Disclaimer: I, the writer of the FanFic "Not Yet" Hereby claim that I do not own, nor have any rights to any 'Inuyasha' related thing. I simply borrow the genious of Inuyasha to create an enjoyable reading world for fanfic lovers everywhere.
Author's Note: Okay...I've stalled long enough...No, this is not exactly how I would have liked this chapter, but I am hopeful that my readers will enjoy it none the less, as I have made them wait far longer that they ever should have. I apologize for that, I know that I hate to wait, and I am sorry that I made you do it too.
Shout Outs:
-angelapage -You would be guessing pretty well I'd say, lol. Sorry for the wait, hope you still think its wonderful work.
-Jennaha11- I hope you still love me after how impossibly long I've made you wait for this chapter...and I hope it lives up to what you hoped it would...or at least is satisfying even if it doesn't
-xXThe finalfantasyXx- Glad you think it has been awesome...Hope you still do, even though I made you wait 2 months for more.
-zoey tamagachi- Right...well, I didn't update "soon" but I hope it was soon enough that you will still like it, lol. Enjoy!
*Also to xXThe finalfantasyXx, Vampire-princesses, zoey tamagachi, TroylovesGabi, darkbutterfliez and all the past readers who have so nicely selected this fic as a favorite. All of my readers who review, subscribe or select my story as something makes it feel wonderful to be a writer. Even if it is just for a fun past time.
***WARNING**** Characters in the following chapter may be SEVERELY "OOC" (out of character) from how they are in the original story...that is on purpose, it is my story and while I may not own the rights to the characters, their personalities come from my own brain, so they will act as I choose. IF you do not like it, I'm sorry for that, but I will not change it.
Truths Out Loud and Memories Made
One week flew by all too quickly with nothing happening except Kikyo heading back to work and Inuyasha spending the next few days moping. I still hadn't found the right time to speak to Sesshoumaru about my leaving in two weeks and the pressure to do so was heavily weighing on my mind. Especially since the guys were now spending more time practicing in preparation for the tour that would start at the beginning of September.
Today, I found myself packing all of my clean clothes that I knew I wouldn't be wearing again before I left. Taking some of my hanging clothes out of the closet, I run across my special dress that I still haven't worn anywhere. "I'll leave you hanging for now, never know what might happen." I say to myself as I place it back in the closet. Walking back over to the bed, I fold and lay the rest of my clothes into my suitcase.
"Babe…I'm home!" I hear Sesshoumaru call from downstairs. In my mind, I can't help but wonder what it would be like to hear that every day for the rest of my life.
I shut the door to the bedroom I was originally in and head down the stairs to greet him. "Hey, how was practice?"
"Great!" He says as he hugs me and gives me a kiss. "Inuyasha's getting better at the few solo's he has this year and our new song is going to be a huge hit."
"Oh yeah," I slap him lightly, "I still haven't heard this new song of yours, when will I get to?"
He laughs. "When we release it at the beginning of the new tour. Until then, you just have to wait." Fortunately he misses the pain that briefly flickers across my face at the thought that I wouldn't be here for the tour. "Hey, let's go out, just the two of us, somewhere nice."
I was torn, on one hand, I really wanted to spend a beautiful evening with him, however, it would also be providing providing the best chance to tell him about my leaving and I know that doing that could ruin the rest of the night. "Sure Sesshoumaru, I'd love to. Give me thirty minutes to get ready?" I smile.
"For you, anything. I'll also go freshen up and I'll be waiting in the living room.
Forty minutes later, after curling my hair, applying minimal makeup and slipping into my dress, making sure that the skirt part of it was hanging properly, I'm was ready.
Making my way down the stairs, I call out "Sesshoumaru? I'm ready."
"Yeah, I'm right here," He says as he comes out of the living room. "I already called ahead and made some reservations at…" He trail off as he finally catches a glimpse of me. Starting at my black heels with satin laces going up my calves, his eyes work their way up my legs and torso before finally reaching my face and settling on my eyes. "Wow…" his voice comes out in a whisper, "You look absolutely stunning. Sapphire really brings out your eyes."
Taking in his black slacks, black, pin-striped shirt cuffed at the elbows, thin white tie and silver hair pulled back at the nape of his neck, I smile. "You don't so bad yourself."
Circling around me, he reaches into his pocket. "I think you're missing something though. Close your eyes."
I look at him for a minute before I do as he asks. A second later I feel him lift my hair slightly as he places something around my neck. "Okay," he says as he kisses the top of my shoulder, "You can open them now."
Looking down, I see a beautiful locket resting just above my neckline. I open it to reveal a picture of Sesshoumaru and me sleeping in each others arms. Looking closer, I realize it was taken on the flight over. "How…?" I ask as I look up at him.
Kouga took that picture and recently gave it to me. I shrank it down for you." He says as he helps me into my jacket. "Now we better go or we'll never make our reservation."
We walk to the car and he opens my door for me. "Thank you Sesshoumaru, it's lovely." I say as I slide into my seat.
"Not as lovely as you." He says as he shuts my door and walks around to the driver's side.
Sesshoumaru and I are sitting in a romantic Italian restaurant and though we continually talk about anything and everything we can think about, my mind keeps wondering, trying to figure out how to bring up the topic of my leaving.
"Gome?" I look up form my locket which I've been twirling absent mindedly. "Are you ok? It's just that you seem really distant and quiet tonight."
"Tonight was wonderful Sesshoumaru, really. I just…" Taking a deep breath I brace myself and just get it over with. "I just…..can't get my mind off of what I have to do in two weeks."
"What's happening in two weeks?" He asks as he takes my hand into his.
"I start school…" I trail off.
"So…what's got you so worried?" He looks confused. I don't think he quite gets that I'll be leaving.
"I start school in Okinawa. I'll have to head back home."
"Hmm….I seem to recall that." He says, trying to hide his disappointment, but I can still see it in his eyes. "I mean, I invited you for summer, so I guess now that summer is over, it makes sense for you to go back. When do you have to leave?"
"Well, school starts on the second Monday of August so I should probably leave no later than the Saturday before that." I look at my wine glass. "I wish it weren't too late for me to apply to another school here, and I can't request a transfer until the end of the first semester.
His thumb rubs idly over my palm, "I guess it wouldn't be prudent apply for on-line courses either…since you want to study veterinary medicine."
"Yeah…" I look at his face, "I'm sorry I had to ruin such a lovely evening Sesshoumaru."
"No, don't say that," he cups my face and kisses me gently. "I'm glad that you'll be able to pursue your dream. I would never forgive myself if I unknowingly cause you to give it up just so I could keep you with me selfishly." He takes my hand and pulls me to my feet, "Come on, let us go home."
Nodding my head, I follow him out to the car.
The ride home was completely silent, both of us thinking about when summer ends. When we get there, I start up the stairs. "I'm going to go ahead and head on up to bed…you coming?"
I'll be up soon, you go on ahead." He kisses me and gently pushes me up the stairs a bit.
Originally, I had planned on getting straight to sleep but instead, after I removed my dress, I sat in my slip on the edge of the bed. For what seemed like hours, but was in reality a few minutes, I sat and stared at the door.
Finally, Sesshoumaru walks in, removing his tie only to stop when he sees me. "Kagome? What's going on, I thought you were going to sleep…is everything okay?"
I stand up silently and walk towards him. Upon reaching him, when I meet him, my arms move behind his head and gently pull him down for what was probably the most powerful kiss I have ever given him. Pulling away slightly, I look into his eyes as my hands begin to unbutton his shirt.
Half way down, his hand reaches up and gently grabs mine, making its journey stop. "Kagome…" He searches my eyes. "What are you doing?"
I sigh, "Sesshoumaru, I don't know what will happen tomorrow, in two weeks or even further in the future. I do, however, know what can happen tonight."
He continues to search my eyes a bit before he leans down and gently kisses me back, pushing me back towards the bed. Slowly, as if he's afraid I may break, he pulls off my slip, leaving me in my matching bra and underwear. He pulls away from me slightly, "Kagome, before this goes any further, I have to tell you something, or I will never forgive myself."
"What is it Sesshoumaru?" I whisper as I gaze into his eyes.
"I love you too." Seeing my confused expression he continues, "I wasn't asleep the other night, the night where you whispered that loved me. In truth I've loved you a while, but couldn't find the right time to tell you. Saying it now may not seem to be the best timing, but I couldn't, in good faith, keep it from you any longer."
I run my fingers through his hair before I pull him down for another kiss. Again he pulls away, "Kagome…are you absolutely sure you want this? I know that you aren't one to rush into something like this, but if we start, there may be no stopping later"
I nod, "Like I said, I don't know where we'll be in the future, but tonight is ours to do what we want…and I want this. Now Shut up and kiss me"
He smiles a bit before he leans down and kisses me deeply.
The Rest of the night was a blur; A blur of hands, caresses, sighs and moans; a mixture of pleasure that involved all the known five senses and perhaps even some unknown that I can't describe accurately. It's hard to recall how everything played out, but it is a memory I'll forever keep and I can only hope that others like it will be made.
I do remember waking up sometime right before dawn, tangled around his form, half under and half on top. When peeking through my eyelashes at him, I was entranced to see him smiling gently, staring down into my face as if I were the most precious thing in the world and running his fingers constantly through my hair. I have no doubt he knew I was awake, but neither one of us had a desire to break the spell that currently had hold. Soon enough it would be time for him to get up and go to practice and for me to pack (and of course call Sango and spill about what happened…..not that she would get the details, but she'd get enough to scream and scream until I wouldn't be able to hear anymore.) and prepare for life after the next two weeks.
But for now, in this timeless moment, we were content to be in our own world, wrapped up in nothing but each other and love. The future would be put on hold for a couple hours more, and I'm sure Sesshoumaru and I would find plenty of fun things to do to keep us occupied until the normalcy of life would call to us once more.
Author's Note: Right...so I tried and tried to write a Lemon...just looked stupid and cliche everytime I did...so instead of putting something I didn't like ( even though I know a few of you would have really liked to read that) I went with this. Hopefully you'll be satisfied enough just by 'knowing' what they did, lol. Perhaps someday a stoke of genius will strike and I may go back and edit this...but for now, I think this will just have to do.
Please...PLEASE PLEASE do not hunt me down for this, I did my best, and I was so very upset about taking as long as I did and making you all wait for it. Please leave kind reviews and I will really really REALLY try to get another chapter up by the end of this week.
