Hello all. I am awfully sorry this has taken me so long to update, but it couldn't be helped. I finally have my lovely little Greg back, and can carry on with writing this. I hope you are all well? Enjoy the next chapter..

Of Many Things
Chapter Twenty Four

Jane breathed in deep, filling his senses with all that was Teresa Lisbon, as he willed himself to do as she wanted, and to read the most heart breaking letter that he had ever received in his life. He etched out the paper from it's ivory casing, and let his eyes take in the slightly shaky handwriting of the women he loved. Black ink filled the pages; long chunks had been scribbled out and re-written, other words were a little smudged in places. Streaks ran across the lines, where her tears had hit the page as she wrote, and his own began to mingle with them. Jane wiped fiercely at his tears, allowing his eyes to see clearly the loving words on the page. He took in one last lung full of air, before he began to read.

My Dearest Jane,
You wouldn't believe how many times i've had to restart this; i just didn't know how to begin. Even addressing it seemed an impossible task. I know that calling you by your surname is something forged from working together, but i like to think of it as my name for you. Something that only we share outside of the office. To me you are Jane, and i think you always would have been. We'd have been this mad old couple who sat out in their garden, who never once called each other by their first names. You would have been Jane, and me, well... you seem to come up with a new nickname every time we speak. Your little lion cub perhaps? I think you know already, but i want you to hear it from me, i loved them; every single nonsensical name that you gave me. It could be the worst day of the entire year, and one silly little name from you had me smiling like a fool, and feeling altogether happy again.
You made my life so much more wonderful than i ever imagined that it could be. Sure, work was a little 'tricky' at times, and the paper work was bloody endless, but none of that is really of any consequence in the grand scheme of things. You made me happy; something that i hadn't felt in a very long time. You turned up at my office in that damn three piece suit, and i felt like i could breathe again. I knew you were desperately hurting, and locked in on a mission of revenge, but i also knew that you were perhaps the most devastatingly handsome man i had ever seen in my entire life. You were beautifully broken, and i guess, so was i. You showed me that it was ok to hurt. You taught me how to feel again. I like to think that perhaps i did you. That i played a part in making you whole again. That, together, we began to heal each other.
This night, it's killing me Jane, because i know that i have to leave you. I have to go, and you have to stay. I know it is selfish of me, but i wish that i could take you with me. That we could spend an eternity together in the light and the love of the afterlife. But i know that we cannot. Your place is here Jane; on the earth and with the living. You have seen more loss than anyone should ever have to in a single life time, but i need you to know that you are stronger than that. You, Jane, are too wonderful to let this destroy you. I need you to go on, and live your life for the both of us. I didn't ever want to leave, but i had to. I would give any thing for one last day in your arms; for one last wonderful kiss, but that is something that i cannot do. It was my time. Please, don't fall back into the darkness in which i found you. Live your life in the light, and appreciate everything that is wonderful in the world. Revenge means nothing to me, so please do not go in search of it. I want you to be happy. It's ok to miss me, and it's ok to be sad, but don't waste too much time with those emotions. Remember me, but don't forget about yourself. You have a whole lifetime left. Do something wonderful with it.
I want to thank you for the love that we shared. A wise man once said that love is friendship set on fire, and i believe that to be wholeheartedly true. Because Jane, you set my entire being on fire. You spread warmth to my heart, and hope to my soul. I felt for you so strongly that it was visible for all to see. You were the burning light of my life. You are the only man i have ever truly loved, and you made me feel like no other could.
I love you Patrick Jane; now, forever, and always. I'll be waiting with the angels, and watching over you from the safety of their arms. Don't let me down now, go out and live your life. You shine something beautiful, and the world deserves to see that.
Goodbye, my love.

Jane held the tear stained paper tight to his heart; and wept for all that he had lost. He would do as Lisbon had asked; this time there would be no mission of revenge and suffering. He wanted nothing but good memories of their time together. Patrick Jane would recover, and he would live a life worthy of her love. But right now, he was drowning in a grief so strong that he had to give up the fight. Acceptance would come, but it would take time. Tonight, he needed to cry for the loss of a beautiful soul. The world would never again be quite the same now that such a magical life had been ripped from it. The team would never be the same, and nor the individuals that were a part of it. Teresa Lisbon was the biggest part of Jane's life, and he wasn't sure of how to be without her. How to live without the woman that had truly saved his life. How to go on without his little lion cub.

There we have it. What did you think? Please let me know.
Hopefully there will be another update tomorrow (:
Thank you, as always, for reading. Katie.