'Time's a strange Fellow more He takes than gives, and He takes all.'
John took everything from Helen and never gave it back. She never forgave herself for not seeing John's demise sooner.
The love they had shared before the Source Blood would always be remembered in the back of her mind. It was real and so very romantically endearing.
He never knew she was pregnant, only James knew and helped her freeze the embryo. Unlike John, James never judged, only ever helped to the best of his abilities and talents. Nikola and Nigel never suspected her condition.
She would have named the child after her cousin, the closest thing to a sibling she ever had, Ashley Magnus. Even though her cousin was a boy who died of pneumonia when he was seventeen, he was her only friend growing up and a budding scientist. When he died her father decided to pass his work to Helen, his only living relative.
John was her first patient, love, lover, and father of a child she had to hide away. He read her poetry, wrote her sonnets, professed his love in ways no other man had. Roses every morning in their lab, lunch served to her when she forgot to eat, and a reading of Shakespeare read by John after they made love to put her to sleep.
She loved him with all her being, and then the man had the audacity to destroy her heart, leaving her and their child with nothing, only memories of a time of love.