"And yet to every bad there's a worse."

Thomas Hardy

The moment I walked into the party a wave of unease came over me. It was almost like a sixth sense that something was going to go wrong. I felt suffocating. I couldn't place the feeling but it is the same way I felt after I hung up the phone the night I called my parents to pick me up before we went crashing off the bridge. If I didn't know better, I should trust that feeling and get the hell out of there. I couldn't do that thought because I had obligations and I had to make sure if any facts came out of someone's mouth but my own I had to be there before things escalated. I had to keep my guard up for the night but I also needed to get Caroline's words out of my head. I was seriously considering either being completely sober and cling to Damon for the night or get seriously shitfaced and if anything bad happened then that is just how fate worked. But lets face it, I'm not the throw all to the wind girl anymore.

I was pushing past people through the house, looking for a little bit of a space where I could at least not have to put on a fake smile and talk to someone. I then found an empty couch and flopped down on it as I watched the people around me. I didn't even notice Damon sit beside me till his arm wrapped around my shoulder.

"Hey." I said hesitantly. I turned to look at him and saw something wasn't right. He was tense and seemed miles away. "What happened?"

"Nothing." He muttered and I knew by his tone he didn't want me to bring it up again but just the look on his face showed something happened. I couldn't sit around and not do something about it.

"Okay." I dropped it for the moment but I planned on bringing it up again. "Can I-" I couldn't even finish my sentence before I felt his lips come crashing down on mine. I was completely taken off guard and didn't have time to react before he pulled away and glared at me. I gave him a confused look but before I could say anything he kissed me again, trying to force the passion into it made it more aggressive and I wasn't having it. One, we were in the middle of a crowded living room and I so wasn't going to be the girl that you see making out hardcore in the middle of a party and two, this kiss was fueled by something not even close to desire. It was forced from both ends and when I pushed him away I saw a look of frustration. "Damon, what is going on?"

"What? I can't kiss my girlfriend?" He said and before he could lean in again my hands flew up to his chest.

"Not like that. You can't use me as a distraction. It doesn't work that way."

"Then what is it supposed to be like Elena? Not everything has to follow rules. There are no rules that have to be set." He suddenly stood up from the couch and ran a hand through his hair. "Not everything has to be the way things are set up to be." I had a feeling he wasn't even talking about the forced kiss but something completely different. "I mean, we can change how things are, right?" He took a deep breath when his eyes landed on me again. "I'm not bound to my same old patterns and routines, am I? Things can change."

"Where is this coming from?" I asked while standing up and grabbing his hands.

"I just need some air." He pushed away from me and was suddenly swerving through people and I couldn't see him anymore. I was about to go after him and then stopped when I spotted Caroline in the corner of the room staring at me. I quickly looked away feeling awkward but when I glanced back she suddenly disappeared.

I sat on the same couch for what felt like hours as I sipped the drink Stefan brought over to me around ten minutes ago. I couldn't help but wonder where Damon went and what the hell happened to make him so sketchy. When I got here everything was perfectly fine. I knew something was going to be wrong tonight. But the sick feeling that there was more didn't go away.

"Stefan!" I called across the room and when he spotted me I waved him over.

"Need another drink?" I shook my head and then pulled him down onto the couch next to me.

"What is with your brother?" I felt him tense up beside me and then a frown appeared on his face. "And what is with you?" I watched as his mouth opened to answer but no words were coming out.

"Did Damon... did her ever mention Katherine." What? Where did she come from?

"Is she here? Where is she?" I started looking around the house even thought I had no idea what she looked like.

"I take it he did mention her. Katherine showed up tonight. I saw them fighting and I'm pretty sure he made her leave." So that was why he was so... off.

"Oh my god. Is he going to be okay? Should I go find him? Are you okay?"

"Slow down, Elena." He gave a little laugh and I frowned. "I'm fine, I'm so over her and I thought Damon was too. I don't understand why he is so upset. Maybe she said something to him."

"I should go find him." I stood up from the couch and started looking around. "Do you have any idea where he went?"

"Actually..." I saw some sort of reluctance in him as he knew the answer.

"Spit it out."

"I think I saw him head upstairs with this girl named Caroline. You may have seen her around she is the bubbly blonde."

"Stefan there is like fifty bubbly blondes here." I mumbled as I walked away. It's not like I needed a better description. No, Damon couldn't be with here. Stefan was just seeing things. I walked around the room and glanced out on the porch but I didn't see anyone.

"Elijah!" I called one of Damon's friends I have met before I saw him standing by the stairs and rushed over to him. "Have you seen Damon anywhere?"

"Yea, he just went up a few minutes ago."

"Was he with anyone?"

"Yep." He said and then took a sip from his beer. I didn't need to ask anymore questions as I ran up the stairs. When I got to the top it was almost dead quiet except from the background noise coming from downstairs. I looked around and went down a hallway that I knew led to Damon's room. When I heard talking I tiptoed over to a cracked door. I peered through the slit and could see Caroline and Damon. It looked like they were fighting. I got a little closer, trying to see if I could hear them.

"Come on, Damon. I know you missed me."

"Tonight is really not the night for this Caroline." Damon said and it looked like he just wanted to get out of there. I sighed, thinking maybe all those worrying thoughts were for nothing. He did promise that he wouldn't cheat on me.

"Why don't you show me how much you missed me." I almost puked when Caroline started putting the moves on him and Damon didn't even move. He just stood there perfectly still as he let her hands roam all over his chest.

"Caroline." He said while grabbing a hold of her hand. At first I thought he was stopping her, but the look on her face showed she saw it as an opportunity and quickly kissed him. My jaw almost hit the floor and I felt all sorts of betrayal from her. I knew she was going to do it, but I just thought maybe...

I thought for sure Damon would push her away but I didn't realize how it was taking him a while. It was like he was frozen solid and had indecision written all over him. Why wasn't he moving? Why wasn't he telling her off? What the hell? He suddenly started kissing her back and backing her up against the wall and that's when I suddenly felt my feet running away. It didn't even hit me exactly what happened but apparently my body was functioning better then my brain as it made a get away.

I can't believe they did that. I can't believe I believed Damon! I never felt such a stab to my heart and such a suffocating pain before. It didn't even compare to Matt's betrayal. How could this happened? I rushed down the stairs and spotted Elijah. Without thinking I walked right up to him and grabbed his beer while walking away. I started chugging it while making my way through the people. I wasn't going to let Damon walk all over me. I wasn't going to appear to be the stupid girl that I felt like right now. Damon was going to get a taste of his own medicine tonight. And I was going to make sure it hurt.

AN: I lost my motivation for writing and I'm trying to get it back. I hope you liked this chapter and next will be full of drama as well. Any guesses of what is going to happen?

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