Chapter 3 [Set during 'Power of Madonna']
A/N: Hey everyone. Sorry there's such a long time between chapters. I have a life…and a blog which I update way more, so look at that. Sorry, had to plug it, the link is on my profile. I also apologize for any weird spelling mistakes, I'm on a laptop that I'm not really used to. I also just want to thank my awesome beta, Eirian. Thanks for all the help!
Disclaimer: All of this (except the 1st song and kind of the 2nd one) belongs to Ryan Murphy and the people at FOX. The songs also don't belong to me; the 1st is Darren Criss's and the 2nd is Madonna's.
Quick fun fact – 'Burning Up' (Madonna's song) was supposed to be on Glee but it was cut from the episode, so I suggest you go on YouTube and look it up; Jon Groff is brilliant in the song.
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I'm the smartest person
that I've ever met.
So why do I allow myself to
possibly forget.
There's so much I know how to do,
so much more than all of you.
The only thing I wish I knew
was how to make them see
the girl that I can be...
I am
the coolest girl in the whole wide world
I know it
but can't show it at all.
I heard footsteps outside my door then the front slam. 'I wonder who that could be' I thought. I brushed it off.
Then I heard my door creak open.
"Hey, Alexis… Can I talk to you?"
I switched off my iPod and pulled the headphones out of my ears, "Yeah Rachel, what do you want?
She looked nervous, which was something I've never seen. "Um… Have you ever… you know… gotten intimate with someone?"
That question really took me aback. "Wait, what?"
She wouldn't look at me in the eye, "Don't make me say it again,"
"So… do you mean… have I lost my virginity?" She nodded slowly, "Why…?" I horrible though hit me, "Did something happen with you and Jesse?"
"Kinda…"
I felt like I'd been slapped in the face, "Why are you even asking me?" I said coldly.
"Isn't this what sisters are supposed to talk about?"
"In case you haven't noticed, we're barley sister,"
She looked shocked at my sudden change of emotion, "Well, sorry." She left.
I was regretted what I said the second I heard the door slam. I couldn't feel sorry right now; I had other things to do.
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((A/N: Everything that is Italicized Bold is Lexi as opposed to Jesse or anyone else and everything that is just Bolded isn't part of the song. You're smart people, you'll catch on))
Jesse ran to the front and started singing Don't put me off 'cause I'm on fire
And I can't quench my desire
Don't you know that I'm burning up for your love
You're not convinced that that is enough
I put myself in this position
And I deserve the imposition
But you don't even know I'm alive
And this pounding in my heart just won't die
I'm burning up
He ran back allowing me to be his dance partner
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
For your love
I took a breath and belted, You're always closing your door
Well that only makes me want you more
And day and night I cry for your love
You're not convinced that that is enough
To justify my wanting you
Now tell me what you want me to do
I'm not blind and I know
That you want to want me but you can't let go
I grinned at myself and joined everyone for the chorus Come on, let go
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
For your love
I glanced up at Jesse, who was in full force. Do you want to see me down on my knees?
Or bending over backwards now would you be pleased?
Unlike the others I'd do anything
I'm not the same, I have no shame
I'm on fire!
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
For your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
I'm burning up, burning up for your love
You know you got me burning up, baby
You know you got me burning up, baby
I looked at Jesse who smiled and joined me for the ending Burning up for your love
Burning up for your love
I kicked, spun around, 'show-faced', and posed. "Good job front row, back row you need to get the flips timed better. And all of you, more emotion, I don't know how much I have to say that before you guys get it," I rolled my eyes; I thought we'd be done a long time ago. My eyes flickered to the clock in the corner. 11 pm. I groaned.
"What was that?" Shelby asked, "Anyone got a problem?"
There was a murmur of no's.
"Good, from the top,"
We ran through the number a few more times, though I wasn't all that concentrated.
"You guys clearly need to practice, go home and get some sleep."
I ran off of stage to change and get my stuff, knowing I could confront Jesse soon. When I walked into the dressing room I speed changed and half ran to the theater entrance.
"Alexis, wait up," I spun around; it was Tarah, a dancer, "Hey, what's the rush?"
"Just want to go home," I smiled falsely; I didn't plan on telling her anything, she was the school gossip.
"You sure? I heard about you and Jesse,"
My smiled faltered, "What about me and Jesse?" I started to button up my coat.
"You guys had a falling out," She grinned slyly, "And behind that act you aren't the perfect couple,"
"You can tell whoever told you that completely false rumor that we are still going strong and we are, in fact, the perfect couple," I spun around and stormed all the way to Jesse's Range Rover.
When I got there my anger faded into uncertainty. Were people actually talking about us? "Hey," I jumped; it was Jesse. "You ready to go?"
"Yeah," He unlocked the door and I got in
"Did you know your coat is half open?" He laughed.
I looked down, flustered. "Thanks,"
We drove in silence, until I said, "Jesse, how's it going with Rachel?"
He gave a noncommittal shrug, "OK,"
"Really, because I heard someone leave last night."
"OK…"
"Then Rachel asked me a weird question," I felt him tense. I paused but he didn't say anything. "She asked me if I've ever been intimate with anyone."
He just kept driving. It really pissed me off, "Jesse, did you have sex with my sister?"
He took a breath and looked at me, "No, I didn't."
"Then why did she ask me?"
"I don't know,"
I knew that something was wrong; Jesse was usually so upfront about everything. The ride home was hard. Maybe Tarah was right, maybe we weren't the perfect couple anymore. When we got to my house I got out without saying good-bye and stormed up to my room.
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"You're what?" I shrieked.
"Alexis, calm down!" Shelby yelled, "We have to,"
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN 'WE HAVE TO'?" I was enraged, "I ONLY AGREED FOR HIM TO DATE MY SISTER! DO YOU KNOW HARD THAT IS FOR ME? MY FREAKING SISTER! WITH MY BOYFRIEND! NOW HE'S MOVING SCHOOLS! TO BE WITH HER! WHY THE HELL IS THIS HAPPENING? I DON'T CARE WE HAVE TO, SCREW REGIONALS; WE'RE TALKING ABOUT SPLITTING UP TWO PEOPLE. AND IF WE KEEP THIS UP THEY'RE GOING TO GET MARRIED!"
Both of them stared at me. I'd never blown up like this; not recently, anyway. None of us spoke or movie for what felt like a long time. The only thing you could hear was my breathing.
Shelby was 1st to speak, "Alexis, I know you feel like crap –"
"Clearly,"
"But we have to do this, for the team."
I looked at Shelby shaking my head, "Let's see what Jesse has to say about this," Both of us swiveled to face Jesse.
"I'm going to go,"
I bit my tongue to keep from yelling anymore. "Sure, go with Rachel. You love her and shit." I felt the tears burn in my eyes.
"I don't love her, I love the team,"
"Sure," I said bitterly, "OK, why not?" The tears were in full flow now. Not wanting to be there any longer, I left. I didn't feel apologetic for any of my recent storm outs, they felt good actually. When I got my car started I looked around, to see if Jesse had chased after me. No one was out there. I guess life isn't a movie.
I sat on my bed, thoughts whirring in my mind. I'd been felling horrible about everything I did today and sitting around wasn't going to help. I got up and walked down the hall to Rachel's room. I knocked and when there was no answer I peeked my head in. The bright yellow of the walls felt like they were trying to blind me. How Rachel stood it I would never know.
"Rachel?" I whispered. I looked around, finally coming to the conclusion that no one was in there. I quickly ran through the house, scanning all the rooms. When I got to the living room I saw that my dads were watching old episodes of Cop Rock. I ran up to them.
"Hey, do you guys know where Rachel is?"
They looked at me and after a few confused seconds they looked at each other and Leroy said, "She went out, with Jesse."
I bit my tongue, "Thanks," And I ran back up to my room.
Screw being nice, I needed a plan.
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