for him, he could escape there because it was far enough that he would not be able to sense other people emotions or smell Bella's blood at the house. Also Edward would use it too when reading our minds got a little too disturbing, like when we were all intimate with our partners.

I look at him odd we had just got here. Why not visit with Carlisle a little more? Then he gave me the look which meant he needed to discuss something with me.

I put on my best genuine smile and say, "Yes dear. That would be wonderful."

I take his hand and we glide to the cottage. I walk in and the cottage in need of some major dusting and new curtains. That pattern is so 2007.

I swirl around and see Jasper pacing back and forth, which can only mean he is in utter shock about something. I raise my eyebrow, "Baby? What is the matter? Did Carlisle say something that bothered you?"

Jasper stops and looks at me, "No he did not have to say anything. His emotions told me more than I wanted to know. Both of their emotions."

I look at him confused.

He walks up to me and takes both my hands, "You are telling me you have not had any visions about them?"

I ask completely confused, "Them who?"

He says, "Bella and Carlisle."

My eyes widen and I had got one vision about her and Carlisle but I figured it was just another one of her dreams like the one she was in 18th century clothing running into his arms. I figure the dreams meant nothing, just had something to do something that repressed. Though one vision I got seem so real of her and Carlisle being intimate but I just thought it was just a vivid dream. I just could not bring it to myself to believe that the two of them would….Oh my.

I ask, "Why what have you felt between the two?"

Jasper whose eyes were wide with shock, "Lust, love, nervousness…I have never felt so much emotion from Carlisle since I have known him, he usually so good at repressing his emotions."

I say, "I have been blocking out Bella's visions lately just giving her some privacy. I knew she was so fed up with people constantly trying to control her life that I decided to back off and just keep tabs on Victoria, since Carlisle was near…but I guess Carlisle has been keeping are well in more ways than one

Jasper says, "So what are we going to do now?"

I shrug, "I am not very happy about this…but what can I do…it is their life."

Jasper nods, "But our family if everyone finds out, it will be a disaster…hell what if Edward finds out, I mean I can try to block it from my mind if he ever comes back but it I am not as good at this you and Carlisle."

I sigh, "I am sure the two of them thought about that before they decided to have this little affair. I think maybe we should confront them about it…"

Jasper says, "I agree. You can confront Bella and I will confront Carlisle…"

I nod, "But I will wait until after she is done having dinner with her father. I would not want him to overhear."

Jaspers chuckles, "Then we have to worry about him and his shotgun."

I giggle at him and say, "Yes you are right."

Jasper puts his hands around my waist and says in his southern drawl, that I adore, "I know a few things we can do while we wait."

I give him a naughty smile, "Let's just try to not break too many things this time. Esme plans to come back for some of this stuff and I don't want to give her any other reasons to be angry…"

Bella POV

Finally the finish the dishes after we got done with dinner. I could not help but feel a little guilty around my father. I constantly had to lie about where I am and what I am doing, hide Carlisle and my secret. It was not easy either, since I am a horrible liar.

Luckily though my dad is pretty gullible and believes about anything. Which does not seem like a great quality for a police chief, but his gullibility only applies to his love ones, usually. It is probably because he trusts me way too much. If he only knew and he would put a dead lock on my door and lock me in until I was 35.

Dad is in his recliner watching some detective show that he enjoys watching. So I go upstairs so I can finish some homework, before tomorrow. I grab my Advance Algebra book and do the homework problems we are assign and then I write the introduction paragraph that I was suppose to have complete for English. Finally I was done and put my books back in my bag.

I had just turn around when I caught something out of the corner of my eye and I jumped and would of scream if I had not forgot to breath. I sigh in relief when I recognize the little pixie girl standing in my room; she had been so quiet I did not hear her come in. I catch my breath, "Alice you scared me."

She sighs, "Sorry Bella. I had been waiting in the tree for a couple of hours, waiting for you to get done with your homework."

In a normal world, a vampire waiting outside your house in a tree would be quite creepy, but for me it is everyday life.

I sit on my bed. I wonder why she was here, because she doesn't normally pop in during the night like this….was she going to scowl me out for not wearing the new boots she bought me. I had googled the boots they were 500 dollar rain boots. No way am I splashing around in mud, with 500 dollar boots, I don't care who bought them!

Though she was eyeing me strangely, it was almost making me feel uncomfortable. I say, "So what's up?"

She says with her arms crossed, "Okay so I am not going to beat around the bush I am just going to ask you. Are you sleeping with Carlisle?"

I look at her wide eyed and then look away. I had no idea what to say…so she knew. Of course she knew how could she not…she is freaking psychic…but why is she just figuring it out. I wished the world would just suck me in right now and get me out of this awkward situation. She is going to hate me, now.

Alice says firmly when I don't answer, "Do not even try to lie to me Bella. You are a horrible liar…anyway I am pretty sure I know the answer. It was all Jasper could feel in the house earlier…lust."

I slowly turn my face back to hers to see if she was mad, "Are you angry with me?"

Alice takes an exaggerated breath, "I am kind of disappointed that you did not tell me and not really happy about the two of you together. But no I am not angry to the point that I want to break off our friendship or anything. I just need some answers on why…"

I shrug, "I honestly do not know how it happens. I mean I always felt something for Carlisle since the day I met him but I never knew how strong it was until recently." I sit on the bed defeated. I could apologize for Carlisle and my relationship but to be honest I was not sorry. I do love Carlisle.

Alice shakes her head, "How did I not see this? I mean I guess I never saw it before Edward left since , I cannot tell what you are feeling or thinking when I see these visions…I am assuming you two never engaged in anything while Edward was still here…" she gives me a curious look.

I shake my head swiftly, "No, of course not! I never realize how I truly felt for Carlisle until Edward left."

Alice nods, "I believe you."

She continues while she sat next to me, "I did see you and Carlisle together but I assumed it was another one of your dreams. For some reason I get a lot of dreams in my visions but I usually can tell what is a dream and what is not….I just had never thought there was a possibility for you two…So I just dismissed it and then later I decided to give you privacy and blocked you from my visions because I figured since Carlisle was there, that he will be able to make sure you stay safe."

I ask, "How come you wanted to give me privacy?"

Alice sighs, "Well Edward found out that Carlisle had now come back in your life. He was furious of course that we were not doing what he had asked, to not get involved in your life. We of course got into an argument telling him that it was your life and we had no right to control it. So I then decided to block your visions because I knew if I did see you do something stupid, I would have a hard time trying not to stop you….and you need to make your own mistakes….something I always felt Edward always tried to keep you from doing. You can never grow as a person if you not able to make your own mistakes."

I ask, "So does he know aboutCarlisle and I?"

She shakes her head, "No. I haven't seen him in weeks so he would have no way knowing…especially since I did not even know. None of us could ever predict this happening."

I ask playing with my sleeve, "Do you think Carlisle and my relationship may be a mistake?"

Alice shrugs, "I honestly don't know. I have now stop blocking your visions and all the scenarios I see that may happen when the family finds out are not going to start out good and not sure how it will all turn out."

I did catch she did not say "if" she said "when", which meant most likely the family will find out and things are going to get messy.

I sigh, "Yeah I was afraid of that and we knew it would happen…our relationship does not look good from other point of views."

She then gives me a worried look, "You do know that there is a huge possibility that Edward may come back…"

My stomach turns flips and my heart had to of stop for a split second. I look up at her, "How much of a possibility?"

Alice says, "I would say about an 80 percent possibility that he may come back. He still loves you."

I frown, "Well you did tell me to not take him back so quickly if he came back…"

She mumbles, "Yeah…but I was hoping you would still eventually take him back…"

I could feel the tears trickling down my face and Alice gives me a hug.

"Bella this is not my choice…you know who you love. I will keep my lips seal and mind close if I see Edward in the near future. You just have to follow your heart Bella and if it is meant to be, then things will turn out for the better."

I wipe the tears from my eyes, "I can understand if you hate me. I could possibility tear your family apart and hurt Esme…"

She shakes her head, "I don't hate you Bella. I don't have to accept everything you do Bella…but I will always love you. Anyway Carlisle is most at fault but that's another story…"

I was about to protest about how this was not Carlisle's fault but Alice holds her hand up, "I already know what you are going to say but don't try to defend him…he may seem like it but he is not perfect but I still love him too. He just has not been making the wisest choices lately but like I said, as much as we all want to believe he is…Carlisle is not perfect."

I nod and decide to just let it go.

We sat there for a while, in an awkward silence. Well until Alice spotted my unworn new rain boots. She gives me a scowl, "How come you have not worn your new boots?"

I sigh, "Because 500 dollar boots do not belong in the mud."

She rolls her eyes, "Money is nothing for the price of beauty, Bella. When will you get that in your thick stubborn head of yours? Anyway they are water resistance, stain resistance…stylish rather than those atrocious Doc Martins."

I wrap my arms around her in a tight hug, "Oh Alice. I am so glad you are not angry with me."

She exclaims, "I am angry at you for going out in public, looking like Johnny Appleseed's sister!"

I giggle and she laughs as she embraces me in a tight hug.

A.N. Hope you enjoyed this chapter and the next chapter is actually written. Just need to go over it before submitting it. So according to Alice, the family will find out about Bella and Carlisle eventually and it may be soon. So stay tuned for the next few chapters. But next chapter is Jasper confronting Carlisle.

I also hoped that maybe it explained why Alice never saw Bella and Carlisle; because she blocked Bella from her visions but once before she blocked Bella from her visions she saw Bella and Carlisle together but had only assume Bella was dreaming and didn't look much beyond the little bit of the vision she saw.

Yeah not sure if Stephanie Meyer's Alice would be able to see Bella's dreams but I figure since a lot of time dreaming is your subconscious trying to help solve or sort out something happening in your life…that maybe she would see her internally trying to make decisions….and if Alice had kept on looking at the vision she could realize it was not a dream…because I am sure Alice would be able to eventually determine what's a dream and what's not if she had kept on looking at the whole vision.

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