Disclaimer: I only own Evie.

A/N: A big thank you to everyone who has read and reviewed, you guys are the absolute best! Okay, so I was thinking about doing a prequel to this story, not too long, maybe about five or six chapters long. Are you guys up for reading it if I do it? Let me know what you think. Enough babbling, go and read. Enjoy & review!

Three days later, Evie was sitting in Matt's living room. Because of all the work they do all year round, they never had too much time to sit back and relax. Now that she had a little bit of time of left, she headed to her friend's house.

"Earth to Evie." Matt said, waving his hand in front of her face. She had spaced out again and he was looking to grab her attention. "Are you there? The lights are on, but I'm not too sure if you're home?"

She snapped out of her daze when she finally realized that Matt was trying to catch her attention. Shaking her head of her thoughts, she looked at her friend. A weak smile graced her lips when she met his worried eyes.

"Sorry, Matt." Evie apologized. "A lot has been on my mind lately."

He nodded his head in understanding. Whenever she had spaced out like that, he knew what she was thinking about. Ever since she started out in the business, her mind had always been on Ted. Then, slowly, that all changed when she started seeing John. Now, everything was all about John. But, after that day at her house a few weeks back, he knew there was something going on. Matt's bets were that she was confused. Her heart was on both sides of the spectrum and she didn't know on which side to go.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

Matt watched as she looked up towards the ceiling, nodding her head. From where he was sitting, he could see the tears escape from her eyes and roll down her cheeks and drip off her chin at a fast pace.

"I thought I could keep it in, but I can't." She whispered, shutting the TV off. "A lot has been going on over the last two months and I can't really hold it in much longer. You just have to promise me that you won't tell anybody."

"I promise." He sat down on the floor next to her.

"No, you really have to promise me that you won't say a word to anyone." Evie rested her hands on his shoulders, the worry clearly written in her eyes. "You have to swear on everything."

"I swear." Matt replied, holding out his pinky. "Whatever it is that you have to tell me, I'll keep it to myself, just like I've done with everything else you've told me."

"What has she told you?" Jeff asked when he reached the living room. He had caught the last of his older brother's words and was curious.

"Stuff." Matt snapped, looking over at his brother. He shot his younger brother a look telling him to shut his mouth. "None of it concerns you."

Evie watched as the two brothers continued with their exchange. Judging by what was being said and the looks that were being thrown, Matt had told Jeff everything.

"Matt, did you tell him everything?"

"Yes." Matt answered guiltily.

"It's really not his fault." Jeff said in Matt's defense. "I overheard him talking to you one day and I asked him about it."

"No need to apologize, Jeff." Evie said, scrunching her knees up to her chest. "Sit down, you might as well hear this too."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm positive. Just don't tell anyone else."

He nodded as he sat on the other side of her.

"Like I said, there has been a lot going on in my life over the last couple of months. My ribs were cracked, my push was put on hold. Everything just came to an abrupt stop and I hate that. With so much time to think, everything has added up in my head and just placed a huge weight on my shoulders."

"Is everything okay?"

"That night when I got injured, I found out I was pregnant." She whispered. "I miscarried that night. By the time I got to the hospital I had expelled most of the baby. They even had to perform a D&C to get what was left of the baby out."

"I'm sorry." Jeff apologized, wrapping his arms around her, pulling him close to her.

"I'm sorry too." Matt said, sitting back. He would have said more, but he was too stunned to speak. Everything was getting way out of hand. He knew that if she didn't tell John soon, then she would burst at the seams.

"Did you ever tell John?"

"No."

"Why not, Evie?" Matt asked once he regained his voice. "It was his baby too, it's not like he would have blamed you for it all. You didn't know you were pregnant, right?"

"I didn't know I was pregnant. However, it's a bit more complicated than that." Evie said, looking away from both brothers. "You see, at the time of the miscarriage, I was two months pregnant. The miscarriage happened in May, which means that conception was in March, specifically on my birthday. Earlier that day I was with John and later that night I was with Ted."

"You're saying that you did't know who the father was?"

"Pretty much." Evie nodded her head. "But, that's not where it ends. The thing is Ted knows. My lovely cousin Kristen somehow found out and told him. While, I was visiting my family in Clinton a few days ago, he stopped by. We got into an argument about that and everything else and then I, um, I, uh, maybe, kind of slept with him."

Matt's eyes nearly bugged out of his head. Everything she had just admitted out aloud took him by surprise. Sure, he had known the history between Ted and Evie and he knew that there was a spark between them at one point in their lives. But, after their break up he had thought it had died. Obviously, he was wrong. The spark was still there, but it never went out, it only dimmed. Now, he saw that.

Meanwhile, Jeff sat back and looked straight ahead. He had expected something like this to happen. When Matt had told him everything, he knew this was going to happen. The thing that nobody realized is that a love like the one Ted and Evie had never goes away. There always will be other people, but that never really truly changes anything.

"I knew something like this was going to happen."

Both Matt and Evie looked in Jeff's direction, the disbelief clearly written on their faces. They wondered how he could make such a bold prediction when he didn't know either person all too well.

"Jeff-"

"Calm down, Matt." Evie cut him off. "He's right. I should have known that something like this was going to happen. I made a mistake somewhere and I don't know where I made it. I don't know if it lies within my closeness to Ted or my decision to finally be with John."

"You don't regret getting together with John, do you?" Matt asked warily. "Because if you do, you might as well cut the cord now. There's no use in stringing anybody along."

"I don't regret being with John. I love him."

"Are you sure about that? Because judging by recent events, it sure doesn't look like it."

"I'm positive." She reassured her friends. "Believe me, I've been thinking about this for days and days. I love him. Obviously, being with Ted was a mistake."

"Okay, so if you don't regret being with John, then your regret has to be allowing Ted back into your life." Jeff reasoned out loud. "If you really think that being with Ted was a horrible mistake then it should be easy to cut ties with him."

She vigorously shook her head. Cutting ties with him is useless, she tried on a few occasions to do so and they always failed. Besides, he was an important figure in her life, she couldn't live without him around, especially now.

"I can't do that."

"You've got draw some lines with him then." Matt suggested. "You've been with John for a while now and if you say that you love him, then I believe you. I know that you and Ted have a never ending history together, but you can't cross those boundaries, Evie. You can have both in your life, but you have to establish who the friend is and who the boyfriend is."

"I do have that."

"Do you?" Jeff questioned. "Because from what I just heard, you're sleeping with the both of them."

Evie leaned her back onto the couch and thought about everything they have said to her. As much as she hated to admit it, she knew that they were right. John and Ted couldn't both be her boyfriends, she had to pick one. She thought that the lines were drawn clearly, but because of recent events they had suddenly turned fuzzy.

"I don't have that." She replied. "You guys are right. There's a lot of work I have to do here. First, I have to make it clear to Ted that we are only friends and that I love my boyfriend. Then, I'm going to have a lot of damage control to do after I tell John about everything."

"Everything?"

"Everything, Matt. Everything from my relationship with Ted when I was younger to my recent miscarriage. John is who I want to be with and he deserves to know all of this. If I love him as much as I know I do, then I can't go on hiding this from him."

"I'm proud of you, Evie." Matt smiled. "Not a lot of people would do what you are going to do. Just know that I'm here for you if you need me."

Jeff listened with only half an ear. He was somewhat aware of what she had decided to do, but there was something that he wanted to ask her just to see if she was sure that she wanted this from her life. After she did everything, there was turning back.

"Before you do any of that, can I ask you a quick question?"

"Go ahead."

"Do you still love Ted?"

"I love Ted, but I'm not in love with him." She said, the words feeling heavy on her tongue.

Jeff nodded as if confirming a thought and then quickly turned his attention back to his brother and Evie. He knew exactly how she felt. He noticed that it was difficult for her to produce that one sentence. Evie was still in love with Ted, she just didn't realize it. Yet again, he confirmed that it was only a matter of time before she figured everything out on her own.

"I'll be right back." Evie said excusing herself.

When she was gone Matt turned towards Jeff and smacked him upside the head. "You know that she's a fragile person, what was with all the questions?"

"This coming from you. Matt, you were just as hard on her as I was. Besides, the fact that she's telling us all of this just proves that she is confused. Matt, I love the girl to death, she's a sweetheart, but she really needs to get her act together before she hurts herself and everyone else."

"What?"

"She's still in love with Ted." Jeff whispered.

"You heard her, she's in love with John."

"She's only confused. John came into her life at the wrong time, he threw her off track."

"Somehow I find that all to be bullshit little brother. Besides, if you know that she is still in love with her ex, then why didn't you tell her?"

"Because there are just some things that everyone needs to learn on their own."

"So, I've decided that I'm going to talk to both John and Ted. There are no ifs, ands, or buts about it. This is something that I have to do. It's the only way that I can regain some stability in my life." Evie said when she rejoined them, reassuring herself more than them. "They'll understand, I hope."

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The days passed on as if a year would. She was so consumed with her thoughts that days had gone by slower than they usually did. Whenever she would look at the clock, she was surprised to see that only ten minutes had gone by instead of the hour she thought had ticked by.

A few days after returning from North Carolina she had really shut herself off to the world. All she would do was sit in the house and think about how John would react when she told him. Every worst case scenario zipped through her mind. He would leave her and call her a slut or he would even go around backstage telling everyone what she did. No one would look at her the same. They would all be nice to her face but whisper behind her back. Somehow, she felt like her life would never be the same again, not that it ever went back to normal after everything else.

Because all phone calls went unanswered, she knew everyone was getting annoyed with her. Matt had tried calling her on many different occasions, but she never answered. What made everything worse was that she wasn't talking to John either. She knew that he was probably getting frustrated, but it was hard for her to talk him, especially after all the hurt she put him through.

"Evie!"

Her head turned towards the doorway, she recognized the voice right away. It was John and he was eagerly pounding away at the door. He kept calling for her, but she still hadn't moved from her spot in her bed. Evie couldn't face him, she thought she could, but she was badly mistaken. Whenever she heard his voice she winced as if someone had stabbed her in the heart. So many times before she had heard him call her name and she loved it, she still did, but now she felt like she wasn't even worth the time.

"God dammit, Evie, open the door!" He shouted, pounding on the door. "I know you're home. Please open the door, you can't ignore everyone forever."

Her body didn't move a single inch. Long ago she made up her mind not to see or speak to anybody until she knew what she was going to do or say for sure. She knew that everything she planned on doing was easier said than done. Her words meant nothing until she acted out on them.

Silence soon filled her ears. Her body eased when she realized that he was gone, she could finally rest and figure out what to do. She had to pick up the pieces and she wanted to do it alone. If she allowed someone else to help her, then she would never learn how to deal with things on her own.

Evie had almost drifted off to sleep when her bedroom door was thrown open. By instinct she shot up and held the blanket close to herself. A numbing shock gripped her body and she couldn't move from her spot. She had pretty much alienated everybody and no one would know if she needed help. John had gone home and didn't know that she was in trouble.

"Get out!" She screamed in a shaky voice. After the words came out, she didn't know why she didn't just scream for help like any other person would. "I'm going to call the police." What the hell is wrong with me, she wondered to herself.

"Relax, Evie. It's me, John." He quickly walked further into the room. "Baby, it's only me. Please, just calm down."

She exhaled a low shaky breath and eased up a bit. Her grip on the blanket eased and it fell back onto the bed. She felt herself relax when she found out that it was him. When she had finally come to reality and caught her breath, she looked at her boyfriend standing at the edge of her bed.

"How did you get in here?"

"I went to the landlord and told him you went out of town and asked me to take care of your place, but I forgot your key and I needed to get in." He rambled. "He came with me, opened the door and let me in."

"Wow, I feel safe knowing that just anybody can say that and he'll let them in my house."

"Baby, we'll worry about that later." John said as he kicked his shoes off and joined her in bed. "I'm just worried about you. Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." She lied, inching further away from him.

"No, you're not fine." He pushed himself closer to her. "I know you a lot better than you think. Evie, I know when you're happy and I know when you're sad. It's easy for me to tell when you're lying and when you're not."

"What makes you such an expert on who I am?" She mumbled, knowing that he didn't know all that much about her. "How do you know that I show you all of me?"

"I don't know that." He whispered, stroking her hair. "But, I want to believe that you do. You do have to understand that we've only been together a few months and I don't expect to learn everything about you in on sitting. The more time we spend together, the more we learn about each other."

"When did you become so observant?" She couldn't help but melt into his embrace. It had been so long since she had felt him or even spoken to him. She had no choice but to cave into her feelings for him, even if she was wimping out.

"When I started seeing you. Baby, I'm not going to lie, I struggle with relationships from time to time. Most of the time when one of my relationships would end, it was always because of me. Either I couldn't stay away from other girls or I just found myself afraid to commit. With Liz, I thought I was in love and ready to commit, but it turned out that I wasn't. We weren't who we thought we were, so I ended things." John spoke slowly, hoping that his words would sink into her mind. "Am I going to say that you know everything about me? No, I'm not going to say that, just like I can't say that about you. And that's fine. Sometimes there things people chose to keep to themselves and that's understandable."

"Where are you going with this?"

"I'm getting there." He laughed. "You see the problems in my previous relationships lie within the fact that I knew everything about them and vice versa. But, with you, it's different. You're a mystery to me and that keeps me guessing. I can see that you are a fun and loving person, but there's something that's holding you back."

"Everything you say is true." She agreed with him. "But, I'm just afraid."

"Afraid? Baby, you have me here to protect you, there's nothing be afraid of. If anyone tries to do something to you, they have to get to me first."

"I'm not afraid of someone hurting me, I'm afraid of hurting you." She whispered, turning to look him in the eyes. "I don't want to do that to you. I regret what I've done and that is what caused me to ignore you and everybody else."

He leaned down and gently pressed his lips to hers. The tone of her voice made him feel horrible. He felt like she was going to drop a bombshell and he wanted to hold off on that for as long as possible. He did his best to try make the kiss even more passionate, but she wasn't having it.

"Baby, I really need to talk to you." She mumbled against his lips. "I can't keep it away from you anymore."

"We'll. Talk. Later." He whispered between kisses. "I. Just. Want. To. Feel. You. And. To. Hold. You."

"I want that too." She whimpered when he bit her neck. "But, it can't wait. Please baby, for me?"

Sighing against her skin, he pulled away from her and sat up. He looked down at her and smirked when he noticed her chewing her lower lip. That was something she always did when she was nervous.

"Okay, I'll do this for you." He smiled down at her.

Slowly, she pulled herself up in a sitting position, her eyes on John's the entire time. Not wanting to feel the cold air around her, she wrapped the blanket around herself. Normally, she would have cuddled into his arms, but she knew that after what she said to him, he wouldn't be so hot to touch her anymore.

"Have you ever noticed that Ted and I are from the same place?"

A/N: This is where I leave you my lovelies. I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and are looking forward to the next one. :)