A/N: Sorry it took me so long to post this! I had a bit of writer's block. Although, I have discovered the wonderful world of making fan videos :-) I made one for Fenris and one for Anders. I can't post the link here but if you go to YT and type in my user name "vampyerba" in the search you can find them on my page. Anyways, there's only about 4 more chapters to go until the sequel, enjoy!

Anders lunged forward and grabbed onto Fenris, pinning him against the wall. He raised his fist, getting ready to punch him, but Fenris ducked out of the way. It was as if Anders even forgot about his magic, he was so infuriated he just wanted to pummel Fenris right in the face. He took another swing, and Fenris caught the punch into his own hand and clasped down on it.

"Stop fighting you two! Let's just talk about this...please, Anders!"

"Calm yourself, mage! I do not wish to hurt you for the sake of Hawke's feelings."

"Don't speak to me of your feelings for Hawke!" He shouted, ripping his hand away, and shoved Fenris into the wall a second time.

"Very well, mage! I will enjoy this!" Fenris yelled back and with that his fist met Anders' face, immediately leaving a black eye. Anders grabbed onto him, and they were both on the ground throwing punches at each other in the pouring rain.

"That's enough!" I screamed. I cast a paralysis glyph on them both, and separated them. They stayed frozen in place for about fifteen seconds, which was seemingly enough time for them to cool down. Finally the glyph wore off, and Anders could do nothing but stare at me with disbelief.

"How could you?" He spoke barely above a whisper, and I felt the tears well up in my eyes again. He reached into his shirt and yanked off the Tevinter Chantry amulet I gave to him as a gift, and threw it at my feet. He stormed away in the pouring rain. I leaned over to pick it up. Seeing it laying there, the chain broken, I lost my strength and fell to my knees, head hanging in defeat as the tears poured out of me. Fenris quickly was at my side, and he reached over to help me up.

"No, leave me." I sobbed.

"Hawke, please let me walk you home. You're soaked."

I grabbed the amulet and let him pull me to my feet.

"I need to find Anders. Please try to understand."

Fenris looked down. "You truly love him, don't you?"

"I do. I loved you once as well, and...I always will, Fenris. But Isabela - she was my best friend. That is the worst way you could have hurt me. And Anders...he is a good man, and has treated me in ways I had dreamed of before meeting him."

"Then you must go to him, Hawke." He said, and I could hear how it pained his voice to do so. He looked at me with sad eyes, and stroked my cheek gently.

"Go now. I will be fine." I looked at Fenris one last time, before I ran to the direction of my mansion.

It was dark and had stopped raining when I finally turned in for the night. When I got home, Anders was nowhere to be found. I went back into the rain to search high and low for him. I searched his clinic, then the Hanged Man, and then went back to his clinic and waited for him there for several hours. I eventually gave up, and traipsed back home. I was freezing cold, and my robes clung to my aching body. I prepared a hot bath and then sunk into it.

I sat there thinking about what I had done, and the reality of it set in. Everything Anders feared for the past three years came true. All the times I told him he had nothing to worry about, every time I said I only cared for Fenris as a friend, it ended up being one big lie. I didn't realise it until then. Yes, I still harbored feelings for Fenris. If he hadn't left me, I would have probably still been with him. But the fact of the matter was that he did leave, and refused to talk about it until now; three years later, when I had already devoted myself to Anders. Even though Anders and I were having trouble, it didn't mean I loved him any less. He was there for me when I needed him the most, and now that I betrayed him, I felt like utter garbage.

I dragged myself to bed, my eyes swollen and red from crying. I had no idea where he was, and I only wanted to know that he was safe. My heart absolutely ached for him.

Three days passed, and still there was no sight nor sound from Anders. Three agonizing whole days. I barely ate a thing or slept, and had Varric and Aveline on the lookout. I spent the hours wandering around the city. By the time I reached Hightown, I felt like I lost a never ending battle. I feared that Anders was gone for good, and that he was never coming back.

I walked up to my front steps, and there waiting by the door was Fenris. He saw me, and nodded casually as I approached.

"Are you alright?" he asked me, noticing the dead-like state I was in.

"I'll survive. You know me, nothing keeps me down for long." I tried to crack a smile, and Fenris cast his glance downwards.

"I came here to tell you something important Hawke."

"What is it?"

"I have accepted Sebastian's offer. I leave for Starkhaven in about six weeks." It felt like my heart dropped into my feet.

"Oh..."

"There is nothing left for me here. Danarius is dead. And you..." He looked up into my eyes now. "You will be fine. Sebastian has offered me the opportunity of a lifetime. I can finally be something more than an escaped former slave."

"You've always been more than an escaped former slave, Fenris."

"Possibly to you, but not to myself." I thought that over the past three days I cried out everything left in me, but I could feel the lump in my throat form again. I turned my back to him, not wanting him to see me. He reached out for my arm.

"Hawke..."

I faced him, and he looked entirely concerned. "Fenris, it's fine. I'm happy for you. You will do so much good out there. I only hope that you won't forget to write." I said, remembering how Isabela never did.

"You've taught me well. Of course I will. I promise." I wiped my eyes, feeling a few tears escape.

"This is silly. Why am I crying over something that never really was?" I tried to laugh but it came out more like a sob.

"Because it was real. Marian," he said my name tenderly; he only used my first name a few times before. "What we had together that night, I will never forget it. You made me realise that someone could care about me - that I could be looked at as more than someone's property. I will always owe my life to you Hawke. Don't forget that."

He looked me straight in the eyes and pulled me into a hug. It was so very unlike Fenris, and I knew this was his way of saying goodbye. It wasn't the last time I would be seeing him, he was leaving in close to two months, but this was how he wanted to do it. It was a beautiful goodbye.

At sunset, I was feeling more restless than I was the past three days. It felt as if I was being punished for something I had done terribly wrong. The two most important people in my life were leaving, and there was this ugly emptiness that grew inside of me.

I stepped out onto my balcony, watching the sun go down. The sky cast a beautiful pink and orange hue across the city. I sighed. Anders loved sunsets. He and I used to come out to the balcony, and we would watch it go down. It was always a special moment between us, and it had been a long time since we experienced it together.

I felt as if he were there with me. I could almost smell the sandalwood on his clothes, his very essence, when those familiar arms suddenly wrapped around my waist and pulled me against his body. I wasn't imagining it. It was him - my love had returned to me. I spun myself around to see his loving eyes staring into mine, and I threw my arms around his neck tightly.

"Anders!" I yelled and he held me tightly.

"I'm here, love. I'm here."

"I was so worried." I said, as I cupped his cheeks and stared into his honey eyes. "Where did you go? I looked everywhere for you."

"I knew you would. I stayed with Lirene and her husband. You remember her, don't you?" Of course I did. She was the one who told me of Anders in the first place. I simply nodded.

"I needed some time and some space to think about things. Hawke, seeing Fenris kiss you...seeing you return it, you cannot begin to imagine how much it hurt."

"I know, and I'm so sorry."

"No, let me finish. You cannot begin to imagine how much it hurt for me to realise that I was the one who lead you to him. I have been neglecting you for months, and I am the one who failed us."

"No, Anders. That is no excuse for what I did. I will not let you take the blame for this." I was overwhelmed. I thought I lost him forever, and again, he managed to surprise me.

He gently turned my body so I was facing the sunset again, and Anders embraced me from behind. His face nuzzled into my neck, and I could feel his warm breath on my skin.

"I know you do not understand why I have been so distant, why I have been so consumed. But, I am doing it for us. Just look at everyone down there, Marian. Look at Kirkwall. This has been our home for nearly a decade." I watched as the sun sank, and people walked home, some arm in arm,

"I am fighting for a world where our children can be born mages and free. Ten years, a hundred years from now, someone like me will love someone like you, and there will be no templars to tear them apart."

"That's what I am fighting for too, Anders."

I felt him pull away from me, and the loss of his sensation instantly made me crave more.

"Marian, turn around, love," he said so quietly, it was almost a whisper. I turned, and could not believe the sight before me.

Anders was on one knee, with a ring in hand. One even more beautiful than the one he gave me on my birthday.

"Anders..."

"I saved up nearly a year so I could buy this for you. I've had it on me for months." I looked down into his beautiful eyes and I felt tears pool into mine.

"No, no I don't deserve this," I started to weep. He took my hand in his, still on one knee.

"I cannot give you a normal life, but what I can give you is my love. I know the Chantry will not recognise us as man and wife because of our abilities, but if you say yes, Marian, I will honour and cherish you until the day I die."

"Yes...a million times yes!" I said, tears running down my face, embracing him in a kiss. I fell down on the balcony floor with him, my hands in his hair. Our foreheads touched, and we both began breathing heavily, letting tears overwhelm us.

"I was so afraid you were gone forever."

"No, love. I could never leave. But please, never put me through that again. This heart of mine couldn't take it."

"Never. I am yours, and only yours." He grasped my hand with his, and slid the ring down my ring finger. It was a perfect fit, because he knew me so well. It had a gold band, and sitting on the top of it was a diamond shaped blue gem. The gold with the blue complimented each other and the brilliant blue gem seemed to shine as the setting sunlight hit it. Although it was simple, it was the most beautiful ring I had ever seen.

"It's perfect." I said, and his lips found mine once again.

"Do you still have the amulet? I'd like it back, if that's okay."

"Of course. It's in the room."

We stayed out on the balcony until the sun had long set and it became chilly outside. We spent the night sitting by the fire, planning out a ceremony. I could not have been happier.

Don't hate me Fenris fans...he's not disappearing! Remember...sequel, and in that sequel he has a much larger role than he did in this story :)