I was in the basement, in the kitchen. The thing about my house was that there were two kitchens, one in the basement and one on the main floor. It was odd, but I wasn't complaining, the one in the basement came in handy when the guys and I had movie nights. I opened the popcorn and poured it into a big pink bowl that I usually used for Halloween candy. I opened the M&M's, grabbing a couple handfuls and putting them in a bowl. I put pretzels, skittles, gummy bears, and chips in bowls before setting them all on the coffee table in the basement.
I slipped Jennifer's Body into the Blu-ray player, and turned the TV on. I heard the door upstairs open and I knew the boys were here. A few moments later I heard footsteps on the stairs, and then the four boys were in plain sight. "Jack, be a doll, and go get the drinks out of the fridge for me." I smiled, searching for the remote. Rian sat down in the recliner, while Zack sat on the floor with his back against the couch. Alex, Jack, and myself would take the couch, that's how it always happened, but that was back when Alex and I were together.
"So, what are we watching?" Zack asked, smiling up at me. I looked down at the buff bass player and smiled back.
"Jennifer's Body." I smiled, earning a groan from Jack.
"You're like obsessed, I don't get it. It's not that great, Aud." Jack came back into the TV area of the basement with beers, vodka, and wine.
"Shut up Jackary, no one asked you." I frowned, locating the remote on the couch, next to Alex. I sat down in the middle of the couch, in between Alex and Jack. I grabbed a bottle of Absolut off the table and opened it, taking a big gulp. I pressed play on the remote and scootched closer to Jack as the commercials started playing. I skipped through them, going straight to the menu. I pressed enter and the screen went black, the movie started playing. It was the opening scene, where Needy was in the mental hospital making some sort of craft with orange yarn and popsicle sticks. I put the bottle to my mouth and leaned it back, feeling the bitter liquid in my mouth, I let it run down my throat, wincing as it did so.
I didn't like alcohol, or liquor, or whatever you want to call it. I thought the stuff tasted terrible, but I drank it anyways. Everything was better when I was a little buzzed. I had also taken up drugs, and smoking cigs. No one knew about the drugs or the smoking, although Jack had found a pack of cigs in my room and asked about them. I had made up some bogus lie about how a friend had left them here, but I think he could smell the smoke on me. The cigs calmed me down, while the drugs had the same effect as the alcohol. It messed with my mind, making it easier to go about daily life. It made it easier to face Alex. I was so out of it, that looking at him didn't hurt.
I put my empty bottle on the coffee table and reached for a bottle of wine. Alex gave me a look, but I ignored it. Who was he to judge me for drinking? I looked up at the screen, leaning back into Jack's side. It was in the middle of the movie, where Jennifer was explaining to Needy what the band had done to her the night of the 'white trash pig roast' as Jennifer had called it. I watched as the lead singer stabbed Jennifer, and smiled at how hot Adam Brody looks in eye liner. I stopped smiling when I felt something vibrate in my pocket. I reached my hand down to my back pocket and pulled out my phone, unlocking it. 1 new text from: Cash. I rolled my eyes and put my phone back in my pocket, curling deeper into Jack's side. His arm wrapped around me, and I felt his hand on my side under my shirt. I bit my lip and payed attention to the movie, drinking my wine every now and then. I could feel Jack's hand slowly slip under the elastic of my shorts, and rest on my lower hip/upper thigh. I heard a gasp escape my lips, which caused all of the guys to look at me. I lied and blamed it on the movie, but looked up at Jack. He was smirking at me. I bit my lip and smiled at him, but turned away quickly.
Once the movie ended Jack's hand was out of my pants, and I was taking the movie out of the Blu-ray player. Zack stood up and stretched, smiling at me.
"That was a good movie Aud," He smiled, but I could tell he wasn't too fond of it.
"You remind me of Jennifer," Jack smiled, finishing off a bowl of candy.
"How so?" I asked, raising an eyebrow at him. "I don't eat boys."
"No, but you eat their hearts." He answered, "Oh, and you're very sexually experienced."
Everyone laughed at the last thing he said, except me. I couldn't stop thinking about what he said before. You eat their hearts. The only heart I had ever 'eaten' was Alex's, or was it? I bit my lip and cleaned up as the guys talked about their next tour.
I kept looking at Jack. Noticing, not for the first time, how attractive he was. He wasn't attractive in an obvious way like Alex, it was in the little things he did. His smile, the way his eyes lit up at the mention of Home Alone, how sweet he was. I had become good friends with Jack, and I had told him everything. He was the only person that probably knew every detail of mine and Alex's relationship. I had told him quite often how I felt about Alex, how he was the only guy I thought I could ever truly love. I'm sure Alex had told Jack things like that, as well. Jack just had this air about him, it made you feel as though you could trust him with anything, and I felt like I could. But I was also starting to think that I was developing feelings for my sort of ex-boyfriend's best friend, and that wasn't right. Especially not when I was trying to fix things with Alex.
"Hey Aud, wanna go out to dinner tomorrow night?" Alex asked, walking over to me. I smiled at him, he was already working on proving his love to me.
"I'd love to, Alex." I smiled, hugging him.
"I miss you." Alex whispered in my ear. I bit my lip, trying not to cry.
"I miss you, too." I whispered back, pulling away from him. "You have no idea."
The rest of my night was spent between drinking and stealing glances at Jack.
I haven't updated in forever. I bet all of you hate me now. Oops. Uhm, I've been really busy lately, between soccer, and my sister's wedding, and boys. So I haven't had much time to write anything, but I'm going to try and make time, okay? I hope you can all forgive me for taking so long to update, and review. Please?