Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.

Kahlil Gibran

Today was filled with an eerie sense of disaster and for some reason I've been on my toes. It was just in my gut that something awful was going to happen. I was walking up and down the grocery store isles and wasn't paying much attention when I came across the last person I had wanted to see on this day that was sure to turn into a catastrophe. Caroline was walking towards me, completely oblivious. I wasn't truly shocked until Stefan Salvatore turned the corner and walked right besides her. If I didn't know better I'd say they were here together. Since when did this happen?

I did the rational thing and quickly hid behind the cardboard advertisement at the end of the isle as I spied on them. I had to blink a couple times to see if what I was seeing was real life when their hands somehow were suddenly connected as they shopped. Holding hands? Grocery shopping? Talk about confusing and strange events.

I tried to slow down my breathing as they walked right past me and when I thought I was in the clear, I scooted away from the cut out and went back to shopping.

"Elena?" I turned around to see Caroline standing in front of the soups which she apparently forgot about.

"Hi." I said timidly as I pushed my hair behind my ear and thought of anywhere I'd rather be.

"Umm... how are you?" Caroline asked and I was almost taken back. I thought for sure we were about to have a cat fight in the middle of the store. But that didn't seem the case as she seemed almost...awkward in the situation. I'm so used to seeing Caroline so confident in anything she does, it was strange.

"Hanging in there. How about y-" My words were cut short as Stefan came up behind Caroline, reading something off the box he has in his hand as he was completely oblivious. "Stefan." I stated and his eyes lifted up towards me as shock flashed over his features.

"We- ah." Caroline stuttered looking in between us. "I was thinking about eating healthier so I asked Stefan to help me. He knows a thing or two. I mean you don't get his kind of muscles while eating chips." She tried a forced laugh and I couldn't help but smile slightly.

"I didn't know you guys were friends."

"We always knew of each other we just started hanging out." There was a long pause between the three of us and I was dying to break it and before I knew it words were slipping out.

"I'm sorry." Surprising it wasn't just me who said it but Caroline as well. I didn't even realize we were both laughing till Stefan slipped away.

"Elena listen, I'm so so so sorry for everything I did. I wasn't in the right mind frame and should have never asked you to do what I did. This is all my fault."

"I should have never agreed. This is just as much mine as it is yours."

"I know but I've done such horrible things. I knew you were falling for Damon but all I could think about was me me me." I was used to Caroline by now. I've known her all my life and I knew when she was sincerely sorry and I knew when she was still holding a grudge. For a moment I thought of all the fights we had in high school and how we always said we were done with each other only to end up laughing and being best friends again a hour later. And somehow it was just like that. Even when the pain was deeper and the past would always linger, I knew for a fact that she will always be one of my best friends.

"Caroline, please don't. Damon is... Damon and I had a falling out. Our friendship is a lot more important. I'm sorry I forgot that for a second." Tears started to form in her eyes and before I knew it she was wrapping her arms around me in a death grip.

"I can't believe we let that guy get the best of us." She said into my shoulder and I had to hold back my emotions from getting to me.

"So you and Stefan?" I asked as we pulled away.

"We are just friends... for now." She gave a typical Caroline smirk and I knew that just maybe we could be the same again. That maybe all of this drama wouldn't affect us the way I was so sure it would.

"I didn't see that one coming. Does he even know about you and Damon?"

"Yea, I told him everything. I mean everything." She made a point to emphasize it and I tried not to show my aggravation. I didn't need another person close to Damon knowing about this. I wasn't scared that he would find out, it was inevitable. I was scared that I might ruin his relationship with his best friend and now his brother. If their relationship wasn't already fucked up enough.

"What did he say?"

"That it made sense. He told me about what happened at the party. I can't believe I caused that much trouble."

"Caroline it is in the past. We are starting over. Lets just try not to bring it up again." I didn't get to say much more before Stefan appeared again. I quickly said my goodbyes before Stefan could cause anymore guilt in me. I couldn't even look at his brother how am I going to be able to tell Damon? I had to do that. I had to tell him the truth before he found out somewhere else. And I was completely aware what would happen. He would be so mad and I probably will never see him again. But I care too much about him and if this could right at least one of my wrongs than I had to do it.

The whole way home all I could think was how he would react. Would he curse me out? Would he leave silently with a look of betrayal? Will he do something to cause me pain? All these conclusions were just leading to one thing; my heart being broken.

It was getting late in the evening and I sat in front of the TV, eating left over Chinese food when I heard my phone ring. I immediately decided to ignore it but it wouldn't stop ringing so I was forced to get up and grab it off the kitchen counter. I felt my heart speed up a little when I saw five missed calls from Bonnie. Oh no, what if something happened? I didn't even think before I clicked the call button.

"Please be okay."

"Elena?" Bonnie finally answered and she was sobbing.

"Bonnie! What's wrong? Are you okay? What is going on?" My worry only intensified as she kept bawling into the phone.

"I'm so sorry Elena! I didn't know! I'm so sorry!"

"What is going on?" I was beyond the point of concern as she repeatedly apologized. My head kept going through all the possibilities and none of them were good.

"I didn't- I didn't know the guy from the bar... I didn't know he was the guy you..." She couldn't finish her sentences and I knew that whatever she did wasn't good.

"Bonnie..." I said hesitantly. "What did you do?" I couldn't hear her answer before the loud banging on my door interrupted her. The loud pounding didn't let up and I knew exactly who it was. I didn't even put the phone down as I inched my way over to the door and the bangs got louder and more urgent. It felt like it took a hour to open the door but I was able to do it and once it was creaked just a little bit I felt the force of him push the door all the way open and bust in.

"Tell me it's not true!" Damon screamed at me when he finally got in. "Tell me it is all a lie!"

"Damon..." Was all I could squeak out as the panic rushed up my throat and started to suffocate me. "I can't."

"You conniving little bitch." I flinched at the harshness of his words but in reality I deserved so much worse. "You were supposed to be different!"

"I'm so sorry! I didn't mean for this to happen!" My vision became blurry as the pain in my chest began to grow.

"This is exactly what you wanted! You planed for this exact moment!" He spat out and it only hurt worse that he didn't realize that last thing I wanted was this. He took a deep breath and gave me the most betrayed look. "Congratulations Elena, you did the impossible."

"No, you don't understand! I couldn't go through with it. I didn't want to."

"It doesn't even matter now." He suddenly got calm and it made me even more on edge than I was before. "You are irrelevant. You are nothing to me. Nothing!" He turned back to my door and when I saw he was about to leave I quickly clung to his jacket.

"Please let me explain! Don't leave like this!" He got out of my grip and just glared at me with that horrible look of betrayal I have been dreading.

"I hope you are miserable. Then maybe you would know just inkling of how I feel!"

"Don't leave." I begged as he was half way out the door. "Please!" I yelled but it didn't matter as he walked down the stairs on my porch. "Damon!" I screamed again not caring that I was causing a scene. "Come back! Please just give me a chance to talk to you!" He went on, not even looking back until he got to his car. With one last glance in my direction I saw the complete agony coming from him as he drove off. The retched feeling in my chest began to rip me apart with thoughts of my earlier prediction coming true. The desperation, bitterness and despair hit me all at once as I slid down the floor on my porch and let the titlewave of my emotions hit me with full force.

AN: I am so so so sorry for my lack of updating! I'm horrible, I know! I had such difficult time trying to find the effort to sit down and write this. I have no idea how it got to be such a long period of time. I usually always update at least once a week and that even usually bothers me.

Next chapter will explain a few things like how exactly Damon found out. I'm thinking I only have around 2 chapter left.

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