Chapter 12: Woops!
((((( Renesmee's POV)))))
SM owns all things Twilight. *pouts* I just pitifully remake her characters.
A/N: Sorry for the long wait. I've been pre-occupied. I do have several chapters written but not edited. This chapter is not beta'd so I accept responsibility for any and all mistakes.
Summary: Jake and Ness get heated.
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Saturday morning came really quickly. Jake and I fell asleep fully clothed on top of the sheets while he held me. It was the best feeling in the world to wake up knowing he would be there and he loved me. I wasn't ready to get up yet so I snuggled closer to him and threw my knee over his hip. "Uh uh..." Jake said groggily. "Don't do that."
"Why? Did I hurt you? I was just trying to snuggle closer."
He pushed my leg off his hip and sat up, leaving me in an awkward position. When I sat up next to him, I looked down in his lap and saw his "uh um" trying to break through the jeans that was keeping it captive. I gasped… unable to take my eyes off it.
"Ness… you're not helping things. Would you stop that?" He got up and tried to reposition it on the way to the bathroom, but I guess he couldn't because I heard him hiss and use a string of profanities. I giggled but was curious to see it like that. Jake came back out after washing his hands and smiled at me. He looked a little shy – maybe about what I'd seen. "I'm sorry about that," he whispered then blushed.
I giggled again. "I don't know much about that but I'm almost sure that it wasn't your fault." I looked down at it again. It still wasn't down to normal yet. "Jake, did I do that to you when I threw my leg over you?"
He chuckled. "Yes… yes you did. You rubbed over it when you threw your leg." He smiled. "Sorry."
There was a weird awkwardness in the room after that. It was like we both were curious about things but were both scared to talk about it. It was amazing that after all these years of knowing each other and talking about absolutely everything that we'd finally found one subject that neither of us could approach without shyness. That was alright though. I'd know soon enough. I'd ask Aunt Ali and Aunt Rosie.
Later that afternoon after Mom came over and cooked us breakfast, we got dressed. The awkwardness seemed to have returned. I showered first. The look on Jake's face when I opened a drawer and pulled out underwear and clothes out his closet was priceless.
"What? I told you I was living here," I said.
He just looked at me with his eyes big and walked out of the room. I giggled. I knew what his problem was. It was the same problem I was about to have when he showers – imagining him naked in the other room – I giggled again. I'm sure that my imagination wouldn't even come close to the deliciousness of his body so I let it go… for now.
When I finished showering, I realized that I had dropped my thongs on the floor by the dresser so I half wrapped myself in the towel. Only my front was covered. I peeped in the room, saw noone, and ran to pick up my thongs. When I bent over to pick it up, I heard Jake gasp. It startled me and I accidentally dropped the towel.
Shit!
I left the towel and ran into the bathroom. I closed the door, tight, and leaned against it as I willed my heartbeat to slow down. I stood there and hoped like hell that I could one day look at Jake again.
Shit!
"Ness, you alright?" Jake said close to the door. I could hear his heartbeat racing just like mine was. I was so embarrassed. "Ness… it's alright. You have a beautiful… um… body. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Ness, talk to me. I know I should've knocked first. I'm sorry." I heard him walking out the room. "Shit!" I heard him say under his breath.
Maybe thirty minutes later, I emerged from the bathroom. I was fully dressed, teeth brushed, hair combed, and lotioned down – all without ever leaving the bathroom again.
Shit! Now I have to face Jake.
I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a bottled water. He had his back to me. He was watching television. Well, not really. I knew he wasn't really looking at the television because his head wasn't turned the way it should've been for Jake to look interested in what he was looking at. I knew him too well. Plus, his heart rate quickened the moment I opened the bathroom door. I cleared my throat and he turned to me.
"Ness, I'm really sorry. I would never… never do something like that on purpose. I..."
"Jake, look, why don't we just get this over with. If we plan on living here together, at least sometimes, we are bound to see things, so let's just get it over with so we don't ever have to feel like this again." I began taking my clothes off.
"Wait… what are you doing?" He turned his head away from me.
"I'm about to take all of my clothes off and so are you. Next time this happens I won't feel like I wanna jump in a bottomless pit in embarrassment." He laughed but shook his head no. "Oh, yes you are." I finished taking mine off. I locked the front door and closed the curtains just in case Mom decided to come back. Then, I walked in front of the television and put my hands on my hips. "Jake, take your clothes off. You only have to feel weird this one time. Every other time will be no big deal, trust me. This second time standing in front of you is much better than the first… much better."
He eventually agreed after much debate and began disrobing. Shit! I know my eyes almost popped out my head when he took his shirt off. I'm sure that I've seen him without a shirt before but never like this. Maybe it was how he was unbuttoning it or even that he was doing it for me, but all my girly bits got immediately aroused. Damn! I wanted to run to the bathroom real quick and wipe but that would be really embarrassing too.
I just hope I don't drip. Do ladies drip? Shit! I don't know that either.
Jake finished with his shirt, his jeans, t-shirt, and left his boxers on. Just that sight was enough to make me salivate – in both places. I internally shook my head at myself.
All of that will be mine one day. Damn!
"Come on, Jake, throw your modesty out the door with the trash because I know damn well you don't have anything to be embarrassed about. Take 'em off." He did as I asked, eventually. He turned to the side and pulled them down and showed me his glorious ass. My eyes got large again.
Shit! He's had that all this time?
Women are stupid – they've let that pass by them all these years? If I would've seen that passing me everyday, there is no way I would've kept going. He finally turned to me with his "uh um" covered. I just stood there and waited on him to show me but he wouldn't so I walked across the room toward him. He began backing up like he was afraid of me.
"Nessie, stop. I mean it. Stop," he demanded.
"Whatever, Jake, remove your hand then." I kept toward him.
"Alright, alright. Here." He removed his hand and placed his hands on his hips like I had earlier. My breath caught. I may have even gasped or some shit like that. My eyes were fixed on that delicious part.
Woooowwww! That shit is supposed to fit in a woman? In me? Oh, hell no!
He was completely hard so it was standing totally at attention before me. It reached well past his bellybutton and the skin appeared to be as smooth as a baby bottom - no wrinkles, no discolorations, perfectly even to his body.
My girly parts… shit! If I'm old enough to see a "uh um," then I surely can say what it is right? No, sounds too vulgar… shit! I can say it. At least I can in my head. I think? Alright, here I go… no… wait… alright.
I took a deep breath and said "Dick!" as loud as I could in my head and kept saying it over and over. "Pussy" was my next break through. I giggled at my thoughts.
I was so caught up on my mental break through and staring at his… dick that I forgot that Jake was waiting on me and my response. When I giggled, he covered up again.
"No, Jake, I'm not laughing at you. I was laughing at this situation. We're standing here butt bone naked and facing each other just to get rid of any quips that my come up later. You have to admit that it's funny."
"Yeah, I guess so. So…. what do we do now?"
"Can I touch you?"
"Nessie… I don't know. It could get real serious way too quick." He walked to the kitchen around the bar. Hasn't he learned yet?
"But Jake, remember, awkwardness, just do it once and if you brush up against me later then it won't be so bad."
I walked over to him. I hoped he didn't start running from me because I was more than ready to pounce on his little fine ass. Sadly, he didn't. I internally pouted. That would've been fun.
I stopped right in front of him and got the nerve from somewhere to take the final steps.
"Jake, we'll just hug, I guess. That should be easy enough." He nodded his head. I took the final steps into his arms and fire overtook my body.
I felt like someone light a match and threw it at my feet. The delicacy of his skin, his musky, woodsy smell that seeped through every pore of his skin, the way his abs felt against my chest and under my hand, his warm breath as his breathing quickened immediately on contact and spilled over onto my shoulders, and his dick… oh my god! His dick was pressing against my stomach.
Was it twitching? Shit! What the Hell?
I could feel my pussy leaking wetness immediately. Jake wrapped his arms around me and rubbed his hands down my shoulders, my arms, down my waist, around my back, and rested his hands on my ass. I looked up at him wanting more but also checking to see exactly where he was at with it all.
When he finally looked down at me, all I saw was raw, unbridled passion in his eyes, or lust if you want a better term. No soon as we locked eyes, he leaned in to kiss me. I trailed my hands to his ass as I felt his warm breath against my lips. When we finally made contact, all awkwardness was out the door.
All I could say was "wow!" He kissed me with a rawness that could only precede major making out or sex itself. He sucked my lips into his mouth and licked them before making an entrance into my mouth. He pulled me closer than before and his hands were everywhere on me except the two places I wanted them to be. My mind was all over the place. Then, like I forgot that it was there, his dick seemed to feel harder, longer.
I jumped into his arms and straddled his hips but never broke the kiss. He caught me and held me so close. Now, after I jumped into Jake's arms, his dick somehow was in the perfect place. It was now positioned at my entrance and I felt the pressure from it trying to break through. I knew that just a little movement would seal the deal. Jake moved his hands to my behind and cupped each cheek. I felt my wetness pooling between my legs and I shuddered to think about just how wet Jake's dick and his stomach would be when I finally got off of him. I think I may have blushed at that thought.
My focus went back to his rock hard dick at my entrance. I squirmed a little in his hands to see if I could worm down just a little. He knew what I was doing and was in no way giving me any room to move lower. I could feel his dick slipping around the outside of my folds allowing just a little friction. I was so turned on.
In my stomach, it felt like butterflies then like a lasso tightening… tighter and tighter with every small movement I made. That, combined with the neck kisses that Jake began giving me when we broke for air had me moaning and calling his name. I was actually begging him for more. It wasn't until he sucked my earlobe into his ear then proceeded to stick his tongue in my ear that I came undone. In my stomach, I could feel something coming. I had no idea what exactly it was but it was the most sensual thing that I'd ever felt in my life. I continued moving right above the head of his dick, received his tongue in my ear, then began squirming and tightening my hold to him. My moans and cries echoed from end to end of the cottage and Jake wasn't helping matters at all. His moans and cries were equal to mine.
"That's right, Renesmee… come for me. Give it all to me, baby," he breathed into my ear.
Oh, shit! What is this? Oh, God… it feels so good. Shit!
While I was in the middle of my release, my movement quickened in his hands and he lost his grip. When he did, the head of his dick entered me. When it did, I tightened up and remained still. I wondered if Jake was ready to do that or if it was an accident. I quickly found that it was a mistake.
Jake regained his grip on me, lifted me off his dick, and placed me on my feet. My mouth immediately went into a pout but I continued to hold him close. I could smell my arousal coming from his stomach and his dick. The smell was almost sweet but it totally embarrassed me. As much as I wanted to make love to Jake, I didn't know if the smell was offensive to him or if it was normal. Honestly, it turned me on, but I wasn't sure exactly what it did to him.
When I looked back up at him, his eyes were closed. His breathing was still ragged and his hands were firmly placed in the crook of my back.
"Jake..." I wanted to say a lot but all of it seemed to be stupid and immature for me to question so I just kept quiet.
"Yes, baby."
I didn't answer. I was afraid.
"Do you want to know what just happened?" He asked. I nodded my head, afraid to look at him or speak.
"Ness, you just had an orgasm. Do you know what that is?"
"Jake… of course I do," I whined.
"Well, how do you feel? I mean… are you alright with what just happened?" he asked nervously.
I squeezed him tighter.
"Of course. Jake, I want to give you everything I have. I want you comfortable with me… able to love me as freely as you wish." Jake moved his hand to my head and squeezed me tightly then we moved to the bed. I sat back in the middle of the bed when he sat beside me.
"Ness, how are we going to make it another day let alone another year or two? That was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. I wanted you so bad that my body aches, denying myself. And your smell… shit, girl, it was driving me crazy. I just wanted to touch it with my hands, my mouth, my face." He put his head down. "But, Ness, I didn't mean to enter you. You were so close and when your orgasm came down, you slipped from my hands. I'm so sorry about that. I didn't fully enter you so I didn't break your hymen. I'm so sorry, baby. I shouldn't have had you so close like that."
"Shhh… I was exactly where I wanted to be. Honestly, I would have pushed down myself if you hadn't held me up all that time."
"Ness! You're not… we're not ready for that just yet. Hell, really, we weren't ready for what just happened, either. Damn… your dad is going to kill me."
"Jake, calm down. I still say it's our choice. No one has the right to tell us how to love each other with our bodies. It's ours to give."
"Ness, I can't… not yet. Hell, you didn't even know what was happening to you when you were coming. It's not fair…"
"Alright… let me make sure I understand exactly what you're saying. You want to school me on the rights and wrongs of sex before we actually do it? Or do you somehow think that I need more experience at this before actually doing it? Because either way, I win. So, Jake, which one is it?" I smiled flirtatiously at him as I scooted closer to him. "Plus, just the thought of you talking dirty to me makes me want to jump on you right now."
"Nessie, it's not funny. Sex is a real serious act. You could get pregnant. I don't know anything about putting a rubber on, or birth control for you, or when exactly to pull out before I come in you. I don't know about any of it. I just think that it'll be safer if we wait."
"Fine, Jake." I slid off the bed and walked toward the bathroom then turned around. "Oh, Jake, just know that I, as of this moment, do not sleep with clothes anymore neither do I shower alone." I turned back around and headed for the shower. "I'm entering the shower Jacob. Don't keep me waiting."
((((( Jacob's POV)))))
My feelings were so hurt when I walked up on Nessie about to kiss Brody. I felt like my heart had broken into a million pieces, and were finishing the job by stabbing me over and over in my chest. After Nessie ran out to explain to me, finally, I knew what I saw, and there was nothing that she could say to me. At the very minimum, she liked him. The very thought of that sickened me. I'd left her to develop feelings for another man and yet I blame her for doing so.
I'm such a dumb ass.
When I made it to my cottage, Bella and Edward showed up shortly after and asked me to come with them. I had no idea what was wrong, but by the look on their faces, I knew that all Hell was about to break loose.
When we got to the clearing, I saw Nessie standing next to Brody. Shit! If I would've known that this was where I was coming, I would've stayed home. I stopped across from then, next to Bella, never looking directly at her.
When Edward began talking, I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't allow him by her another moment. She's mine, and I will fight for her love. When I walked next to her, Brody got the point, and moved over.
When everything was revealed, I was in utter shock. I was like...what the Hell is going on here? Did I miss something? In the end, Nessie forgave him, but mentioned that they could probably not be friends anymore. All the better for me. Besides...I would hate to have to hurt the little shit for messing with my girl.
Our walk home was intense. I fucked up again. Totally mistook the nights events, running the first chance I got. What the Hell is wrong with me? I'll have to find something to do for her, very special. I really should throw myself down at her feet, and beg her to forgive me...again...As I was about to stop and do just that, she broke the silence.
"Jake, I love you." She said looking up at me with those beautiful green eyes. I brushed the back of his finger across my chin, feeling her warm skin, and the sudden current that shot between us. I leaned in to kiss her, but stopped, wondering if she even wanted me to touch her right now. She met me the rest of the way, letting me know that she wanted it just as much as I did. The kiss was different. Not that it didn't warm me all over, but it made me feel secure. It was like she was telling me that she loved me, and would always be mine, regardless. I never took myself in all my years to be a jealous person...not even with Bella, but my sudden change in attitude is unsettling, even for me. I feel like my whole world revolves around this one little tiny, beautiful person, and she can do with me as she pleases. It's pretty much hopeless that I will ever not let her, eventually, do as she pleases. I'm such a wimp...for her. The kiss ended way too quickly. I could've slept in this same position with her smell this close to me, her tongue in my mouth, and her hands placed securely on my chest.
When we got to the house, I realized that earlier, when I arrived home after finding Brody and Nessie, that I had found Nessie's letters to me. I was actually very embarrassed that I had read them after seeing them. Maybe they were just journal entries, and not actual letters to me. It made me uneasy. I knew that if she found out what I had done, that she would be furious, but I wouldn't lie to her, or hide it, so eventually, tonight, I would tell her, and take what ever she gave out about it.
I washed dishes, changed his bed, took a shower, swept...what ever I could do to avoid the impending conversation. She acted like she was watching television, but I knew that it was only a matter of time before she confronted me. She came to the bedroom to talk.
"Jake, what's up? What's wrong? Do you want me to leave?"
"No, Nessie, of course not." Shit...what the Hell am I suppose to say to her.
"Well, what is it? I won't try anything with you, I promise. You were right. I need to calm down."
"It's nothing Nessie..." Except the fact that I betrayed your trust. She got really pissed with me.
"Jacob Black, don't you start this Bullshit! I asked you a question, and I expect an answer right Damn now! And don't you lie to me! I've known you all my life. I know when something's wrong."
I lowered my eyes to the floor, afraid to face her. "Ness..." I walked over to my nightstand, pulling out the letters that she wrote. She looked at me unphased, then shrugged her shoulders.. "Ness...you're not mad that I read this?"
"Of course not...they were addressed to you, weren't they? I slept in your room, in your bed, with your pillow dressed like you every night. I would crawl out my window at night to come here. I had to be near you in any way I could. I hope you don't mind."
"Ness...your notes broke my heart. I'm so sorry that I put you through that. You were in so much pain. It makes me nervous to be near you. I don't want to hurt you like that again. I just want to hold you and protect you from any pain, but it seems like it's me that hurt you most of all, and I don't know how to deal with it."
She helped me get a grip with myself and what I had done, then told me all about the Shay's and her family's history, and everything I missed over the past weeks.
Honestly, my interest was centered around the relationship that she and Brody shared, and at what stage it currently was at. Inside, I was screaming, having to hear about his devotion to her, and knowing that he was her first kiss...not me...even though she didn't want him to...but still...he's her first kiss...the first man to put his lips to hers. Shit! No matter...I'll fight for her, and I'll win. I really a lot of making up to do.
She leaned over to kiss me before we finished talking. I will never get enough of her that close to me. To say that she's never had a boyfriend, or had sex, she knows exactly what she wants, and how she wants it. Staying away from her, sexually, will be the hardest thing that I'll have to do in this relationship.
When I left her earlier to talk to Edward, I apologized for causing the strain between him and Nessie. He understood that I never provoked her words, but he did ask me to take my time with her. He understands the love that we share, but he also asked me to hold off on sex, until Nessie grows up a little more.
Honestly, I agreed with him. She's still so ruled by her emotions, and I definitely don't want to push her into something that she's clearly not ready for. I know that I promised that I would stop making decisions for her, but this concerns me too. Besides...I don't know anything about sex myself. I would prefer to crawl my way into it, just jump off the cliff like Nessie would like me to do. She's very special, and deserves only the best from me. She deserves a chance to find her sexuality, and let me as well. That way, we never have to have any regrets.
About three of four kiss sessions later, Nessie's need became more and more aggressive. I tried to back off, knowing clearly where it was going, but again, she knew just how to keep me where she wanted me. Shit!
We fell asleep fully clothed on top of the sheets. She laid her head on my chest while I held her all night. That morning, when I looked down at her, and felt her warm body so close to me, it gave me an instant hard on. Shit! Nessie, please don't wake up. I closed my eyes and tried to think about the ocean...no...maybe imagine Billy and some random woman having sex...yeah...that should do it...euh! Yuck! I smiled at the thought. It seemed to be working. It wasn't hurting anymore behind my jeans. Then she messed it all up. She adjusted herself, throwing her knee over my hip. "Uh uh...Don't do that."
"Why? Did I hurt you? I was just trying to snuggle closer."
I pushed her leg off my hip and sat up, and sat up, hoping she wouldn't get up too. Before I could run, she was next to me, looking in my lap. I know I must have blushed ten shades of red. She gasped, realizing what had just happened, never taking her eyes off my obvious bulge.
"Ness...you're not helping things...would you stop that?" I got up and headed toward to bathroom, trying to reposition it to relieve some of the discomfort, but it didn't work...fucking dick...I seemed to only be more aroused by touching it. I peed, hoping that it would lose its desire, but no go. I turned to the door, quietly locked it, and allowed myself a release. It wasn't hard, neither did it take long. I was so wound up just thinking about her in my bed that just the thought of her touching me sent me over the top, quickly. I let it go in my hands, washed them, then returned to Nessie.
Even though she didn't know what I had just done, I felt ashamed. I used her in my mind to get a release, and suddenly, it was so not cool of me to do that. Shit! "I'm sorry about that."
She giggled. "I don't know much about that, but I'm almost sure that it wasn't your fault." Shit...what's going on with me. As soon as she spoke, and pushed her eyes back down there, I hardened again. This girl is dangerous. How the Hell am I suppose to avoid her when every chance she gets alone with me, she makes me feel like this? "Jake, did I do that to you when I threw my leg over you?"
"Yes...yes you did. You rubbed over it when you threw your leg." I smiled. "Sorry."
We didn't say too much after that. What was I suppose to say, anyway? Oh, yeah, Nessie...I'm a total dick. I just jacked off to you in the bathroom, while I imagined you naked next to me. Yeah...that would go really well. She would probably pounce on me, letting me do just that. Shit! What the Hell am I going to do.
Thankfully, Bella came over later to cook up some breakfast. She had gotten into the routine of doing it for Nessie while I was gone. That was fine with me. Bella could cook her ass of anyway. From time to time, she would look over at me when Nessie was turned. I knew what her silent questions were, and I just shook my head. She understood. Nothing happened. What I should've told her was to talk to her daughter. Tell her to back off a little. Stop being so Damn sexy all the Damn time. Stop acting like an insatiable little Virgin. I chuckled at my own thoughts, gaining a frown from Bella. I just looked at her, shaking my head again. If she really knew her daughter. Huh.
When Bella left, Nessie and I were left to our quietness. The whole time that Bella was here, we never said a word to each other, she would just occasionally look at me and smile. I'm not sure what Bella thought about us, but I'm sure that I'll find out about it later. Hopefully, she'll speak to Nessie and not me. That would just be weird. Then again, if Nessie speaks her mind like I know her to do, that won't go very well either. Shit! We need to talk about that before we leave this house.
Nessie broke the silence by telling me that she was going to shower. I have to admit that it surprised the Hell out of me when she walked into my bedroom , opened a drawer, and pulled out underwear, and clothes out of my closet. She probably saw the dorky look I had. At first, it made me feel all mushy to think that she could actually be living here, then it gave me a major hard on. Thankfully, I was standing behind the sofa, where she couldn't see below my waist. Man! What's wrong with me. I'm the mature one in this relationship. I should be able to control my silly boyish hard ons. Maybe it would be better if I think of her as my little Nessie. That little girl that I left just weeks ago. Yes, it's helping. Good bye Mr. Hardon. Hello Mr. Dignity.
Nessie broke my stupid inner rambling. "What? I told you I was living here." I just looked at her and walked out the room. Shit! Just hearing her say that hardened me instantly. See, I'm not just a hard up asshole, but when I looked at her hands, and a pair of thongs were hanging from her finger, my mind went to her being naked, slipping those on. Shit! This is definitely going to be bad...really bad.
I walked into the kitchen, and splashed my face with cold water, then walked outside to get some fresh air. My phone rang while I was out there, and it was Seth, telling me about Legend. He was so happy. When we finished the conversation, I went in to find myself some clothes to wear today.
When I walked in the room, there was Nessie, butt naked, bending down right in front of me, picking up her panties. I gasped. I froze in my place, trying to decide if I should turn and run, or run up to her, and give her everything she's been asking me for. I did neither. I just stood there like a dorky fool with my eyes wide and my mouth open. She was startled by my presence and dropped her towel. Holy shit! I screamed in my head. To make matters worse, she took out running. She definitely couldn't imagine how incredibly sexy she looked bouncing away from me butt naked. I smiled widely at the vision before me, hoping she didn't turn around and catch me enjoying this.
When she got to the bathroom, she slammed the door, and locked it. I could literally hear her heart racing out her chest, and her breathing was labored. I hope she's not embarassed, or that she isn't completely beautiful naked. I took a deep breath and walked to the door, placing my face on the door.
"Ness, you alright? Ness...it's alright. You have a beautiful...um...body. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Ness, talk to me. I know I should've knocked first. I'm sorry."
I stood there for a while, begging her to say something to me, but she said nothing, so I just left to go into the living room, hoping that the absence of my presence would help her to calm down. "Shit!" I am really a dumb ass. I can officially dub myself 'Dumb Ass of the Century.'
About thirty minutes later, she finally came out. Immediately, my heart began racing. I'm not sure if it was because of what I just saw, or if I was afraid of how upset she would be once she finally spoke to me. I just sat there, very still, pointing my face toward the television.
I could hear her fumbling around in the kitchen, then she cleared her throat to get my attention. When I turned around, I immediately started apologizing.
"Ness, I'm really sorry. I would never...never do something like that on purpose. I..."
"Jake, look, why don't we just get this over with. If we plan on living here together, at least sometimes, we are bound to see things, so let's just get it over with so we don't ever have to feel like this again."
As soon as she finished speaking, she began unbuttoning her shirt. I took in a deep breath, held it, and my mouth fell open.
"Wait...what are you doing?" I just couldn't believe what she was doing. Was she trying to make me lose all of my resolve? I'm definitely not strong enough to stop this if she touches me. Oh, god, oh, god. My breathing quickly sped up, while I willed myself to calm the Hell down.
"I'm about to take all of my clothes off, and so are you, so next time this happens, I won't feel like I want to go jump in a bottomless abyss and let the monsters eat me alive."
I just couldn't believe what she was saying. She actually wants us to get naked on purpose, then do nothing. Huh, never happen. I began quickly shaking my head like an idiot. Shit! I couldn't possibly be looking sexy at all. Everything I'm doing makes me feel like a dweeb.
"Oh, yes you are." Oh, Hell no...did she just demand to me that I strip in front of her. If only she knew just what's on my mind this morning, she wouldn't be so pushy...wait...yes she would. She'd probably come over here and undress me herself.
She finished taking her clothes off...all of them. I guess she intended for it to not to be sensual – the way she undressed, but her every movement riddled perfection. She never gave thought to what she was doing, but still managed to look completely seductive. I'd love to see what she'd do if she meant to look seductive.
She immediately locked the front door and closed the curtains, then walked directly in front of the television, placing her hips on her hands. Shit! I should run, or turn my head, or something. This ain't right...right? Huh...
"Jake, take your clothes off. You only have to feel weird this one time. Every other time will be no big deal, trust me. This second time standing in front of you is much better than the first. Much better." Huh...weird is definitely not what I was thinking I felt like, but what ever. I agreed, but not after trying to convince her to back out of this. This will definitely end bad. I just sighed.
I took my clothes off as she asked, but left my boxers on. My dick was so hard that I was ashamed to show her what her nakedness did to me. I was suppose to be in better control than this. And now...I'm officially done. I am not going any further. This is far enough. Before I could lean down to pick up my clothes, Nessie broke my reverie.
"Come on Jake, throw your modesty out the door with the trash, because I know Damn well that you don't have anything to be embarrassed about. Take 'em off."
Shit! I just stood there, not wanting to look like a little pansie, afraid to let a girl see me naked, but knowing that that was exactly what I needed to do. Eventually, I did as she asked. What the Hell...I tried to warn her. I pulled my boxers down, and placed both my hands over my...um...dick. She actually stood there like she was waiting for me to move my hands..what the? I blushed at that very moment.
She began taking steps toward me to remove my hands.
"Nessie, stop. I mean it. Stop!"
"What ever, Jake, remove your hand then." What is wrong with this girl? Don't she already see what's going on with me. Don't she understand that I'm trying to do the right thing here? Or does she not care? Frankly, I was tired of her games, so I showed her to get her to drop the issue. I did like she did, placing my hands on my hips.
When she looked down at it, she seemed genuinely surprised. I knew that she had never seen one live and in color, but her expression was so colored that I was almost embarrassed. I didn't know if she thought it should've been larger or smaller. Well, there went my ego. Exit stage right. Shit! I hate this! Then, to make matters worse, she giggled. I immediately covered up again.
"No, Jake, I'm not laughing at you, I was laughing at this situation. We are standing here butt bone naked, and facing each other just to get rid of any quips that my come up later. You have to admit that it's funny." Huh, this was anything but funny, but I kept that shit to myself.
"Yes, I guess so...so what do we do now?"
"Can I touch you?"
"Nessie...I don't know. It could get real serious, way too quick."
"But Jake, remember, awkwardness, just do it once, and if you brush up against me later, it won't be so bad." Alright, you know what...if I didn't know better, I would think that she's trying to seduce me. I think she knows exactly what she'd doing. The little vixen.
She stopped right in front of me and paused. Inside, I rejoiced. I just knew that she was having second thoughts about this whole thing, and I could put my clothes back on. Huh...that thought lasted only a moment.
"Jake, we'll just hug, I guess. That should be easy enough."
Shit! This is really going to happen! Feet! Where are you! Move! Now! Shit! What's wrong with me? Oh, my god...Oh, my...Woahhhh...when she touched me, my body warmed instantly, and my Dick hardened harder...if that was even possible.
All I could think about was the warmth of her body against me, her sweet, lilac smell, and the feeling of her warm breath against my chest. I tried to calm my reaction by listening to her heartbeat, but hers had become so eratic that that didn't help either. Oh, Shit! I want her more than I've ever wanted anything in my life. And, here she is, willing, ready.
Out of nowhere, another smell hit my nose. Arousal...Shit! Her arousal. My nose twitched, savoring the smell, committing it to memory.
I coudn't take it anymore. I wrapped my arms around her, grazing every part of her from her shoulders to her waist, and around her back to her Ass.
When she looked up at me with those emerald green eyes, there was no question as to what she wanted. It was the same thing I wanted right now...more...I leaned in to kiss her. Sirens were going off loudly in my head telling me not to do it. Not to take it there, but I was way past reason at this point. Instead, I pulled her closer, tighter. The kiss was so much more than I've ever experienced. It woke up feelings in me that I've never felt before, let alone wanted to act on. I hardened at the thought of possibly doing this.
What she did next, floored me. She jumped into may arms, straddling my hips, fiercely kissing me. To make things worse, he repositioned herself right above the head of my dick. I could feel her wetness seeping onto me. My breathing was erratic, and it took everything I had not to push forward. To help with my resolve, I placed my hands under her ass, and firmly held her there.
As if all of this wasn't enough, she began twirling her ass around, causing her wet Pussy to move across my head. Shit! It felt so good. Her pussy was so warm and wet, and so inviting, but I held my position with her, not letting her drop down any further. Her small movements on top of me seemed great in comparison to what she was actually doing.
I broke the kiss and began giving her open mouth kisses along her jawline, her earlobe and her neck. It seemed to light a brighter fire within her. She began moaning and calling my name. Not the way that she usually says Jake, but breathy, needy, sexy. It was like she was begging for more of what ever I was willing to give to her. I stuck my tongue in her ear, and everything changed. Her squirming became erratic above the head of my dick, and her whole body began tightening. She looked so Damn sexy, allowing herself to be so free with me like this. She will definitely be a hand full when we do finally make love.
Her moans became louder, and her cries echoed across the cottage. I was so Damn turned on listening to her. I probably moaned with her. The feeling at the tip of my dick was overwhelming. When she tightened again, her body started bucking around me. I knew what was happening. My little vixen was having an orgasm. Shit! Look at this!
"That's right, Renesmee...come for me...give it all to me, baby."
Her movements quickened at my words, and I lost grip of her, causing the head of my dick to enter her. Shit! My eyes bucked open. The warmth that I felt with that little movement made me want to keep pushing, to feel more. I wanted more...much more. Fuck! Jacob, pull it together...You stupid Mutherfucker. I pulled out of her and placed her back on her feet.
She actually looked disappointed that I did that. She couldn't actually think that I would have sex with her like this? Could she? No matter. It's over now.
I stood there with my eyes closed, willing my body to calm down. But how could I? He smell of her lust was overwhelming. It made me want to touch her there, and smooth her all over my fingers, even to taste it. I wonder if she tastes as good as she smells. Shit! Shut that Shit up! I can't do that.
"Jake..."
"Yes, baby...Do you want to know what just happened?" She nodded. "Ness, you just had an orgasm. Do you know what that is?"
"Jake...of course I do." She whined, then blushed.
"Well, how do you feel? I mean...are you alright with what just happened?"
"Of course. Jake, I want to give you everything I have. I want you comfortable with me, loving me as freely as you wish." I took her back to the bed.
"Ness, how are we going to make it another day, rather than another year or two. That was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. I want you so bad that my body aches, denying myself. And your smell...shit, girl, it was driving me crazy. I just wanted to touch it with my hands, my mouth, my face. But Ness, I didn't mean to enter you. You were so close, and when your orgasm came down, you slipped from my hands. I'm so sorry about that. But, I didn't fully enter you, so I didn't break your hymen. I'm so sorry, baby. I shouldn't have had you so close like that."
We talked for a while about what just happened, and how we should handle this in the future. Well, I did. She just looked a little pissed at my blatant denial of sex right now.
"Fine, Jake," she said and walked toward the bathroom. "Oh, Jake, just know that I, as of this moment, do not sleep with clothes anymore, nor do I shower alone." She left the room and I heard the shower start. "I'm entering the shower Jacob. Don't keep me waiting."
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