Chapter 2: Vampire vs. Human

((((( Renesmee's POV)))))

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Toward the end of the day, Mom and Aunt Ali came to the lake with Jake and I, talking about high school. They wanted to explain to me about what to expect, and how to conduct myself with humans.

"Nessie, do you realize just how beautiful you have become?" Aunt Ali asked. "Your looks, your smell, your smile, they all will work for you, or against you. I know that you already know this, but naturally, humans are our prey. We are designed to draw them in. Make them like us. They are very easy to dazzle, and that makes things a lot easier for us to deal with them. The reason I'm telling you all of this is because you will have to know how to handle humans in all situations. Discretion will have to mirror all your actions.

Your mother told me that your father wants the majority of your diet to be human. I know you can survive like that, but the smell of human blood may be an even greater tease than you may imagine when you get hungry. You will have to pay special attention to what you eat and how much. Never skip meals, never cut back on your scheduled portions. Always keep in mind that regardless to how much you have been taught and even though you are half human – that you still are a vampire, and that is nothing to take lightly. The safety of this whole family will depend on you and your actions when with them. I know you can do this Nessie. I have faith in you."

"I know Aunt Ali. I will not disappoint you."

"Renesmee, have you considered dating? What would you do if a boy liked you? Or asked you out on a date, or if you liked him?" Mom asked.

"Ah, Mom, I'm not even thinking like that." I rolled my eyes. Jake stood up and left the three of us together to talk. Aunt Rosie came out with us soon after.

"Nessie, I heard your conversation with your mother." She looked at Mom. "Sorry for eavesdropping, Bella." Mom shrugged her shoulders. "But, Nessie, just because you are not thinking about it now, does not mean you will not in a month or a year. You have to consider every point they throw at you. Your reactions mean everything.

Nessie, stand up. Let's just say that I am a boy. A very cute boy if I may say so." She giggled at herself. "And I continuously show interest in you, until finally I get the nerve to approach you and ask for a date, or go to a movie, or meet the family, or even try to kiss you. How do you think you would react?" She stood closely to me. Rubbing my arm, whispering nothing in my ear. Pressing herself against me. Rubbing my back. Asking me for a date. I had to catch myself. I stepped back.

"What are you doing Aunt Rosie? No one would get that close to me."

"Huh, yes they would, Renesmee." Mom added. "Boys can be relentless, forceful, pushy, demanding, and even down right disrespectful. I saw your face when Rose did that to you. Please understand. It could be like that, or worse. What went through your mind before you stepped back?"

"Well, I had my eyes closed, and first I tried to imagine Aunt Rosie as a boy. Then, it made me angry that he was that close in my space. I wanted to throw him to the ground. I had to catch myself. I felt angry."

"That is exactly what we need you to understand." Aunt Ali said. "You will get angry from time to time. Humans nor vampires are perfect, so there will be differences of opinion. Expect it. Probably more often than none. You must contain that anger. Find other ways to vent. You must never show your true strength in front of humans."

"I understand, Aunt Ali. Thank you Aunt Rosie. This has been exactly what I needed. Can I go find Jake? I need to talk to him. Are we finish here?"

"Yes. We'll talk later." Mom added.

I went to find Jake. I wanted to get away from here for a while. This is all making me really nervous, and I need an out. Just the thought of anyone disrespecting my space for their own personal gain infuriates me. How could people really be like that?

When I found Jake, he was playing a video game with Uncle Em. "Hi, Uncle Em. Jake, can I talk to you?" He looked up at me.

"Alright. Em, I'll finish beating you later."

Uncle Em laughed at Jake. "Oh, I look forward to it. Jasper!"

Jake and I walked outside. "Can we go somewhere?"

"Where, Ness?"

"Anywhere. Please, just take me away from here." We got into Jake's rabbit that he rebuilt and headed to his cottage. He needed to get changed. He wanted to go see a movie or eat.

As Jake and I approached his garage behind his cottage, I had an idea.

"Jake, can we ride today? I don't have to drive. I just want to feel some speed. I need to clear my head." Jake looked at me...probably concerned about what my daddy would say, but he still agreed. We went straight to his bike and mounted it. The growl that the bike had from the modifications Jake added made it sound strong, enticing. I looked at Jake with a big smile.

"No, Nessie. Absolutely not. Your father will kill me, and punish you from school. Don't give him a reason. He will know. He always knows."

"But, Jake..."

"No, Nessie. I'm tired of fighting with your father. If you want to keep me around, we will have to stop being so reckless."

"But, Jakie, I thought you love me." I half smiled at him, batting my eyes. In the past, he has never been able to resist me when I really want something. I expect today will be no different. Jake looked down at me, looking defeated. He hung his head, looking at me straight in the eyes. He was so close to my face. I could feel his warm breath brushing against my forehead, and his clean, woodsy scent taking over my senses. My whole body felt warm...weird. I closed my eyes. Memorizing the moment.

"Alright, Nessie. But just know, you may never go to school after this." He walked off toward the bike. Damn. What was that? Why would I have those strange feelings for my friend? Jake would be really disappointed with me if he knew what I was just thinking. What my body had just done.

Jake has always been my best friend for as far back as I can remember. I can't remember him ever bringing a girl around, or showing interest in girls that tried to make themselves noticed by him. If they even got a smile out of him would be a miracle. I guess he knows that the imprint is stronger than any crush, and he always says that he chooses to wait on her. I've never understood his take on this. Plus, how could he imprint if he never goes out and makes himself available. I hope I am not the reason he has put his life on hold. Maybe, since we are starting school, he can have a life separate from me. Maybe find his soul mate. His imprint.

I sighed at my thoughts. Just thinking about him being with another girl, for any reason makes me sad...even mad. I wonder just how much our relationship would change once he finds his true love? Hopefully, we will always be close friends. Maybe she will understand. As I thought on it, I knew exactly what I needed to do.

"Come on Nessie, you driving or what?" Jake said, pulling me out of my reverie.

"No, Jake. Thanks, but I'm like you. I really don't feel like fighting with daddy. Lets ride."

We rode all over Victoria. I held on tight to Jake as the wind flew through my hair. The ride was bitter sweet. It was exactly what I wanted, but after today, I knew we may never do this again. Never spend time together like this again. I cried into his leather jacket, hoping desperately that he never heard my sobs. What's wrong with me? I think I'll just miss his company. He is all I've ever known. But I have to not be selfish. I have to allow him happiness just as he has given me.

Oh, well, until then, I will enjoy our ride. The weather was perfect. The sun shone brightly. Everything's perfect. For now.

Jake stopped off at an Italian eatery just outside of town. I was not hungry, but I remembered what Aunt Ali said, so I did not fight Jake about eating. We went in and ordered some type of pasta with shrimp in a white sauce. It actually proved to be really good. I was surprised.

Jake kept looking up at me. I tried to ignore him. I knew that he knew something was wrong, I didn't know how talk to him about my thoughts, so I didn't.

"Ness, what's wrong? I thought we took the ride to clear your head. You look sad. Wanna talk?"

"No, thank you. I'm fine. Just thinking about school. Sorry if I'm a party pooper."

Jake laughed. "Ready to go? I want to show you something."

"What?"

"Let's go. I know you'll love it."

We rode a little further out of town. There was a lot of trees and greenery everywhere I looked. I could not imagine what would be so great way out here. After about twenty minutes, Jake turned off the road and maybe a mile down, I saw the most beautiful meadow. It looked like someone had cleared the woods and perfectly planted the most beautiful wild flowers and daisies everywhere. From a distance, I could hear water running. Maybe a stream or a waterfall. It took my breath away and overwhelmed my senses. Everything about it was perfect. There were butterflies flying everywhere. They were various colors and sizes and seemed comfortable lighting on me. It must have been twenty of them on me in various places. I just extended my arms out and laughed the whole time. Jake stepped back, smiling at me, happy I loved his beautiful retreat. We walked the span of the land together, following the sound of the water.

"Jake, oh my god." He stepped up to me, entwining his finger with mine. He looked down at me with the most beautiful look of awe. My mind went blank. I knew he thought the sight was just as beautiful as I did, but my thoughts left as soon as he looked down at me. I no longer saw, nor appreciated the sight of that lovely, clear stream, laced with rocks and beautiful colors. I looked down at our hands entwined and my heart went soft. No, Renesmee. He has his imprint. This would never work. You would only get hurt. I dropped Jake's hand. Shit! I felt my face scrunch, and tears welled up in my eyes.

Jake looked over at me...sad. "What's wrong Ness? Why are you looking like that? I thought you would've loved this, too. Talk to me, Ness." He reached over to pull me into his embrace, but I stepped back.

"Jake, I told you, I. am. Fine. Let's go." I just walked off. Jake came, but trailed a few steps behind me. "Jake, before we go home, can we stop to get ice cream at the boardwalk?"

"Sure, Ness, what ever you want."

The ride to the Boardwalk seemed awkward. I held on to Jake, but not like I had on the way to the meadow. How could I ever expect him to love me, anyway? He's a werewolf for god's sake and I'm a vampire. Neither of our parents would ever go for that, anyway. He deserves to know and love his imprint, and I refuse to steal anymore time from him. We arrived at the boardwalk, got our ice cream and walked a while to a group singing and juggling with their feet. It was quite funny. The audience was large, filled with children my age. When it was over, we sat with a group of other kids that were all talking about the show and how they wanted them at their next birthday party.

While we were talking to some of the kids, a boy walked up to me and introduced himself to me and Jake.

"Hi, I've never seen you two around here before. I'm Brody Gamble. This is my sister, Legend Shay. Everyone else, we go to school with."

"Nice to meet you, Brody Gamble. Legend. I'm Renesmee Cullen and this is Jacob Black."

"Are you two from here?"

"No, just moved here. We're starting school next week."

"Oh, good, well, you will be going to Victoria High. We all go there." He smiled at me. He was a really beautiful boy. He stood more than six feet tall. He had a thin, but muscular build, his eyes were emerald green, and he had the most beautiful blond hair. And his smile. It shone like the sun. Just being near him, seeing the way he looked at me made me feel...weird. We all talked for a while longer, laughing and getting caught up on what to expect next week at school. Brody seemed really nice, and offered to show us where all of my classes were the first day of school. His sister was a sweetheart, also. She seemed really quiet and reserved. She may end up being the perfect friend for me. As we parted, Brody smiled widely at me, and told me that he would be waiting for us in the parking lot.

When they left, I looked over at Jake. He had separated himself from the group, and had taken a seat back at the table we were at before. His face seemed sad for a moment, but quickly was back to my perky Jake.

"So, Ness, you have friends already. Everything seems to be working out already for you. Your father will be pleased." He jumped up and reached for my hand, but I turned around to pick up my scarf that had fallen before he could grab me. He must think I'm a total Ass. It's not like we haven't held hands thousands of times before. Just now, it's different, personal. For me at least.

"Ness..."

I ignored him calling my name. "Jake, let's go home. We have a lot of work to do."

"Ness, before we go, lets go for a jog around the boardwalk. Being around humans while doing a sport will keep help keep your mind cautious." I looked down at my dress attire. Luckily I had worn tennis shoes today.

We took off down the trail created along this beautiful boardwalk. Jake raced me. Of course he beat me. I had to act like a weak human. It took everything in me to not race him again and beat him. He was relentless. He went on and on about how he just beat me. And, how he was the better runner. I know he was messing with me, but losing is definitely not my thing. On any level. As we ran along the pathway, I stuck my foot out and tripped Jake. He went immediately to the ground, scraping his knees and elbow.

"Jake! Jake, I'm so sorry. I only meant to trip you. I'm so sorry."

"Ah, Ness, cut it out. Look, its healing already. I'm not that breakable, remember?" He smiled at me.

I ignored him and attended to his bruises. I got a bottle of water and poured it on the cuts and patted it clean with a tissue paper. He allowed me to attend to him. He just sat there, smiling widely at me.

As I cleaned his wounds, I realized that just by touching him, it made my body feel all icky everywhere. And, the way he looks at me helps nothing. I don't know why I keep doing this. I am beginning to get really pissed off with myself. I refuse to be selfish, anymore. Dad reminds me constantly about how freakin' selfish I am, and how I need to consider others. Well, I am considering Jake. I want him to be happy. To have a life that includes more than just me.

I finished with Jake's wounds and put my hand out to help him stand. "Thanks, Ness. Even though it was unnecessary. Thank you."

"What ever, Jake."

We slowed our pace, jogging together. We passed by an open field that included couples reading books, parents playing frisbee with their children, children running with their dogs. I had never seen this place before. Jake and I use to come here all the time, but we never came back this far. It looked like a nice place to relax and escape from the world. Everyone looked so happy. At peace. I looked up at Jake. He smiled at me and pointed at a guy with a cart. We stopped running and purchased two waters and a hot dog.

"Ness, wanna sit on the grass and eat?"

"Sure, what ever."

He looked at me, furrowing his brow. He sat down next to me, close. Too close. Shit! Can't he get the clue. I scooted over, away from him. He placed his hand on my arm when he noticed what I was doing.

"Ness, whats up? I know I've asked you that a hundred times today, but I feel like what ever your problem is has nothing to do with school. Have I offended you? Have I done something to hurt you?" He looked at me, serious. "Ness, you can tell me anything. I love you. I won't get mad. I promise."

"Jake, I want to ask you something, but I don't know how to."

"Anything. Ask me anything. I promise to be as honest as I can."

I put my head down, laying my drink and hot dog on the ground. He picked my chin up to him. "Ness?"

"Well...um...you...um..." He began looking at me puzzled. Having no idea what I could be stumbling over my words to say to him.

"Ness?"

"Jake, why have you never dated anyone? Have you not showed interest in girls because of me?"

He looked shocked. I guess my question was the last thing he expected to hear from me. But, I pressed on.

"Because, if that's the reason, I don't want you to do that. I know about imprinting, and I know that she will be your soul mate. I also know that you don't date, you don't show girls attention when they try to talk to you, and you don't make yourself available to meet her. Jake, I know you love me, and I love you, but that's not fair for you. You have put your life on hold for years to be my friend. It just seems selfish of me to keep you from happiness like that. I wouldn't cause any problems between you two. But, I hope we could still be friends."

Jake remained very quiet for a long while. He looked off in the distance, running his hand through his hair a couple of times, placing his drink on the ground. When he finally looked over at me, his expression looked pained, but questionable.

"Nessie, I have done no such thing. I have not put my life on hold. I have found a happiness with you and your family that I always lacked with my own. Since the day you were born, I have loved you, and I have enjoyed every single day I have spent with you. As I will in time to come. Besides, there is no one else out there that I would rather spend my time with, anyway." He looked over at me. A smile creeping on his face. His head leaned down a little, and his eyes narrowed at me. When I saw him readjust his position to his knees, I knew what he was about to do, so I tried to get up and run, but he pounced on me, penning me to the ground, holding my hands above my head. I began laughing hysterically before he did anything else. "Renesmee Carlie Cullen, are you trying to get rid of me?" He never gave me a chance to answer before he began tickling me under my arms and on my rib cage. He knows how ticklish I am. I just laughed and laughed, until I could finally get a word out.

"No, Jake, no. Please." By then, he was laughing at me laughing and let me up. "That's not fair. You will have your day, Mr. Black." We laughed a while, finishing our hot dog. The tension between us seemed to let up, but I knew what he was trying to do. I would not be that easily swayed. I want him happy.

"Nessie, it will not be that easy to get rid of me. Until you send me away, I am here. And even then."

"Alright, Jake. What ever you like."

When we were finish eating, we straightened our clothes up and jogged back to the car. Before we got there, we stopped at the edge of the park and watched two groups playing volley ball.

"Wanna play, Ness? Let's see if you can stand to slow your movements, while risking a miss."

"Huh, you sound like you are doubting me. Winning really isn't everything, Jake." He smiled down at me.

"Huh, we'll see." Jake and I played with the group, but on opposing teams. He seemed to be getting a kick out of the fact that my team was losing, and I couldn't do anything about it. He knew how frustrated I was becoming, but I refused to prove him right. In the end, we lost. He was more than a sore winner. He is the worst. He laughed and talked about it all the way to the car. I personally had nothing to say. But I did enjoy listening to him smile and laugh. He looked even more beautiful when he gets excited.

On our way to the car, I noticed women eying Jake. I mean, who wouldn't. He was the most beautiful person I have ever met. The mixture of his bronzed skin color, his messy hair, his sculpted body, that beautiful smile, and his towering height is breath taking.

While we continued, I looked at them looking at him, and him never noticing not one of them. He never eyed them, never looked in their way. Nothing. From what I hear, the imprinting process happens when the two are in each other's presence by eye contact. Is he purposely trying to not find her? What is he afraid of?

When we got to the car, he held the door open for me, but stopped me before I got in. "Nessie, I need you to drop this subject. I am completely happy with my life. No one is making me do anything that I don't want to do. I love the time we spend together, and I always want to be here for you. Regardless to what you decide later in life. Promise me, Nessie."

"Jake, I can't do that. I feel like I have stolen years from you. And you are fine with that. You could still be here for me if you loved someone else. The both of you would be here for me." His eyebrows bunched together. Sadness reigning in his eyes. He acted like I just killed his cat. All I said was that I wanted him to be happy. "Jake, what's so wrong with that?" He remained quiet, holding my hand from earlier. "I want to date one day. Do you expect me to never date?"

"Never, Ness." He took a deep breath. "I only want you to be happy. I will always support you and listen to you. Regardless."

"Well, Jake, I don't understand. You want me to date, and you want to sit and listen to how my dates go? That's crazy. How will you find happiness in that?"

"Nessie, you are worried about the wrong things. You should be concentrating on your feelings and your happiness. I am already happy. You need to get there. Now, Nessie, let this go, please. If you love me, let it go." He leaned in and kissed my forehead. "I know you have good intentions, but they are unnecessary. Trust me. Now, get in the car, and put your seatbelt on young lady." He smiled at me, then walked to the other side of the car.

We talked about the run on the Boardwalk, and how I maintained my human side when he tickled me. I knew I could have easily flipped him, but that definitely would have caught many eyes. He was proud of me for maintaining my cool. And, of course, the volleyball game. I had nothing to comment about that. All I said to him about that he would have his day, soon. He just laughed more at me, reminding me that I had to remain with human strength until school started. Oh, I see he is liking this way too much.

The rest day went by with out event. We got back, ate, and played music in my room. Mom and Dad were at the main house, so we raised the music up all the way. Jake fell asleep on my bed, so I covered him up with a blanked, and crawled up next to him above the covers. I can't remember when I went to sleep.

"Jacob, I love you, please, Jacob?" She screamed at him. Jacob began running, running as fast as he could. The forest was passing by him in a blur. The sound of twigs and leaves leaving empty traces of sounds behind him. All he could think about was the one he loved. How he wanted to be with her. How he wanted to tell her how much he adored her, and wanted to spend his life with her, but he couldn't. He ran further, knocking every woman over that he passed. He was searching, but he knew where she was. When he arrived, she was in a glass house. He stopped and only observed her. He never said a word. He never approached her. He only stood there, admiring her from a distance. Smiling at her when she looked at him. When she looked at him, he seemed to be backing up, farther and farther. It saddened her, but she was bound, unable to move to draw him closer. Suddenly, he was in my bedroom in my cottage, laying next to the woman he was running from. She turned over to face him. She was the same woman from the glass house. When I moved in to take a closer look at her. I gasped at the sight in front of me. It was me.

I jumped up in the bed. My heart was racing, and my mind was clouded. Tears were flowing down my face. Jake jumped up with me, looking at me. He pulled me into his arms, hugging me tightly. "It's alright, Ness, it was just a dream. This is real. I'm here. Everything is alright." I heard what he said, but it only sent me deeper into my sadness. I love Jacob Black, but I can never have him. The realization hit me like a mack truck. My heart felt like it wanted to explode. Like I had just lost the love of my life, while never actually having him. Then, from nowhere, I felt anger come down on me, hard, from my loss. I broke his embrace, walking into the restroom, running the shower, and crying my eyes out. How will I ever be able to stay so close to him? How will I be able to watch him love another. What the Hell am I going to do?

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