Indecision
Prompt: #096 Writer's Choice: Indecision
Notes: Written for 100situations
Why is it that when it comes to the life-changing decisions, I can't make up my mind? Like this, for example. I have feelings for Scully and I want to tell her but at the same time I don't want her to ever know.
I want her to know so I can relieve myself of this secret and not have to keep anything from her, but if I tell her, I'll probably scare her away and I just couldn't live with that. I need her in my life and if she left because of something I said, I'd be devastated.
Also, our friendship would never be the same if I told her. If she'd ever talk to me again, that is. I just don't know what to do. The indecision is clogging up my vision, hanging thick in the air like the plague, maybe even thicker than that.
It's ironic that I, Fox Mulder, whom has dedicated his entire life to finding out the truth, can't even tell a girl how I truly feel. You would think that with a mission such as my own, I'd be able to confess easily. Or at least be less nervous than I'm feeling right now.
But I'm not. It's not easy. In actual fact, it's the hardest and most nerve-wracking experience of my many years.
I've considered letting it go and moving on with life as it is, but I need to know what she feels about me. If she feels the same way about me as I do her. And the only way to find out that is to tell her the truth about how I feel.
But is she ready to hear it? Am I ready?