WOO! The second daily update! I'm so sorry btw for not updating Angel From the Past. Still working on it. But here is the fourth chapter of What I Wish. Enjoy! Oh and please note that as the letters continue, they would change in writing style, though I try to keep them the same, because… well… Ciel had different emotions while writing them.

Disclaimer: Sigh…. Didn't I say this already? I do not own anything except the plot….

Dear Sebastian,

I reckon that you want to know my explanation hence reading this. As I have written in the other letters, I will still say this. If you do not want to read on, please remove this and the package from the face of the earth.

Sebastian, I know who you are and what you do. But have I ever hurt you when we were sleeping on the same bed? Have I poisoned you when I tried preparing our meals? Did I ever sabotage you when we were together? Why do you think I'm out to get you? Just trying to win your heart and then cut you down when you are unaware.

These aren't my true intentions. I really fell in love with you and even though I'm gone, I still do. Why is it so hard for you to understand that I love you? But after all this, I came to realize one thing. It is that you do not love me as deep as how Agni loves Soma. Your love for me is just on the surface and not entirely. Perhaps this is also why I failed my mission. Maybe this is the reason why I'm gone.

As you would know, both of us serve our masters or superiors if you want to call it. But did you ever wonder that this is how I repay my master? By serving him? You do know that I'm an orphan, left in an alley, cold and hungry when I was six. My master saw me and took me in. He fed me, clothed me and taught me how to defend myself. For this, I'm very grateful to him.

You might think that my master is just using me as a pawn, a tool. But truth is, I don't mind. Because if it was not for my master, I wouldn't have met you, I wouldn't know what love is and how it is like.

You have once asked me what the truth is. To me, I think there is no point to know the truth. What did you do when the truth is known? You dumped me. Threw me to one side like a rag doll. Do you regret when you knew the truth? I guess not. You accepted it so quickly that I wonder whether this is your 'love' for me. I love you and do you love me?

Our groups are enemies. Nothing can change that unless they merge together. Which is highly impossible. I am from one of them, you from the other. I was a human and you a demon. You had the upper hand when you knew my secret but you let me go. For what reasons I wonder, I'll never know. As mentioned earlier, my master took me in. He saved my life. I can't just leave him whenever I want to, can I? Would you do the same if you were me? I guess not. As members say, family comes first.

Even if master does not treat me as a family, I see him as my father. But it lacked love. Then, I saw you on one of my mission. I was supposed to spy on you and the rest in the café. However, the worst happened. I fell in love. Love at first sight as people call it. Falling for the enemy, knowing that I'm putting myself at risk, living in danger every day, I still fell in love. In love with you, Sebastian. Not out to get you.

This last mission, which I failed, had another objective. Which is to get rid of me. Even though I'm writing this in advance, I know this. My superiors had found out about my love for you and planned to get rid of me. Perhaps you wanted me dead too. And you got what you wished.

At the end of all this, I just know one thing. I still don't know what love is but only a small glimpse of it. What happened to all the sweet promises that you told me? The sweet nothings when we lay in bed. They were nothing weren't they? But nevertheless, I still love you.

Love,

Ciel

Present time, 1.28am

"Sir, target is heading your way, approaching at north-west direction," the walkie-talkie crackled.

"I see," the male whispered. "Time to end this."

As the target came nearer to him, the male crouched down, ready to pounce on him. He checked gun and his knife, making sure that they do not malfunction during the crucial moments.

The shadow grew bigger and footsteps sounded louder. The male waited until his target walked past his hiding place before pressing his knife against the neck. "Silence," he hissed.

His soul just smells disgusting. Such a meal, who would want it?

The target hardly put up a struggle, which surprised the male. Useless bum. He then dragged the target into an alley, dark and cold.

"Now, now. Tell me, why change alliance? Why betray your own company and join the other?" the male asked.

The target stayed silent, which annoyed his captor. "Answer me!" The sharp point of the knife pricked the skin of his neck. He located the left carotid artery of his target. "If not, half of you blood supply to your head gets cuts off," he continued.

"Sir… They forced me! If I don't… follow them…, they'll k…kill my family mem…bers," he stammered. The target knew who his captor was, and now, his life was dangerously dangling.

"So, they forced you to join," the other said. The man responded with vigorous nodding. "But you have put your family members at risk too. Because, I'll go after them to seek you out. Kill them if you stay silent," the superior continued.

"NO! Pleas Sir, don't" the target begged.

"Then, tell me everything you know about them," the male ordered. "Tell me."

"Sorry Sir, I don't know."

"Really?" he grinned. "Then you are of no use to me." He drew his knife, ready to slice the neck but was interrupted.

"STOP! Do not kill him."

"Who are you?" the superior asked.

"I am the same kind as you."

"I see."

"Release him."

"Not a chance. He might be in the same family as you but he betrayed us when forced," the male said.

The intruder stepped out of the shadow. Eyes bright crimson and his mouth, a thin tight line. It's him again… Why do we always meet? Sebastian…

"Demon, what do you want? His soul?"the intruder asked.

Recovering from the shock, the superior scoffed, "His soul? A lousy meal that wouldn't even fill my stomach. I get more satisfaction by killing him. I love seeing blood the most."

"Bloodlust. Lovely. But let him go."

"No way," the male said. A swift movement of his right hand and the target's head drooped. Blood gushing out of the wound. The superior dropped him onto the floor. "That should do it. What are you going to do now? Your spy is dead."

"But you're the head of your gang isn't? If I kill you, your rookies won't know what to do," Sebastian said, running towards his enemy.

"Tch," the superior muttered, bringing out his hands to protect himself.

Both males collided. The male swung his leg, aiming for Sebastian's stomach, and hit him full force. The raven stumbled a few steps back, clutching the injury. He's good…

The male crushed the walkie-talkie, letting the pieces shatter on the ground. Just in case... Charging forward, he raised his right fist, ready to punch the raven.

Swing. Punch. Hit.

Back. Duck. Kick.

Miss. Hit. Block.

This routine continued for both the males until a shot rang. The superior was shot in the head. A sniper.

Good job Mey-Rin… Sebastian thought.

He walked towards the male, blood gushing out of the wound. He was dead, or so it seemed. The metallic smell of the blood hit Sebastian, his eyes glowed brighter. But they widened after a moment. This scent… this blood… it's so familiar. Who?

Sebastian kneeled next to the body. Its face was covered by a piece of cloth. One eye shut the other covered by an eye patch. As he reached out to remove the cloth, the left hand of the body grabbed onto the raven's leg. "Have you forgotten that I'm a demon? Do you have such little faith in your own kind that I did not survive the shot?" the superior chuckled darkly.

The raven punched the male but missed. However, his leg was released. He got up and stretched. "Of course not. Why do you think I am thinking of that?"

His enemy tilted his head and said, "Oh. You do know the answer. Unless you have forgotten about it."

Sebastian said, "My. You are proud. But my objective here is clear. And that is to get rid of you." With that, the raven appeared before his enemy in a split second.

"Dammit!" the male cursed as he was being pinned onto the wall.

"Now, let me see your face before you die," Sebastian whispered.

The visible eye of the widened and it lost its glowing red color. Instead, its original color took its place.

"Go on. Do it then kill me," the male muttered. He lifted his chin and closed his eye, waiting for the raven to take the cloth away. Sebastian could feel the body of his enemy relax.

The cloth was ripped away and eye patch untied. Slowly, the superior opened both his eyes to the raven.

Mahogany eyes met an azure one. The very unique color that his former lover used to have. The depth of blue he loved to stare into. However, the other eye was purple. The same shade it used to have after his lover met him.

"No… It…"

"Yes it is. I am here. Alive."

MWAHAHAHA! How are they going to react? HAHA! I kinda of have a song for this chapter and the next. It's called I'm alive by Becca. But it's the male version. Honestly, it's better though a little girly. It's for Ciel.

So how is this chapter? Any questions or did I miss anything? Review s and comments please. Criticism is much appreciated. Flame it if you must.