"All secrets are deep. All secrets become dark. That's in the nature of secrets."

-Cory Doctorow

"Are you sure you have to go?" Damon moaned against my neck as I leaned against his car outside my school.

"Yes." I giggled while giving him one last brief kiss then pushing him away. "Today is important." Damon and I had gone out for breakfast and he was now dropping me off for my class.

"Are you sure you don't need me to pick you up?" He said as we finally put distance between each other. I hated it, but if I ever wanted to actually make it to class it had to be done.

"No, it will be fine. I'm going out with some friends afterward."

"Okay." He said while nodding. "So are you coming to the party at my place tomorrow?"

"Party?" He never informed me about a party...

"Yea, I thought I told you." He said looking confused. "But anyway, it's at nine."

"I'll be there. I might be a little late though because I promised I would have dinner with my aunt."

"Don't take too long. I don't know if I can wait so long to see you." He said while pulling me back into his arms once again.

"I seriously have to get to class." I mumbled against his lips and this time when he moved away he went over to his side of the car and stood by the door waiting to get in. "So what exactly are you doing today?" I said while looking for a pen in my purse.

"I'm taking your advice and going to see an ex-girlfriend." He said nonchalantly.

"What?" How am I just hearing about this now?

"Stop with that face. You have nothing to worry about."

"What face?" He took me off guard again. Were my emotions seriously that obvious or was it just him?

"Your upset face."

"How do you know my upset face? We haven't been dating long enough for you to know it."

"Well too bad, I already know it." He said while a smirk. "Now, didn't you say you had to get to class." I was shocked back into reality and glanced at my phone. I was going to be late.

"Oh no! Bye Damon!" I said while practically running into the building and waving behind my shoulder at him.

After class Bonnie and I went to the Grill to meet up with Caroline. She didn't have class today but when she walked through the doors of the Grill with the most giant smile on her face I knew she was going to be a chatter box. I was a little nervous at first thinking about what she had all heard the other night.

"You guys wont ever believe what happened." She said while rushing to our table and sitting down.

"What happened?" I said with the most fake enthusiastic voice ever. Bonnie gave me a knowing glance but acted interested as well.

"Okay, so after the other night when Damon was talking to you, I thought for sure he was just giving you a loud bullshit but then-"

"Wait what?" Bonnie interrupted her and we both realized we never told her the story. Before I had time to stop Caroline, she started already.

"Oh, remember that cheating boyfriend of mine? Elena was pretending to date him and we were going to get back at him by breaking his heart."

"What!" The way Bonnie looked at me made me feel like I was a little kid again. I never felt so guilty. "That is horrible. Caroline...Elena, you guys are so much better than that. You are just going to his level." She was obviously disgusted with the whole thing.

"I know Bonnie! That is why we are ending this before anything bad can happened. I already feel guilty enough." I watched her take a deep breath and then clam down a little bit.

"That is more like the friends I know." She ate a french fry and shook her head then suddenly confused. "What does this have anything to do with your news?" She said while looking at Caroline. "And what were you saying about the other night?"

"Well I overheard Damon and Elena talking. It was about me and some of his other girlfriends and he said he felt really guilty for all that he as done. He even mentioned me again and said he would have taken it back. The whole time I was listening I just wanted to barge over to him and scream liar in his face but then today... Today he showed up at my house as I was getting ready." Caroline said while I nearly choked to death after drinking my water. He went to go see her?

"What happened?" I said in a whisper and Bonnie gave me a suspicious look.

"Well I invited him in and I was really hesitant at first but then... he apologized! He told me all the secrets he kept from me and that he was generally sorry. And guess what? I actually believe him." In the back of my mind I was praying she didn't do some confessing of her own. I only noticed now how weird it was for him not to be texting me at all. Usually when we aren't near each other for an hour we have to be constantly on the phone somehow communicating.

"Oh." Was all I could manage. I felt Bonnie's hand grab mine under the table. I swear sometimes she could read my mind while Caroline was oblivious.

"Yea so I need you to break things off with him tonight." I wasn't expecting that I immediately straightened out. So she didn't tell him? I was relieved until suddenly what she was asking sunk in. I don't think I could do it.

"Why would she have to do that?" Bonnie asked in a carefree way but I knew she was silently sticking up for me.

"Because I am going to try to work things out with him and it would be complicated if he was still with her. There is a party at the boarding house tomorrow and I'm going to just go up to him a kiss him." I think my heart nearly stopped. "Then I'm going to tell him that I forgive him and we could work things out."

"Caroline what makes you think he wants to work things out?" I managed to get out.

"Oh please. It was so clear when he was talking about me to you that he still loves me. You are just oblivious sometimes Elena." She said while rolling her eyes. It felt like the air was starting to get thicker as the racing thoughts weren't slowing down in my head. Had I been oblivious this whole times? Was I just a girl to him? Was I even special to him? I thought I was... different. "Elena are you okay? It looks like your head is about to explode."

"What? I'm just..." Panicking. "Did they put mushrooms in this?" I said while pointing to my pasta. They both knew I was allergic to mushrooms. "They definitely put mushrooms in there. I specifically asked for no mushrooms." I knew there was no mushrooms in the pasta, I just needed an excuse.

"Lets go outside and gets some air." Bonnie said.

"I'm going to talk to the manager and give them a piece of my mind..." Caroline rushed over to the waiter as Bonnie took me outside.

"Elena are you okay? I know there were no mushrooms..." I slid down against the brick wall on the side of the Grill.

"I'm the worst friend ever!" I said while breaking down into tears. I couldn't do it. I couldn't break up with Damon. "I can't... I can't do it Bonnie." She slid down next to me and wrapped her arms around me. "I know. And I don't understand how Caroline doesn't see how much you like him."

"You could tell?" I said slightly mortified. "I didn't know it was so apparent."

"Elena you know what you have to do though, right?" I knew what was right but it has never felt so wrong before.

"I don't know how I could." I mumbled out.

"Elena you have to break things off. You got in over you head. If you don't end it, a lot of people are going to get hurt."

"I know, Bonnie! I know! I get it! You think I haven't realized that?"

"Elena, you are going to have to take this very selfish thing you have done and be very selfless to fix it. And maybe one day all the pieces will just fall in place. But you are lying. You aren't a liar. I can see how much you have fallen for him and if you actually want this to work, you have to either tell him the truth with no lies or you have to let him go." Let him go... Could I do that? Could I let this relationship I thought I was faking go? I didn't have a choice. I had to say goodbye.

"There were no mushrooms in your pasta but I complained about food poisoning. They gave us a free meal. Are you feeling any better?" She crushed down next to us. Caroline tried and I was never going to deny that she had her times of being a great friend. I knew I had to break things off for her. Whether I agreed that Damon wants her back or not.

"I just needed some air." I said while standing up as Bonnie and Caroline followed, looking at me with uneasy glances. "I'll talk to Damon for you Caroline."

"Elena it can wait if you aren't feeling good."

"It's fine Caroline. The sooner the better. If you guys don't mind though, I need to go home. I'll call Damon in the morning." I pushed past them in a more cold way then I had intended but I couldn't manage to care. Tomorrow I was going to destroy everything.

AN: Okay I have the next three chapter mapped out. I know it is short but I can promise that I will update before the weekend. I'm way too excited not to. Lets just say A LOT of stuff is about to go down:)

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